Randy
I woke up the next morning with Jessica in my arms.It felt really good. What was going on? I felt almost in love and as if this was my baby! I had really only been friends with her for a couple days. Sure I knew her and talked to her but we were aquaintences,nothing more really. This all was just going way too fast I needed to talk to someone but who? I wonder if mom would understand me. I know dad wouldn't and of course Brad wouldn't. Mark ,I doubt would even understand the situation! Wow things had gotton completely complicated over night.I also had to think about her living situation with her dad. He seemed abusive even though I have no proof he really is, But she seemed scared to be home and anxious to leave,just get out of there. Ok randy breath! I came to the conclusion that I had to talk to mom. So very carefully(without waking jessica up) I got out of bed and headed upstairs. I thanked god that dad was still asleep. Mom was standing in the kitchen making toast. "Good morning Honey." She greeted
"Hey mom,Um can I talk to you about something important?" I asked "Of course you can." She took my hand and sat me down at the table. "What's on your mind?"
"Well, I think I like Jess...Alot and I was thinking that maybe i'd help her out, when she had the baby." "Honey, you can't be that baby's father figure,you're not even 18 yet." "I know but i'm worried. Everyone at school harasses her and I think her dad might be abusing her.I just think that maybe she'll need help." "Look I understand how you feel but it's not your responsibility to take care of her or the baby." "I know all that mom but I have feelings for her and I don't know if it's a crush or what." "Well why can't you two be friends and if one day she needs help with the baby then we'll discuss it then.ok?"
"yea,ok." I got up and walked back to my room. I saw Jess still lying in bed but she was awake now. "Hi"she said. "Hey." I replied
Jessica Randy took me to school and the day just seemed to drag on. All I could think about was him and the whole big fight he had with his dad ,which still wasn't solved. I felt guilty for imposing on him and bringing my problems in his life. I don't know what was going on in my mind at the moment but I was walking down the hallway and I could here people snickering and I felt their eyes glaring at me and I felt like breaking down in the middle of the hallway. But instead, I kept on walking and walking until I came to the front doors. I took a deep breath and walked out.I just couldn't take it any more. I had to get away from everything.i just couldn't handle it. I thought to myself. 'Now what?' I had no where to go,I was all alone. I started feeling dizzy and couldn't breath. 'what's happening?' I asked myself. I suddenly felt like I couldn't walk anymore and my legs gave out. I could feel my body slam into the pavement. I lyed there almost paralyzed, I wonder if I am. Thoughts raced through my mind. Am I having my baby now? No that would be impossible,right? I heard people rushing all around me and I heard sirens. I couldn't see anything and when I tried to yell for somebody to help me,there was no voice. I felt a hand grab mine though,that I definitly felt. I had never felt so scared inmy life then I had at that moment. what was going on! Couldn't someone tell me?
I woke up the next morning with Jessica in my arms.It felt really good. What was going on? I felt almost in love and as if this was my baby! I had really only been friends with her for a couple days. Sure I knew her and talked to her but we were aquaintences,nothing more really. This all was just going way too fast I needed to talk to someone but who? I wonder if mom would understand me. I know dad wouldn't and of course Brad wouldn't. Mark ,I doubt would even understand the situation! Wow things had gotton completely complicated over night.I also had to think about her living situation with her dad. He seemed abusive even though I have no proof he really is, But she seemed scared to be home and anxious to leave,just get out of there. Ok randy breath! I came to the conclusion that I had to talk to mom. So very carefully(without waking jessica up) I got out of bed and headed upstairs. I thanked god that dad was still asleep. Mom was standing in the kitchen making toast. "Good morning Honey." She greeted
"Hey mom,Um can I talk to you about something important?" I asked "Of course you can." She took my hand and sat me down at the table. "What's on your mind?"
"Well, I think I like Jess...Alot and I was thinking that maybe i'd help her out, when she had the baby." "Honey, you can't be that baby's father figure,you're not even 18 yet." "I know but i'm worried. Everyone at school harasses her and I think her dad might be abusing her.I just think that maybe she'll need help." "Look I understand how you feel but it's not your responsibility to take care of her or the baby." "I know all that mom but I have feelings for her and I don't know if it's a crush or what." "Well why can't you two be friends and if one day she needs help with the baby then we'll discuss it then.ok?"
"yea,ok." I got up and walked back to my room. I saw Jess still lying in bed but she was awake now. "Hi"she said. "Hey." I replied
Jessica Randy took me to school and the day just seemed to drag on. All I could think about was him and the whole big fight he had with his dad ,which still wasn't solved. I felt guilty for imposing on him and bringing my problems in his life. I don't know what was going on in my mind at the moment but I was walking down the hallway and I could here people snickering and I felt their eyes glaring at me and I felt like breaking down in the middle of the hallway. But instead, I kept on walking and walking until I came to the front doors. I took a deep breath and walked out.I just couldn't take it any more. I had to get away from everything.i just couldn't handle it. I thought to myself. 'Now what?' I had no where to go,I was all alone. I started feeling dizzy and couldn't breath. 'what's happening?' I asked myself. I suddenly felt like I couldn't walk anymore and my legs gave out. I could feel my body slam into the pavement. I lyed there almost paralyzed, I wonder if I am. Thoughts raced through my mind. Am I having my baby now? No that would be impossible,right? I heard people rushing all around me and I heard sirens. I couldn't see anything and when I tried to yell for somebody to help me,there was no voice. I felt a hand grab mine though,that I definitly felt. I had never felt so scared inmy life then I had at that moment. what was going on! Couldn't someone tell me?