Smoke Screen Rated: PG-13 By: Ari-chan
Notes and Disclaimers: Wow. I haven't done this in a while. Apologies to all. I just haven't been in the writing mood. But, whilst listening to some music the other day I was blessed with some inspiration from the great KD Lang ::bows to worship:: And that is the song used in this. You really need to listen to the song, because it has such feeling in it. ::sighs:: it makes me want to cry every time I hear it!
Haruka, Michiru and all related characters belong to Naoko-sama, and the song belongs to KD and her people. ^^
Dedicated to my puddy- may we never be like this.
-The medicine has taken you over
Washing away any desire-
I looked at her as she stared blankly at the wall, her eyes totally vacant. They lacked any emotion. I wanted to go up to her, grab her by the shoulders and shake her shoulders until she came around. She had promised me so long ago that she wouldn't go to her own world and leave me behind.
My watch beeped and I nearly moaned. I knew what that sound meant. Michiru knew too, she looked up at me, the same blank expression as when she had been looking at the wall. Did she know how much that hurt?
I walked over to the dresser and poured out her medicine. Counting the tiny pills in my hand. Two of this kind, three of that, and the kicker, the killer of emotions... only one of those but it did it's fair amount of harm.
I slipped them into the hands that had once held her instrument, that had once held mine, and felt me. I pulled my chair closer until I sat directly in front of her; I stared into her eyes as she swallowed the pills all at once, without water. She stared back at me.
"Michiru," I whispered softly and kissed her forehead. I wanted to take her, and hold her, and make love to her. But she made no attempt to respond.
-How does it feel at the end of the day
When your energy's gone and it's slowly
replaced
By the numbing sensation
Cleaning both sides of your brain-
Everyday for years it had been like this, slowly getting worse, but what could I have done? Left her a prisoner of her own mind? I loved her too much for that. The doctors said nothing could help her now; I just had to be there for her. They didn't even know what she had! They jammed the prescriptions in my hands and I just jammed the pills in her hands. I had no idea what they were doing to her only that. she wasn't her anymore.
-I remember the stars in your eyes
But even the bright stars will fade out
sometimes-
I sighed again; staring deeply into her eyes did no good. They weren't like the ocean anymore. They were like a calm, flat piece of silk. Beautiful and vibrant with the light bouncing and shimmering off of it, but they never moved unless touched. And nothing I did touched her anymore.
I ran my hands over her face, felt the contours of her cheekbones, kissed the dark circles under her eyes and ran my hands through her hair.
"Do you even know me anymore?" I asked her. She averted her eyes for a moment then let out a sigh. At least I had gotten some sort of response.
-Do you remember our very last kiss
Are you aware that you're terribly missed
Do you remember how to remember-
I stood up and bending over her raised her chin with my hand. My lips meet hers, and they gave way at once. Yielding to me, yet I knew she didn't feel it. Or, on the contrary, if she did I wouldn't have known. I sat back down and took her hand, letting my fingers tips drag over hers. Feeling the calluses that were slowly going down.
I should have known years ago, when the signs first started appearing. When that maniacal look had crept in her eyes and she went about mumbling to herself. Or she would snap at me, or totally forget who I was. I should have known that one day it would have led to something like this. But I had been a fool, blinded by love that's what I had been.
I had been told by doctors to leave her in an institution and go on life. But how could I leave behind my best friend, my lover, my one and only. Yet, I should have known... I should have known.
I pulled Michiru up into my arms and lay us down on the bed. She lay listless in my arms as I listened to her heartbeat. Suddenly I felt her grip around me tighten.
"Haruka," she said so softly I almost couldn't hear her. "We should have known, we have seen it."
-I should have seen through your smoke screen-
There ya go, somewhat odd, and somewhat depressing but weren't the lyrics great? ::sobs:: Oi, KD. thank you for singing that song.
Please leave a review-dieing to know what you thought. Good or bad, just please, be constructive!! Or, you can e-mail at me at MichiTenoh36@aol.com, with fanfiction as the subject. Thanks!
Notes and Disclaimers: Wow. I haven't done this in a while. Apologies to all. I just haven't been in the writing mood. But, whilst listening to some music the other day I was blessed with some inspiration from the great KD Lang ::bows to worship:: And that is the song used in this. You really need to listen to the song, because it has such feeling in it. ::sighs:: it makes me want to cry every time I hear it!
Haruka, Michiru and all related characters belong to Naoko-sama, and the song belongs to KD and her people. ^^
Dedicated to my puddy- may we never be like this.
-The medicine has taken you over
Washing away any desire-
I looked at her as she stared blankly at the wall, her eyes totally vacant. They lacked any emotion. I wanted to go up to her, grab her by the shoulders and shake her shoulders until she came around. She had promised me so long ago that she wouldn't go to her own world and leave me behind.
My watch beeped and I nearly moaned. I knew what that sound meant. Michiru knew too, she looked up at me, the same blank expression as when she had been looking at the wall. Did she know how much that hurt?
I walked over to the dresser and poured out her medicine. Counting the tiny pills in my hand. Two of this kind, three of that, and the kicker, the killer of emotions... only one of those but it did it's fair amount of harm.
I slipped them into the hands that had once held her instrument, that had once held mine, and felt me. I pulled my chair closer until I sat directly in front of her; I stared into her eyes as she swallowed the pills all at once, without water. She stared back at me.
"Michiru," I whispered softly and kissed her forehead. I wanted to take her, and hold her, and make love to her. But she made no attempt to respond.
-How does it feel at the end of the day
When your energy's gone and it's slowly
replaced
By the numbing sensation
Cleaning both sides of your brain-
Everyday for years it had been like this, slowly getting worse, but what could I have done? Left her a prisoner of her own mind? I loved her too much for that. The doctors said nothing could help her now; I just had to be there for her. They didn't even know what she had! They jammed the prescriptions in my hands and I just jammed the pills in her hands. I had no idea what they were doing to her only that. she wasn't her anymore.
-I remember the stars in your eyes
But even the bright stars will fade out
sometimes-
I sighed again; staring deeply into her eyes did no good. They weren't like the ocean anymore. They were like a calm, flat piece of silk. Beautiful and vibrant with the light bouncing and shimmering off of it, but they never moved unless touched. And nothing I did touched her anymore.
I ran my hands over her face, felt the contours of her cheekbones, kissed the dark circles under her eyes and ran my hands through her hair.
"Do you even know me anymore?" I asked her. She averted her eyes for a moment then let out a sigh. At least I had gotten some sort of response.
-Do you remember our very last kiss
Are you aware that you're terribly missed
Do you remember how to remember-
I stood up and bending over her raised her chin with my hand. My lips meet hers, and they gave way at once. Yielding to me, yet I knew she didn't feel it. Or, on the contrary, if she did I wouldn't have known. I sat back down and took her hand, letting my fingers tips drag over hers. Feeling the calluses that were slowly going down.
I should have known years ago, when the signs first started appearing. When that maniacal look had crept in her eyes and she went about mumbling to herself. Or she would snap at me, or totally forget who I was. I should have known that one day it would have led to something like this. But I had been a fool, blinded by love that's what I had been.
I had been told by doctors to leave her in an institution and go on life. But how could I leave behind my best friend, my lover, my one and only. Yet, I should have known... I should have known.
I pulled Michiru up into my arms and lay us down on the bed. She lay listless in my arms as I listened to her heartbeat. Suddenly I felt her grip around me tighten.
"Haruka," she said so softly I almost couldn't hear her. "We should have known, we have seen it."
-I should have seen through your smoke screen-
There ya go, somewhat odd, and somewhat depressing but weren't the lyrics great? ::sobs:: Oi, KD. thank you for singing that song.
Please leave a review-dieing to know what you thought. Good or bad, just please, be constructive!! Or, you can e-mail at me at MichiTenoh36@aol.com, with fanfiction as the subject. Thanks!