Silver Demon Golden Knight
Chapter 3: The Awakening
((Authors note: This is the result of watching too much Evangelion and leaving a song on repeat on Winamp while writing X.X))
I push away everyone who cares, and then I say they betrayed me…
You must submit yourself to me.
Blood and feathers again, what did it all mean?
No!
A face, she could barely see, it was a girl kneeling in a puddle of blood and feathers. Familiar looking.
It doesn't matter to me. I will gain control eventually. Who are you? What are you trying to do?
More clear, Long black hair, eyes…they were blue.
I'm trying to live.
Not through me!
She was starting to recognize it. She saw… Wanna bet?
I'll never give in to you.
Her own face… Too late.
* * * * *
"Hey Gohan your friends are here!" Goten said popping into the room.
He noticed the sleeping Videl. "What's Videl doing?"
Gohan put a finger to his mouth. "Shh, lets go,"
He walked Goten out of his room and closed the door. Eraser and Sharpener were standing the living room across from the kitchen. "Where's mom?" Gohan asked.
"She went shopping," Goten asked heading towards the door.
"Where are you going?" Gohan asked.
"To Trunks house," Goten said walking out. "Bye Gohan!"
"Your little brother is so cute!!" Eraser giggled watching Goten shut the door behind him. "Sorry it took so long, but your house is so far away!!"
"No, Videl's here," Gohan said.
"I thought as much," Sharpener said giving Gohan a look, which made Gohan glare back.
"Well where's your room?" Sharpener asked.
Gohan led the two to his room he shared with Goten. He had rolled up the futons that they slept on and moved one of the tables in the living room into there. "Take off your shoes, its carpet," Gohan said.
"Hey Videl!" Eraser said going over to the corner where she was slumped against the wall unconscious. The blond girl poked Videl. "Videl?"
Videl stirred. "What?" she asked groggily. "Oh hi."
Videl got up weakly. "Okay so lets do this."
"Are you sure your up to it?" Gohan asked going over to Videl.
"Yeah, yeah! I'm okay!" Videl said smiling.
Videl managed to make it through the study group without any problems but still Gohan was worried. He approached Videl at lunch the next day and asked about her. Videl was studying for her math exams.
"Videl," Gohan asked.
Videl looked up from her math book. "Hey Gohan! What's up!"
"About yesterday,"
"What about yesterday?" Videl asked writing something down on the sheet of paper next to her.
"You know," Gohan couldn't seem to find the words.
Videl was defensive again. "Gohan! Nothing is wrong with me!" she yelled attracting the attention of everyone that was near to them.
"Videl," Gohan started to explain.
"No! I'm tired of you treating me like I'm some pathetic weakling!" Videl said. "Leave me alone Gohan! I'm trying to study"
Those words were like a slap to Gohan's face. "Okay Videl," he said walking away.
* * * * *
Why do you push him away?
Feathers, blood…
It's you! What do you want?
Why do you push him away?
I'm not! It's with finals and everything! It's just so much!
You said that he was treating you like a weakling.
Yeah I did but that's not what I meant! You know he cares about you
Gohan? Yeah I know…I care about him too.
You are so weak compared to him Why do you push him away? I don't!
Compared to him you are the weak pathetic girl aren't you.
Why are you saying this anyways?
You are jealous of his strength, his power, the power that you yourself cannot have.
Okay! Okay! You're right! I am jealous okay! Ever since I met him I wanted to be stronger than him! I've always wanted to be the strongest, I had to be strong it was the only way.
Why?
When my mom died, I didn't know. I used to think that she was on a long trip and she'd come back someday. Father never told me, but finally I realized the truth. I cried a lot when I realized my mother wasn't coming back. I was so weak…so pathetic. My father stood there trying to help but I couldn't stop crying. My mother was gone and she wasn't coming back! She left me! She betrayed me! I finally stopped crying realizing that it wasn't doing anything. I don't know what happened. I became obsessed at becoming strong. Fighting was a way to learn how to deal with pain, and I had so much. My father starting too fighting after mother's death. I guess it was a way of venting out his anger. He started to win competitions and awards and he seemed happy. I guess it helped us both.
Dead blue eyes, narrowing in disgust.
Lies…
But I know that some nights my father will go up to the room where he and mother used to sleep, and he'd cry. Even now he still does it. Well I wasn't going to do that anymore! I wanted to have power! I wanted to be free of everything that held me back, free from my mothers death and my fathers grief. So I trained harder until that Junior Division in the World Tournament. I won! I was the strongest there! It was only a matter of time until I surpassed my father who defeated Cell! Or at least that is what I used to think. Eraser and Sharpener, my friends. They helped me. I began to think that everything was okay that I could be normal.
Then Son Gohan appeared.
Yes he did. As The Great Saiyaman. I was really cocky then. I was strong! Then Gohan brought me down to the floor. I could tell that he was stronger than me and I was mad. I had to beat him had to!
You had forgotten why you were fighting. So weak.
I had forgotten, I just had to be stronger than him. Little did I know that my obsession for beating Gohan had turned into something different. I had started to like Gohan. He was like me. His dad had died a few years back and he wasn't a nervous wreck like me. I admired him, I wanted him to like me too. I still wanted to fight him, but now it was an excuse to see him more often. Then came the world martial arts tournament. Spopovitch. It started out easy and I thought I had him, but for some strange reason he kept getting up, each time he was stronger than before. He started to beat me badly. In my heart I knew I could never beat him, not as weak as I was then, but I had to beat him. Don't you understand? I had to be strong, I couldn't cry anymore…my dead mother was still haunting me after all these years.
You lost the battle.
Oh I lost it. I wanted to die, I truly did, but Gohan…Gohan was the only one who cared for me. Not my father who was already far away. It was then I realized that maybe I felt something more than admiration for him.
Then why do you push him away?
* * * * *
Gohan was back home or at least close to his home. He was sitting in a tree overlooking the huge lake where he remembered fishing with his dad. He could see the fish swimming around in the lake aimlessly. Right now, Gohan wished that he could be one of those fishes. Not having to think of anything except where your next meal was coming from would be much easier than what he had to go through with. Why, when it counted, couldn't he say the right words to Videl. He knew Videl was going through some hard times, he was tired of just standing back and watching, he wanted to take her in his arms and make everything clear to her. He wanted to let her know that he cared about her, but if he couldn't talk to her what was that going to prove.
He looked out past the lake. He could almost see Videl flying towards him…wait! Videl was there and she was coming towards him. Gohan almost fell off the tree but he kept his eyes on Videl as she flew towards him. "Videl?" Gohan asked as soon as Videl was in earshot. Videl looked worn out, it seemed a miracle that she had made the long flight to his house. Videl stood floating in the air in front of him. "Gohan, I wanted to say that I'm sorry," Videl burst out.
"You don't have to—"
"Yes I do," Videl insisted. "I was acting like a little kid when I said that to you."
Videl looked down her hair covering her eyes. "I can't believe it," she said quietly. "I'm crying."
"Videl, just tell me," Gohan said consolingly. "Please Videl."
Videl wavered in the air then all of a sudden she started to fall. In a flash Gohan caught her and he floated to the ground. Videl was sobbing into his shirt. "I'm so stupid," she said choking between sobs.
"No you're not," Gohan said his hand running through her hair.
"Yes I am! I push away everyone who cares, and then I say they betray me," she continued. "I'm a baby, I haven't changed since mother died."
"Videl," Gohan said trying to stop her.
"You probably think that I'm pathetic," Videl went on.
"Videl!" Gohan said.
He knew that if he let Videl keep going she would never stop. "I'm just feeling sorry for myself and now I want you too feel sorry for me! I'm so—"
Her rambling turned into mumbles as Gohan kissed her. She struggled but soon she relaxed.
* * * * *
You're sick…
Feathers, blood a girl. What was this? Gohan was confused.
You think you really care? You don't care. You lust for her.
What are you?
Blue eyes…he had seen those before. They looked so dead.
She hates you, she's been jealous of you ever since she saw you.
What are you talking about?
The head rose, and he could see the face…
* * * * *
Gohan abruptly pulled away from the kiss. "I'm sorry," Videl said her face coloring involuntary.
"No," Gohan said quickly. "It's not that."
His face was also turning red. Videl nudged her toe in the ground nervously. "Well it's getting late, I have to be back before my father goes ballistic."
"Yeah," Gohan said.
"Sorry about your shirt," Videl said her eyes going to the tear-stained shirt.
"It needed a wash," Gohan said.
Videl smiled. "Well, see you Gohan."
She leaned and kissed him again, but this time it was short. She lifted herself in the air and she flew off. Gohan watched until she disappeared in the distance. He put a hand on his mouth. It was strange. He saw a person who looked exactly like…
The kiss, it should have been nice, but it left him feeling sick. It was all because of those images that popped into his head. Was that why Videl was acting weird? No it couldn't be…
Gohan pondered this as he walked home. It was already night by the time he came back from the lake. His mom was furious. "Gohan! Are you trying to kill me?!" she yelled as he walked in. "I thought you were in trouble."
"Sorry mom," Gohan said distantly, his mind still on the kiss.
"And why is your shirt all wet?"