A/N: Oh I know it's been forever and then some since I have last
updated, sorry about that. I had written it out and then went to camp and
when I got home I found that my mom had moved a lot of my stuff around and
I couldn't find it again. I was moving around my stuff yet again a couple
of nights ago and found it and was very happy, so I read it and then typed
up all the pages I had, so this is a lot longer than I usually can do but I
thought I owed it to ya'll to type it all up. So Please R and R cause this
story is back on line!
~~~ The look on the professor's face was priceless. Harry smiled a bit more.
"Why would you want to see her?"
"A promise." 'Well not really a promise but close enough.'
"I'll arrange that, but first you must eat this." The bowl of soup was back again.
"The whole thing?"
"Fine, but at least half. Let me go talk to Poppy."
Before Harry went into the bathroom where Myrtle was he stopped and turned to Snape, "May I go in alone please?"
With a wary look he agreed, "But only for five minuets."
"Hello Myrtle." A ghost came out of a stall and smiled happily at Harry.
But then her smile faltered, "This means we can't haunt the castle together now?"
"Maybe later, but you made a deal with me. I didn't kill myself so how do people become ghosts?"
"Is that the only reason you've come in here?" Tears starting to form.
"No, no I came to talk to you also. I had to ask special permission to go anywhere at all."
Looking satisfied, "well there are two main ways to become a ghost, no three. The first one is if you have had terror in your life that leaves you un able to rest, this gives you a way to revenge your tormentors by haunting them. The second is if you didn't fulfill your purpose in life, and the third one is if you are so bad and yet so good that you can't enter Heaven or Hell. A rare trait but none the less affective."
"Does it hurt to become a ghost?"
"Not overly."
"And do you have to learn how to go through things or do you just do it?"
Harry's five minuets were up, Professor Snape had came in to hear the last question, "It is time to go."
"Yes sir, Goodbye Myrtle." "Bye Harry, come visit again." Once outside of the little bathroom, Snape turned to Harry, "Why were you asking such things?" He didn't say it harshly like he normally would have but instead as if he truly cared which surprised Harry.
"Because I wanted to know."
"Is that the promise you made?"
"Somewhat. If I didn't kill myself then she would tell me why I'd be a ghost."
"Who said you would be a ghost?"
"She did."
"Alright," They silently walked back to the hospital wing.
Over the next week Harry refused to talk to anyone but Snape and Myrtle when she came to visit. Even when they allowed Ron and Hermione in to see him, he wouldn't even acknowledge them. Harry was just as morbid and upset, but at least he stopped trying to kill himself, no matter how much he wanted to.
One day while there Snape, decided to see how much Harry trusted him, It surprised him when Harry had been so open to him while shutting everyone else out. "So Harry tell me who is the lucky witch you've got your eye on?" Knowing he wouldn't answer truthfully.
"No one, as of late"
"Oh, really, then who did you use to like?"
Looking around to make sure no one was around he whispered, "Cho Chang of Ravenclaw."
Snape was utterly shocked; he never thought that Harry would have told him. "Nice choice, picking a smart one."
"Sir, may I ask who you like, or use to like?"
Not wanting to answer but also knowing that Harry would shut him out entirely if he doesn't answer he replied, "The last woman I liked was Madam Rosetta."
"Not bad." Harry felt that he could trust Snape with anything. For one the night Snape didn't stay late with him was the night Harry had a nightmare, he saw Snape telling Voldemort that Dumbledore is trusting him less and less, which in turn ended with Snape getting Crucio, while Harry got a head ach. Seeing Snape pay for his mistakes made Harry cling to him, knowing he was the only one that truly knew how he felt.
"Harry you are going to need to attend school again, sometime."
"I know. But what if I lose it. What if Malfoy drives me crazy and I try to end it all again? What if I'm not ready to go back I don't want to end up a ghost?"
"Well by saying all of that I'm sure you'll be fine. And if you ever need to talk just come to me, when ever."
A teary eyed Harry flung his arms around the Potion Master. After a second of hesitation Snape hugged him back. Harry just sobbed. "Harry what's wrong?"
"Just that well no one's really has been able to be there for me in the past, and I'm so thankful for you saving me and putting up with me. Even though I'm half James."
Snape chuckled at that. "No problem Harry, no problem."
Harry didn't want to go back to a dorm full of boys so he requested a privet room, and was granted his request as long as Dobby was watching him at all times while alone. Harry didn't mind that at all. He understood the need to have him there.
After having a day to get settled and unpack the supplies purchased for him he was heading to his first class back, History of Magic. Once in the class room, being early, he picked a seat in the very back corner close to the door. When Hermione and Ron entered they came sprinting up to him.
"Hello Harry." He looked up at their hopeful faces but didn't reply. A hurt expression formed on their faces, when Harry nodded to the chairs next to him. Satisfied with that Hermione hugged him quickly letting go. "Harry we've been so worried and .."
"We are glad to have you back." Ron butted in.
Harry smiled a bit in appreciation but still silent. Ron and Hermione didn't seem to car, they were just so happy for him to be back safe. Class went by and Harry managed to stay awake the entire time which had to be a record. Next was lunch, Harry was expected to start eating in the Great Hall again. As much as he didn't want to, if he didn't show up people would be worried and he would be hungry. 'Anyways,' he reasoned with himself, 'next is double potions to look forward to, Snape will be there.'
Slowly Harry entered the Hall with his friends. As Harry sat down he could hear many whispers about his absence. All the Gryffindor were asking him where he has been, endless chatter, drilling into his head. Trying to block it out with his hands he got up and ran for it. Quickly Snape left the Staff Table. While looking for Harry, he heard the drawing voice of Draco. "Well Potter decided to hide as long as you could? Scared everyone will hate you for killing Cedric?" Snape quickened his pace almost running, terming the corner. "If I were you I'd kill myself by now, what Potty going to cry now? You little."
"Mr. Malfoy!" Snape found them, "2 weeks of detention and 30 points from Slytherin!"
Harry ran to Snape clinging to him for dear life. "It's okay Harry. You did no do anything wrong. Mr. Malfoy I suggest you leave unless you want 20 more taken away." Draco, who's mouth had been wide open the whole time, promptly shut it and left with out a word. "Harry, never ever listen to what Mr. Malfoy says."
"He told me the truth." Stony; backing away from Snape, "He's telling me what I've already known."
"No he's not. You did not murder any one. What were you going to do, if I was not here like I promised?"
"I probably would have shocked Malfoy then try jumping again."
"Well first off besides the shocking him, that is stupid; all we've been working for would have been lost, and secondly after your last jump there is a charm preventing any student from being able to jump."
"And I'm guessing you've also charmed all objects that are sharp so they can't pierce skin also?"
"Correct you are and I've also disposed of all my poisons, so you can't kill your self that way either."
"Drat you for being so prepared and concerned." A small hopeful smile crept to Harry's face. Un known to both that Draco was listening to every word from around the corner. Silently sneaking off undetected.
Snape and Harry walked down to Potions for class together.
"You know Harry you can go to your room if you'd like I would understand if you would prefer to, instead of having to see Mr. Malfoy again."
"No, that's okay; I'll have to get use to his comments anyways."
"Are you sure? Because you're going to be late and I heard the Potion's Master, even as handsome as he is, is a real jerk. I'd bet he'll take points off and all." Snape looked over to see a grin on Harry's face. It had been weeks and he hadn't really smiled, but now he was and that's all that mattered.
"Well I heard that he has had a change of heart, and is really nice and even gives out candy for the good students." Harry played along.
"Yeah I heard he did that too, in fact I know that to be true, but he hasn't given out one piece yet."
Stopping before the door Snape turned toward Harry, "If you need to get out of there you can just leave or if you want insult Mr. Malfoy and then I'll send you out."
"Yes sir, but I think I'll be fin."
Snape walked in and Harry hurried after him, they were five minutes late.
"Potter!" Snape roared trying hard to keep his smile as a smirk. "You're late!" he told him. At first Harry was confused but with one look at Snape he said, "Sorry I stopped to sign some autographs." Everyone stared at Harry in shock. How could he have the nerve to not be there for almost a month, show up late to Snape's class of all of them, and then talk back to Snape?" He had to be asking for a quick death.
"That's enough out of you. A detention I think will help you keep your fame in check, take a seat now before I make it worse."
Harry took his seat with Ron and Hermione in the back as Snape started his lecture. Ron and Hermione knew that Harry would only talk to Snape and Myrtle, but for Harry to say something like that was absurd. Scribbling a not on a piece of parchment Hermione handed it to him.
Harry-
What are you playing at? And how did we not lose any points Where are you staying at, you weren't in the boys dorm not the Hospital Wing."
-Herm
Picking up his quill and dipping it in the ink well he wrote back.
Yep - Own Room
A bit sad that he wasn't really responding to them but happy that he'd at least write a couple of words at a time, Hermione listened to the rest of Snape's lecture happily. ~~~
A/N: Ya've read it, now review it!
~~~ The look on the professor's face was priceless. Harry smiled a bit more.
"Why would you want to see her?"
"A promise." 'Well not really a promise but close enough.'
"I'll arrange that, but first you must eat this." The bowl of soup was back again.
"The whole thing?"
"Fine, but at least half. Let me go talk to Poppy."
Before Harry went into the bathroom where Myrtle was he stopped and turned to Snape, "May I go in alone please?"
With a wary look he agreed, "But only for five minuets."
"Hello Myrtle." A ghost came out of a stall and smiled happily at Harry.
But then her smile faltered, "This means we can't haunt the castle together now?"
"Maybe later, but you made a deal with me. I didn't kill myself so how do people become ghosts?"
"Is that the only reason you've come in here?" Tears starting to form.
"No, no I came to talk to you also. I had to ask special permission to go anywhere at all."
Looking satisfied, "well there are two main ways to become a ghost, no three. The first one is if you have had terror in your life that leaves you un able to rest, this gives you a way to revenge your tormentors by haunting them. The second is if you didn't fulfill your purpose in life, and the third one is if you are so bad and yet so good that you can't enter Heaven or Hell. A rare trait but none the less affective."
"Does it hurt to become a ghost?"
"Not overly."
"And do you have to learn how to go through things or do you just do it?"
Harry's five minuets were up, Professor Snape had came in to hear the last question, "It is time to go."
"Yes sir, Goodbye Myrtle." "Bye Harry, come visit again." Once outside of the little bathroom, Snape turned to Harry, "Why were you asking such things?" He didn't say it harshly like he normally would have but instead as if he truly cared which surprised Harry.
"Because I wanted to know."
"Is that the promise you made?"
"Somewhat. If I didn't kill myself then she would tell me why I'd be a ghost."
"Who said you would be a ghost?"
"She did."
"Alright," They silently walked back to the hospital wing.
Over the next week Harry refused to talk to anyone but Snape and Myrtle when she came to visit. Even when they allowed Ron and Hermione in to see him, he wouldn't even acknowledge them. Harry was just as morbid and upset, but at least he stopped trying to kill himself, no matter how much he wanted to.
One day while there Snape, decided to see how much Harry trusted him, It surprised him when Harry had been so open to him while shutting everyone else out. "So Harry tell me who is the lucky witch you've got your eye on?" Knowing he wouldn't answer truthfully.
"No one, as of late"
"Oh, really, then who did you use to like?"
Looking around to make sure no one was around he whispered, "Cho Chang of Ravenclaw."
Snape was utterly shocked; he never thought that Harry would have told him. "Nice choice, picking a smart one."
"Sir, may I ask who you like, or use to like?"
Not wanting to answer but also knowing that Harry would shut him out entirely if he doesn't answer he replied, "The last woman I liked was Madam Rosetta."
"Not bad." Harry felt that he could trust Snape with anything. For one the night Snape didn't stay late with him was the night Harry had a nightmare, he saw Snape telling Voldemort that Dumbledore is trusting him less and less, which in turn ended with Snape getting Crucio, while Harry got a head ach. Seeing Snape pay for his mistakes made Harry cling to him, knowing he was the only one that truly knew how he felt.
"Harry you are going to need to attend school again, sometime."
"I know. But what if I lose it. What if Malfoy drives me crazy and I try to end it all again? What if I'm not ready to go back I don't want to end up a ghost?"
"Well by saying all of that I'm sure you'll be fine. And if you ever need to talk just come to me, when ever."
A teary eyed Harry flung his arms around the Potion Master. After a second of hesitation Snape hugged him back. Harry just sobbed. "Harry what's wrong?"
"Just that well no one's really has been able to be there for me in the past, and I'm so thankful for you saving me and putting up with me. Even though I'm half James."
Snape chuckled at that. "No problem Harry, no problem."
Harry didn't want to go back to a dorm full of boys so he requested a privet room, and was granted his request as long as Dobby was watching him at all times while alone. Harry didn't mind that at all. He understood the need to have him there.
After having a day to get settled and unpack the supplies purchased for him he was heading to his first class back, History of Magic. Once in the class room, being early, he picked a seat in the very back corner close to the door. When Hermione and Ron entered they came sprinting up to him.
"Hello Harry." He looked up at their hopeful faces but didn't reply. A hurt expression formed on their faces, when Harry nodded to the chairs next to him. Satisfied with that Hermione hugged him quickly letting go. "Harry we've been so worried and .."
"We are glad to have you back." Ron butted in.
Harry smiled a bit in appreciation but still silent. Ron and Hermione didn't seem to car, they were just so happy for him to be back safe. Class went by and Harry managed to stay awake the entire time which had to be a record. Next was lunch, Harry was expected to start eating in the Great Hall again. As much as he didn't want to, if he didn't show up people would be worried and he would be hungry. 'Anyways,' he reasoned with himself, 'next is double potions to look forward to, Snape will be there.'
Slowly Harry entered the Hall with his friends. As Harry sat down he could hear many whispers about his absence. All the Gryffindor were asking him where he has been, endless chatter, drilling into his head. Trying to block it out with his hands he got up and ran for it. Quickly Snape left the Staff Table. While looking for Harry, he heard the drawing voice of Draco. "Well Potter decided to hide as long as you could? Scared everyone will hate you for killing Cedric?" Snape quickened his pace almost running, terming the corner. "If I were you I'd kill myself by now, what Potty going to cry now? You little."
"Mr. Malfoy!" Snape found them, "2 weeks of detention and 30 points from Slytherin!"
Harry ran to Snape clinging to him for dear life. "It's okay Harry. You did no do anything wrong. Mr. Malfoy I suggest you leave unless you want 20 more taken away." Draco, who's mouth had been wide open the whole time, promptly shut it and left with out a word. "Harry, never ever listen to what Mr. Malfoy says."
"He told me the truth." Stony; backing away from Snape, "He's telling me what I've already known."
"No he's not. You did not murder any one. What were you going to do, if I was not here like I promised?"
"I probably would have shocked Malfoy then try jumping again."
"Well first off besides the shocking him, that is stupid; all we've been working for would have been lost, and secondly after your last jump there is a charm preventing any student from being able to jump."
"And I'm guessing you've also charmed all objects that are sharp so they can't pierce skin also?"
"Correct you are and I've also disposed of all my poisons, so you can't kill your self that way either."
"Drat you for being so prepared and concerned." A small hopeful smile crept to Harry's face. Un known to both that Draco was listening to every word from around the corner. Silently sneaking off undetected.
Snape and Harry walked down to Potions for class together.
"You know Harry you can go to your room if you'd like I would understand if you would prefer to, instead of having to see Mr. Malfoy again."
"No, that's okay; I'll have to get use to his comments anyways."
"Are you sure? Because you're going to be late and I heard the Potion's Master, even as handsome as he is, is a real jerk. I'd bet he'll take points off and all." Snape looked over to see a grin on Harry's face. It had been weeks and he hadn't really smiled, but now he was and that's all that mattered.
"Well I heard that he has had a change of heart, and is really nice and even gives out candy for the good students." Harry played along.
"Yeah I heard he did that too, in fact I know that to be true, but he hasn't given out one piece yet."
Stopping before the door Snape turned toward Harry, "If you need to get out of there you can just leave or if you want insult Mr. Malfoy and then I'll send you out."
"Yes sir, but I think I'll be fin."
Snape walked in and Harry hurried after him, they were five minutes late.
"Potter!" Snape roared trying hard to keep his smile as a smirk. "You're late!" he told him. At first Harry was confused but with one look at Snape he said, "Sorry I stopped to sign some autographs." Everyone stared at Harry in shock. How could he have the nerve to not be there for almost a month, show up late to Snape's class of all of them, and then talk back to Snape?" He had to be asking for a quick death.
"That's enough out of you. A detention I think will help you keep your fame in check, take a seat now before I make it worse."
Harry took his seat with Ron and Hermione in the back as Snape started his lecture. Ron and Hermione knew that Harry would only talk to Snape and Myrtle, but for Harry to say something like that was absurd. Scribbling a not on a piece of parchment Hermione handed it to him.
Harry-
What are you playing at? And how did we not lose any points Where are you staying at, you weren't in the boys dorm not the Hospital Wing."
-Herm
Picking up his quill and dipping it in the ink well he wrote back.
Yep - Own Room
A bit sad that he wasn't really responding to them but happy that he'd at least write a couple of words at a time, Hermione listened to the rest of Snape's lecture happily. ~~~
A/N: Ya've read it, now review it!