My Dear Jennifer:
I know I disappeared a few times, stayed out all night. Didn't want to admit that I had a problem, even when I came home drunk. I'm sorry about what I did to you and our beloved Nicholas. I know you probably don't want to hear from me, but I needed a new town if I was ever to have a fresh start. That's why I left Zootopia.
I have a new job now. The electronics department at the local Woolmart. It's not much, but it pays the bills and a little extra to send your way for Nicholas' college fund. I haven't had a drink in nineteen days. May not sound like much, but one day at a time. I'm even going to church again. I like the preacher here.
Honestly, it almost feels like I'm on a roll here in New Reynard. I feel like a mammal again. I just wish I could be there with you, but you're better off without me.
I wish I could tell you why I kept it all inside. The depression, the job frustration, being fired. Maybe I was just too proud, I don't know. You must have thought I was the worst kind of fox for lying to you and telling you everything was fine.
I lie here on this mattress on the floor, and those last few months we were together haunt me. I treated you and Nicholas so horribly. I refused help when you begged me to get it. I destroyed what we had, and that's something I'll never let myself forgive or forget until my dying breath.
I miss you, my beloved Jenny. I hope you and Nicholas are doing better.
And I'm sorry.
Charles
Jennifer Wilde scrunched the letter up in her paw, fresh tears springing forth. Those last few months with him had been Hell on Earth. She wasn't sure what had finally opened his eyes, but the day he left was both blessing and curse. She still loved him and was glad he was getting his life back together, but part of her knew that he was right. It was better this way.
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Inspired by Little Rock by Collin Raye.
This is a shout out to all those who are struggling to overcome drug and alcohol addictions. May you have the strength to conquer each day that comes.