Chapter 18 - Changing back?
** Soda's POV **
I can't believe that Darry sent me to my room. I thought he forgotten about it. I didn't do anything to get him mad. I moaned at lied on the bed. I still had a headache. I did throw up a couple of times at the hospital. I was going to apologize to Ponyboy this morning, but now I don't think it'll do any good. Steve barely looked at me, or even said a hi. I lost my best friend. I guess my change did really leave on mark on them. The world still seems to be changing right infront of my eyes. I realized that life is short. After Johnny and Dally died, I felt as if the whole world was crashing down, and everyone who I cared about was dying. Was Darry next? Steve? Ponyboy? Two-Bit? I guess that thought got the best of me and I changed everything. Sometimes when I get scared, I get mean.
" I'm so confused" I said out loud. I was about to fall asleep when I heard a knock on the window. It was Tim. I walked over and opened the window.
" Yo Curtis, me and the boys are going to go to some soc's houses and trash it. Want to come?" Tim asked. I could tell that he was high already. I felt the urge to go, and get high with them, trash socials houses... I just don't know if it was a good idea. I was already on thin ice with Darry.
" I don't know Tim.." I said. Tim was about to say something, but was interrupted by my door opening.
" Sodapop I-" Darry said while walking in but stopped at the sight of high Tim at the window.
" What the hell do you think your doing?" Darry yelled. I didn't know what to say.
" Were going to go party!! Want to come?" Tim said cheerfully. Damn Tim. I knew I was in for it now!! Darry come toward me and picked me up by the shirt collar,away from the window.
" Hell no" He muttered while shoving Tim on the ground and slamming the window shut. He was going to start talking,but he stopped and locked the window. He didn't trust me. I was trying to get away, but he had a strong grip on my shirt. It was his bad hand,and I didn't want to hurt him so I stayed still. He pushed me on the bed.
" What the hell do you think you were doing!?" He yelled. He was really mad, I wish he would calm down.
" Dar...Darry I wasn't going to go I -" I said. He looked at me in disbelief.
" Like hell you weren't!!" He yelled. " Do I have to tie you up again from leaving the damn house?? Do I have to watch you every single minute,making sure my younger brother won't get himself killed?? What I'm I going to do with you Sodapop Curtis!!! I'm sick and tired of the game your playing. You'll end up getting arrested,and you and Ponyboy will end up going to a boys home!! Do you want to stay here Sodapop?" I looked down at my feet.
" yes" I whispered.
" Yes to what? Yes of tying you up again or yes of staying here?"
" I doubt you have the strength to tie me up" I muttered. Damnit Sodapop,you were doing good not getting an attitude!! I thought.
" What was that kiddo?" I hated when Darry called me kiddo in bad terms.
" Nothing" I said.
" You said I don't have the strength too" I gulped hard. Darry was getting in that cold mean voice that sends chills in your body.
" I did not" I said. Darry stared at me. Was I really that bad for him to hate me this much?
" Steve!" Darry yelled. He better not-
" Get me the rope" Darry said when Steve walked in the room. I jumped up from the bed and ran out the room. I did not want to get tied up. Darry ran after me. I ran out the front door and ran for my dear life. I wanted to get away from everyone: to go find myself.
** Soda's POV **
I can't believe that Darry sent me to my room. I thought he forgotten about it. I didn't do anything to get him mad. I moaned at lied on the bed. I still had a headache. I did throw up a couple of times at the hospital. I was going to apologize to Ponyboy this morning, but now I don't think it'll do any good. Steve barely looked at me, or even said a hi. I lost my best friend. I guess my change did really leave on mark on them. The world still seems to be changing right infront of my eyes. I realized that life is short. After Johnny and Dally died, I felt as if the whole world was crashing down, and everyone who I cared about was dying. Was Darry next? Steve? Ponyboy? Two-Bit? I guess that thought got the best of me and I changed everything. Sometimes when I get scared, I get mean.
" I'm so confused" I said out loud. I was about to fall asleep when I heard a knock on the window. It was Tim. I walked over and opened the window.
" Yo Curtis, me and the boys are going to go to some soc's houses and trash it. Want to come?" Tim asked. I could tell that he was high already. I felt the urge to go, and get high with them, trash socials houses... I just don't know if it was a good idea. I was already on thin ice with Darry.
" I don't know Tim.." I said. Tim was about to say something, but was interrupted by my door opening.
" Sodapop I-" Darry said while walking in but stopped at the sight of high Tim at the window.
" What the hell do you think your doing?" Darry yelled. I didn't know what to say.
" Were going to go party!! Want to come?" Tim said cheerfully. Damn Tim. I knew I was in for it now!! Darry come toward me and picked me up by the shirt collar,away from the window.
" Hell no" He muttered while shoving Tim on the ground and slamming the window shut. He was going to start talking,but he stopped and locked the window. He didn't trust me. I was trying to get away, but he had a strong grip on my shirt. It was his bad hand,and I didn't want to hurt him so I stayed still. He pushed me on the bed.
" What the hell do you think you were doing!?" He yelled. He was really mad, I wish he would calm down.
" Dar...Darry I wasn't going to go I -" I said. He looked at me in disbelief.
" Like hell you weren't!!" He yelled. " Do I have to tie you up again from leaving the damn house?? Do I have to watch you every single minute,making sure my younger brother won't get himself killed?? What I'm I going to do with you Sodapop Curtis!!! I'm sick and tired of the game your playing. You'll end up getting arrested,and you and Ponyboy will end up going to a boys home!! Do you want to stay here Sodapop?" I looked down at my feet.
" yes" I whispered.
" Yes to what? Yes of tying you up again or yes of staying here?"
" I doubt you have the strength to tie me up" I muttered. Damnit Sodapop,you were doing good not getting an attitude!! I thought.
" What was that kiddo?" I hated when Darry called me kiddo in bad terms.
" Nothing" I said.
" You said I don't have the strength too" I gulped hard. Darry was getting in that cold mean voice that sends chills in your body.
" I did not" I said. Darry stared at me. Was I really that bad for him to hate me this much?
" Steve!" Darry yelled. He better not-
" Get me the rope" Darry said when Steve walked in the room. I jumped up from the bed and ran out the room. I did not want to get tied up. Darry ran after me. I ran out the front door and ran for my dear life. I wanted to get away from everyone: to go find myself.