Chapter 2 ~
Like I said before different is beautiful but being different is not all that it seems to be. Yes I like being different and it's fun but it's not all it's cracked up to be. Everyday is a torture or can be. The days I had were beautiful, white clouds, nice people beauty as far as the eye can see. Like I said I 'had' these days but one day things changed and I woke up to darkness and pain. Not the kind I saw in those of the beings of earth but real pain and darkness. I still went about my duties as my angel but things were just different. Even the almighty himself seemed dark to me. I felt alone for once in my life.
As I sat at my post with my wings spread wide, it felt like I had died. There I sat, alone watching. Watching and learning from those being on Earth. "I'm like them now...?" I sighed to myself.
I felt a presence behind me, "Like them now? You just figured that out?" Thea laughed.
I frowned and turned around. Thea, Angel of Purity. She looked just like my sister in a way but she lacked her purity. Stupid hoe. Damn her and her sky blue eyes, white hair and fucking white dress, "Fuck you Thea, fuck you."
"Excuse me?" she blinked and stepped forward slightly.
"You heard me bitch! I said fuck you. Do you have a problem with that?" I snapped at her.
She clasped a hand over her mouth then smirked, "Yes, I do have a problem with that. And as the angel of purity, what you said to me isn't to pure my dear and for that matter..."
"Yea and as the angel of death and fire I'll fucking kill you if you say anymore to me about Goddamn purity!" I yelled and punched her in the face. I didn't really know what I was doing at the time but before I knew it I was in front of the almighty.
"Saria," he said, "I am very disappointed with you. Something is wrong with you, you are not yourself."
I rolled my eyes, "You finally noticed?"
The almighty glared at me slightly, "No, actually I knew all along but the point here is that you cursed in the presence of The Angel of Purity and you abused her. On top of that you took my name in vain. I will not put up with this from you it is not acceptable. However since there is no one to replace your job I must keep you. That is unless something happens. You do understand don't you?" The almighty said and looked down upon me.
I nodded, "Yes my lord."
He smiled, "One more thing, just so you know if something happens again you won't be the only one punished."
I looked over at my sisters. They seemed not to happy about this whole thing. Not that I don't blame them I was out of place to do what I did but that damn Thea is to fucking annoying. I shagged and walked out of the throne room.
"Saria! Saria!!" Unari called and ran over to me.
I turned around,"Hmm?"
She put her hands on her hips and glared at me, "Geez Saria, I always knew you were like this but you're gonna get us all kicked out if you keep this up!" Unari remarked.
I rolled my eyes, "I know, I know but it wasn't my fault. The damn hoe was mocking me and wouldn't shut up. I just couldn't contain myself, she's damn annoying!"
"That doesn't mean you have to hurt her, now does it?" Rubi smiled and step out of the clouds behind Unari, "Remember, do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Golden Rule sis. I know you know it.
I smirked, "Yes I know it but if I was being a jackass I don't think it's out of turn to have some sense knocked into me."
Unari giggled a bit and smiled, "I know you'll do the right thing, just try and keep out of trouble." she smiled and disappeared. Rubi winked and did the same. I sighed and started to walk off in the direction of my post. The punishment of being different...pain, sadness and no self worth. What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
I'm cold, I'm ugly
I'm always confused by everything
I can stare into a thousand eyes
But every smile hides a bold-faced lie
It itches, it seethes, it festers and breathes
My heroes are dead, they died in my head
Thin out the herd, squeeze out the pain
Something inside me has opened up again
Thoughts of me exemplified
All the little flaws I have denied
Forget today, forget whatever happened
Everyday I see a little more of overall deficiencies
I'm nothing short of being one complete catastrophe
What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?
I save all the bullets from ignorant minds
Your insults get stuck in my teeth as they grind
Way past good taste, on our way to bad omens
I decrease, while my symptoms increase
God what the fuck is wrong
You act like you knew it all along
Your timing sucks, your silence is a blessing
All I ever wanted out of you was
Something you could never be
Now take a real good look at
What you've fucking done to me
What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?
Gimme any reason why I'd need you, boy
Gimme any reason not to fuck you up
Gimme any reason why I'd need you, bitch
Gimme any reason not to fuck you up
I see you in me
I keep my scars from prying eyes
Incapable of ever knowing why
Somebody breathe, I've got to have an answer
Why am I so fascinated by
Bigger pictures, better things
But I don't care what you think
You'll never understand me
What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?
Fuck!
(AN: ok that took me along time to write that or get around to writing ok. 'Diluted' by Slipknot goes with this chapter and others to come. meh it just goes with it I take no credit for the song only my story and the characters in it. R/R PLZ!!!)