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I~ Thank you, everyone for posting or sending a reply! They all mean sooooo much to me!
I hope y'all know that. I truly appreciate every single one of them, even those naysayers, at least you're giving me your opinion. I'm not going to change my mind! But thanks for telling me anyway.
Sorry for taking so long, everything has been very messed up around here. I've been sleeping away most of the day because I've been sick, and school's got me busy. And on top of all that, I've been messing around with my new car. Yep, my parental units got me a car! All I need now, is a license . . . I know what you're thinking, why the hell do I have a car if I don't have a license, well, it's a really long story, that I don't want to get into! PLUS, it was Christmas, and did I mention that writer's block has been hitting me way hard lately?
This chapter is rated . . . oh I don't know, I'm never a good judge of these types of things! ~/I
Barely Breathing
By Jules
Chapter 4
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b** Kay and Luis's apartment **/b
Luis woke to the sounds of grunting. He jumped up to find Kay struggling to push the bed between the two windows.
Kay spotted him, "Well don't just stand there, help me!" she ordered.
Luis went over and easily pushed the bed into place. That's when he noticed the whole room, including the bed, was decorated in gold and midnight blue moon, sun, and stars. There were sheets, pillowcases, a quilt, curtains, clock throw, and candleholder (which all match, and is EXACTLY what I want my room to be like)
"Where did all these come from?" Luis inquired, confused because he didn't remember seeing them the day before.
"Sheridan dropped them off. Hank told her I liked them, so they're a present . . . you don't mind people talking about her, do you?"
"If course not, Hank used to all the time, I got used to it and actually, it helped me get over her." Luis assured her, changed the subject, "So are you going to be ok alone? I have something's to do around town, then I have work."
"Of course, have a great day. I'll be fine setting things up." Kay promised him.
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b** The Lopez-Fitzgerald house **/b
Miguel Lopez-Fitzgerald was sleeping in his bed when something caused him to tumble out. He jumped up, all tangled in his sheets, trying to figure out what had happened. Then he saw his big brother standing there, his arms crossed, face like a stone wall.
"I thought Mama raised you better then that." Luis stated.
"Huh? What are you talking about?" Miguel asked trying to figure things out.
"Our family does not discard people, ignore them, or overlook them."
Miguel was still confused, "What's going on Luis?"
Luis took his brother by his wife beater shirt and slammed him against the wall.
"How could you do that to Kay? You just ignored her and forgot about her. I want to understand after 17 years of you two being best friends, how you forget her 18th birthday. I want to know why you have talking to her in a year. Because I don't care if you are my brother, making a woman cry is not something I will put up with from anyone."
"I forgot it? Oh, is that all?" Miguel demanded, indifferent to the fact he's been forgetting about his 'best friend'.
"Oh? OH?!" Luis growled at him then threw his brother to the floor, "From this day on, you're sorry ass is to never come near her unless you have apologized, asked God for forgiveness, and though you might get it from them, but you will never have mine. I have never been so ashamed of anyone since Antonio just took off. Because you knew how much she needed you. You never even noticed her withdrawal from life, or her depression. The only think I have to say now is, shape up, or never come near me again. But definitely stay away from Kay. If I ever find her upset because of you again, I will beat you up so bad, your idiot girlfriend will be scared of the sight of your ugly mug."
Then Luis stormed out, slamming the door behind him.
Miguel sat on the floor in shock, "What the hell just happened?"
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b** The Police Station **/b
Luis strode in, feeling a bit better after his confrontation with Miguel, to find Sam staring into space again, and he just couldn't take it anymore.
"Sam, can I talk to you in the break-room?" Luis requested.
Sam looked up, surprised to hear a voice, "Wha-oh, hey Luis, what did you say?"
"Break-room, you and me really need to talk."
"Sure Luis."
Luis shut the door behind him and turned to Sam, "I'm going to give you one chance, and one chance only, to explain why you've been so distant to Kay lately. Hank said you've been distracted, why."
Sam sighed, crossed his arms, and then revealed the truth to Luis, "I'm leaving Grace, and I'm asking her for a divorce. It's been coming for a long time, since Theresa and Ethan ran off together mostly, that's when I couldn't lie to myself anymore. I was in love with someone else, and I have been since, since before Ethan was born, hell over a year before he was conceived . . . . Luis, it's Ivy Winthrop."
"What?! But you've always hated her!" Luis exclaimed, at the same time wondering what the hell Ethan had to do with this.
"Because I didn't understand why she'd left me all those years ago . . . why she'd run off and married Julian, but I know why now, and I forgive her. She explained why she did that all those years . . . . And something else . . . you have to promise not to tell anyone, until this becomes public."
"I swear on my honor as an officer of the law."
"I'm going to be a grandfather. Ethan is really my son, my biological son . . . the reason Ivy left me was because her father threatened to kill me, and Ethan, if she didn't marry Julian and never tell me. She had no choice." Sam exposed to Luis.
Luis was blown away, "My God, who knows?"
"Me, Ivy, and your Mother. Ivy and Pilar had to keep it a secret since Ethan was conceived."
"My mother knew?!" Luis demanded incredulously.
"Yeah, and she has the briefcase with all the documents proving the truth." Sam told him.
"Why would my mother know?"
"Luis, Pilar has know the whole truth about everything Ivy has ever done since she started working for Ivy's family when Ivy was 15, and when Ivy was forced to marry Julian, as the only person Ivy trusted, she went with her."
Luis took a couple of deep breaths, "How long, have you know, about Ethan and Mama?"
"Since last night, when Ivy told me."
"Sam, you two have better have the truth come out soon, because I hate to lie to my sister or Kay, and I hope you realize Kay will have real problems with this."
"I know, I want to tell her myself, so it won't be a surprise. Is she at you and Hank's apartment? I want to explain everything and apologize."
Luis considered this for a moment, then nodded his head in confirmation, "Yeah, she's setting up her room . . ."
"Thanks Luis, I really need to explain my actions. And if after I leave, she's still having problems with it. I mean if she is completely freaking out, call Dr. Sanders, no matter what time of day, 24/7. In fact, if Kay ever has a major problem where she's in shock or very upset, call Dr. Sanders, she's always available. Just don't go overboard with calling her, she does have other patients and a life."
With that Sam patted Luis on the back and ran out the door.
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b** 20 minutes later **
** Luis and Kay's apartment **/b
Kay was putting her new clock on the wall, when there was a knock at the door.
Boy was she surprised to see her father. Who, by the way, was looking very guilty.
"Why are you here?" She asked quietly.
"I need to talk to you." Sam told her, his voice revealing how bad he felt.
"What about?" Kay was very nervous.
"Because, I need to explain . . . or at least try to, about my horrible behavior to you. May I please come in?" Sam implored.
"I guess . . ."
Both sat down, Sam wasn't sure how to do it, so he just came out and said it.
"I've been distracted because, I realized something when Ethan ran off with Theresa. All of a sudden, I just knew. I couldn't ignore what my heart was telling me anymore. The truth of the matter is, I don't love your mother anymore. Honestly, I can't stand her, or her obsessions. I've been working on arranging a divorce for months now, and I didn't want your mother to find out and try to talk me out of it, because she's very good at that. And I've been gone because I bought a house, on the beach, and I've been fixing it up."
"Why? I mean, what made you realize that you didn't love Mom anymore. What was you're heart telling you Dad?"
"That I love someone else." Sam sighed, "You see, I met her when I was 17. We fell in love, and wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. I intended to ask her to marry me, but her father forced her to leave me by telling her he'd kill her, and our son that she'd just found out she was pregnant with . . . ."
"Who?" Kay managed to utter.
"Ivy Winthrop, Ethan Crane, well Bennett, is really my son . . . I just found out yesterday, and I wanted to tell you first, Ethan doesn't even know . . . ."
"Madre dos mio!" Kay exclaimed, a phrase she'd picked up from the millions of times she'd heard Pilar use it over the years.
"I don't want to disappoint you," Sam told her quickly, putting his hand on her arm, "but I can't hurt Ivy anymore either. She gave up any chance of happiness when she married Julian Crane for me, but I need to know what you think."
Kay was silent for a few minutes, then slowly she told him, "Love, is an extraordinary thing, and it doesn't happen every day. It nearly killed me when I lost the person I loved, and I could never force someone else to give up a person they were truly in love with." Kay sighed, "I just . . . I just wish that- that you would have told me sooner, about why you'd been so distracted. I thought . . ." Kay bit her lip, closed her eyes and tried to keep back the tears that were stinging at her eyes, "I thought I didn't matter to you anymore, that you'd forgot me . . ."
Sam hugged his daughter as she began to cry, "Oh honey, I am so sorry. I've felt so guilty about this, and stupid. I wish I knew how I could make this up to you, but I don't."
Kay held on tight, and knew what she had to do, "Daddy, there's something I need to tell you. When Luis found me crying on the docks, I'd been planning to, planning to . . . I was going to jump off the wharf as soon as I had finished crying. I was planning to commit suicide."
"Oh God, sweetie!" Sam hugged her tighter, "Thank God Luis came alone. I don't think I would be able to stand it if I lost you."
"Dad," Kay holding him just as tight, but starts to get a grip on things, "I didn't though, and I don't plan on trying to every again. I'm here, I'm alive, and I understand why you were acting the way you did . . . you're just like Ethan. I heard he was trying to call off the wedding to Gwen for ages . . . . Though it was highly entertaining to see him run down the aisle, pulling the bride's maid of honor behind him, then hearing about him sneaking out of town with her." Kay laughed through her tears, then stopped, pulling away, her eyes getting wide, "I just realized something, Theresa's my sister-in-law! I have a sister-in-law!"
"Yep, this has made some unexpected additions to our family . . ."
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b** The beach front house **/b
When Ivy had awoken to find herself alone, she'd thought the whole thing was a dream, then she noticed her surroundings, and found the note.
I Dear Ivy,
I hope you had sweet dreams, I saw you
sleeping and I didn't want to leave last night,
but I knew that I had to. I promise though,
we'll be able to be together forever soon.
I'll miss you until I see you again.
Love you always,
Sam
/I
Ivy had smiled at the note, lay in bed awhile longer.
She'd been dreaming of a time like this happening for so many years. Her and Sam, together, happy, in love, free from the people who'd tried to keep them apart for so long. And it was finally coming true.
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Please, I want replies, I know it sounds pathetic, but I live for feedback, good or bad! I need to know what you think so I know where to go with this.
And, I'm kind of stuck with this story. Anyone got any ideas on how to continue?
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I~ Thank you, everyone for posting or sending a reply! They all mean sooooo much to me!
I hope y'all know that. I truly appreciate every single one of them, even those naysayers, at least you're giving me your opinion. I'm not going to change my mind! But thanks for telling me anyway.
Sorry for taking so long, everything has been very messed up around here. I've been sleeping away most of the day because I've been sick, and school's got me busy. And on top of all that, I've been messing around with my new car. Yep, my parental units got me a car! All I need now, is a license . . . I know what you're thinking, why the hell do I have a car if I don't have a license, well, it's a really long story, that I don't want to get into! PLUS, it was Christmas, and did I mention that writer's block has been hitting me way hard lately?
This chapter is rated . . . oh I don't know, I'm never a good judge of these types of things! ~/I
Barely Breathing
By Jules
Chapter 4
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b** Kay and Luis's apartment **/b
Luis woke to the sounds of grunting. He jumped up to find Kay struggling to push the bed between the two windows.
Kay spotted him, "Well don't just stand there, help me!" she ordered.
Luis went over and easily pushed the bed into place. That's when he noticed the whole room, including the bed, was decorated in gold and midnight blue moon, sun, and stars. There were sheets, pillowcases, a quilt, curtains, clock throw, and candleholder (which all match, and is EXACTLY what I want my room to be like)
"Where did all these come from?" Luis inquired, confused because he didn't remember seeing them the day before.
"Sheridan dropped them off. Hank told her I liked them, so they're a present . . . you don't mind people talking about her, do you?"
"If course not, Hank used to all the time, I got used to it and actually, it helped me get over her." Luis assured her, changed the subject, "So are you going to be ok alone? I have something's to do around town, then I have work."
"Of course, have a great day. I'll be fine setting things up." Kay promised him.
~*~
b** The Lopez-Fitzgerald house **/b
Miguel Lopez-Fitzgerald was sleeping in his bed when something caused him to tumble out. He jumped up, all tangled in his sheets, trying to figure out what had happened. Then he saw his big brother standing there, his arms crossed, face like a stone wall.
"I thought Mama raised you better then that." Luis stated.
"Huh? What are you talking about?" Miguel asked trying to figure things out.
"Our family does not discard people, ignore them, or overlook them."
Miguel was still confused, "What's going on Luis?"
Luis took his brother by his wife beater shirt and slammed him against the wall.
"How could you do that to Kay? You just ignored her and forgot about her. I want to understand after 17 years of you two being best friends, how you forget her 18th birthday. I want to know why you have talking to her in a year. Because I don't care if you are my brother, making a woman cry is not something I will put up with from anyone."
"I forgot it? Oh, is that all?" Miguel demanded, indifferent to the fact he's been forgetting about his 'best friend'.
"Oh? OH?!" Luis growled at him then threw his brother to the floor, "From this day on, you're sorry ass is to never come near her unless you have apologized, asked God for forgiveness, and though you might get it from them, but you will never have mine. I have never been so ashamed of anyone since Antonio just took off. Because you knew how much she needed you. You never even noticed her withdrawal from life, or her depression. The only think I have to say now is, shape up, or never come near me again. But definitely stay away from Kay. If I ever find her upset because of you again, I will beat you up so bad, your idiot girlfriend will be scared of the sight of your ugly mug."
Then Luis stormed out, slamming the door behind him.
Miguel sat on the floor in shock, "What the hell just happened?"
~*~
b** The Police Station **/b
Luis strode in, feeling a bit better after his confrontation with Miguel, to find Sam staring into space again, and he just couldn't take it anymore.
"Sam, can I talk to you in the break-room?" Luis requested.
Sam looked up, surprised to hear a voice, "Wha-oh, hey Luis, what did you say?"
"Break-room, you and me really need to talk."
"Sure Luis."
Luis shut the door behind him and turned to Sam, "I'm going to give you one chance, and one chance only, to explain why you've been so distant to Kay lately. Hank said you've been distracted, why."
Sam sighed, crossed his arms, and then revealed the truth to Luis, "I'm leaving Grace, and I'm asking her for a divorce. It's been coming for a long time, since Theresa and Ethan ran off together mostly, that's when I couldn't lie to myself anymore. I was in love with someone else, and I have been since, since before Ethan was born, hell over a year before he was conceived . . . . Luis, it's Ivy Winthrop."
"What?! But you've always hated her!" Luis exclaimed, at the same time wondering what the hell Ethan had to do with this.
"Because I didn't understand why she'd left me all those years ago . . . why she'd run off and married Julian, but I know why now, and I forgive her. She explained why she did that all those years . . . . And something else . . . you have to promise not to tell anyone, until this becomes public."
"I swear on my honor as an officer of the law."
"I'm going to be a grandfather. Ethan is really my son, my biological son . . . the reason Ivy left me was because her father threatened to kill me, and Ethan, if she didn't marry Julian and never tell me. She had no choice." Sam exposed to Luis.
Luis was blown away, "My God, who knows?"
"Me, Ivy, and your Mother. Ivy and Pilar had to keep it a secret since Ethan was conceived."
"My mother knew?!" Luis demanded incredulously.
"Yeah, and she has the briefcase with all the documents proving the truth." Sam told him.
"Why would my mother know?"
"Luis, Pilar has know the whole truth about everything Ivy has ever done since she started working for Ivy's family when Ivy was 15, and when Ivy was forced to marry Julian, as the only person Ivy trusted, she went with her."
Luis took a couple of deep breaths, "How long, have you know, about Ethan and Mama?"
"Since last night, when Ivy told me."
"Sam, you two have better have the truth come out soon, because I hate to lie to my sister or Kay, and I hope you realize Kay will have real problems with this."
"I know, I want to tell her myself, so it won't be a surprise. Is she at you and Hank's apartment? I want to explain everything and apologize."
Luis considered this for a moment, then nodded his head in confirmation, "Yeah, she's setting up her room . . ."
"Thanks Luis, I really need to explain my actions. And if after I leave, she's still having problems with it. I mean if she is completely freaking out, call Dr. Sanders, no matter what time of day, 24/7. In fact, if Kay ever has a major problem where she's in shock or very upset, call Dr. Sanders, she's always available. Just don't go overboard with calling her, she does have other patients and a life."
With that Sam patted Luis on the back and ran out the door.
~*~
b** 20 minutes later **
** Luis and Kay's apartment **/b
Kay was putting her new clock on the wall, when there was a knock at the door.
Boy was she surprised to see her father. Who, by the way, was looking very guilty.
"Why are you here?" She asked quietly.
"I need to talk to you." Sam told her, his voice revealing how bad he felt.
"What about?" Kay was very nervous.
"Because, I need to explain . . . or at least try to, about my horrible behavior to you. May I please come in?" Sam implored.
"I guess . . ."
Both sat down, Sam wasn't sure how to do it, so he just came out and said it.
"I've been distracted because, I realized something when Ethan ran off with Theresa. All of a sudden, I just knew. I couldn't ignore what my heart was telling me anymore. The truth of the matter is, I don't love your mother anymore. Honestly, I can't stand her, or her obsessions. I've been working on arranging a divorce for months now, and I didn't want your mother to find out and try to talk me out of it, because she's very good at that. And I've been gone because I bought a house, on the beach, and I've been fixing it up."
"Why? I mean, what made you realize that you didn't love Mom anymore. What was you're heart telling you Dad?"
"That I love someone else." Sam sighed, "You see, I met her when I was 17. We fell in love, and wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. I intended to ask her to marry me, but her father forced her to leave me by telling her he'd kill her, and our son that she'd just found out she was pregnant with . . . ."
"Who?" Kay managed to utter.
"Ivy Winthrop, Ethan Crane, well Bennett, is really my son . . . I just found out yesterday, and I wanted to tell you first, Ethan doesn't even know . . . ."
"Madre dos mio!" Kay exclaimed, a phrase she'd picked up from the millions of times she'd heard Pilar use it over the years.
"I don't want to disappoint you," Sam told her quickly, putting his hand on her arm, "but I can't hurt Ivy anymore either. She gave up any chance of happiness when she married Julian Crane for me, but I need to know what you think."
Kay was silent for a few minutes, then slowly she told him, "Love, is an extraordinary thing, and it doesn't happen every day. It nearly killed me when I lost the person I loved, and I could never force someone else to give up a person they were truly in love with." Kay sighed, "I just . . . I just wish that- that you would have told me sooner, about why you'd been so distracted. I thought . . ." Kay bit her lip, closed her eyes and tried to keep back the tears that were stinging at her eyes, "I thought I didn't matter to you anymore, that you'd forgot me . . ."
Sam hugged his daughter as she began to cry, "Oh honey, I am so sorry. I've felt so guilty about this, and stupid. I wish I knew how I could make this up to you, but I don't."
Kay held on tight, and knew what she had to do, "Daddy, there's something I need to tell you. When Luis found me crying on the docks, I'd been planning to, planning to . . . I was going to jump off the wharf as soon as I had finished crying. I was planning to commit suicide."
"Oh God, sweetie!" Sam hugged her tighter, "Thank God Luis came alone. I don't think I would be able to stand it if I lost you."
"Dad," Kay holding him just as tight, but starts to get a grip on things, "I didn't though, and I don't plan on trying to every again. I'm here, I'm alive, and I understand why you were acting the way you did . . . you're just like Ethan. I heard he was trying to call off the wedding to Gwen for ages . . . . Though it was highly entertaining to see him run down the aisle, pulling the bride's maid of honor behind him, then hearing about him sneaking out of town with her." Kay laughed through her tears, then stopped, pulling away, her eyes getting wide, "I just realized something, Theresa's my sister-in-law! I have a sister-in-law!"
"Yep, this has made some unexpected additions to our family . . ."
~*~
b** The beach front house **/b
When Ivy had awoken to find herself alone, she'd thought the whole thing was a dream, then she noticed her surroundings, and found the note.
I Dear Ivy,
I hope you had sweet dreams, I saw you
sleeping and I didn't want to leave last night,
but I knew that I had to. I promise though,
we'll be able to be together forever soon.
I'll miss you until I see you again.
Love you always,
Sam
/I
Ivy had smiled at the note, lay in bed awhile longer.
She'd been dreaming of a time like this happening for so many years. Her and Sam, together, happy, in love, free from the people who'd tried to keep them apart for so long. And it was finally coming true.
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Please, I want replies, I know it sounds pathetic, but I live for feedback, good or bad! I need to know what you think so I know where to go with this.
And, I'm kind of stuck with this story. Anyone got any ideas on how to continue?
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