Five Times Five
By: Princess Ashley
That last chapter was probably a heartbreaker, especially for me. But I have always written happy endings, and those aren't always the cases. Kind of a Spider-man deal I guess. If you stopped reading, I can understand, but I'm going to finish this, no matter what. I'll just have to live with the guilt. Gotta go and mess up someone else's life.
Chapter 20: What about Trowa? And what about Makoto?
Keeping in the darkness all his life, nobody ever cared for him besides Quatre and Cathrine. Others could care less. Sure his friends who mourn him for a while, but then they would move on, like they were programmed to do so. Programmed, that sounds so cheap. Like some soulless psycho living in some sort of digital world, where people can put whatever they wanted inside your head. They could give you immortality, they could take away you ability to feel. Like your life is lived being controlled by someone else. You're given instructions about what you are supposed to do in your life and nothing else. Only the most blessed people are given the ability to love. And apparently, he was not one of them.
(Trowa's POV)
Wufei was given emotions for the occasion, the only woman to ever kick his butt was dead, and to him, that was like losing a god, or in this case a goddess. All he ever does these days is sit and his room all day meditating, as if hoping that he can get in touch with the dead world and get them to either take him or give the girl back to him. Oh yeah, Wufei had feelings, in fact, he was in love, and the woman loved him back.
Heero had emotions, he was actually a kind hearted young boy with a mission. And stubborn as he was, he would not ignore it. People were just taught to keep away from him if they valued their life. Yet, the woman he was supposed to be against was the one person who could rival him in stubbornness, and meaning more to him than he wanted her to. And I was sure she felt the same way, they wanted to stay away, but their paths drew them together. Heero always had emotions, but he chose not to show them, until now they knew what the two felt, or else Heero would have just let Usagi die alone. But he didn't. He to was alone, and with her, he was in the company of a goddess. That is why he died with her.
Quatre was like Heero, he had emotions, he didn't always show them, he wasn't as open to people as Duo, but he would have liked to trust all the people he met, he didn't like to kill, he would rather just to be on the side of peace and not have to fight at all. But this fate was the only thing that kept him going, knowing that nothing was a easy as most pacifists like Relena seemed to think. Quatre cared for the people like him. He cared much for Wufei, Heero, Duo, and me and knowing the people he could trust. He never trusted Lady Une, and he never trusted Treize even when he pretended to be on the side of peace. Quatre had found love in Ami, for she and he were both alike. They didn't like killing, neither did they like having to watch who they trusted. Ami was no pacifist, and she knew what it took to gain peace. Sometimes assassination was the only way to bring peace, and she knew that was well as Quatre did, that is what attracted them.
Duo, not much to say, it was only natural that he would be the first to fall under love's spell, and it was expected of him. He was open, he would trust who he wanted to, and others, he killed. He liked getting on people's nerves, just as Minako did, though she probably didn't do it on purpose as much as Duo did. Duo enjoyed torturing Heero, while Minako wanted nothing more than to be Usagi's best friend, even closer than Rei, which now was impossible, since she had killed Rei, and in a way, she had killed Usagi and Heero as well. She as good as killed them all.
Heero was gone, and he was a good spirit, a leader to them, and a person to turn to. He was emotionless, but he knew what it meant to loose something you didn't want to. He had risked his life for them, he gave them their morals. They didn't always agree, but he held them up, he told them to move on, but how could they move on against something like this?
Usagi was gone, Rei was gone. They were both the best people anyone could as for. Usagi and Rei were as loyal as they come. They never betrayed anyone that meant something to them. Usagi had never known a family, which made them hard to miss. Rei had the same experience, only she was taken to OZ a bit later. Ami and Makoto and Minako all looked up to those for support, for they knew that nothing in their lives could ever compare to the pain and suffering Rei and Usagi had went through in their earlier lives, so they found no reason to resent them. They followed them, because they knew more about life than anyone did.
Now where does that leave me? I stand in the middle of all this. All my friends have found *some* support in their lives, and look at me. I stand- alone. No one loves me and no one cares. I can kill myself now and no one will even care.
"Then why don't you?" A voice cut into his long agonizing line of thought. He turned, realizing that he had walked into the garden without even knowing it. There was a girl with brown hair pulled up in a loose ponytail, and beautiful green eyes.
Trowa would have acted on instinct and taken out his gun, but being careless he had left in the mansion in his room. He backed up.
"I'm not going to hurt you. You know me as well as anyone does."
It was Lita, or Makoto, he had not seen her since she went back to OZ. He remembers the little fling they once had. He stayed silent.
"So, the silent storm is ignorant. I can understand that. You must think that all this is my fault. But you see, this wasn't supposed to happen. My sister told me what had happened, and believe me when I say this wasn't planned." She took a step toward him.
"Your sister?"
"Yes, her name is Setsuna, she has been looking after us all. She knows all that has been and all that will be. But she didn't see this coming. Her knowledge does have its limits you know. But she has been looking over everyone. Usagi, Heero, and Rei were all meant to die as she later one found out. Their time lines all predicted this."
"..."
"Then I will continue. Yes she can control time, and she knows everyone's fate. Do you believe in fate, Trowa?" Makoto asked, seriously.
Trowa looked at her, her look was burning into him, he hated it when expected him to say something to their comments. "....no."
Makoto looked him in question. "Why not?"
"Because I don't like the idea that I'm not in control of my life." (Well this sounds familiar doesn't it?)
Makoto nodded, "Of course. You seem to think that all this was played out by actions? Well, in a way it was. You can go one of two paths, on the one hand, you can go as fate takes you;....on the other hand, you can go the way you want to go. Heero, Usagi and Rei all went the path of fate. Minako went her own way. But either path has its consequences. Because of Minako's choice, all three of them are dead."
Trowa didn't like this one bit. What was she playing at? "I don't understand."
"Then let me clear it up for you. As long as everyone follows the path that fate laid out for them, they will always be trapped, they may be happy, but even happiness has a price. Fate will give you a happy ending, but no one is perfect. One person can go their own way, but the price is, it can impact someone else's life so much, that that person will end up living unhappy. Now Minako knew nothing of this, she went her own way, and the consequence of that are the lives of Heero, Usagi, and Rei. Like they say in China, and you can ask Wufei of this. One grain of rice can tip the scale, and one man can be the difference between victory and defeat. In this case, Minako was that one-grain of rice, that one man, or in this case, woman who could have led OZ to defeat the colonies. So in a way, she did do some good." She said to him, and suddenly it all made sense.
"And you knew all of this? Who are you really?"
Makoto smirked. "I am Jupiter, the Goddess of Heaven. My sister is Pluto, the Goddess of Hell."
Trowa was once again puzzled. "But the myths said..."
Makoto giggled. "Yes, that is why they are called myths. Now as I said before, if you want to kill yourself and get this over with so badly, then why not do it?"
Trowa walked up to her, towering above her. "Are you telling me to kill myself?" Even though he knew that was exactly what the purpose of her visit was.
"No, what I'm saying, is that if you wanted to, you wouldn't have to. I am Jupiter you know."
"What are you doing?"
"I am trying to save you from going down the road that fate put you to. The others will die. I know that, since they all went down the road of fate. Minako's decision, and Usagi and Heero's decision is affecting everyone around them. The only one it will not affect, is you. You are the one who will end up alone. Is that what you want? Or do you want to live forever with your friends, who by the way are destined to be gods and goddesses, just as you will be if you go your own way."
"Sounds complicated."
"It is, isn't it?" Makoto sighed.
"What about all the other gods and goddesses?"
"What other gods and goddesses?" Makoto asked, a mischievous smile on her face.Trowa stood dumbfounded. "The myths are destined to be true one day. And you are the ones destined to make up all the gods and goddesses with your friends, yourselves, and your children, when the time comes." She giggled.
Trowa smiled, and this time, it was genuine. "Well, it's going to be a kick in the head for Duo when he finds out he's not the Shinigami." He laughed.
"Well, he his. He is destined to be the one who brings people to their death. Not exactly the most cheery job ever, but it's fate for him." She said back. "Pluto just controls what will happen to the people once they get to Hades."
Trowa nodded. "So, does this mean your coming with me?"
"Are the other's deaths going to be painful?"
"No, they won't feel a thing."
Trowa thought a minute, considered his options, and then came to the conclusion that he did not wish to be the last man standing while everyone else got to live forever in happiness as gods and goddesses. "I'll go."
Makoto smiled at him, and kissed his cheek. "I knew you would agree. You won't regret it, believe me. Usagi, Heero, and Rei are waiting for you. Hold on." Trowa held on to her by the waist, and in a flash, they were gone, Trowa and Makoto's knives were on the ground, Trowa's in bronze crystal, and Makoto's in emerald.
***** Are you still going to flame me? I hope not. I like the whole idea that everyone gets to live forever together as gods and goddesses. Does sound kind of cool doesn't it? Well, I think so anyway. Review if your still reading it pleaz!
~mo
That last chapter was probably a heartbreaker, especially for me. But I have always written happy endings, and those aren't always the cases. Kind of a Spider-man deal I guess. If you stopped reading, I can understand, but I'm going to finish this, no matter what. I'll just have to live with the guilt. Gotta go and mess up someone else's life.
Chapter 20: What about Trowa? And what about Makoto?
Keeping in the darkness all his life, nobody ever cared for him besides Quatre and Cathrine. Others could care less. Sure his friends who mourn him for a while, but then they would move on, like they were programmed to do so. Programmed, that sounds so cheap. Like some soulless psycho living in some sort of digital world, where people can put whatever they wanted inside your head. They could give you immortality, they could take away you ability to feel. Like your life is lived being controlled by someone else. You're given instructions about what you are supposed to do in your life and nothing else. Only the most blessed people are given the ability to love. And apparently, he was not one of them.
(Trowa's POV)
Wufei was given emotions for the occasion, the only woman to ever kick his butt was dead, and to him, that was like losing a god, or in this case a goddess. All he ever does these days is sit and his room all day meditating, as if hoping that he can get in touch with the dead world and get them to either take him or give the girl back to him. Oh yeah, Wufei had feelings, in fact, he was in love, and the woman loved him back.
Heero had emotions, he was actually a kind hearted young boy with a mission. And stubborn as he was, he would not ignore it. People were just taught to keep away from him if they valued their life. Yet, the woman he was supposed to be against was the one person who could rival him in stubbornness, and meaning more to him than he wanted her to. And I was sure she felt the same way, they wanted to stay away, but their paths drew them together. Heero always had emotions, but he chose not to show them, until now they knew what the two felt, or else Heero would have just let Usagi die alone. But he didn't. He to was alone, and with her, he was in the company of a goddess. That is why he died with her.
Quatre was like Heero, he had emotions, he didn't always show them, he wasn't as open to people as Duo, but he would have liked to trust all the people he met, he didn't like to kill, he would rather just to be on the side of peace and not have to fight at all. But this fate was the only thing that kept him going, knowing that nothing was a easy as most pacifists like Relena seemed to think. Quatre cared for the people like him. He cared much for Wufei, Heero, Duo, and me and knowing the people he could trust. He never trusted Lady Une, and he never trusted Treize even when he pretended to be on the side of peace. Quatre had found love in Ami, for she and he were both alike. They didn't like killing, neither did they like having to watch who they trusted. Ami was no pacifist, and she knew what it took to gain peace. Sometimes assassination was the only way to bring peace, and she knew that was well as Quatre did, that is what attracted them.
Duo, not much to say, it was only natural that he would be the first to fall under love's spell, and it was expected of him. He was open, he would trust who he wanted to, and others, he killed. He liked getting on people's nerves, just as Minako did, though she probably didn't do it on purpose as much as Duo did. Duo enjoyed torturing Heero, while Minako wanted nothing more than to be Usagi's best friend, even closer than Rei, which now was impossible, since she had killed Rei, and in a way, she had killed Usagi and Heero as well. She as good as killed them all.
Heero was gone, and he was a good spirit, a leader to them, and a person to turn to. He was emotionless, but he knew what it meant to loose something you didn't want to. He had risked his life for them, he gave them their morals. They didn't always agree, but he held them up, he told them to move on, but how could they move on against something like this?
Usagi was gone, Rei was gone. They were both the best people anyone could as for. Usagi and Rei were as loyal as they come. They never betrayed anyone that meant something to them. Usagi had never known a family, which made them hard to miss. Rei had the same experience, only she was taken to OZ a bit later. Ami and Makoto and Minako all looked up to those for support, for they knew that nothing in their lives could ever compare to the pain and suffering Rei and Usagi had went through in their earlier lives, so they found no reason to resent them. They followed them, because they knew more about life than anyone did.
Now where does that leave me? I stand in the middle of all this. All my friends have found *some* support in their lives, and look at me. I stand- alone. No one loves me and no one cares. I can kill myself now and no one will even care.
"Then why don't you?" A voice cut into his long agonizing line of thought. He turned, realizing that he had walked into the garden without even knowing it. There was a girl with brown hair pulled up in a loose ponytail, and beautiful green eyes.
Trowa would have acted on instinct and taken out his gun, but being careless he had left in the mansion in his room. He backed up.
"I'm not going to hurt you. You know me as well as anyone does."
It was Lita, or Makoto, he had not seen her since she went back to OZ. He remembers the little fling they once had. He stayed silent.
"So, the silent storm is ignorant. I can understand that. You must think that all this is my fault. But you see, this wasn't supposed to happen. My sister told me what had happened, and believe me when I say this wasn't planned." She took a step toward him.
"Your sister?"
"Yes, her name is Setsuna, she has been looking after us all. She knows all that has been and all that will be. But she didn't see this coming. Her knowledge does have its limits you know. But she has been looking over everyone. Usagi, Heero, and Rei were all meant to die as she later one found out. Their time lines all predicted this."
"..."
"Then I will continue. Yes she can control time, and she knows everyone's fate. Do you believe in fate, Trowa?" Makoto asked, seriously.
Trowa looked at her, her look was burning into him, he hated it when expected him to say something to their comments. "....no."
Makoto looked him in question. "Why not?"
"Because I don't like the idea that I'm not in control of my life." (Well this sounds familiar doesn't it?)
Makoto nodded, "Of course. You seem to think that all this was played out by actions? Well, in a way it was. You can go one of two paths, on the one hand, you can go as fate takes you;....on the other hand, you can go the way you want to go. Heero, Usagi and Rei all went the path of fate. Minako went her own way. But either path has its consequences. Because of Minako's choice, all three of them are dead."
Trowa didn't like this one bit. What was she playing at? "I don't understand."
"Then let me clear it up for you. As long as everyone follows the path that fate laid out for them, they will always be trapped, they may be happy, but even happiness has a price. Fate will give you a happy ending, but no one is perfect. One person can go their own way, but the price is, it can impact someone else's life so much, that that person will end up living unhappy. Now Minako knew nothing of this, she went her own way, and the consequence of that are the lives of Heero, Usagi, and Rei. Like they say in China, and you can ask Wufei of this. One grain of rice can tip the scale, and one man can be the difference between victory and defeat. In this case, Minako was that one-grain of rice, that one man, or in this case, woman who could have led OZ to defeat the colonies. So in a way, she did do some good." She said to him, and suddenly it all made sense.
"And you knew all of this? Who are you really?"
Makoto smirked. "I am Jupiter, the Goddess of Heaven. My sister is Pluto, the Goddess of Hell."
Trowa was once again puzzled. "But the myths said..."
Makoto giggled. "Yes, that is why they are called myths. Now as I said before, if you want to kill yourself and get this over with so badly, then why not do it?"
Trowa walked up to her, towering above her. "Are you telling me to kill myself?" Even though he knew that was exactly what the purpose of her visit was.
"No, what I'm saying, is that if you wanted to, you wouldn't have to. I am Jupiter you know."
"What are you doing?"
"I am trying to save you from going down the road that fate put you to. The others will die. I know that, since they all went down the road of fate. Minako's decision, and Usagi and Heero's decision is affecting everyone around them. The only one it will not affect, is you. You are the one who will end up alone. Is that what you want? Or do you want to live forever with your friends, who by the way are destined to be gods and goddesses, just as you will be if you go your own way."
"Sounds complicated."
"It is, isn't it?" Makoto sighed.
"What about all the other gods and goddesses?"
"What other gods and goddesses?" Makoto asked, a mischievous smile on her face.Trowa stood dumbfounded. "The myths are destined to be true one day. And you are the ones destined to make up all the gods and goddesses with your friends, yourselves, and your children, when the time comes." She giggled.
Trowa smiled, and this time, it was genuine. "Well, it's going to be a kick in the head for Duo when he finds out he's not the Shinigami." He laughed.
"Well, he his. He is destined to be the one who brings people to their death. Not exactly the most cheery job ever, but it's fate for him." She said back. "Pluto just controls what will happen to the people once they get to Hades."
Trowa nodded. "So, does this mean your coming with me?"
"Are the other's deaths going to be painful?"
"No, they won't feel a thing."
Trowa thought a minute, considered his options, and then came to the conclusion that he did not wish to be the last man standing while everyone else got to live forever in happiness as gods and goddesses. "I'll go."
Makoto smiled at him, and kissed his cheek. "I knew you would agree. You won't regret it, believe me. Usagi, Heero, and Rei are waiting for you. Hold on." Trowa held on to her by the waist, and in a flash, they were gone, Trowa and Makoto's knives were on the ground, Trowa's in bronze crystal, and Makoto's in emerald.
***** Are you still going to flame me? I hope not. I like the whole idea that everyone gets to live forever together as gods and goddesses. Does sound kind of cool doesn't it? Well, I think so anyway. Review if your still reading it pleaz!
~mo