Chapter 4

It took me forever to fall asleep, I layed in bed reliveing every moment over and over. Was what my mom said true? Did he realy like me? If he did i'm realy blind for not seeing it. My eyes were fixed on my ceiling, the light from my computer reflected off of it. I rolled over, closeing my eyes. Think of nothing, sleep, sleep! I kept saying to my self. I looked at the clock. The red neon lights told me that it was 3:27. How could it be so late? In 6 and a half hours Harry will be comeing over again.. No! Alex. Sleep must sleep!

"Thats It!" I sat up, pulled theh covers off, and went ot my bathroom. I started rumageing through the medicine cabnet. "Where did those pills go?" I used to have these alergy pills that would make me drowsy, and would put me right out.

I gave up looking, and went down to the kitchen. It was very eery down there all alone. I began imagening my self seeing someone pop out of the shawdows, I becam very frightend, ran too the kitchen. I put my hand on the cool wall, feeling around for the light switch. I became panicked. I finaly found it. Hurried to the large refrigerator. Wheres the milk? I shuffled through containers. "Found It!" relived, I pulled it out.

Now, where are the cups? This was only the second time I had been in here, the first was when I got lost looking for the bathroom. There were many large cupboards. I began opening them. I guess I was makeing alot of noise, because the next thing I knew I was being attacked.

"AHH!" I screamed as if I were being murderd. My attacker screamed too. Then finaly I got a better look. It turns out my attacker was my cook!

"Miss Alexandria, what are you doing here?" He asked flutterd.

"I couldn't sleep and I wanted some milk." I said holding up the milk carten. "But I couldn't find the glasses." I shrugged.

"Miss, the glasses are over here." He walked over to a china hutch, and behind the glass doors were the glasses stood. I felt not only dumb, but blind. He got me one, took the milk and pour some out for me. He grinned, and handed it to me.

"Thank you," I smiled sheepishly. As I was walking back to my room, my mom met me at the stairs, in her night gown, her hair in rollers.

"What was going on down there? I heard a scream?" She questionend.

"Oh that, I went down to get a glass of milk, and I guess John heard me and came in. He scared me, and I screamed. Sorry if I woke you!" I explined takeing a sip of the cold milk.

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Well that was not what I expected. Ok, let me start from the begging. Harry came over and picked me up at 11:00 like he said. And I was so excited thinking that he was going to ask me out.. well yea like that happend!

He took me to a nice resturant in the outskirts of town, and we hada wonderful time.Untill, get this, he starts telling me about this girl named Ashely that he has liked forever. He told me every little detail about her, the whole time I was praticly gagging. But like the polite person I am, I just smiled, and nodded along.

My momwas so wrong. He dosn't like me, he likes Ashley Curtis. What kind of name is that? Sounds like some hill billy name. Anyways, I guess they have known each other since they were like ten. Her dad is one of the ritches men in England, so they went to the same schools, and crap. He thinks that me and her will "get along great". So he told me that the next day he's takeing me and her out to the beach, so we can get acquainted. I realy don't want to go. But I realy like him, so I might as well, hey at least I'll be spending an afternoon with him. thats good right?

Again, a tottal bust. The whole thim he was "flirting" with her. She's realy pretty, witch scares me. Ok, shes skinny, and has pretty big boobs. Her long dark brown hair falls perfectly strait, like she never needs to brush it, it just fell like that. She was realy nice, but very stuck up.

Everytime Harry would complement her, try to get close to her, by putting his arm around her.. she would blow him off. I sat there thinking. "Why can't that be me? Why can't I be that pretty, why can't Harry drool over me that way?" Finaly the turcher was over. He dropped her off at her mansion size house. And, we were alone, the first time the whole day.

"So," He started looking over at me then back to the road. "What do you think of her?" I faked a smile.

"She's really nice.." I couldn't bring my self to really complment her.

"She is so perfect, I mean, did you see her eyes? They are so big and brown.. and.." He looked over to me, I was stareing strait ahead with a bored and irratated look on my face.

"I'm sorry," he said, "I must be boreing you."

"Oh no, not at all. I love hearing about how perfect some girl is.." I said not trying to watch my sarcastic tone. The rest of the time was silent. I somewhat felt bad about what I said, but I realy didn't want to here him praise her anymore.

That was all about 3 weeks ago. Since then, me and Harry hve been spending alot of time together. As friends that is. We went and saw spiderman in the theaters. It was a great movie, and I enjoyed seeing it with him. Except while dureing the preveiws he pointed out a couple sitting in the back row, and told me that 15 minutes into the movie they would be makeing out. I just nodded and smiled to that.

He's taken me to a few parties, and I've gotten to know some more people. Theres this girl Haley, we hang out alot now, she's alot of fun, but being with her makes me miss Kris and Lizzie so much more.

I'm realy happy because me and him are becomeing realy great friends, we joke around alot. Of course I still realy adore him. But i'm trying not to let that interfere with our friendship. And of course Ashley is still in the picuter, he still is head over heels in love with her.

We were at lunch the other day, and he asked me if I would do him a favor.

"What kind of favor?" I asked, my mouth full of salad.

"Well, I think that Ashley may like me too.. but i'm not sure, so i wanted to know if you would spend some time with her alone, and find out for me, and if so, what her ideal date is.." There was an awkward silence.. NO! No, I wont, how could you ask me that? Are you that blind, do you not see that I am practicly in love with you?

"Yea, sure.." Ok I caved, well if you were looking into those deep blue eyes of his you would cave too!

"Really.." he seemed astonished, "Thank you so much." Yea, whatever. Now i'm going to have to go shopping or something with her. Nad that wount be weird, she's like a size negative 10. And I bet that everytime she tries on a outfit she'll tell me that it makes her look too fat, or complian that a size 0 dosn't fit her anymore. Well, anything for Harry I guess.

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Well well well. Guess what I found out today..start from the begging. Ashley and I went out shoppinig this morning, and after walking around for 3 hours, we stopped for luch at a small cafe. This was the time I decided to bring the whole Harry subject up. I didn't know how to start, so I began with just random celeberties.

"I was out with Susan gettin my usual "history lesson", and we were at the tower of london.. you'll never guess who I saw there." This was all a fat out lie, but hey it got her attention,

"Who?" She seemed intrigued.

"Josh Hartnett." Her mouth dropped.

"No way.." No atculy not, but I wish.

"Yea, he's so hot!" She nodded in agreement. "So who do you think is the hottest celebertie?" If this didn't work I would have to take a diffrent approach.

"Prince William.." that didn't take much thought.

"Realy?" I tried to seem interested.

"Yea, ever since I first layed eyes on him. It was when Harry brought me over to his house when we were like 11, I have loved him since!"

"But what about Harry? You two seem kinda close.." I knew the answer, but I had to get her to say it.

"Harry?" She lauged. "Oh, your serious... Well, he's nice, and fun to hang out.. but don't tell him this, but I realy only have stuck by him all this time to get near William." ouch! How could she use him like that? And I can't tell Harry that, it's break his heart.

So now, I don't know what I'm going to tell him. He's going to call me in about 10 minutes, and I am debateing weather or not I should tell him. Crap, thats the phone! Be back later..

I couldn't tell him! Heres the conversation.. well not word for word, but the gist of it.

"Well, how did it go?" He immedietly asked.

"Hi, i'm fine thanx for asking.." I kidded

"Sorry, but I've been dieng all day!" you should of heard his voice, he sounded like her realy did like her..too bad shes such a bitch.

"I didn't find out, sorry!" I fibbed

"What? Why not?"

"Well, I couldn't get the subject up.. she likes to talk alot, and the conversation has to go her way!" I tried to be funny to cheer him up, but it didn't work. He didn't say anything, I knew he was upset.

"I'm sorry, but what did you want me to do? Blurt out, 'Hey, Ashley do you like Harry? Cuz he's madly in love with you!" this kinda upset him.

"Fine, I'll just have to find out myself.."

"No! I'll do it, just give me another day.. lets see, I have an interview tommorow, and then sunday mass on sunday, so if she's not busy on monday, then we'll go out again."

He thanked me, and we talked for a bit. I enjoy talking to him, because I can tell him anything. Somehow we got on the subject countries.

"I have always wanted to go to France, Paris that is. But my mom and Susan don't think I'm ready for it." I illustraited.

"Huh, why's that?" Harry inquired.

"They don't think i'm ready to go yet.."

"Thats bull, Charles lets me go all the time.." he bragged. I always found it funny that he called his dad Charles, they never got along too well so, when Harry wasn't around him he would call him Charles.

"Ever since I was little I have wanted to go see the Eifle Tower, I don't know why, it just fascinated me." He then went on to tell me that the coolest place he has been was Switzerland, because it was the best place to go snowboarding.

"I've aculty never been snowbaording, or skiing at that.." He found this very shocking, and didn't belive me that I just didn't have the time or the intrest to go back in New York. So then he Tuesday he was takeing me to Norway for 3 nights, and he was going to teach me how to snowboard, that is if it's alright with our parents.