Trying To Cheat Fate
By: Xiao-chan
Author's Note:
Konnichi'wa everyone.. I've got serious warnings now.. swear. I had to change the rating to 'R' for those who knew it was 'PG-13' before because of the flashback.. Be warned THE flashback is a scene from.. *that* but there'll be nothing REALLY bad.. Everyone needs to read chapter's two and three before this one..
Wow.. this is a first, never wrote anything LIKE this.. X_X; i can't believe i accually attempted it? I don't know.. But it's cool. xD Not many dare to do this on fiction.net between Syaoran and Meiling.. :X ahaha.. I'm so special.
By the way, SPEED is a game of cards.. you try to play all your cards before the other person does and then you say "speed" and you win.. I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THE DRUG, PEOPLES.
No flames, thanks.
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Chapter Three: A Midnight Flashback.
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Syaoran looked down at the now figure of Meiling. The girl had finally found the need for sleep in her and she slowly had stopped crying and talking and her eyes had closed, gently going to her dream land away from this world. He finally found the courage to gently slide him of off her and into her place in their bed.
He sighed when he looked at the clock, it was late, nearly midnight and how he could have stayed up so long was a mystery, but he had managed it. He rubbed his eyes and took in a deep breath before standing and exiting the bedroom, leaving Meiling there.
Faded tap, silence, faded tap. His feet going against the carpet was the only noise that was invading their house. He had made it to the kitchen, grabbing a glass and filling it with water before sitting at the table. He felt dizzy and sick and depressed. Why did he do it? Why..
His eyes slowly glanced around the dark room, he needed to do something. He needed to get up and move, maybe it'd make me a bit sleepy. Standing and beginning to walk at a slow pace he brought himself to the door, then outside, walking down the abandoned sidewalk.
"Syaoran, you're an idiot," he heard himself talking to himself, and stopped. Still, that question he hated most was running through his mind. "Why did you do this to her? She wasn't ready, and you knew she wasn't ready, even if she didn't resist. You're a stupid jerk."
-----Flashback.-----
After those few glasses of alcohol that Syaoran had consumed he was completely.. well.. different. Why had he been drinking? Simple, Meiling and himself were playing a game of cards, speed.. everytime they lost they drank a glass. Fortunetly or unfortunately he had lost a few times, while Meiling had only consumed barely a glass, and a bit of another just for fun.
The two were now sitting on the couch, Meiling cuddled against his body, while his arm wrapped around her. He was ignoring what was on the TV and had eyes focused on Meiling. Her, just the thought of Meiling right now made him want her more then usual, something that was hard to resist.
He couldn't give in to his desire, but he could do something besides that. He tilted her head gently and kissed her deeply, she didn't resist. Slowly his tongue made his way into her mouth and the whole kiss had vanished, now it was a French kiss, something they barely ever did.
While the whole thing had been going on, he slowly could feel him giving up, and gently pushing her against the fabric on the couch. He was feeling.. playful, maybe it wasn't the alcohol that was doing this to him now.
He broke it, scooping her in his arms and bringing her down the hallway, which felt like one hundred miles in length, to their bedroom, laying her against the comforter. Getting near to her once again and placing their lips together, then deepening it into another French kiss. His finger slowly played with the end of her shirt, every so often gently running a finger against the bare rim of skin that came after the shirt and before the skirt.
Again he broke it, part of the reason was to catch a breath but most reason to change position of where the next one would be planted. He moved to the neck, gently kissing her there, Meiling's eyes slowly shutting from the soft warmth of it. Syaoran's hand finally moving from their boundary of the end of her shirt, to up the side of her stomach to the strap of her bra, his arm slowly moving the shirt up while doing so. The sudden placement of his hand sent a shiver up her spine, her eyes finally opened scanning herself and him..
-----End Flashback.-----
Syaoran had found himself leaning against the tree at the park, his arms crossed over his chest. He sighed slightly and lowered his head so his eyes would focus on the grass around him.
"Idiot. Syaoran Li, Li Xiaolang, why did you DO that to her? Why did you have to be playing that game, and drinking. Damn it, you're so stupid to do this.. Why couldn't you of just stayed on that couch and just kissed her like you always do? MY GOD, SYAORAN.. You're a complete idiot, didn't you think of what was going to happen? About what would happen to HER?"
-----Flashback.-----
Maybe it was that gently warm breathe going against his neck that pushed him further. His hand had slipped back out from his shirt, and began to unbutton the top of her shirt. He was kind of happy that she wore a shirt that buttoned in the front, so he could just slip it off, if it went that far.
One.
Meiling seemed to be getting the picture, and maybe she was stalling. She waited for him to look at her, then pushed their lips together, kissing. Syaoran let his hands free from her shirt and ran one hand through her raven black hair, while her hand did the same, but to him. That kiss lasted only five seconds when counted slowly, then Syaoran resumed to his task, Meiling looking at him. He stopped.
Two. "Mei?" The thought of the alcohol doing this to him had been reduced to nothing.. He knew this was him doing it. Meiling's ruby eyes locked with his. "Are you all right?"
-----End Flashback.-----
Maybe he didn't hear her response, or ignored it. He strained his mind to remember. He could see the one sentence running through his mind, but he wasn't sure if that was what she had said.. "I'm fine, Syaoran."
He sighed once again and looked up at the leaves and branches above him.
-----Flashback.-----
"I'm fine, Syaoran," he took one more look into her eyes and then continued, finishing three, four, then five buttons. Finished. His eyes scanned her upper body, she had what seemed to be like a perfect figure. Meiling grinned lightly.
He pulled his own shirt over his head and threw it to the side, laying down next to her, her back to his chest, and pulling an arm around her. She closed her eyes, while Syaoran whispered slightly in her ear. She could feel his fingers slowly going online the rim of her bra, but it didn't make her feel the least bit uncomfortable.
"It's like a dream," he sighed lightly, silence struck through the room for a few minutes. After maybe five minutes Syaoran moved back to the top of her, kissing her deeply once again.
-----End Flashback.-----
Syaoran took a glance at his watch, it had been almost an hour, and he was beginning to feel sleepy. He sighed and began to move slowly back to his house, trying to break the movie of flashbacks from his mind. It just seemed almost impossible.
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Meiling could feel herself being gently being dropped back into that horrible world everyone had called "reality". Oh, how she longed to stay in her own world, full of dreams, and she held the future in her hands in that world. If only she could have stayed there forever, and forget reality and what was going on through her life right now. But, to her displeasure that would never happen and she knew it.
Slowly her eyes opened to face contact with the pitch black room. So dark, like her eyes were shut, like someone had painted their room completely with the darkest colour of black that they could find.
Only a few seconds and her worst nightmate ran into her mind. Pregnancy. Not wanting her own baby. Was this her fault, or was this hit fault? She turned to the side of the bed where Syaoran usually slept and felt for his body, there was none. Obviously he had gone somewhere, but where she didn't know. All she knew was that she was alone in the darkness at the moment.
"It wasn't his fault, Meiling. You got yourself into this. YOU didn't HESITATE when he was ON you. Now why? Because, Meiling, you liked it. YOU had no mind to think that THAT would get YOU PREGNANT. It was your choice, and you went along with it. You could have stopped him when he was at the buttons of your shirt, Meiling."
-----Flashback.-----
The kiss lasted longer then Meiling had expected, and she found her finger slowly fiddling with the button of his pants, eventually bringing it off it's hold, but leaving the zipper in place. She had been hopping that he got the idea.
He did. Once Meiling's hand had slipped away from the button from his pants, she could instantly feel his touch running gently along the outside end of her leg and to the end of her skirt. He hesitated, then turned back to run his fingers back up, but on the inside of the leg, again stopping at the end of her skirt.
He then moved down again.
She broke the kiss and looked at him in the eyes. He blinked. She then felt that slow sound of a zipper. The zipper on the side of her skirt, slowly going down.. She didn't stop him. Once the zipper was down, she could feel him playfully tugging at the end, slowly bringing her almost naked. She began to feel cold till he began to kiss her again on the right side of her neck. Again his fingers danced along her leg.. up.. up.. to the rim of her underwear, his fingers then sliding gently underneath it.. She didn't resist, still..
-----End Flashback.-----
"Meiling?" The sudden voice of him made her break from the flashback, and pull herself back down under the covers. Her eyes had been focusing on the figure at the doorway, straining to see him, but only making out the outline of the young man.
"Syaoran?" She could hear his foot steps moving toward their bed, then slowly sliding in next to her. The next moment she felt her back pressed against his chest, his arms wrapped around her, fingers playing with her hair. Again, she wanted to melt but resisted, which led to the need to sleep.. "Where were you?"
"I needed to get some fresh air, nothing important, Mei," she let herself relax in his hold, but quickly stopped herself when feeling him gently press his lips against her neck. A kiss. She didn't want anything to happen, so pulled him gently off her, turning to look at him.
"Please.. don't, Syaoran," though she couldn't see the look in his face she knew he was frowning, feeling bad for letting himself do that one sign of affection against her neck.
"..All right, sorry," there was another hint of disappointment in his voice when he spoke. The whole tone didn't sound anything like him.
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After Note:
Well, everyone? I hope you enjoyed that scene of "R".. Was is rated correctly? I hope so.. I didn't want to over or under rate it. So, was that good enough? Did you all enjoy it? I hope you did because I'm still in disbelief that I accually wrote something like that.. I guess I needed to do something diffrent than what I usually wrote, and something diffrent that the usual romance in card captor sakura.
So, please, be a nice fan / reader and review kindly! No flames, I hate flames, I don't need flames, they're terrible. Thanks again. Chapter 4'll be up soon.
By: Xiao-chan
Author's Note:
Konnichi'wa everyone.. I've got serious warnings now.. swear. I had to change the rating to 'R' for those who knew it was 'PG-13' before because of the flashback.. Be warned THE flashback is a scene from.. *that* but there'll be nothing REALLY bad.. Everyone needs to read chapter's two and three before this one..
Wow.. this is a first, never wrote anything LIKE this.. X_X; i can't believe i accually attempted it? I don't know.. But it's cool. xD Not many dare to do this on fiction.net between Syaoran and Meiling.. :X ahaha.. I'm so special.
By the way, SPEED is a game of cards.. you try to play all your cards before the other person does and then you say "speed" and you win.. I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THE DRUG, PEOPLES.
No flames, thanks.
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Chapter Three: A Midnight Flashback.
----------
Syaoran looked down at the now figure of Meiling. The girl had finally found the need for sleep in her and she slowly had stopped crying and talking and her eyes had closed, gently going to her dream land away from this world. He finally found the courage to gently slide him of off her and into her place in their bed.
He sighed when he looked at the clock, it was late, nearly midnight and how he could have stayed up so long was a mystery, but he had managed it. He rubbed his eyes and took in a deep breath before standing and exiting the bedroom, leaving Meiling there.
Faded tap, silence, faded tap. His feet going against the carpet was the only noise that was invading their house. He had made it to the kitchen, grabbing a glass and filling it with water before sitting at the table. He felt dizzy and sick and depressed. Why did he do it? Why..
His eyes slowly glanced around the dark room, he needed to do something. He needed to get up and move, maybe it'd make me a bit sleepy. Standing and beginning to walk at a slow pace he brought himself to the door, then outside, walking down the abandoned sidewalk.
"Syaoran, you're an idiot," he heard himself talking to himself, and stopped. Still, that question he hated most was running through his mind. "Why did you do this to her? She wasn't ready, and you knew she wasn't ready, even if she didn't resist. You're a stupid jerk."
-----Flashback.-----
After those few glasses of alcohol that Syaoran had consumed he was completely.. well.. different. Why had he been drinking? Simple, Meiling and himself were playing a game of cards, speed.. everytime they lost they drank a glass. Fortunetly or unfortunately he had lost a few times, while Meiling had only consumed barely a glass, and a bit of another just for fun.
The two were now sitting on the couch, Meiling cuddled against his body, while his arm wrapped around her. He was ignoring what was on the TV and had eyes focused on Meiling. Her, just the thought of Meiling right now made him want her more then usual, something that was hard to resist.
He couldn't give in to his desire, but he could do something besides that. He tilted her head gently and kissed her deeply, she didn't resist. Slowly his tongue made his way into her mouth and the whole kiss had vanished, now it was a French kiss, something they barely ever did.
While the whole thing had been going on, he slowly could feel him giving up, and gently pushing her against the fabric on the couch. He was feeling.. playful, maybe it wasn't the alcohol that was doing this to him now.
He broke it, scooping her in his arms and bringing her down the hallway, which felt like one hundred miles in length, to their bedroom, laying her against the comforter. Getting near to her once again and placing their lips together, then deepening it into another French kiss. His finger slowly played with the end of her shirt, every so often gently running a finger against the bare rim of skin that came after the shirt and before the skirt.
Again he broke it, part of the reason was to catch a breath but most reason to change position of where the next one would be planted. He moved to the neck, gently kissing her there, Meiling's eyes slowly shutting from the soft warmth of it. Syaoran's hand finally moving from their boundary of the end of her shirt, to up the side of her stomach to the strap of her bra, his arm slowly moving the shirt up while doing so. The sudden placement of his hand sent a shiver up her spine, her eyes finally opened scanning herself and him..
-----End Flashback.-----
Syaoran had found himself leaning against the tree at the park, his arms crossed over his chest. He sighed slightly and lowered his head so his eyes would focus on the grass around him.
"Idiot. Syaoran Li, Li Xiaolang, why did you DO that to her? Why did you have to be playing that game, and drinking. Damn it, you're so stupid to do this.. Why couldn't you of just stayed on that couch and just kissed her like you always do? MY GOD, SYAORAN.. You're a complete idiot, didn't you think of what was going to happen? About what would happen to HER?"
-----Flashback.-----
Maybe it was that gently warm breathe going against his neck that pushed him further. His hand had slipped back out from his shirt, and began to unbutton the top of her shirt. He was kind of happy that she wore a shirt that buttoned in the front, so he could just slip it off, if it went that far.
One.
Meiling seemed to be getting the picture, and maybe she was stalling. She waited for him to look at her, then pushed their lips together, kissing. Syaoran let his hands free from her shirt and ran one hand through her raven black hair, while her hand did the same, but to him. That kiss lasted only five seconds when counted slowly, then Syaoran resumed to his task, Meiling looking at him. He stopped.
Two. "Mei?" The thought of the alcohol doing this to him had been reduced to nothing.. He knew this was him doing it. Meiling's ruby eyes locked with his. "Are you all right?"
-----End Flashback.-----
Maybe he didn't hear her response, or ignored it. He strained his mind to remember. He could see the one sentence running through his mind, but he wasn't sure if that was what she had said.. "I'm fine, Syaoran."
He sighed once again and looked up at the leaves and branches above him.
-----Flashback.-----
"I'm fine, Syaoran," he took one more look into her eyes and then continued, finishing three, four, then five buttons. Finished. His eyes scanned her upper body, she had what seemed to be like a perfect figure. Meiling grinned lightly.
He pulled his own shirt over his head and threw it to the side, laying down next to her, her back to his chest, and pulling an arm around her. She closed her eyes, while Syaoran whispered slightly in her ear. She could feel his fingers slowly going online the rim of her bra, but it didn't make her feel the least bit uncomfortable.
"It's like a dream," he sighed lightly, silence struck through the room for a few minutes. After maybe five minutes Syaoran moved back to the top of her, kissing her deeply once again.
-----End Flashback.-----
Syaoran took a glance at his watch, it had been almost an hour, and he was beginning to feel sleepy. He sighed and began to move slowly back to his house, trying to break the movie of flashbacks from his mind. It just seemed almost impossible.
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Meiling could feel herself being gently being dropped back into that horrible world everyone had called "reality". Oh, how she longed to stay in her own world, full of dreams, and she held the future in her hands in that world. If only she could have stayed there forever, and forget reality and what was going on through her life right now. But, to her displeasure that would never happen and she knew it.
Slowly her eyes opened to face contact with the pitch black room. So dark, like her eyes were shut, like someone had painted their room completely with the darkest colour of black that they could find.
Only a few seconds and her worst nightmate ran into her mind. Pregnancy. Not wanting her own baby. Was this her fault, or was this hit fault? She turned to the side of the bed where Syaoran usually slept and felt for his body, there was none. Obviously he had gone somewhere, but where she didn't know. All she knew was that she was alone in the darkness at the moment.
"It wasn't his fault, Meiling. You got yourself into this. YOU didn't HESITATE when he was ON you. Now why? Because, Meiling, you liked it. YOU had no mind to think that THAT would get YOU PREGNANT. It was your choice, and you went along with it. You could have stopped him when he was at the buttons of your shirt, Meiling."
-----Flashback.-----
The kiss lasted longer then Meiling had expected, and she found her finger slowly fiddling with the button of his pants, eventually bringing it off it's hold, but leaving the zipper in place. She had been hopping that he got the idea.
He did. Once Meiling's hand had slipped away from the button from his pants, she could instantly feel his touch running gently along the outside end of her leg and to the end of her skirt. He hesitated, then turned back to run his fingers back up, but on the inside of the leg, again stopping at the end of her skirt.
He then moved down again.
She broke the kiss and looked at him in the eyes. He blinked. She then felt that slow sound of a zipper. The zipper on the side of her skirt, slowly going down.. She didn't stop him. Once the zipper was down, she could feel him playfully tugging at the end, slowly bringing her almost naked. She began to feel cold till he began to kiss her again on the right side of her neck. Again his fingers danced along her leg.. up.. up.. to the rim of her underwear, his fingers then sliding gently underneath it.. She didn't resist, still..
-----End Flashback.-----
"Meiling?" The sudden voice of him made her break from the flashback, and pull herself back down under the covers. Her eyes had been focusing on the figure at the doorway, straining to see him, but only making out the outline of the young man.
"Syaoran?" She could hear his foot steps moving toward their bed, then slowly sliding in next to her. The next moment she felt her back pressed against his chest, his arms wrapped around her, fingers playing with her hair. Again, she wanted to melt but resisted, which led to the need to sleep.. "Where were you?"
"I needed to get some fresh air, nothing important, Mei," she let herself relax in his hold, but quickly stopped herself when feeling him gently press his lips against her neck. A kiss. She didn't want anything to happen, so pulled him gently off her, turning to look at him.
"Please.. don't, Syaoran," though she couldn't see the look in his face she knew he was frowning, feeling bad for letting himself do that one sign of affection against her neck.
"..All right, sorry," there was another hint of disappointment in his voice when he spoke. The whole tone didn't sound anything like him.
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After Note:
Well, everyone? I hope you enjoyed that scene of "R".. Was is rated correctly? I hope so.. I didn't want to over or under rate it. So, was that good enough? Did you all enjoy it? I hope you did because I'm still in disbelief that I accually wrote something like that.. I guess I needed to do something diffrent than what I usually wrote, and something diffrent that the usual romance in card captor sakura.
So, please, be a nice fan / reader and review kindly! No flames, I hate flames, I don't need flames, they're terrible. Thanks again. Chapter 4'll be up soon.