Chibby didn't give us the romance we want- so I am yearning for The Doctor and Yaz's "happy" ending... like really yearning. If they don't give us a happy ending, I can make one myself! Build my own version of Doctor Who were it's all sunflowers and roses...

The Doctor and Yaz sat ontop of the TARDIS, both holding back tears.

"How could you not love a planet like that?" The Doctors eyes were wide, taking in the pure beauty of the planet she had saved so many times. It was always amazing to her. It always would be.

Yaz looked ahead, worried if she held The Doctors gaze she wouldn't be able to hold back the tears. "I don't want it to end." Her voice cracked slightly at the thought of it all just stopping. All those adventures they shared together would just stop. She would go back to her job. Back to normal life. That fact alone felt like her heart was being ripped from within her. She didn't want anything to end.

"A wise person once said to me, goodbyes only hurt because what came before was so special. And this bits so special. You! And graham. And Ryan. And Dan. Nobody else got to be us! Nobody else got to live our days. Nobody. And my hearts are so full of love of all of you." The Doctor smiled. She knew who she loved the most. The wonderful Yasmin Kahn had been by her side. "Oh I love loved being with you Yaz" "And I have loved being *me*"

Yaz was looking at the Doctor now, the tears couldn't be held back anymore. She shuffled closer to The Doctors side- until they were touching. She didn't know how to accept this. She was hurting for every possibility they never got to live through. All the time in the universe and she never got to say the things she truly wanted to. Maybe that was a good thing? Maybe it would help her cope better.

There was nothing that would actually help her cope better. She knew how much this was going to hurt.

"I think I need to do this next bit alone." The Doctor's tone was calm. She was trying to keep herself from crying. She didn't want to make things worse for Yaz.

"Lets not say goodbye." Yaz swallowed hard to bite back more tears. This was it. This was goodbye. The end of every single adventure they would have.

The journey back to Earth in the TARDIS was quiet. Neither knew what to say- if to say something at all. Yaz collected a few of her things that she kept aboard the ship and got ready to leave for good. The TARDIS whirred and stirred to a stop, landing somewhere hopefully near Yaz's house. The Doctor tried to get as close as possible- she just wanted to make things easy. Yasmin walked to the doors and took a deep breath. "Don't cry. You can cry later" she whispered quietly to herself. She knew that was no use as a tear fell.

The Doctor stood at the console. Her own tears began to fall- she didn't know what to do. Was this the right goodbye? Was there ever going to be a goodbye that wouldn't hurt this bad? Her mind was racing; there was a million different possibilities of what she could do. Before she could think of anything else, she heard a stifled cry come from behind her. Turning around she caught Yaz facing her. She felt her heart break. She couldn't do this. Not like this anyways.

She took the steps towards Yaz. Her heart was racing. "What on earth am I doing?" she thought. She didn't know what she was doing, only that it felt perfectly right. Before she knew it she was stood right in front of Yaz. She reached forward and placed a hand to her cheek and smiled softly. "Yasmin. When I said I loved you- I really meant that." Her voice was soft, gentle. It made Yaz cry even more. "You know I love you too Doctor. More than anything in the universe."

At that- The Doctor looked into Yaz's eyes. She leant forward- still caressing her cheek- and pressed her lips to hers. Yaz immediately kissed her back- both so soft and gentle in every way. Yaz put her hands against The Doctor, grabbing the collar of her coat and pulling her closer. Kissing her with more desire and fire than she thought she could. They were both crying at this point- both pulling each other closer to each other as the fear of letting go sank in. The Doctor kept one hand on Yaz's face, softly cupping her, and her other on her waist. She felt soft skin as they moved closer- slowing down to savor more of the kiss.

Yaz pulled away to breathe and looked to The Doctor. They rested their foreheads against one another, still pressed to each others body.

"We both know what we have to do now Doctor."

"I know. It just hurts." The Doctor replied. She kept her hand on Yaz's waist, too afraid to let go.

"And just you know you were absolutely the best thing ever. We were amazing" Yaz took The Doctors hand and raised it to her mouth, softly kissing it. With that she turned away and opened the TARDIS doors. She knew if she looked back know she would never leave. She knew there was no use in staying- in a few hours The Doctor would be someone completely different. She wouldn't be her Doctor anymore. She knew what she had to do. She had to be strong. Taking a deep breath she stepped out of the TARDIS one last time. Never looking back, for it would break her heart too much. She knew this was what had to happen. Nothing can ever last with The Doctor- no matter how hard you wish it would and pray it could. Things will always come to an end.

And that was her end. The door shut behind Yaz, and The Doctor just stood. That was it. Everything they had ever been and ever could be was no more.

The goodbyes would never get easier. But the goodbyes always had to be done one way or another- or else people got hurt.