A/N I struggled for along time to write this story let alone post it, but I
thought that maybe it would help some one. To know that after your world
has seemed to fall apart that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
And that with time things really can get better.
May third 1984 Piper is sitting in the middle of the living room her face al lit up like a Christmas tree. It was her ninth birthday. And she had, had a great day all her friends had come to her birthday party and she had gotten a lot of presents. Which where all laying around her. The choice to play with one was almost to big of decision so she just sat and looked at it. All this stuff and it was all hers. Phoebe wobbled over and wanted to play with some of them but piper made a dash to collect all her new belongings so that phoebe wouldn't break them the first day she had them. She loved her little sister dearly but she had a habit of breaking toys that didn't belong to her.
Patty walked into the room and told both girls that it was time for bed. And to run upstairs and to put on their p.j's, and to brush their teeth! Phoebe as little as she is walks out of the room and to the stairs. Piper looked at patty. "But mommy tonight is that new show on t.v and everyone in school gets to watch it. "Piper you have had a great day and a long day and just because everyone else gets to see the show doesn't mean you can. And you know that mommy has to go out tonight".
"But mommy!!!" "Nope piper up to your room now go" piper walks up the stairs muttering to herself how unfair it was that she didn't get to watch the new show. She walked in to prue's room first, to complain to her older sister how unfair her life was. Prue understood what piper was talking about but also knew that once mom had made up her mind there was no turning back.
Just at that moment the doorbell rang. Announcing the arrival of nico their baby-sitter. Nico was twenty-two years old and was almost like a brother to the girls, he had been sitting for them as long as piper could remember. She ran into her room and put her pajamas on as fast as she could. And then ran downstairs as fast as she could. She loved nico and he was her buddy. She couldn't wait to see him. As soon as she ran in to the sunroom nico stood up and caught piper in a big hug. "Hmm patty I have present here for a nine year old, but I don't think there is one this age in this house."
"Yes there is, me.me..me" piper smiled. As she took the present nico had gotten her. She sat on the floor and opened the little package that nico had given her. As she opened the little box she found a little heart necklace with the inscription "for my little princess". Piper looked at it in amazement. She had never gotten a real gold necklace and she jumped up to give nico another big hug and a kiss. "Thank you.. Thank you, I will wear it always," she said as she ran over to patty to show her the necklace.
Patty put the necklace around her daughter's neck. Gave her a little kiss and told her it was time for bed. Piper put up a little sad face. "Please mommy" she tried one more time. "No piper I told you it is getting late and you have school tomorrow" patty said as she walked up the stairs with piper leaving nico in the sunroom to watch t.v. Piper jumped on her bed and gave patty another big hug this was the best day of my life ever. "I am happy you had such a great day my sweetie" patty answers while tucking piper in. "I love you sweetie and I will see you in the morning okay". "Okay mommy I love you too" piper says with a happy smile on her face.
Then patty walked downstairs and left the number where she was at with nico. Nico wanted to know what piper had mend when she had pleaded with patty. And patty explained the story about how piper wanted to watch the show. Nico laughed at her. "They will always try don't they?" "Tell me about it" patty said and then picked up her keys and heading out the door. "I should be home around midnight" and then closes the door behind her.
Piper is almost asleep when she senses that there is some one in her room. When she opens her eyes she can see that it is nico. "Hey little one are you asleep yet?" piper now fully alert looks up at him. "No I can't sleep cause I really wanted to watch that show" she lies. She figured that at least she could try to convince him to let her watch the show she so dearly wanted to watch. "Well what are you waiting for". Nico says as he opens his arms. Piper jumped out from under the covers. "Yeah you are gonna let me watch it". "Yup, but only if you wont tell mom". Piper promises to not tell her mom. As she squirms out of his arms she makes a mad dash for the door. Nico stops her and asks where she is going.
"To get Prue!!". She replies. "Uhmm .no piper lets let Prue sleep. This is just for you because it is your birthday". Piper gets a huge grin on her little face. She got to watch the new show and Prue didn't. She couldn't believe her luck. Now she knew that nico really liked her a lot .how special was this. Making a mental note to rub it in to prue's face as soon as she woke up the next morning. For Prue got to do a lot of things that piper didn't get to do. This was just to good to keep to her self. Both her and nico walked down the stairs, or I should say skipping down the stairs.
When both of them got to the sunroom piper curled up in her favorite chair. The one she never got to sit in because Prue always got there before her. This evening was getting better and better. Nico put the t.v back on and they where ready to watch the show. A bout five minutes in to the show. Piper got goose bumps on her little arms. It was a little chilly in the room. And since the windows where open and summer hadn't quit set in yet that was to be expected. "Nico can I have the blanket I am cold?" piper asked him. "Why don't you come lay on the couch with me sweetie so we can share the blanket cause I am a little chilly too". He said to her.
Piper walked over and climbed on the couch next to nico. Nothing unusual about that they had done it a million times before. She loved nico and how he always took good care of her and her sisters. She was so intend on watching the show that she hadn't noticed that one of nico's hands was stroking her back and her arms. She didn't mind him doing it at first it was comforting and it made her a little sleepy. So she went back to watching the show. She was so happy she got to watch it, cause now she could talk with the other kids about it in the morning.
Just then nico started to stroke her stomach and her chest. Piper didn't like this feeling. Besides that she had the feeling that he was pulling her closer to him. She tried to get up. But nico held her firm. "I don't want to watch the show anymore I am tired I want to go to bed". Piper said still trying to get up." But piper the show isn't even over yet " nico said. Still rubbing her chest. Piper could feel this hard thing in her back and she was wondering what it was. She was still trying to get up.
"Piper I need to talk to you can you listen to me for a minute." Nico asked her. Piper at this point was a little scared but she nodded her head as to tell him that he could talk to her. He let go of her a little but still held her close. Piper was relieved that she could move a little now and tried to move to the other side of the couch. Nico took her hand and looked in to her eyes. "Piper you know I love you right" nico asked her. Piper nodded in agreement again. "And you know I would never hurt you right?" again piper nodded. She was wondering why he was asking all these question. "Well there is a reason your mommy had to go out tonight". Nico told her. "And there is a reason why Prue had to stay upstairs".
Piper looked at him not understanding what he was talking about. "Why does Prue have to stay upstairs". She asks him. "Because Prue already knows what has to happen tonight she already did it" he tells her. Still not understanding piper keeps looking at him. "What did Prue do already nick?" she asked him. "Okay piper I really didn't want to do this cause I really love you, but I have to this". "Do what?"
Piper asks getting a little scared. "Don't worry piper it is okay all girls that turn nine have to do this". As he gets closer to piper. Piper backs in to the pillows of the couch. She didn't like this at all. "Piper it is okay you have to do it, you should be lucky because normally this is suppose to happen when you are eight but I told your mommy that you where not ready last year. So she told me I had to do it this year". Nico had gotten very close at this point and took pipers little hands in his. He looked in her eyes.
He came closer and closer and then he kissed her on the lips. Piper jumped. But nico held her down on the couch. He pulled her legs out from under her and made her lay down. Again he looked at her. Piper at this point was to scared to say anything. "Don't worry piper, I won't do everything I don't want to hurt you". His voice had this strange tone in it and his eyes where like they where glazed over. Piper turned her head for the breath coming from him suddenly made her sick. Slowly she could feel his hands go down her body. And her panties where removed.
Tears where forming in the corner of her eyes. But she didn't want to cry. She was a big girl and if Prue could do this then she could to. And he after all promised he wasn't going to hurt her. She felt something wet down on her private area but she was to scared to look down to see what it was. Then the worst pain she could ever imagine happened to her it was like her abdomen was on fire. The tears that she had been holding back now rolled down the side of her face. How could he do this to her he had promise he was not going to hurt her. Again and again the pain got worse and worse. Then it stopped. She dared to open her eyes as she looked at nico. His breath was ragged and he had this strange look on his face. "Piper are you okay sweetie?"
Piper nodded her head she wanted to be a big girl just like Prue and she would have bet that Prue didn't cry when she had to do this. "Now see that wasn't to bad, was it". Piper shook her head. "can...can..I go to bed now?" she asked him. "Yes sweetie you can go to bed now. But I have to tell you piper I didn't do everything I was suppose to do so next time we will try it again okay?" piper nodded her head and started to walk out of the room "piper no hug and kiss goodnight" nico asked her. Piper turned around and walked back in to the room she gave nico a hug and a kiss, and ran out of the room.
She ran into her room and closed the door and crawled into her bed. She had been so happy this morning to be turning nine, but she no longer wanted to be nine. She wanted to be eight again. And things like they where yesterday. Tears are running down her cheek. Tears for not being eight anymore and tears for nico because he had to this to her and she knew he didn't want to because he loved her. He had so. And she knew that he hadn't wanted to hurt her. She was mad at Prue though. Because they where sisters and sisters tell stuff and Prue should have told her what was going to happen when she turned nine. And she was angry with her mommy for going out and telling nico he had to do this to her.
She tried to go to sleep as fast as she could so she wouldn't have to think about it anymore. She could hear the phone ring and she was wondering who could be calling so late. But on the other hand she didn't care. She lay there very quit making sure not to make any noise. When she heard footsteps coming up the stairs. Slowly her door opened and she could see that nico was walking back into the room. "Piper...Piper". She could hear him whisper. But piper closed her eyes pretending to be asleep. She didn't want to do this anymore she didn't want to be a big girl she wanted to stay in her room.
"Piper don't close your eyes I know you are not asleep yet". Piper opened her eyes and looked at him. "I don't want to anymore". She whispers trying to get under her blanket more and more. "But honey that was mommy, she said she couldn't come home for tonight and that I was to stay the night. Why don't you come in the other room with me". Piper didn't want to but nico picked her out of the bed and carried her in to her mommy's room. "Since we didn't get to do everything earlier tonight we have finish it now piper". Nico said in what to piper sounded a weird voice. He put piper on the bed and told her he was only doing this cause mommy had told him that piper needed to be a big girl.
Tears where coming down her cheeks again. "Piper you gonna have to stop crying big girls don't cry, Prue didn't cry and you want to be a big girl like Prue don't you?" piper didn't want to be a big girl but she nodded her head any ways. Nico laid her on the bed once more and he took of her nightgown. Just now did piper realize that she had never put her panties back on? "It is okay piper don't be scared". As nico takes of his clothes too. As he stood in front of her piper had to choke back the vomit that was rising from with in. she had never seen a man naked before and she was scared as to what was going to happen.
Nico lay down on the bed next to piper and started stroking her again. He tried to kiss her again but piper turned her head. Just then piper felt a blinding pain on the side of her head. "Don't you turn away from me when I try to kiss you" nico growled in her ear. Pain was shooting trough her head. And she turned back to him. He kissed her again. But again out of reflex piper turned and again a blow to her head. She was lying on her back and nico hovered over her. "Okay piper the only thing you have to do is take this in your mouth and then all will be over".
Piper looked at him. She had opened her mouth but as soon as she felt what was happening to her the vomit that had been in back of her throat came to the front. This again deserved her blow to the head. "I didn't want to do this to you so soon but I can see you are not going to cooperate so now we have to do the other thing, it is going to hurt piper but only for a little while, and then all will be over". Nico said as he got of her chest. Piper had thought that she was in pain earlier that evening. But the pain she felt now could not compare to anything she had ever felt. It felt like someone had taken her and was ripping her apart from the bottom up.
She didn't know what happened next cause she lost all sense of time. It was like she was stepping out of her body and this wasn't happening to her. She didn't dare say anything afraid she would get hit again so she just laid there like a raggdoll. Only when she felt the weight getting of her did she dare to open her eyes. Nico had rolled over and was laying on his back his breath ragged and his face a crimson red. Piper got up a little and asked him if she could leave and go back to bed. He told her she could. Piper got of the bed. But as she put her feet to the floor she just slumped down her legs to weak to carry her out of the room the pain too much to bare.
She lay there and cried. She then felt she was being picked up again. "I don't want anymore please I don't want anymore". She said as she put her head on his chest. "It is okay piper you have been a good girl. No more for tonight" he told her as he carried her to her room and put her into the bed. As nico turns around he gets stopped by piper's little voice. "Is mommy going to be happy with me" she asked him. "Yes mommy is going to be very happy with you, the only thing is that we are not suppose to talk about it. So no need to talk to her about I will tell her you where a good girl". He looked at her. And she nodded her head in agreement
When she got up the next morning she went to the bathroom and went to take a shower when she took of her panties she noticed there was blood. She panicked and ran out of the bathroom and into her moms room nico was still asleep as where phoebe and Prue. She woke up nico and told him what she had found. Nico smiled at her. "Its okay piper that means you did a good job and you are now really a big girl".
Piper walked out of the room and went back to the bathroom. When she was done with her shower she walked out. As she passes prue's room she can see that her sister has already gotten up. And most likely was downstairs already. Piper couldn't understand why Prue had never told her about this and why she had never noticed because as it was piper could barley stand on her own two legs still a burning pain in her abdomen. When she gets to the kitchen she sees that her mom is home and that nico has left already.
"Morning sweetie nico told me you where a good girl last night" patty tells piper. Making piper think that mommy knew what had happened last night. Piper just gives her a look and sits down at the table. "What do you want for breakfast piper?" patty asks her. "I am not hungry is it time for school yet". " In a few minutes" patty answers. Patty walks over to piper and puts her hand on piper's forehead. Her daughter seemed a little pale to her this morning and maybe she was coming down with something. But piper shook her head and told her mom she was fine and then walked out of the kitchen. Still mad at her mom for not telling her.
As soon as they got to school piper was sure that everybody knew what had happened to her the night before. And isolates her self from her friends and goes to a little corner of the playground. She couldn't believe that all her friends that where nine hadn't told her this was to happen. And she felt sorry for Ellen because it was her b-day today. And she had to do what she had done last night. She was tempted to walk over to her friend and tell her what was about to happen to her. But then remembered she was not suppose to talk about it with anyone.
Another thing she didn't understand why couldn't the nine-year-olds not talk about it. I mean it happened to them all after all. And then maybe she wouldn't feel so lost right now. She decided she was not going to waste anymore time thinking about it. And went back to her classes. After school piper went home and straight to her room without even saying hi to her mom or her sisters. Patty came up later that afternoon but piper pretended to be asleep.
A few days later piper walks down the stairs it was around seven at night and her mom had her coat on to go out. And nico was standing next to her mom smiling he opened his arms for piper to jump in but piper backed up a little and looked at her mom. "Where are you going" she asked patty. "Piper you know I go to art class every Friday, silly girl". Patty smiles. "Do you have to go" piper wants to know as she walks over to patty and puts her arms around patty's waist. "Yes mommy has to go, why sweetie what is the matter". As patty picks up piper and puts her on her hip. Over her moms shoulder piper can see nico and he gives her a stare. "Nothing mommy it is nothing". As she slides down and walks back up the stairs. "Mommy will be home by midnight piper, if you need anything your buddy nico is here". And patty walks out the door.
The evening goes pretty much like it always went and by nine o clock nico told all three girls that is was time for bed. All three the girls walk up the stairs and get them self ready for bed. Piper makes sure the bathroom is locked and everything before she get undressed in her nightgown. She then runs in to her room and closes the door and pretends to go to sleep.
Then the knock on the door the one she had been dreading al night. She had hoped that nothing was going to happen since he had gone downstairs earlier. But only now did she figure out why? He just wanted to wait till the other ones where asleep before coming to her room. "Piper I know you are not asleep, so don't pretend you are" she hears nico say. But still she keeps her eyes closed. But to no avail nico was there for a reason and he didn't leave until he was done.
Fast forward a few years piper now being about fourteen her mom was once again going out and piper knew nico was coming to sit for her and phoebe. Since Prue was now older she didn't need a baby-sitter anymore. Besides that she was out with Andy. Phoebe was a very happy 12 year old and the only comfort piper had was that she was sure what ever had been going on for the past five years had never happened to phoebe. Because after about a year piper had found out that not all nine-year-olds had to do this.
But by this time it was to late, nico had her right where he wanted her. The game had changed for him. He had told her if she wasn't going to do it anymore he was going to go to phoebe. And that from then on he would not do anything unless she would ask him too. She knew if she would refuse that he would follow through on his threat and that phoebe would be next. So as she would on most nights that he was there she told him it was okay that she wanted him to do it. She would have begged him so long it meant phoebe was save. And there by digging her self-deeper into a hole she couldn't get out of. He had told her that even if she would tell anyone now it wouldn't matter because she had consented to it. And she knew that he was right.
She had long since given up on ever telling patty it would destroy her mother if she knew what had been happening in her house for the past five years. And besides that what was she going to tell her now. If she was ever going to tell it should have been five years ago. Piper and her mother couldn't get along as it was anyway. So piper wasn't even sure if her mom would ever believe her.
Piper's grades had dropped in school she lost all interest in any other things she used to do. The only thing that would get piper out of her constant daze where kids. As long as she was around kids piper was happy she loved playing with them and baby-sitting for them and all the other stuff you can do with kids. But as soon as she was away from them she turned into her frumpy self. Over the years piper had been gaining weight hoping to turn of nico for some reason but it just didn't seem to bother him at all. So piper just lived her life as it came not really smiling and when she did it was one of those fake ones. She had everybody fooled so many people liked her and loved her for how she was the kids and how good she took care of them.
The problem was that piper did not like herself let alone love her self. She had never gone out on a date. How could she? What if this person would find out? He would find her disgusting and drop her faster then she could say it is over. Piper knew that this was her life and this was the way she was going to have to live it alone and miserable.
Piper had just turned seventeen and patty was going out for the night. Piper came running down the stairs and told her that she was going out to. Patty looked at her in surprise. Piper hadn't gone out much and now that piper wanted to she would let her. "Okay can you hold on so that I can call nico so he can sit for phoebe". Patty said. "Mom she is fifteen years old she doesn't need a baby sitter anymore" piper told her. Patty looked at her and thought that piper could be right. She called phoebe down the stairs. And sure enough there she was. There was no one piper loved more in the world then phoebe she was her little sister and knowing that she had protected her from nico was all the thanks piper ever needed.
Phoebe in return loved piper like no one else the only thing she wished was that piper would stop being such a hermit crab and go out every once in a while and put on some make up and some more flattering clothes. But even so she loved her big sister. Patty told her she was going out and phoebe could stay home by her self for the first time. Piper thought she saw a hint of relief in phoebe eyes but she must have been mistaken. She gave her mom a hug and then piper and whispered in her ear "thank you sis". Piper looked at her. And she got this feeling in the pit of her stomach please don't let this be what I think it is she thought.
Patty had left the house already and piper looked at phoebe. " What did you mean by that?" "What?" "Thanking me". "Oh that just because I can tell Cole to come over now that that geek nico isn't coming over". Piper gave a sigh of relief to find out that her worst fear wasn't realized. The thing was that piper wasn't going out on a date or have some fun with friends. She was going on an interview with a couple from New York who where looking for a nanny. Piper needed to get away from San Francisco. So she needed for phoebe to proof herself tonight that she could be on her own. Not that phoebe would tell anyone if nico would try to do anything to her now.
Well it looked like the interview had gone very well the couple from New York had hired her and today was the day that piper was leaving San Francisco and the life she had been leading till now. The four of them where at the airport and phoebe was the most upset looking at piper she told her she loved her and to come home often because what was she going to do with out her big sister. Prue and piper hadn't talked in ages and there wasn't much to say now. She gave each of them one more hug and went up the ramp to get to her airplane. A big sigh escaped from her lips. It was like she was leaving part of herself behind and she was ready for a new beginning. With no strings attached and most important no nico in site.
Her life in New York was nice and she enjoyed being there but if she would have thought that life would get better she had been mistaken. She realized no matter where she went no matter how far she went and no matter how hard she would run. The problems she had where still going to be there. She loved her job and she loved the children she was taken care of the mother and father where the nicest people she could have worked for. According to some horror stories she had heard from other nannies.
She had managed to make a few good friends. But she didn't dare tell any of them what had happened to her, she was too afraid of what they might think of her. Until one night. She had become very good friends with the nanny that lived a few houses down and the both of them had just watched a movie of the week about incest. At first piper was to scare to even think about it. At one point her friend looks at her and tells her she is happy she doesn't know anyone this has ever happened to.
Piper looks at her and burst into tears. "Yes you do know someone this has happened to". Cindy looked at piper in shock. She couldn't believe what piper was telling her. Piper now overcome with emotions is crying her heart out. Cindy walks over and takes piper in her arms. She doesn't say anything; all she does is hold her friend. Who just cries and cries. Cindy figured when piper was ready to talk she would. After what seems forever piper gets her self together. "I am sorry I didn't mean to break down like that". "Don't be stupid" Cindy tells her. "Why don't you tell me what happened". Cindy dares to ask. Piper looks down at her hands that are wringing the life out of a bunch of tissues. She is scared to tell. But then she decides that maybe she should tell her. So she gathers all her strength and starts to tell her story. Many times interrupted by sobs she didn't seem to be able to hold back.
She ends her story by saying "I understand if you never want hear or see me again". Cindy lets go of piper and looks at her. "Piper does it look like I would ever leave or dessert you. This wasn't your fault you where nine years old the bastardt knew what he was doing and he basically brainwashed you into believing his own lies." "I understand what you are saying Cindy but what about all the years after, after I knew it was wrong. The times that I asked him to do it". Piper said with fear in her voice. "Oh my god piper. Would you think please, did you want him to do it". Cindy asked her.
"Of course not". Piper says. "The only reason I told him it was okay because I didn't want the same thing to happen to phoebe". She added. "Then there is your answer". Cindy told her. "As to what to do with the ass hole who did this you" "no" piper interrupts "I don't want anyone else to know about this, and if you tell anyone I will kill myself". Cindy looks at piper and sees that piper means what she is saying. So Cindy decides to drop it for now. Piper went home after having told Cindy and Cindy assuring her she wasn't going to abandon her as friend. As she gets to her room again she lets the tears flow. But in her heart she felt a little lighter than she had earlier that evening. She couldn't believe she had told someone and they hadn't told her she was disgusting like nico had always told her they would.
Piper continued working in New York only going home if it was really necessary. After having told Cindy piper was getting more out of her shell and it seemed she was enjoying live more. Then the day came she met the man of her dream the one she had looked for so many years. Blond hair, blue/greenish eyes and a smile that could light a whole room.
A friend of theirs at a party introduced piper to him. Leo meet piper, piper meet Leo. Leo looked at her as if she was the only woman in the room. Piper put on a smile and for the first time she noticed she didn't have to fake the smile. They continue to talk for most of the night. And after the party Leo asked her if he could have her number. Piper hesitated for a few minutes but then decided why the heck not. If he didn't call then she would never have to break his heart by telling him her past.
But low and behold a few days later her phone rings and it is Leo. He wanted to know if piper felt like going out to dinner with him. For a few seconds piper didn't know what to say. "Piper are you still there". "Oh sorry Leo of course I would love to go out and have dinner with you". Surprising her self. They agreed that Leo would pick piper up the next day at seven-o clock. So the next day piper gets her self-ready puts on a little makeup finds her best outfit and fixes her long brown hair.
As she walks down the stairs little Sammy looks at her and runs in the kitchen to get her mom "look mom piper is so pretty tonight" Sammy says all excited. Drawing the attention of both her daddy and her brother. They all told her she looked gorgeous and asked her where she was going all dolled up. Piper told them with a shy smile that she was going on a date. Nina (the mother) gave her a big hug. "I always wondered why you never went out, but now I know you where just waiting for mister right". Steve looked at piper. "You might not be my daughter. But if he honks that horn you are not going anywhere with him. If he wants to take you out he is going to have to ring the doorbell like a real man". He smiles as he puts his arm around Nina.
Piper thought it sweet how he still loved his wife after ten years of marriage. Then she hoped that Leo would ring the doorbell because Steve never joked about stuff like that. But luckily Leo was the man he was and he rang the doorbell and introduced himself to Nina and Steve and even joked with the kids for a little bit. Then it was time to leave. "Young man she is not my daughter but I love her like she is, anything happens to her I know where to find you". Steve smiled. But listing to his tone of voice piper knew he meant it and so did Leo.
They had a great dinner and piper had really enjoyed her self Leo had been the perfect gentleman. They where standing at the front door and piper was very nervous. She knew Leo was going to expect a kiss and piper wanted him to kiss her it was only she was so scared. But to her surprise Leo didn't lean in for one. So they said their good-byes and piper went in the house. And Leo back to his car. They hadn't set another date so piper had convinced her self that Leo must not like her. Oh the better it was anyway she told her self.
But again Leo surprised her by calling the next day. And asking her if she wanted to go out with him again. And piper accepted. Piper and Leo had been dating for a few weeks and piper had even let Leo kiss her few times but anything beyond that hadn't happened. Piper knew that the day was coming where Leo wanted more then just holding hands and a few kisses here and there. And she was dreading that day more and more. She had fallen head over heels for this man and she had convinced herself that Leo deserved better then her. So out of pure protection for herself piper started little arguments with Leo. Hoping to drive him away.
She couldn't just tell him it was over! There had to be a reason for it. Leo was getting irritated by this and pointed it out to her. Piper put up her guard and told him if he didn't like it then he could just leave. But he never did. Then came the day where piper and Leo had spend the afternoon in the park. Holding hands while taken a nice walk. Leo stopped midway and looked at her. "Piper I think I love you". He told her. Piper looked at him in amazement just a few hours ago they had had a fight. And now he was telling her he loved her. This couldn't be happening.
Piper looked away and bowed her head in shame. "You can't love me Leo you don't know who I really am, what I really am." "Piper what the hell are you talking about" Leo wanted to know. "Just trust me you cant love me, if I where you I would leave now and find another one to love" piper said as she walked away from him. Leo just stood there stupefied at what piper had just said to him. Piper made her way out of the park and ran all the way home. When she got there she ran up to her room and locked her self-in. she knew for sure that she had lost the only man she had ever loved. All because she couldn't tell him her past.
But again Leo was not so easy to get rid of. A few minutes later there was a knock on the door. It was Cindy. Leo had come to her and asked her to go see if piper was okay. Piper told her what had happened in the park. "You did what?" Cindy yelled at her. Piper looked at her in shock. Cindy had never talked to her like that before. "He loves you piper. Tell him for god sake. If you are gonna dump him he at least has the right to know why!!" "But Cindy I am gonna lose him if I tell him". Piper tells her friend. "You are gonna lose him this way to honey". And trust me losing him this way is gonna eat you alive. Just tell him and let him make up his own mind. He might just surprise you". "But I am so scared, I don't know what to do if he walks out and he never wants to talk to me again". Piper whispers. "If he walks out on you, which I highly doubt he will, then he doesn't deserve you as it is. You deserve the best, you deserve to be loved and I really think that Leo is that piper".
"But I don't even know where he is". Piper tells Cindy. "He is downstairs and Nina and Steve took the kids out so you have few hours to talk to him. I will be there for you if need be". Cindy walks over to give piper a big hug and then the both of them walk down the stairs hand in hand. Cindy walks to the door and gives piper a squeeze "its okay sweetie talk to him". And then walks out the door.
Leo walked over to piper and tried to take her hand. "No Leo I need you to sit down and I need you to listen to me and not say anything until I am done because if I need to stop I don't think I can finish it". Piper tells him. Leo sits down as he watches piper starting to pace in front of him. He was worried because he had never seen piper this nervous before even when the had just starting dating.
Slowly piper started to tell here life story stopping at some moments to compose her self and then to go on. Leo couldn't believe his ears as more and more details of pipers live where told to him. He could see she was having a really hard time telling him all this. He had already made a mental note in his head to get this nico person and make him pay for what he done to piper. He didn't realize that piper had finished her story. She was looking at him with a horrified expression. "I knew it, I knew it" piper said as she sat down on the couch and covered he face with her hands.
Leo ran up to her and took her in his arms. "What did you know piper?" that you would find me disgusting". "Where the hell did you get that idea piper?" Leo says with all the love he can find with in himself. "You didn't say anything and you had that look on your face..". Piper can't speak anymore her body now shaking with the sobs escaping from deep within. "Oh sweetie that was not me being disgusted with you, that was me making sure this son of a bitch is going to pay for what he has done to you".
Piper looks at Leo her face still wet from the tears. "You mean you are not totally repulsed by me". "Piper sweetie love of my live I could never feel that way about you. What happened to you had nothing to do with you. You where young. He knew what he was doing, he knew you loved phoebe more the your self that is why he could do what he did. I told you piper I love you and I will never leave you". He took piper in his arms and let her cry. She cried for hours sobs where coming from her body like he had never heard before. It was tearing out his soul but he was not letting go of her. It was as if she was trying to crawl in to him. But he just kept holding her. Old tears replaced by new ones. Tears for little piper who never had a life. Tears for teenage piper who never got to enjoy real freedom and tears for piper now because she had been able to tell someone.
Many more days and many more night where filled with talks about what had happened to piper but Leo stayed by her side no matter what she told him and how many details she told him. Slowly but surly piper was getting her live back the live she had lost when she nine years old. But she knew there was one thing that had not happened yet and she was scared. Leo knew she was scared for their first night together. And he was not going to push the matter.
But the night came. Piper had spent the whole day with him and they where now getting cozy on the couch. Slow kisses had been exchanged al nightlong. And Leo dared to go a little further. He could feel piper stiffen in his arms a little but she didn't push him away. Leo got up of the couch and took her by the hand. And leaded her to the bedroom. Before they went in Leo stopped at the door. He was going to let piper decide whether they where going in or not. Piper stopped too. Should she go in or not? Many thought where going through her head what to do? Should she do it? But then one thing above all came to the front. Leo loved her and he would never hurt her. So she took his hand and both of them walked in to the room. Piper was still scared to death but she knew that Leo was going to replace her nightmares with new and happy ones. Leo was as gentle as he could be letting piper take the lead and stopping when he thought she was to scared. When their bodies finally became one piper knew that she could close this chapter of her life. She had new memories happy memories. And she had Leo thank for it.
A few months had passed and pipers live was better then it had ever been she had lost over fifty pounds and she was happier then she had ever been. Then there came the day that Leo came to her on bended knee and asked her if she wanted to marry him "are you kidding Leo, of course I want to marry you" piper said overjoyed that her life was getting better with each passing day. Leo had taken her in his arms and had kissed her like only he could.
Now there was only one thing left to do. As she hands the airplane ticket to the lady behind the counter she makes sure to not let go of Leo's hand. She had decided that she couldn't get married until she faced her passed in San Francisco. And Leo was right beside her. "Don't worry piper" he had told her "I will be there with you, he won't be able to hurt you any longer". And piper believed him. "Piper?" "Yeah"? "I love you" "I love you to Leo" piper said as the plane took of for San Francisco
May third 1984 Piper is sitting in the middle of the living room her face al lit up like a Christmas tree. It was her ninth birthday. And she had, had a great day all her friends had come to her birthday party and she had gotten a lot of presents. Which where all laying around her. The choice to play with one was almost to big of decision so she just sat and looked at it. All this stuff and it was all hers. Phoebe wobbled over and wanted to play with some of them but piper made a dash to collect all her new belongings so that phoebe wouldn't break them the first day she had them. She loved her little sister dearly but she had a habit of breaking toys that didn't belong to her.
Patty walked into the room and told both girls that it was time for bed. And to run upstairs and to put on their p.j's, and to brush their teeth! Phoebe as little as she is walks out of the room and to the stairs. Piper looked at patty. "But mommy tonight is that new show on t.v and everyone in school gets to watch it. "Piper you have had a great day and a long day and just because everyone else gets to see the show doesn't mean you can. And you know that mommy has to go out tonight".
"But mommy!!!" "Nope piper up to your room now go" piper walks up the stairs muttering to herself how unfair it was that she didn't get to watch the new show. She walked in to prue's room first, to complain to her older sister how unfair her life was. Prue understood what piper was talking about but also knew that once mom had made up her mind there was no turning back.
Just at that moment the doorbell rang. Announcing the arrival of nico their baby-sitter. Nico was twenty-two years old and was almost like a brother to the girls, he had been sitting for them as long as piper could remember. She ran into her room and put her pajamas on as fast as she could. And then ran downstairs as fast as she could. She loved nico and he was her buddy. She couldn't wait to see him. As soon as she ran in to the sunroom nico stood up and caught piper in a big hug. "Hmm patty I have present here for a nine year old, but I don't think there is one this age in this house."
"Yes there is, me.me..me" piper smiled. As she took the present nico had gotten her. She sat on the floor and opened the little package that nico had given her. As she opened the little box she found a little heart necklace with the inscription "for my little princess". Piper looked at it in amazement. She had never gotten a real gold necklace and she jumped up to give nico another big hug and a kiss. "Thank you.. Thank you, I will wear it always," she said as she ran over to patty to show her the necklace.
Patty put the necklace around her daughter's neck. Gave her a little kiss and told her it was time for bed. Piper put up a little sad face. "Please mommy" she tried one more time. "No piper I told you it is getting late and you have school tomorrow" patty said as she walked up the stairs with piper leaving nico in the sunroom to watch t.v. Piper jumped on her bed and gave patty another big hug this was the best day of my life ever. "I am happy you had such a great day my sweetie" patty answers while tucking piper in. "I love you sweetie and I will see you in the morning okay". "Okay mommy I love you too" piper says with a happy smile on her face.
Then patty walked downstairs and left the number where she was at with nico. Nico wanted to know what piper had mend when she had pleaded with patty. And patty explained the story about how piper wanted to watch the show. Nico laughed at her. "They will always try don't they?" "Tell me about it" patty said and then picked up her keys and heading out the door. "I should be home around midnight" and then closes the door behind her.
Piper is almost asleep when she senses that there is some one in her room. When she opens her eyes she can see that it is nico. "Hey little one are you asleep yet?" piper now fully alert looks up at him. "No I can't sleep cause I really wanted to watch that show" she lies. She figured that at least she could try to convince him to let her watch the show she so dearly wanted to watch. "Well what are you waiting for". Nico says as he opens his arms. Piper jumped out from under the covers. "Yeah you are gonna let me watch it". "Yup, but only if you wont tell mom". Piper promises to not tell her mom. As she squirms out of his arms she makes a mad dash for the door. Nico stops her and asks where she is going.
"To get Prue!!". She replies. "Uhmm .no piper lets let Prue sleep. This is just for you because it is your birthday". Piper gets a huge grin on her little face. She got to watch the new show and Prue didn't. She couldn't believe her luck. Now she knew that nico really liked her a lot .how special was this. Making a mental note to rub it in to prue's face as soon as she woke up the next morning. For Prue got to do a lot of things that piper didn't get to do. This was just to good to keep to her self. Both her and nico walked down the stairs, or I should say skipping down the stairs.
When both of them got to the sunroom piper curled up in her favorite chair. The one she never got to sit in because Prue always got there before her. This evening was getting better and better. Nico put the t.v back on and they where ready to watch the show. A bout five minutes in to the show. Piper got goose bumps on her little arms. It was a little chilly in the room. And since the windows where open and summer hadn't quit set in yet that was to be expected. "Nico can I have the blanket I am cold?" piper asked him. "Why don't you come lay on the couch with me sweetie so we can share the blanket cause I am a little chilly too". He said to her.
Piper walked over and climbed on the couch next to nico. Nothing unusual about that they had done it a million times before. She loved nico and how he always took good care of her and her sisters. She was so intend on watching the show that she hadn't noticed that one of nico's hands was stroking her back and her arms. She didn't mind him doing it at first it was comforting and it made her a little sleepy. So she went back to watching the show. She was so happy she got to watch it, cause now she could talk with the other kids about it in the morning.
Just then nico started to stroke her stomach and her chest. Piper didn't like this feeling. Besides that she had the feeling that he was pulling her closer to him. She tried to get up. But nico held her firm. "I don't want to watch the show anymore I am tired I want to go to bed". Piper said still trying to get up." But piper the show isn't even over yet " nico said. Still rubbing her chest. Piper could feel this hard thing in her back and she was wondering what it was. She was still trying to get up.
"Piper I need to talk to you can you listen to me for a minute." Nico asked her. Piper at this point was a little scared but she nodded her head as to tell him that he could talk to her. He let go of her a little but still held her close. Piper was relieved that she could move a little now and tried to move to the other side of the couch. Nico took her hand and looked in to her eyes. "Piper you know I love you right" nico asked her. Piper nodded in agreement again. "And you know I would never hurt you right?" again piper nodded. She was wondering why he was asking all these question. "Well there is a reason your mommy had to go out tonight". Nico told her. "And there is a reason why Prue had to stay upstairs".
Piper looked at him not understanding what he was talking about. "Why does Prue have to stay upstairs". She asks him. "Because Prue already knows what has to happen tonight she already did it" he tells her. Still not understanding piper keeps looking at him. "What did Prue do already nick?" she asked him. "Okay piper I really didn't want to do this cause I really love you, but I have to this". "Do what?"
Piper asks getting a little scared. "Don't worry piper it is okay all girls that turn nine have to do this". As he gets closer to piper. Piper backs in to the pillows of the couch. She didn't like this at all. "Piper it is okay you have to do it, you should be lucky because normally this is suppose to happen when you are eight but I told your mommy that you where not ready last year. So she told me I had to do it this year". Nico had gotten very close at this point and took pipers little hands in his. He looked in her eyes.
He came closer and closer and then he kissed her on the lips. Piper jumped. But nico held her down on the couch. He pulled her legs out from under her and made her lay down. Again he looked at her. Piper at this point was to scared to say anything. "Don't worry piper, I won't do everything I don't want to hurt you". His voice had this strange tone in it and his eyes where like they where glazed over. Piper turned her head for the breath coming from him suddenly made her sick. Slowly she could feel his hands go down her body. And her panties where removed.
Tears where forming in the corner of her eyes. But she didn't want to cry. She was a big girl and if Prue could do this then she could to. And he after all promised he wasn't going to hurt her. She felt something wet down on her private area but she was to scared to look down to see what it was. Then the worst pain she could ever imagine happened to her it was like her abdomen was on fire. The tears that she had been holding back now rolled down the side of her face. How could he do this to her he had promise he was not going to hurt her. Again and again the pain got worse and worse. Then it stopped. She dared to open her eyes as she looked at nico. His breath was ragged and he had this strange look on his face. "Piper are you okay sweetie?"
Piper nodded her head she wanted to be a big girl just like Prue and she would have bet that Prue didn't cry when she had to do this. "Now see that wasn't to bad, was it". Piper shook her head. "can...can..I go to bed now?" she asked him. "Yes sweetie you can go to bed now. But I have to tell you piper I didn't do everything I was suppose to do so next time we will try it again okay?" piper nodded her head and started to walk out of the room "piper no hug and kiss goodnight" nico asked her. Piper turned around and walked back in to the room she gave nico a hug and a kiss, and ran out of the room.
She ran into her room and closed the door and crawled into her bed. She had been so happy this morning to be turning nine, but she no longer wanted to be nine. She wanted to be eight again. And things like they where yesterday. Tears are running down her cheek. Tears for not being eight anymore and tears for nico because he had to this to her and she knew he didn't want to because he loved her. He had so. And she knew that he hadn't wanted to hurt her. She was mad at Prue though. Because they where sisters and sisters tell stuff and Prue should have told her what was going to happen when she turned nine. And she was angry with her mommy for going out and telling nico he had to do this to her.
She tried to go to sleep as fast as she could so she wouldn't have to think about it anymore. She could hear the phone ring and she was wondering who could be calling so late. But on the other hand she didn't care. She lay there very quit making sure not to make any noise. When she heard footsteps coming up the stairs. Slowly her door opened and she could see that nico was walking back into the room. "Piper...Piper". She could hear him whisper. But piper closed her eyes pretending to be asleep. She didn't want to do this anymore she didn't want to be a big girl she wanted to stay in her room.
"Piper don't close your eyes I know you are not asleep yet". Piper opened her eyes and looked at him. "I don't want to anymore". She whispers trying to get under her blanket more and more. "But honey that was mommy, she said she couldn't come home for tonight and that I was to stay the night. Why don't you come in the other room with me". Piper didn't want to but nico picked her out of the bed and carried her in to her mommy's room. "Since we didn't get to do everything earlier tonight we have finish it now piper". Nico said in what to piper sounded a weird voice. He put piper on the bed and told her he was only doing this cause mommy had told him that piper needed to be a big girl.
Tears where coming down her cheeks again. "Piper you gonna have to stop crying big girls don't cry, Prue didn't cry and you want to be a big girl like Prue don't you?" piper didn't want to be a big girl but she nodded her head any ways. Nico laid her on the bed once more and he took of her nightgown. Just now did piper realize that she had never put her panties back on? "It is okay piper don't be scared". As nico takes of his clothes too. As he stood in front of her piper had to choke back the vomit that was rising from with in. she had never seen a man naked before and she was scared as to what was going to happen.
Nico lay down on the bed next to piper and started stroking her again. He tried to kiss her again but piper turned her head. Just then piper felt a blinding pain on the side of her head. "Don't you turn away from me when I try to kiss you" nico growled in her ear. Pain was shooting trough her head. And she turned back to him. He kissed her again. But again out of reflex piper turned and again a blow to her head. She was lying on her back and nico hovered over her. "Okay piper the only thing you have to do is take this in your mouth and then all will be over".
Piper looked at him. She had opened her mouth but as soon as she felt what was happening to her the vomit that had been in back of her throat came to the front. This again deserved her blow to the head. "I didn't want to do this to you so soon but I can see you are not going to cooperate so now we have to do the other thing, it is going to hurt piper but only for a little while, and then all will be over". Nico said as he got of her chest. Piper had thought that she was in pain earlier that evening. But the pain she felt now could not compare to anything she had ever felt. It felt like someone had taken her and was ripping her apart from the bottom up.
She didn't know what happened next cause she lost all sense of time. It was like she was stepping out of her body and this wasn't happening to her. She didn't dare say anything afraid she would get hit again so she just laid there like a raggdoll. Only when she felt the weight getting of her did she dare to open her eyes. Nico had rolled over and was laying on his back his breath ragged and his face a crimson red. Piper got up a little and asked him if she could leave and go back to bed. He told her she could. Piper got of the bed. But as she put her feet to the floor she just slumped down her legs to weak to carry her out of the room the pain too much to bare.
She lay there and cried. She then felt she was being picked up again. "I don't want anymore please I don't want anymore". She said as she put her head on his chest. "It is okay piper you have been a good girl. No more for tonight" he told her as he carried her to her room and put her into the bed. As nico turns around he gets stopped by piper's little voice. "Is mommy going to be happy with me" she asked him. "Yes mommy is going to be very happy with you, the only thing is that we are not suppose to talk about it. So no need to talk to her about I will tell her you where a good girl". He looked at her. And she nodded her head in agreement
When she got up the next morning she went to the bathroom and went to take a shower when she took of her panties she noticed there was blood. She panicked and ran out of the bathroom and into her moms room nico was still asleep as where phoebe and Prue. She woke up nico and told him what she had found. Nico smiled at her. "Its okay piper that means you did a good job and you are now really a big girl".
Piper walked out of the room and went back to the bathroom. When she was done with her shower she walked out. As she passes prue's room she can see that her sister has already gotten up. And most likely was downstairs already. Piper couldn't understand why Prue had never told her about this and why she had never noticed because as it was piper could barley stand on her own two legs still a burning pain in her abdomen. When she gets to the kitchen she sees that her mom is home and that nico has left already.
"Morning sweetie nico told me you where a good girl last night" patty tells piper. Making piper think that mommy knew what had happened last night. Piper just gives her a look and sits down at the table. "What do you want for breakfast piper?" patty asks her. "I am not hungry is it time for school yet". " In a few minutes" patty answers. Patty walks over to piper and puts her hand on piper's forehead. Her daughter seemed a little pale to her this morning and maybe she was coming down with something. But piper shook her head and told her mom she was fine and then walked out of the kitchen. Still mad at her mom for not telling her.
As soon as they got to school piper was sure that everybody knew what had happened to her the night before. And isolates her self from her friends and goes to a little corner of the playground. She couldn't believe that all her friends that where nine hadn't told her this was to happen. And she felt sorry for Ellen because it was her b-day today. And she had to do what she had done last night. She was tempted to walk over to her friend and tell her what was about to happen to her. But then remembered she was not suppose to talk about it with anyone.
Another thing she didn't understand why couldn't the nine-year-olds not talk about it. I mean it happened to them all after all. And then maybe she wouldn't feel so lost right now. She decided she was not going to waste anymore time thinking about it. And went back to her classes. After school piper went home and straight to her room without even saying hi to her mom or her sisters. Patty came up later that afternoon but piper pretended to be asleep.
A few days later piper walks down the stairs it was around seven at night and her mom had her coat on to go out. And nico was standing next to her mom smiling he opened his arms for piper to jump in but piper backed up a little and looked at her mom. "Where are you going" she asked patty. "Piper you know I go to art class every Friday, silly girl". Patty smiles. "Do you have to go" piper wants to know as she walks over to patty and puts her arms around patty's waist. "Yes mommy has to go, why sweetie what is the matter". As patty picks up piper and puts her on her hip. Over her moms shoulder piper can see nico and he gives her a stare. "Nothing mommy it is nothing". As she slides down and walks back up the stairs. "Mommy will be home by midnight piper, if you need anything your buddy nico is here". And patty walks out the door.
The evening goes pretty much like it always went and by nine o clock nico told all three girls that is was time for bed. All three the girls walk up the stairs and get them self ready for bed. Piper makes sure the bathroom is locked and everything before she get undressed in her nightgown. She then runs in to her room and closes the door and pretends to go to sleep.
Then the knock on the door the one she had been dreading al night. She had hoped that nothing was going to happen since he had gone downstairs earlier. But only now did she figure out why? He just wanted to wait till the other ones where asleep before coming to her room. "Piper I know you are not asleep, so don't pretend you are" she hears nico say. But still she keeps her eyes closed. But to no avail nico was there for a reason and he didn't leave until he was done.
Fast forward a few years piper now being about fourteen her mom was once again going out and piper knew nico was coming to sit for her and phoebe. Since Prue was now older she didn't need a baby-sitter anymore. Besides that she was out with Andy. Phoebe was a very happy 12 year old and the only comfort piper had was that she was sure what ever had been going on for the past five years had never happened to phoebe. Because after about a year piper had found out that not all nine-year-olds had to do this.
But by this time it was to late, nico had her right where he wanted her. The game had changed for him. He had told her if she wasn't going to do it anymore he was going to go to phoebe. And that from then on he would not do anything unless she would ask him too. She knew if she would refuse that he would follow through on his threat and that phoebe would be next. So as she would on most nights that he was there she told him it was okay that she wanted him to do it. She would have begged him so long it meant phoebe was save. And there by digging her self-deeper into a hole she couldn't get out of. He had told her that even if she would tell anyone now it wouldn't matter because she had consented to it. And she knew that he was right.
She had long since given up on ever telling patty it would destroy her mother if she knew what had been happening in her house for the past five years. And besides that what was she going to tell her now. If she was ever going to tell it should have been five years ago. Piper and her mother couldn't get along as it was anyway. So piper wasn't even sure if her mom would ever believe her.
Piper's grades had dropped in school she lost all interest in any other things she used to do. The only thing that would get piper out of her constant daze where kids. As long as she was around kids piper was happy she loved playing with them and baby-sitting for them and all the other stuff you can do with kids. But as soon as she was away from them she turned into her frumpy self. Over the years piper had been gaining weight hoping to turn of nico for some reason but it just didn't seem to bother him at all. So piper just lived her life as it came not really smiling and when she did it was one of those fake ones. She had everybody fooled so many people liked her and loved her for how she was the kids and how good she took care of them.
The problem was that piper did not like herself let alone love her self. She had never gone out on a date. How could she? What if this person would find out? He would find her disgusting and drop her faster then she could say it is over. Piper knew that this was her life and this was the way she was going to have to live it alone and miserable.
Piper had just turned seventeen and patty was going out for the night. Piper came running down the stairs and told her that she was going out to. Patty looked at her in surprise. Piper hadn't gone out much and now that piper wanted to she would let her. "Okay can you hold on so that I can call nico so he can sit for phoebe". Patty said. "Mom she is fifteen years old she doesn't need a baby sitter anymore" piper told her. Patty looked at her and thought that piper could be right. She called phoebe down the stairs. And sure enough there she was. There was no one piper loved more in the world then phoebe she was her little sister and knowing that she had protected her from nico was all the thanks piper ever needed.
Phoebe in return loved piper like no one else the only thing she wished was that piper would stop being such a hermit crab and go out every once in a while and put on some make up and some more flattering clothes. But even so she loved her big sister. Patty told her she was going out and phoebe could stay home by her self for the first time. Piper thought she saw a hint of relief in phoebe eyes but she must have been mistaken. She gave her mom a hug and then piper and whispered in her ear "thank you sis". Piper looked at her. And she got this feeling in the pit of her stomach please don't let this be what I think it is she thought.
Patty had left the house already and piper looked at phoebe. " What did you mean by that?" "What?" "Thanking me". "Oh that just because I can tell Cole to come over now that that geek nico isn't coming over". Piper gave a sigh of relief to find out that her worst fear wasn't realized. The thing was that piper wasn't going out on a date or have some fun with friends. She was going on an interview with a couple from New York who where looking for a nanny. Piper needed to get away from San Francisco. So she needed for phoebe to proof herself tonight that she could be on her own. Not that phoebe would tell anyone if nico would try to do anything to her now.
Well it looked like the interview had gone very well the couple from New York had hired her and today was the day that piper was leaving San Francisco and the life she had been leading till now. The four of them where at the airport and phoebe was the most upset looking at piper she told her she loved her and to come home often because what was she going to do with out her big sister. Prue and piper hadn't talked in ages and there wasn't much to say now. She gave each of them one more hug and went up the ramp to get to her airplane. A big sigh escaped from her lips. It was like she was leaving part of herself behind and she was ready for a new beginning. With no strings attached and most important no nico in site.
Her life in New York was nice and she enjoyed being there but if she would have thought that life would get better she had been mistaken. She realized no matter where she went no matter how far she went and no matter how hard she would run. The problems she had where still going to be there. She loved her job and she loved the children she was taken care of the mother and father where the nicest people she could have worked for. According to some horror stories she had heard from other nannies.
She had managed to make a few good friends. But she didn't dare tell any of them what had happened to her, she was too afraid of what they might think of her. Until one night. She had become very good friends with the nanny that lived a few houses down and the both of them had just watched a movie of the week about incest. At first piper was to scare to even think about it. At one point her friend looks at her and tells her she is happy she doesn't know anyone this has ever happened to.
Piper looks at her and burst into tears. "Yes you do know someone this has happened to". Cindy looked at piper in shock. She couldn't believe what piper was telling her. Piper now overcome with emotions is crying her heart out. Cindy walks over and takes piper in her arms. She doesn't say anything; all she does is hold her friend. Who just cries and cries. Cindy figured when piper was ready to talk she would. After what seems forever piper gets her self together. "I am sorry I didn't mean to break down like that". "Don't be stupid" Cindy tells her. "Why don't you tell me what happened". Cindy dares to ask. Piper looks down at her hands that are wringing the life out of a bunch of tissues. She is scared to tell. But then she decides that maybe she should tell her. So she gathers all her strength and starts to tell her story. Many times interrupted by sobs she didn't seem to be able to hold back.
She ends her story by saying "I understand if you never want hear or see me again". Cindy lets go of piper and looks at her. "Piper does it look like I would ever leave or dessert you. This wasn't your fault you where nine years old the bastardt knew what he was doing and he basically brainwashed you into believing his own lies." "I understand what you are saying Cindy but what about all the years after, after I knew it was wrong. The times that I asked him to do it". Piper said with fear in her voice. "Oh my god piper. Would you think please, did you want him to do it". Cindy asked her.
"Of course not". Piper says. "The only reason I told him it was okay because I didn't want the same thing to happen to phoebe". She added. "Then there is your answer". Cindy told her. "As to what to do with the ass hole who did this you" "no" piper interrupts "I don't want anyone else to know about this, and if you tell anyone I will kill myself". Cindy looks at piper and sees that piper means what she is saying. So Cindy decides to drop it for now. Piper went home after having told Cindy and Cindy assuring her she wasn't going to abandon her as friend. As she gets to her room again she lets the tears flow. But in her heart she felt a little lighter than she had earlier that evening. She couldn't believe she had told someone and they hadn't told her she was disgusting like nico had always told her they would.
Piper continued working in New York only going home if it was really necessary. After having told Cindy piper was getting more out of her shell and it seemed she was enjoying live more. Then the day came she met the man of her dream the one she had looked for so many years. Blond hair, blue/greenish eyes and a smile that could light a whole room.
A friend of theirs at a party introduced piper to him. Leo meet piper, piper meet Leo. Leo looked at her as if she was the only woman in the room. Piper put on a smile and for the first time she noticed she didn't have to fake the smile. They continue to talk for most of the night. And after the party Leo asked her if he could have her number. Piper hesitated for a few minutes but then decided why the heck not. If he didn't call then she would never have to break his heart by telling him her past.
But low and behold a few days later her phone rings and it is Leo. He wanted to know if piper felt like going out to dinner with him. For a few seconds piper didn't know what to say. "Piper are you still there". "Oh sorry Leo of course I would love to go out and have dinner with you". Surprising her self. They agreed that Leo would pick piper up the next day at seven-o clock. So the next day piper gets her self-ready puts on a little makeup finds her best outfit and fixes her long brown hair.
As she walks down the stairs little Sammy looks at her and runs in the kitchen to get her mom "look mom piper is so pretty tonight" Sammy says all excited. Drawing the attention of both her daddy and her brother. They all told her she looked gorgeous and asked her where she was going all dolled up. Piper told them with a shy smile that she was going on a date. Nina (the mother) gave her a big hug. "I always wondered why you never went out, but now I know you where just waiting for mister right". Steve looked at piper. "You might not be my daughter. But if he honks that horn you are not going anywhere with him. If he wants to take you out he is going to have to ring the doorbell like a real man". He smiles as he puts his arm around Nina.
Piper thought it sweet how he still loved his wife after ten years of marriage. Then she hoped that Leo would ring the doorbell because Steve never joked about stuff like that. But luckily Leo was the man he was and he rang the doorbell and introduced himself to Nina and Steve and even joked with the kids for a little bit. Then it was time to leave. "Young man she is not my daughter but I love her like she is, anything happens to her I know where to find you". Steve smiled. But listing to his tone of voice piper knew he meant it and so did Leo.
They had a great dinner and piper had really enjoyed her self Leo had been the perfect gentleman. They where standing at the front door and piper was very nervous. She knew Leo was going to expect a kiss and piper wanted him to kiss her it was only she was so scared. But to her surprise Leo didn't lean in for one. So they said their good-byes and piper went in the house. And Leo back to his car. They hadn't set another date so piper had convinced her self that Leo must not like her. Oh the better it was anyway she told her self.
But again Leo surprised her by calling the next day. And asking her if she wanted to go out with him again. And piper accepted. Piper and Leo had been dating for a few weeks and piper had even let Leo kiss her few times but anything beyond that hadn't happened. Piper knew that the day was coming where Leo wanted more then just holding hands and a few kisses here and there. And she was dreading that day more and more. She had fallen head over heels for this man and she had convinced herself that Leo deserved better then her. So out of pure protection for herself piper started little arguments with Leo. Hoping to drive him away.
She couldn't just tell him it was over! There had to be a reason for it. Leo was getting irritated by this and pointed it out to her. Piper put up her guard and told him if he didn't like it then he could just leave. But he never did. Then came the day where piper and Leo had spend the afternoon in the park. Holding hands while taken a nice walk. Leo stopped midway and looked at her. "Piper I think I love you". He told her. Piper looked at him in amazement just a few hours ago they had had a fight. And now he was telling her he loved her. This couldn't be happening.
Piper looked away and bowed her head in shame. "You can't love me Leo you don't know who I really am, what I really am." "Piper what the hell are you talking about" Leo wanted to know. "Just trust me you cant love me, if I where you I would leave now and find another one to love" piper said as she walked away from him. Leo just stood there stupefied at what piper had just said to him. Piper made her way out of the park and ran all the way home. When she got there she ran up to her room and locked her self-in. she knew for sure that she had lost the only man she had ever loved. All because she couldn't tell him her past.
But again Leo was not so easy to get rid of. A few minutes later there was a knock on the door. It was Cindy. Leo had come to her and asked her to go see if piper was okay. Piper told her what had happened in the park. "You did what?" Cindy yelled at her. Piper looked at her in shock. Cindy had never talked to her like that before. "He loves you piper. Tell him for god sake. If you are gonna dump him he at least has the right to know why!!" "But Cindy I am gonna lose him if I tell him". Piper tells her friend. "You are gonna lose him this way to honey". And trust me losing him this way is gonna eat you alive. Just tell him and let him make up his own mind. He might just surprise you". "But I am so scared, I don't know what to do if he walks out and he never wants to talk to me again". Piper whispers. "If he walks out on you, which I highly doubt he will, then he doesn't deserve you as it is. You deserve the best, you deserve to be loved and I really think that Leo is that piper".
"But I don't even know where he is". Piper tells Cindy. "He is downstairs and Nina and Steve took the kids out so you have few hours to talk to him. I will be there for you if need be". Cindy walks over to give piper a big hug and then the both of them walk down the stairs hand in hand. Cindy walks to the door and gives piper a squeeze "its okay sweetie talk to him". And then walks out the door.
Leo walked over to piper and tried to take her hand. "No Leo I need you to sit down and I need you to listen to me and not say anything until I am done because if I need to stop I don't think I can finish it". Piper tells him. Leo sits down as he watches piper starting to pace in front of him. He was worried because he had never seen piper this nervous before even when the had just starting dating.
Slowly piper started to tell here life story stopping at some moments to compose her self and then to go on. Leo couldn't believe his ears as more and more details of pipers live where told to him. He could see she was having a really hard time telling him all this. He had already made a mental note in his head to get this nico person and make him pay for what he done to piper. He didn't realize that piper had finished her story. She was looking at him with a horrified expression. "I knew it, I knew it" piper said as she sat down on the couch and covered he face with her hands.
Leo ran up to her and took her in his arms. "What did you know piper?" that you would find me disgusting". "Where the hell did you get that idea piper?" Leo says with all the love he can find with in himself. "You didn't say anything and you had that look on your face..". Piper can't speak anymore her body now shaking with the sobs escaping from deep within. "Oh sweetie that was not me being disgusted with you, that was me making sure this son of a bitch is going to pay for what he has done to you".
Piper looks at Leo her face still wet from the tears. "You mean you are not totally repulsed by me". "Piper sweetie love of my live I could never feel that way about you. What happened to you had nothing to do with you. You where young. He knew what he was doing, he knew you loved phoebe more the your self that is why he could do what he did. I told you piper I love you and I will never leave you". He took piper in his arms and let her cry. She cried for hours sobs where coming from her body like he had never heard before. It was tearing out his soul but he was not letting go of her. It was as if she was trying to crawl in to him. But he just kept holding her. Old tears replaced by new ones. Tears for little piper who never had a life. Tears for teenage piper who never got to enjoy real freedom and tears for piper now because she had been able to tell someone.
Many more days and many more night where filled with talks about what had happened to piper but Leo stayed by her side no matter what she told him and how many details she told him. Slowly but surly piper was getting her live back the live she had lost when she nine years old. But she knew there was one thing that had not happened yet and she was scared. Leo knew she was scared for their first night together. And he was not going to push the matter.
But the night came. Piper had spent the whole day with him and they where now getting cozy on the couch. Slow kisses had been exchanged al nightlong. And Leo dared to go a little further. He could feel piper stiffen in his arms a little but she didn't push him away. Leo got up of the couch and took her by the hand. And leaded her to the bedroom. Before they went in Leo stopped at the door. He was going to let piper decide whether they where going in or not. Piper stopped too. Should she go in or not? Many thought where going through her head what to do? Should she do it? But then one thing above all came to the front. Leo loved her and he would never hurt her. So she took his hand and both of them walked in to the room. Piper was still scared to death but she knew that Leo was going to replace her nightmares with new and happy ones. Leo was as gentle as he could be letting piper take the lead and stopping when he thought she was to scared. When their bodies finally became one piper knew that she could close this chapter of her life. She had new memories happy memories. And she had Leo thank for it.
A few months had passed and pipers live was better then it had ever been she had lost over fifty pounds and she was happier then she had ever been. Then there came the day that Leo came to her on bended knee and asked her if she wanted to marry him "are you kidding Leo, of course I want to marry you" piper said overjoyed that her life was getting better with each passing day. Leo had taken her in his arms and had kissed her like only he could.
Now there was only one thing left to do. As she hands the airplane ticket to the lady behind the counter she makes sure to not let go of Leo's hand. She had decided that she couldn't get married until she faced her passed in San Francisco. And Leo was right beside her. "Don't worry piper" he had told her "I will be there with you, he won't be able to hurt you any longer". And piper believed him. "Piper?" "Yeah"? "I love you" "I love you to Leo" piper said as the plane took of for San Francisco