I have learned a lot by writing this story about, love, loss, hope and strength. You can learn a lot by reading and writing, I have learned tons of information that most people don't know let alone think about at my age but I matured before any one else I know and I have been threw many situations that caused my adulthood to come quickly, although I still have a lot to learn.

Regaining Strength

By MoshiMoshiQueen

~Thoughts~

"Talking"

(Me Talking)

Syaoran's POV

"Syaoran, I want to try again."

I stood there not knowing what to feel nor say. I didn't know if I could handle it again, what if it happens again? What if it doesn't? What if I lose another child? How could I cope with that again?

"I… Sakura I don't know what to say."

"Don't say any thing just know that I'm ready to try again if you are."

"I don't know if I could cope if it happened again."

"I have thought about that and I realized the only way we will fully heal is if we try again."

"How do you figure that?"

"Because if everything goes fine than we will have a child, our child. If it doesn't we will go on and heal again."

"How can you be so sure?"

"Because I have you, I know we can make it. I know we can. Together."

I realized her faith in our love and I realize my heart had been aching for another try.

"Sakura, I'm ready too."

"You sure?"

"More than sure, I know we can make if threw it. I know we can."

So we did, we tried to get pregnant again, we tried several times with no results and things were getting hopeless but finally the test came back positive and I felt that same joy but that same fear again overwhelm me.

All I had to do was to say, "we can do this together. I know we can, we can make it threw this."

Sakura knew I was struggling and acknowledged that and helped me gain some of my strength back.

After the third month we were hopeful that everything was fine and every thing was. But my curse was I looked for everything that could be wrong and everything that could go wrong but Sakura stopped me usually by kissing me, letting me forget those thoughts.

But she let me take my time, my strength came from her, and I don't know what I would do with out her by my side,

Fifth month- more than half done and everything was going smoothly. We were praying every night and day making sure we checked for signs or miscarriage and made sure we went to all the classes and doctors appointments.

We prepared for loss or for the moment we had waited for, for so long. The moment when we got to hold out child.

I felt it's kicking the other day and it made me cry and Sakura held my head in her lap letting me feel the baby's kicking and felt it's heart beat. It was a joy that you can't explain. That you can't even remotely talk about.

That day filled my life with all the hope and strength I needed to survive no matter what.

Ninth Month- the month we were very afraid and hopeful. We knew it could go either way, death or new life.

The moment Sakura yelled, "No, the baby is coming now!"

Was the best moment of my life, the best moment of OUR lives. We had to stay 36 hours in the delivering room but it was worth it, it was worth all our tears and pains.

It was that day when I held my child when I looked at Sakura and saw the look of happiness and joy not sorrow and pain.

I held our baby close to me never wanting to let go, making my promise to keep him safe and forever free of pain.

Sakura's face lit up every time out baby was in the room, whenever we talked about our healthy baby boy.

We got lucky, we didn't have any complications and the birth went smoothly leaving us left breathless at out child.

We named him Li Xiao-lang, my Chinese name as Ying-fa had been Sakura's. He was 8 pounds, 6 ounces and our hearts never felt so much happiness. She wanted to name the baby after me, because I gave her strength. But really she gave me strength.

We made it together, threw all out pain and grief.

Today Ying-fa's second birthday we visited her showing her, her little brother and we knew she was smiling down on us saying hello to her sweet little brother who gave her parents new hope for the future.

We made it threw the process some how and we regained love, hope but most of all we regained our strength.

I know it was a short story but it fit its purpose, the loss and the gain of pregnancy. It gave me new hope and hopefully it gave you new hope. I hope that my fic helped others, it sure did help me a lot. I really hope you enjoyed this fic as much as I enjoyed writing it. Thank you, sincerely, MoshiMoshiQueen.