Jamie and I sat in bed talking for over an hour. We talked about everything imaginable concerning the baby, and Jamie's health. I didn't want to sound like a terrible person, but it was really Jamie's health that concerned me most, and as much as I tried to get rid of the feeling.. I still felt guilty for getting Jamie pregnant. For possibly cutting Jamie's life short, and I knew that the rest of her life would now be much more difficult for her. The more I thought about it, the more the overwhelming, sickening feeling of guilt overtook me. Just an hour ago, I was the one reassuring Jamie everything was alright.. and now, I wasn't even convinced. Jamie had faith though. As scared as she was, her faith overpowered any bit of fear in her, and she returned to my happy, optimistic Jamie.
Our conversation turned lighter, and I even had Jamie laughing a bit. But, we were suddenly interrupted by the sound of the phone..
I leaned in and kissed Jamie gently on the forhead. "I'll be right back." and she smiled.
I walked across the room to answer the phone.
"Hello?"
"Landon, are you okay?" Asked a worried voice.
I then remembered.. Jamie and I had been so involved with the current situation that we had forgotten to call my mother and tell her we weren't coming for dinner.
"Landon? Is everything alright??"
"Yeah mom.. We're really sorry. Umm.." I decided now wasn't the time to tell my mother what was going on. "Jamie was just tired mom, that's all. I thought it best that I bring her home so she could get some rest. We were both really tired actually.. I guess we just forgot. We're both really sorry."
My mother was a great woman. She wasn't upset. She was just glad that everything was okay.. or at least that's what I had lead her to believe.
"No mom, that's alright.. Jamie's fine.. Yes mom, I'm sure.. Yes.. yes.."
I looked at Jamie and rolled my eyes jokingly. My mother was such a worrier.
"Hey mom?" I couldn't tell her now, but I knew that we had to tell her soon.
"How about you come over tomorrow afternoon for lunch? To make up for missing today... Alright mom... No, you don't have to bring anything... Uh huh... Okay mom... Yeah, I'll tell her... I love you too mom. Bye.. *click*"
I walked back over to Jamie, and sat beside her.
"My mom sends her love."
Jamie smiled, "I really love your mom."
"Yeah.. she's great."
"How do you think she's going to feel about this?" Jamie asked, and I could sense some nervousness in her voice..
I let out a sigh, and shrugged my shoulders, "I'm not actually sure."
I looked at Jamie after fiddling with my fingers a bit, and asked, "What do you think your father's going to think about this..?"
I didn't even really need to ask. Most father's-in-law aren't usually too thrilled about their little girl getting pregnant. And with Jamie's condition on top of everything... Oh, I certainly wasn't going to be winning Son-in-law of the year award this year.
Jamie just looked down as I had done when she asked me about my mother. We both knew her father probably wasn't going to take this well, but we had to tell him...
"Oh Landon.. He isn't going to like this." she said with sadness in her voice.
I took Jamie's hands into mine, and squeezed them gently, and coaxed her face slightly, to look at me.
"Jamie, I love you. We're going to get through this.. I promise you baby, I will make sure that everything is alright."
Jamie smiled slightly, with tears in her eyes, and whispered.. "Oh I love you Landon. So much."
I kissed Jamie softly, and rested my forhead against hers. I knew we were going to get through this...
The next day was beautiful. The sun, the trees, the view of the water from our bedroom window.. It was all so beautiful. I don't think we could have asked for a nicer summer day. We decided that we would have lunch outside on the patio. It was deffinetly too nice a day to eat inside.
Jamie was bringing out a pitcher of iced tea, when we heard my mother knock on the door.
"I'll get it!" Jamie yelled to me, as I was in the kitchen getting the dishes ready to take outside.
"Hello sweetheart!" my mother greeted Jamie with a hug.
Jamie smiled, "Hello Mrs. Carter, It's so great to see you. Landon is just setting the table outside. We thought it was too beautiful out to eat inside."
My mother smiled and said, "That sounds great. I know Landon told me not to bring anything.. but, I just had so many potatoes, and I thought I would bring you guys some potatoe salad.
Jamie smiled politely and took one of the two big bowls of potatoe salad my mother had made.
"Thank you so much Mrs. Carter."
Jamie then went and set the extra bowl in the fridge to chill, and Jamie and my mother came outside, to a fully set table.
"Oh, wow, everything looks great!" my mother sounded surprised.
My mother not so quietly whispered to Jamie that she had never seen me cook a thing in my life.
"You've certainly changed him Jamie.." my mother smiled and winked at her, and we all had a good laugh.
We then heard another knock at the door, just before Jamie sat down.
"That must be my father.. Landon, I'm feeling a bit tired, would you mind getting it?"
I went over to Jamie, and pushed her chair in, and then kissed her forhead gently, and smiled.
"I'll be right back."
I opened the door, and greeted the reverend with a handshake. "Hello reverend, it's good to see you."
He smiled, and nodded, "It's good to see you too Landon."
"Uh, Jamie and my mom are just sitting out back. Everything is set, so come on in."I then led the Reverend out onto the patio.
"Daddy!" Jamie greeted him with joy. He then walked over and placed a kiss on her head, and asked, "How's my little girl doing?"
"I'm fine daddy" Jamie smiled.
We were finally all gathered together.. Jamie and I had planned on waiting until after lunch, but I just couldn't wait. My palms were starting to sweat, and I was too nervous to eat anything, so I gave Jamie a knowing smile, and took her hand into mine.
"Mom.. Reverend.." I cleared my throat. "There was something Jamie and I wanted to tell you.. and that's why we wanted you both here today." I cleared my throat again, and I think Jamie must have felt the sweat from my hand, or she could just tell.. I was extremely nervous. So she took over from there.
"We went for my doctors appointment yesterday.. and they kept me a bit longer than usual. They did a few extra tests on me, and they found out... that I'm pregnant."
Those words still hit me with the shock that they did the first time Jamie told me. I think this time it was more of a shock that we had just told our parents.. and we were now waiting for them to respond. We must have sat there in silence for about 10 seconds, but for me it seemed like 10 minutes. My mother was the first to speak..
"Oh Landon.. Jamie! That's wonderful." and she burst into a smile.
She then hugged the both of us, while Jamie's dad still just sat there in silence, looking like he was thinking deeply to himself.
Jamie smiled lightly, a bit relieved that my mother was okay with what happened, but I could tell she was waiting for her father to say something.
"Daddy..?"
The Reverend looked up from his feet, and immediately looked at me, then Jamie. He had a hurt look in his eyes, and they were kind of glossy, as if he were about to cry.
"How could this happen? How could you let something like this happen? How.."
He stopped talking, and just looked down.
Jamie looked as if she were about to cry as well, and she just barely began to whisper, "Daddy.."
Then the Reverend slowly got out of his chair, and went inside. I heard the door shut, so I knew he must have been leaving. Jamie then started to cry, and I knew she wanted to go after him, but I just stood beside her chair, and held her. My mother held onto Jamie's hand, and stroked her hair gently, trying to comfort her the best she could.
"Oh Landon.." Jamie sobbed.
I knew that Jamie's father wouldn't be too happy about Jamie being pregnant, but I thought he would understand.. and I didn't think he would just leave like that. But maybe it was best he left, instead of saying something that would hurt Jamie.
I held Jamie against me as she cried, and my mother looked up at me, and I could tell she was shocked as well. My mother was happy for us.. but maybe because she didn't know much of Jamie's condition, and what this may do to her. I was glad my mother was happy about it though. I knew she would support us. I just hope that Jamie's father will too..
Our conversation turned lighter, and I even had Jamie laughing a bit. But, we were suddenly interrupted by the sound of the phone..
I leaned in and kissed Jamie gently on the forhead. "I'll be right back." and she smiled.
I walked across the room to answer the phone.
"Hello?"
"Landon, are you okay?" Asked a worried voice.
I then remembered.. Jamie and I had been so involved with the current situation that we had forgotten to call my mother and tell her we weren't coming for dinner.
"Landon? Is everything alright??"
"Yeah mom.. We're really sorry. Umm.." I decided now wasn't the time to tell my mother what was going on. "Jamie was just tired mom, that's all. I thought it best that I bring her home so she could get some rest. We were both really tired actually.. I guess we just forgot. We're both really sorry."
My mother was a great woman. She wasn't upset. She was just glad that everything was okay.. or at least that's what I had lead her to believe.
"No mom, that's alright.. Jamie's fine.. Yes mom, I'm sure.. Yes.. yes.."
I looked at Jamie and rolled my eyes jokingly. My mother was such a worrier.
"Hey mom?" I couldn't tell her now, but I knew that we had to tell her soon.
"How about you come over tomorrow afternoon for lunch? To make up for missing today... Alright mom... No, you don't have to bring anything... Uh huh... Okay mom... Yeah, I'll tell her... I love you too mom. Bye.. *click*"
I walked back over to Jamie, and sat beside her.
"My mom sends her love."
Jamie smiled, "I really love your mom."
"Yeah.. she's great."
"How do you think she's going to feel about this?" Jamie asked, and I could sense some nervousness in her voice..
I let out a sigh, and shrugged my shoulders, "I'm not actually sure."
I looked at Jamie after fiddling with my fingers a bit, and asked, "What do you think your father's going to think about this..?"
I didn't even really need to ask. Most father's-in-law aren't usually too thrilled about their little girl getting pregnant. And with Jamie's condition on top of everything... Oh, I certainly wasn't going to be winning Son-in-law of the year award this year.
Jamie just looked down as I had done when she asked me about my mother. We both knew her father probably wasn't going to take this well, but we had to tell him...
"Oh Landon.. He isn't going to like this." she said with sadness in her voice.
I took Jamie's hands into mine, and squeezed them gently, and coaxed her face slightly, to look at me.
"Jamie, I love you. We're going to get through this.. I promise you baby, I will make sure that everything is alright."
Jamie smiled slightly, with tears in her eyes, and whispered.. "Oh I love you Landon. So much."
I kissed Jamie softly, and rested my forhead against hers. I knew we were going to get through this...
The next day was beautiful. The sun, the trees, the view of the water from our bedroom window.. It was all so beautiful. I don't think we could have asked for a nicer summer day. We decided that we would have lunch outside on the patio. It was deffinetly too nice a day to eat inside.
Jamie was bringing out a pitcher of iced tea, when we heard my mother knock on the door.
"I'll get it!" Jamie yelled to me, as I was in the kitchen getting the dishes ready to take outside.
"Hello sweetheart!" my mother greeted Jamie with a hug.
Jamie smiled, "Hello Mrs. Carter, It's so great to see you. Landon is just setting the table outside. We thought it was too beautiful out to eat inside."
My mother smiled and said, "That sounds great. I know Landon told me not to bring anything.. but, I just had so many potatoes, and I thought I would bring you guys some potatoe salad.
Jamie smiled politely and took one of the two big bowls of potatoe salad my mother had made.
"Thank you so much Mrs. Carter."
Jamie then went and set the extra bowl in the fridge to chill, and Jamie and my mother came outside, to a fully set table.
"Oh, wow, everything looks great!" my mother sounded surprised.
My mother not so quietly whispered to Jamie that she had never seen me cook a thing in my life.
"You've certainly changed him Jamie.." my mother smiled and winked at her, and we all had a good laugh.
We then heard another knock at the door, just before Jamie sat down.
"That must be my father.. Landon, I'm feeling a bit tired, would you mind getting it?"
I went over to Jamie, and pushed her chair in, and then kissed her forhead gently, and smiled.
"I'll be right back."
I opened the door, and greeted the reverend with a handshake. "Hello reverend, it's good to see you."
He smiled, and nodded, "It's good to see you too Landon."
"Uh, Jamie and my mom are just sitting out back. Everything is set, so come on in."I then led the Reverend out onto the patio.
"Daddy!" Jamie greeted him with joy. He then walked over and placed a kiss on her head, and asked, "How's my little girl doing?"
"I'm fine daddy" Jamie smiled.
We were finally all gathered together.. Jamie and I had planned on waiting until after lunch, but I just couldn't wait. My palms were starting to sweat, and I was too nervous to eat anything, so I gave Jamie a knowing smile, and took her hand into mine.
"Mom.. Reverend.." I cleared my throat. "There was something Jamie and I wanted to tell you.. and that's why we wanted you both here today." I cleared my throat again, and I think Jamie must have felt the sweat from my hand, or she could just tell.. I was extremely nervous. So she took over from there.
"We went for my doctors appointment yesterday.. and they kept me a bit longer than usual. They did a few extra tests on me, and they found out... that I'm pregnant."
Those words still hit me with the shock that they did the first time Jamie told me. I think this time it was more of a shock that we had just told our parents.. and we were now waiting for them to respond. We must have sat there in silence for about 10 seconds, but for me it seemed like 10 minutes. My mother was the first to speak..
"Oh Landon.. Jamie! That's wonderful." and she burst into a smile.
She then hugged the both of us, while Jamie's dad still just sat there in silence, looking like he was thinking deeply to himself.
Jamie smiled lightly, a bit relieved that my mother was okay with what happened, but I could tell she was waiting for her father to say something.
"Daddy..?"
The Reverend looked up from his feet, and immediately looked at me, then Jamie. He had a hurt look in his eyes, and they were kind of glossy, as if he were about to cry.
"How could this happen? How could you let something like this happen? How.."
He stopped talking, and just looked down.
Jamie looked as if she were about to cry as well, and she just barely began to whisper, "Daddy.."
Then the Reverend slowly got out of his chair, and went inside. I heard the door shut, so I knew he must have been leaving. Jamie then started to cry, and I knew she wanted to go after him, but I just stood beside her chair, and held her. My mother held onto Jamie's hand, and stroked her hair gently, trying to comfort her the best she could.
"Oh Landon.." Jamie sobbed.
I knew that Jamie's father wouldn't be too happy about Jamie being pregnant, but I thought he would understand.. and I didn't think he would just leave like that. But maybe it was best he left, instead of saying something that would hurt Jamie.
I held Jamie against me as she cried, and my mother looked up at me, and I could tell she was shocked as well. My mother was happy for us.. but maybe because she didn't know much of Jamie's condition, and what this may do to her. I was glad my mother was happy about it though. I knew she would support us. I just hope that Jamie's father will too..