Emotion Sickness
A/n: Mwee. I'm baaaaaaaaaaaack. Listening to Ani' still. Hehe I get to see my ((Later date- EX)) girlfriend tomorrow! ^////^ . Y'know what, I dun wanna talk much now. So on to the Disc'
Disclaimer: Don't own Zoids, SilverChair, Ani' anything, but Tori' and the plot event, most of 'em. Ah….this takes place a few episodes after chapter one. Definitely after Leena gets her Gunsniper. Oh beware some Leena bashing if not a little here, to come. Well on to chap two. I put in "Ana's song: Open Fire" By Silverchair. It's about Anorexia. Daniel Johns, the singer, has it. T_T He's a skinny sexy man, but he's getting better. ^^'
Emotion Sickness: Breakdown
Brad awoke to the serene quiet that is the time before Leena and Bit-chan began to fight, where the only noises were the sounds of sizzling, doors closing and pans gently clunking on surfaces; Jaime cooking. He rolled over onto his back, folding his arms behind his head.
~Please Die Ana
For as long as you're here we're not
You make the sound of laughter~
He'd had an unnerving dream about Tori and was fearful since she hadn't been doing too well lately. He yawned and thought of Bit, how often he would catch his eyes, or how playful he would act around him. Ever since the battle against the Backdraft for the first time, he felt even stronger about him, and because of his doubts, he emerged himself into fantasy, as much as he could, where he could really hope Bit loved him too. He gave a small sigh and sat up, stretching, then pulled a shirt over his head.
Brad walked into the kitchen to find Doc devouring a plate of pancakes while reading the paper
"Ohayoo. " Doc said as Brad nodded, pouring a cup of coffee.
"Ohayoo gozaimasu." he said to them both.
"Pancakes, Brad?" Jaime asked as Brad shook his head.
"No thank you, I'm not hungry." he said sitting down and taking a sip.
~And sharpened nails seem softer
And I need you now somehow
And I need you now somehow~
Soon after, Bit stumbled in, sleepy-eyed and tousled, in a white t-shirt and baggy blue pants.
"Ossu'." He yawned, plopping down next to Brad, and turning his head, giving him a childish grin, then rested his head on Brad's shoulder. Brad blushed happily a little, and smiled back. ((A/n: Ecstatic. ^_^)) Bit yawned a "thank you" to Jaime who'd given him a plate of pancakes. He sat up slowly and attacked the foot-high pile with what looked like ½ a gallon of maple syrup. ((a/n: ^ ^ He's gonna have one helluva sugar headache.)) When about half the stack was gone and Brad only had a few sips of coffee left, the four team-members in the kitchen heard a shrill yell that could only be one person. Leena. ((a/n: ¬_¬;))
"BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT????!?!!!! WHERE ARE MY COOKIES!?"
"I wouldn't know!" Bit looked to Brad and gave another cute grin. "Maybe you are it, like you do EVERYTHING else! And why are you eating COOKIES for BREAKFAST anyway?! It's not healthy!" Brad and Bit shared a small laugh as Leena stormed closer.
"It's not WHY I'm eating them! It's the PRINCIPAL!!!" She screamed as Bit smiled again with Brad.
"Yeah, yeah, yeah! You and your goddamn 'principals'!" He remarked getting up, catching Brad's heartbreaking sapphire eyes, and slowly had to look away, blushing slightly. He quickly recovered himself and tried to make a joke, which was actually a pathetic truth.
"And thus officially begins new day at the Tauros Base. Ja'!" he said smiling and running off, Leena right on his tail.
~Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire, on my knees, desires
What I need from you~
Sometime around ten-thirty the phone rang and Bit picked it up, mid-beating from Leena, who paused.
"Moshi Moshi?" he said listening, his expression growing slightly worried.
"Brad! For you! A Doctor Andean!" he called as Brad quickly took the phone.
"Hello!?……..yeah…shit….no, no I'm coming, I'll be there as soon as I can…Yes…Thank you."
~Imagine Pageant
In my head the flesh seems thicker~
Bit watched Brad hastily hang up the phone, and go into his room rapidly. He came out, momentarily, a bag over his shoulder, going into the kitchen.
"Doctor Tauros, I cannot participate in the battle today. Jaime? Can you cover for me, Please?"
"Yeah, sure." Jaime answered as Doc looked concerned.
"Brad, are you okay?"
"Sorta. I might be back tonight, but I don't know. I'm sorry, I don't expect any kind of payment, thank you." He said bowing and heading to the hangar, as Bit caught his wrist in the doorway, after getting away from Leena.
~Sand paper tears
Corrode the filth~
"Brad? Really? What's wrong?" He said as Brad looked away.
"I….I have to go. I'll be back….someone's sick, that's all…" He said hesitating slightly, feeling like he was lost at sea when he gazed into Bit's eyes.
"Are you sure you're gonna be okay, Brad?" he asked as Brad hesitated again, swallowing hard.
"I..I don't know….But I have to go." he said tearing himself away, climbing into the Command Wolf launching immediately.
~And I need you now somehow
And I need you now somehow ~
Bit stood there, blushing a little, feeling incredibly worried about Brad. Liger Zero gave a low, rumbling, growl.
"Yeah…..I'm worried too, pal."
Liger growled again.
"I guess I could….but he'd probably just get mad…"
Liger gave a purr-ish growl and Bit's blush returned and he gave a cute grin.
"Hehe, I guess you're right…." He said climbing into the cockpit.
~Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you~
…
Brad made his way to maximum security and stood outside Tori's room, or closet with a barred up window, was more like it, with Dr. Andean. He was an old, chunky man with big thick coke bottle glasses, and bushy ears and eyebrows. The deep set wrinkles made him hard to read, most of the time.
"What happened?" he asked calmly, but concern ebbed deeply in his voice.
"As you may know, the patient had been declining for several days. She began to start to act out and not cooperate. She would not take her medication, or let anyone touch her."
"Then why didn't you contact me?!" Brad demanded as the doctor shook his bushy white head.
"Because it is our Job—"
"Fuck that! She'll listen to me! What else happened, that couldn't have been enough for you to put her here."
"You are right, she had another nightmare and became violent and out of control. She began to injure herself and others." He answered. "We had to get her under control and we did."
Brad looked in again. She was propped up in a rocking chair with a blanket draped over her knees, swaying slightly, her eyes unfocused narrow slits, glazed over almost.
"She's fucking comatose!" He yelled as the doctor nodded.
"Temporarily."
"What'd you give her? Thorozine?"
"Correct. it's to prevent her from hurting herself as well as others."
"You should have consulted me.." he trailed off piteously, looking in at her again.
~Open fire
On the needs desires
What I need from you~
Bit followed Brad into the building and heard where he was going. He lied himself in and stood outside with a pang of something, hurting him as he watched Brad sit with his head hung low, feet up on the chair, chin on his knees, one hand holding the Comatose girl's, ((Hehe one of my reviewers sn's was that. Hiya Blue-chan! *glomps* Ooh! Ooh! Jackie Blue! *grins*)) who was slumped in a chair. He took another step in as Brad's head shot up and he stood abruptly.
"W-what are you doing here!?" he demanded as Bit stepped closer. "Go home, now!"
"Brad…." he said trailing off sadly as Brad began to get upset.
"I don't want you here, now please go." he said again as Bit smiled.
"No, you don't. You want me to be here with you, I can see it in your eyes." Bit told him as Brad turned bright pinkish.
"Please…go…" He trailed off, looking away as Bit shook his head.
~And you're my obsession
I love you to the bones~
"Not right now, now you need a friend, and well you got me." He smiled as the corners of Brad's lips turned into a very weak smile.
"So who is she?" Bit questioned as Brad turned back to the girl.
"My little sister, Tori, and well, Okaasan called her Hina-chan." he said with a slightly wider smile, looking distant.
"Called?" Bit inquired further.
"She died a few years ago. Tousan died in a Zoid accident when Tor' was six and I was fifteen…"
"So you had to raise her?"
"Yeah…Naomi and I."
"Naomi? So you're a….?"
"No….Naomi and her girlfriend are quite happy. ((A/N: No we're not, this Naomi at least.)) We're childhood friends. Like siblings almost. Raising Tori was kind of like we were little kids again, and Naomi was making me play "house" and I got stuck being the father, she was the mother, and Tor' was the Baby. I think we took it as seriously too." he said sounding sarcastic or something.
"Oh, So why is she here?"
~When Ana wrecks your life
Like an anorexia life~
"Tori had it rough. Money was scarce, despite that combined Naomi and I worked six jobs at a time and all. She didn't get as much of the attention she deserved., though we tried. When she was twelve she got depressed and began to change. She wouldn't eat, she didn't sleep, she barely talked to anyone even us, she began to cut herself... Naomi and I knew she needed help, so we put her here, Naomi and I quit our numerous day jobs, Naomi took the Zoid she had bought in high school, fixed it up, I took my Dad's Command Wolf, fixed that up, and we both became mercenaries. Things didn't go so well in the beginning for me, but Naomi had it better fighting singles and Duel style. Not many teams could afford, or wanted a mercenary, and on top of that I only had instinct and the basic knowledge my father taught me. And well I've been a mercenary since then."
"Oh, Brad….I'm so sorry…" He said giving him a hug that (Pleasantly) surprised the brunette warrior. "I'm so sorry if I ever called you cheap, stingy, a miser or anything like that!"
"It's okay." He said feeling better.
"Why didn't you tell anyone? I mean you might've been able to get a raise or something. At least get them all off your back."
"No. Because, Besides, it doesn't look too well on the records since a lot of this stuff is in genetics and runs in families. Think of it this way, would you like to have a mercenary who might have Bipolar and suddenly go off in battle. It's dangerous, and people fear it, though that's mostly common perception, when you're on medication risks are lessened. I hate people feeling sorry for me, pitying me. It makes me sick. "
"Brad…"
"Especially those stupid old people who would either comment on "What a lovely daughter I had" or just sneer thinking I was some reckless, irresponsible teen-father. They'd always say stuff to Naomi like 'slut' or 'easy', but then it was a little funny coz she almost beat the crap out of some forty year old guy who made a pass at her." Brad remembered. "We were just like a little family, except the opposite."
"Opposite?" Bit inquired as Brad flushed.
"I mean! Like, how Naomi's an 'Esbian ((A/N: fun term Jackie Blue made up for one of my Lesbian friends who went through a slight period of Hetero-sexuality. Jackie said "she lost her 'L'!")) and all and it was always a big joke!" He half lied, leaving his part out. "But the people who thought Tor' was my daughter….I couldn't believe I mean, I'm only almost 21! I don't look that old, do I?" He asked with a small laugh.
"Yes and no. It's like Jaime, looks young, acts like he's your age, err, most of the time. And then there's me, an exception, I'm almost 18 and I act Jaime's age!" They both laughed, "But you? You look a little under twenty-one, but you act old, as in, responsible and sensible, but you stay kind and goodhearted, you know, all that good shit." Bit said with a grin.
They fell silent for a moment or so, Brad blushing lightly, until a red head poked in.
"Hey." She said pushing back her front pieces of hair, walking in.
"Naomi." Bit said with a grin and a nod as she looked at him then Brad, smiling and raising an eyebrow.
"What's he doing here?" Naomi asked Brad as Bit shrugged and answered.
"I followed him," Bit said smiling at Brad who looked down at the floor bashfully.
"So, Brad, what do they have her on?" She asked turning to Tori and looking at her glumly.
"Thorozine."
"Ooh. Nasty shit." Naomi winced walking over and giving her a kiss on the forehead.
"My poor little Hina-chan…." She said quietly as the girls hand moved slightly.
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~Open fire, on the needs designed ~
Bit sat with his head resting on Brad's bare shoulder; they'd been dozing since Naomi had left for her battle.
/BATTLE!!??!!!/ Bit thought, not jumping up, as to not wake Brad. /Ah well, they can survive without me for once…/ Bit said to himself, nuzzling closer to Brad.
~
~On my knees for you~
Sometime around Seven thirty they traveled back to the base. Bit looked at Brad through the open comm. Link. He'd never seen him so…so…. /distant…/ Bit thought as Brad sighed and rubbed his eyes and Bit closed the link.
~
~Open fire on the needs desires~
Brad and Bit walked in to find a fuming Leena, wielding a shovel.
"BIIIIITT!!!!! Where the HELL WERE you!?!? Since you DITCHED us we had to hire HARRY!! HARRY!!!" She yelled about to come down on him with the handle of the shovel as Brad's hand sharply held her wrist.
"It's my fault." He said as she looked at him shocked. "I asked him to stay with me. If you blame anyone, blame me." Brad lied as Leena backed up a little, not believing what she heard. /WHAT!? He NEVER gets involved! What's with him!? He won't even look at me! Oh man! I wonder where they really were! And what they were really doing!/ Leena thought as he spoke again. "Okay?"
"Y-Yeah, sure! Gotcha!" She said looking to Bit who turned away, as to not meet her eyes. /GAWD! Now I really wonder!/
"Now, Excuse me." He said letting go and walked into his room.
Leena turned to Bit, "So where were you Bit?" She asked with fake innocence and an evil smile. Bit heard Brad's words echo in his head, from before they came in. 'You can tell them where you were if they ask you, I won't ask you to lie.'
"I was at the hospital with Brad. His, err, SISTER, um, fell, yeah and broke her arm! And um, he was the only one they could get in contact with 'coz his Mum and Dad work! Yeah. And he had to….to…sign papers and, pay for her and stuff."
Leena wasn't satisfied and gave a questioning look, as Bit started to half-lie again.
"And then we went back to his parent's place and made sure she was okay… We watched a Movie!!" He faltered nervously. (He wasn't a good liar.) ((a/n: *Remembers the skit at PFY with Ryan and JP, about having safe sex and since they had no condoms they didn't coz Ryan was "Playing it safe" and JP was like "Oh yeah we're gonna be watching a lot of movies!"*^^;))
"Hah! So you mean Brad threw down cash for THAT?!" Leena laughed callously. "He's such a cheapassed bastard!" She laughed as Bit grew furious.
"SHUT the FUCK UP!! You don't know anything!!! Brad's not stingy, miserly, or a cheapassed bastard, greedy or anything like that!! He's a kind loving brother who'd do anything for his family! And he's got a very good heart! So just shut the fuck up!" Bit exploded as Leena backed up again. Bit stormed off angrily to his room as Leena scratched her head and leaned on the shovel. /Really!/
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~Open Fire on the needs desires~
Brad blushed as he heard Bit screaming at Leena. /Maybe he does care about me…/ He thought pushing his long brown hair behind his ears, then filled a small cup with water from the sink in his private bathroom. ((a/n: i El Baño Privado! Hehe no more Spanish class! Yes!)) He walked back into the main room and sat on the bed, balancing the cup of water on his knees. He opened a bottle and took two pills and then swallowed them with the water. He placed them both on the night table and curled up on the bed thinking of his itooshi 's sweet words.
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~Open fire on the needs desires~
Bit couldn't sleep later that night so he sat in the Liger Zero as he usually did, talking to his companion. He was a little fidgety and just plain not tired, and Brad was still on his mind. Brad perplexed him, he was such an enigma to Bit.
"He's like a snail!" Bit said suddenly to his Mechanical friend. "But as funny as it sounds, he kinda is… He acts all tough and all to us, but deep down under his shell/façade, he's all mushy!" Bit couldn't help but laugh. "He really cares about his sister. I'm sure that if she was sick with a disease and needed an organ transplant or something he wouldn't even think of himself. Brad's such a depressing guy, I mean, he's blaming all this on himself…"
"Right, Liger?" He asked as it purred.
"Yeah, yeah. I'm probably being biased because of my little crush, but….." Liger gave a laughing like growl.
"Hmm…you know he hasn't really come out of his room since we came back, I'm gonna go see if he's okay." Bit opened up the cockpit as Liger 'laughed' again.
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~On my knees for you~
((a/N: Fuck the centering die Microsoft word, die!))
Bit knocked but Brad didn't answer, or he couldn't hear one. He cracked open the door and peeked in.
"Brad?" He saw him curled up on his bed, asleep. He crept over and noticed the almost full canister of what it read to be Sleeping Pills. /No use trying to wake him…/ Bit thought pulling a blanket over Brad, smiling.
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[ end chapter two. To be continued….]
( A/n: Be thankful for this chapter. Grr, you don't know the hell my computer has been putting me through. (not to mention life) First, well lets set the scene, it's eleven thirty pm, a Sunday night, I have to get up for summer school the next day (I'm a stupid overachiever stupid me) I have two paragraph's left and it closes file. I didn't save from when Brad was telling why Tori was in the hospital. GRR! So yeah. Now it's just being pissy. Oh sorry about the "bad timing" of the song lyrics, I don't remember where I put them. Grr. Also you're lucky I already wrote chap. Three and that I like it and this fic so much that you are still getting a happy ending. My girlfriend, no Girlfiend, or Ex-girlfiend dumped me last night. (July third) Unhappy, but glad I didn't get far with her. Stupid biotch. Grr argh. When's this damn site gonna finally work good? I know, shut up, Naomi. Naomi no in good mood, though I had one of my friends ask me if she could kill her for me. I felt loved. Hehe. Oh, Japanese Note: Ohayoo, Ohayoo Gozaimasu and Ossu are as follows. Less formal an elder can recognize (say "Hello") a younger with this, The next is very formal, use this to elders or to be respectful, and Ossu is just like a cute, casual "Hi" use between friends, Bit may have gotten looked down on saying that to Brad but mainly Doc, as being rude and disrespectful. If you shall use them use Ohayoo Gozaimasu. Pronunciation as follows. Ohayoo (Oh- hay (long a, ah-ish)-u) Ohayoo Gozaimasu (Ohayoo gO (long 'O')- zhai- mahs) Ossu (Ah-s (No not ass)
Other Japanese notes:
Ja': Shortened form of Ja ne or Ja mata. Both meaning "See ya" I've heard Duo use it in Endless Waltz as well as Haruka Tenoh in Sailor Moon.
Moshi Moshi: "Hello" on the telephone.
Okaasan: Mom
OToosan: Dad
O genki desu ka: (Oh gehn key deas' kah) "Hi how are you?"
Hai: Yes, to be used in context, seen it used, as in right here, yes, etc.
Nani or Nande: (Nah- nee / Nahn day) "what" questioning I think, "Nande Kuso" is what the hell. (Nande K'soh)
Suffixes: to be added on to end of name
-chan: term of affection. (Usually girl to girl in friendships can be used on Boys in a relationship vice versa, parent to child)
-san : term of respect
-Sama: term of major respect, almost claiming you are 'god' It's for very self centered people
-Kun: everyday term of affection, for boys mainly, can be used girl to girl if they are the same status.
I could go on, but I won't, If you want to know some more, e-mail me or leave your email in the review. I just got an audio-tape plus manual on how to learn it so I'm willing to share the joy. Just if you mail me, put something about Fanfiction.net in the subj. please, otherwise I'll delete it thinking it's either smut mail or junk.
Yare, (well) Naomi's arm is gonna fall off in about five mins so I gotta go! Ja Mata minna-san.
(see you later everyone!)