I do now own Criminal minds, I do own Sam and the other OCS.
Just a thought that hit me.
In the darkest hour there are light.
Sam had just put the last touch on the dinner and looked at the clock and saw that it was close to the time when Spencer would be home, she smiled and petted Annie who had come up and buffed on her to hopefully get some treat.
Sam laughed and gave the happy dog a doggy treat from the treat jar.
"Here you go you silly mutt," she said softly
Annie happily went back to her blanket slowly eating the treat.
The clock turned five and no Spencer, still Sam wasn't worried she did know that the team had a case, it was close by so he would be home soon and the food would hold until he did.
She had just sat down to read some of the essays she had to grade this week when her phone rang.
"Hello," she answered
"Sam," Garcia said sounding a bit weird "Is Spencer home yet?"
Sam frown a bit and said that no he had not got home yet, a niggling feeling started to form in her stomach as she asked if anything had happened, Garcia sighed heavily and told her friend that Spencer had got a phone call and after that had he been acting subdued when he had said goodbye to them, and she was worried about him.
Just then the door open and closed, so Sam hoping that it was Spencer said a quick goodbye to Garcia and went out to see if it was her boyfriend.
What she found was a pale Spencer looking like he was about to have a breakdown, he was trembling.
"Hey baby," Sam said softly
Spencer just looked at her no not at her through her it was like he didn't see her at all.
"Garcia called," Sam said while slowly taking the few steps that was between them "She was worried about you."
She reached him and slowly wrapped her arms around him, this contact broke something in Spencer he just seemed to crumble in her arms, this worried Sam more than anything she had not seen him this way in a very long time maybe never, she still with her arms around him slide down onto the floor, so there they sat Spencer clinging to her like she was a life line the only thing that would keep him from drowning, so she just held him whispering softly comforting words into his ears, but she was more worried then she let on, something was very wrong.
"Hey Spence baby," she said softly "what happened?"
But the only answer she got was a strangled sob from her boyfriend and him clinging even tighter too her.
She didn't know how long they sat like that with Spencer more or less in her lap in silence, Annie come over to see why her daddy had come and said hello but not even the cold doggy nose made Spencer react in anyway so Annie walked of back to her bed.
Sam's phone rang and with some difficulties to get the thing out of her pocket but in the end she managed to answer the call not even looking to see who was calling her.
"Hello," she said softly as to not disturb Spencer
"Sam," Rossi said he sounded weird "Is Spencer there?"
Sam told him that yes Spencer was with her but that he couldn't talk at the moment.
A deep sigh of relive could be heard from the other side of the call.
"Rossi," Sam said "What has happened I have never seen Spence this way before."
"I don't know," come the answer "He got a call so he walked a bit away for some privacy and when he return he was acting weird subdued he would say anything, he acted like a zombie, and I was just about to take him home when he was gone. But he is home now right, he is okay."
"What was the call about? He is home but I don't know if he is okay," Sam said starting to grow more worried.
But before Rossi could answer the call ended abruptly.
"What happened?" Sam said more to herself then to anyone she looked at her phone "Maybe his phone died?"
Spencer who had been silence with just a sob now and then started to mumble something over and over again Sam had to really lean in to hear what he said.
"Gone," he mumbled in a hoarse voice "he is gone, never coming back, dead killed. Please no please."
"Spence love," Sam said softly "Talk to me please, you are scaring me."
Tears had started to well up in her eyes, it pained her to see Spencer like this.
"Please don't leave me," Spencer whimpered "Don't leave me."
Sam rubbed soothing circles on her boyfriend's back trying to calm him down while also whispering soothing words to him, after a while which felt like forever for her Spencer started to calm down, his trembles ebbed out, he still clinging to her just as tightly as before.
"Spence baby," Sam said softly "Could we maybe get up the floor is making my bum numb."
With a lot of coaxing she managed to get them up and into the living room where they sat down in the big sofa.
"Spence honey could you please tell me what's the matter?" Sam asked again letting her fingers run through his soft brown curls. "You are scaring me."
"I… I … he was and now he is not," Spencer said so quiet that Sam barely could hear him
"Who?" she asked
Spencer draw a deep breath and seemed to come to he sat up a bit still in Sam's arms.
"I got a call today," he said slowly like he tried to remember a dream that was slipping away.
Sam nearly hold her breath not daring to say anything in case Spencer would freeze up again.
"It was from Vegas," he said "it was Mira."
"Who is Mira?" Sam asked softly
"My friend Oliver's wife," he answered "My best friend from when I was a kid, we lived next to each other, he was my only friend. He tried to protect me from the bullies. His parents was so nice to me too, when mum had her episodes I was always welcome to stay with them, they didn't know about mum."
"He sounds nice," Sam said softly "What did his wife want?"
Spencer's breathing hitch a bit and for a second Sam thought that he would withdraw again.
"Oliver was…"He started to say but tears made him stop as sobs start to make him shake again and bury his face in Sam's arms, they sat like that for a while until Spencer slowly calm down again. "He was killed."
Those three words was said so painfully that Sam could feel the pain too.
"Oh Spence," she said softly "I am so sorry."
The silence was like a warm blanket over them, when Spencer suddenly gave a half laugh half sob sound, Sam looked at him.
"It's just, Oliver was killed as he tried to save a group of woman from being hurt," Spencer said "It is just so like him, always the hero."
"He sound like a great guy, I wish I had got to meet him," Sam said
"I wish that too," he said softly "You would have loved him, he and Mira was going to come up this weekend, they had a question they wanted to ask me, I wonder what it was."
"Mira didn't say?" Sam asked and looked down on Spencer who was still half laying in her lap quite comfortable by the looks of it as Sam was still running her finger though his hair.
Spencer just shook his head in no, he had an idea but wasn't sure.
The sound of not one but two stomach growling as to say that it was way past the dinner time, both of them started to laugh.
"So dinner?" Sam asked softly "Do you want some?"
Spencer nodded, he had forgot about lunch that day because of the case so he was really hungry now.
The food did need a few minutes to reheat but soon the duo sat down to eat, Spencer telling Sam about Oliver and his childhood, so it wasn't long before laugh was heard from the kitchen.
Spencer's phone did ring a few times as his team wanting to check so that he was okay, and a few times he got silence again with a faraway look but he would snap out of it again.
Later that night as they were getting ready for bed, Spencer still in the bath room when Sam got in to the bed and everything that had happened that evening come rushing over her, how scared she had been when Spencer had been so withdraw from her, that she couldn't reach him and that scared her more than anything.
Tears starting running down her cheeks and a soft sob escaped her lips.
A pair of strong arms snaked their way around her waist and pulled her towards the arms owner.
"Shhh," Spencer said softly and placed a soft kiss in her hair "Sam, I am so sorry that I scared you so badly today."
Sam just buried her face into his pyjamas top clinging to him this time.
"I couldn't reach you," she sobbed "I was so scared that I was going to loss you."
This broke Spencer's heart, he held her closer pressing kisses in her hair whispering soothing words to her and after what felt like forever did the sobbing stop and Sam's breathing slowed down to a more normal pace, but neither of them stopped clinging to each other as both of them needing the closeness of the other at that moment and it was like that they fell asleep.
A/N:I hope you like it, as I have said before I may have problem seeing faves and reviews I hope I don't have just a heads up.