Chapter 9: Emotions:
When my eyesight adjusted, I was in a small room. White and green, bright pictures of animals and flowers, but the room entirely smelled of polish. Flowers sat on a medium table right across from my bed. I scanned the room slowly. Everything was still in a haze. I tried to move, but my joints were stiff.
There was something irritating in my hand so I reached over to pull it out by grabbing on to the long cord. I slowly began to pull, until someone grabbed my hand, it was a lady in white. Her badge read: Nurse Sotoshi. She moved my hand away from the cord and stared at me with bright deep brown eyes. Then gracefully moved around the room, putting, placing, and moving things. When she had finished whatever she was doing she glided to the door, but stopped before she exited and flipped her dark red hair with a smile.
"Good morning Catrina. You have really been out haven't you? How do you feel? If it wasn't for that concerned young man at the diner, we might not of gotten you here. You are very lucky. Sweetheart, when was the last time you had eaten something? I will have someone send you something if you would like, some people say the foods not that tasty, but in your condition you need whatever you can get... that would explain your dizzy spell. You look tired and you may have a cold and we are going to keep you so it will not move into the stages of pneumonia, I would hate that for you...oh, yes, listen to me, just jabbering on. There was something I was going to... oh that's right, your parents are right outside, they will be in shortly." She said finally leaving out of the room. My parents? My parents...
In just three minutes time... the Sueki's came threw the narrow green door and Ryka was the first I laid eyes on.
"Catrina, I am so sorry. Are you okay? How do you feel? I am sorry, really, I am." She sat down on the end of the bed and I looked away, more interested in the birds outside my window.
"Leave...me...alone." I choked out. It was that sound again. It still sounded so different from the last time I heard it. I turned to look at Ryka. She looked surprised and stood up and moved off the bed and turned her back from me, almost like she was going to cry.
"Catrina, why did you leave? We were so worried about you, we had people looking for you all night and then Andrew called us and said that you were at the hospital because you fainted outside of Crown. Don't you see, the only reason why he knew to call us is because we told people all about you, because we were happy to have you, because we care about you.
We...I...Catrina don't you dare do that again!" Mrs. Sueki looked away from me and I looked away from her. I didn't want to see that look, that look of honest care, concern, and actual worry. It reminded me of the time long ago when my parents and I went to... Crystal something, and the Queen's daughter had gotten lost in the rose gardens and we had to search and I got lost trying to help. I never thought that I would get out, and then I found her. She was my height, but a year younger, her hair in pigtails; long blonde ones, like she walked on golden strains, deep blue eyes, and her name was...
"Catrina, what is it? Are you feeling okay?" I looked at Mr. Sueki, than away. I don't need anything from them, only my family...
There was a large gust of wind and a woman with hair as red as fire and green eyes, a mysterious black dress, and long nails, stood in front of us. Her voice hissed as she told us her story of betrayal and expulsion and how it was our fault, but she disappeared as my mother and father came around a pile of roses, followed by the king and queen. I ran to my mother and she wrapped her arms around me, than told me never to leave and how I knew better, she was angry and my father looked the same, than he put his hand on her shoulder and she began to cry and tell me how scared she was and how much she loved me and my father said the same...
"Honey we care about you, we love you so much. You have to understand that we are your home now, we are all that you have now, all that you have." Mr. Sueki said and all that you have now played loudly in my ears, all that I have now, my home, my family, all that I have.
"I...want to...go...home...back to my...home...my life...where I belong. Back to my family." I said as the words burned my throat and caused me to cough. Ryka stood up and walked over to me.
"Catrina you can't go back! There is no back! We are your family now and there is nothing you can do about it, you have no brothers or sisters, no one that can say that they will take you and Star Court has never been heard of, don't you understand yet! Your parents are gone... I'm sorry but they can't come back and this so called kingdom, no one has heard of it, you can't go back to a world that doesn't exist. You can't go." Tears streamed down her face and she walked over to the door and placed her head on it. I began to feel tears in my eyes, it was almost like I could see myself about to let the waves of salt water free from my eyes, and I'm not going to cry!
"Leave me...alone. All of...you, go now...please. Go!" I said turning fully away from them. I heard the sound of soft shoes, than clicking shoes, but the usual sound of Mr. Sueki's shoes didn't leave.
"We're staying here until you get better. Even though, you may not realize it now, we do care about you and love you, even Ryka that is just her way of telling you her feelings. She was the first one to lead the search party and the last on to stop, because she cares and so do we." He said with compassion in his voice, than I heard his shoes move away from me, than the sound of the closing door behind them. I looked out the window and began to feel angry all over again.
Angry at them for looking, angry at Ryka for being so honest, angry at everyone and everything, and angry at my parents for leaving me.... by myself.
I touched my eyes. I could feel the water building even higher, almost pouring over the walls that kept them inside. I'm not going to cry and they are not going to make me! BRI sat up straight in bed, stiff and sore. The irritation in my hand had to stop, so I grabbed the cord and pulled. There was a pulse that went threw my wrist and up my arm, sending a numbing sensation threw the rest of my body. I got control of the pain and climbed out of bed, balancing myself on each object in the room as my feet wobbled and occasional I fell, but I kept control, I had to. I fell and pulled myself from the floor to the wall and than up and then I saw my escape, the window. The birds on the outside were free, the air was fresh, and no one could hurt me. I stood in a chair and pulled at the window until in budged inches, than I began to pull and hit against it with my fist until some glass broke and I could smell the air. I began to hit it more until there was a wide enough space for me to step out and onto the ledge. There was a tree in front of me and without hesitation. I jumped onto the branch. The sirens from inside made me turn too quickly and a pinch-hit my wrist and the pain shot all over, causing me to wench and fall. The branches were all around me and the sky seemed to get smaller and farther away, than I realized what was next...the ground. To my surprise it wasn't as hard as expected and the outside of it was yellow?
"Amara look!" That voice. Where have I heard it?
"Where in the...where did she come from? Are these leaves?" I shook my head and tried to keep focus from the extreme dizziness.
"Now if this isn't something saying we should help, than I don't know what is...get in Michelle, let's go." The stronger voice said and there was a shutting sound. Where am I?
"I don't know about this... first we come to see how Amy is liking her new job and now... Did you feel that, was that from her? Amara I really don't know about this, but I trust you. Let's go." The soft-spoken voice said assured. Trees and clouds flew by me in a daze. I couldn't focus, so I closed my eyes and thought of nothing...
When my eyesight adjusted, I was in a small room. White and green, bright pictures of animals and flowers, but the room entirely smelled of polish. Flowers sat on a medium table right across from my bed. I scanned the room slowly. Everything was still in a haze. I tried to move, but my joints were stiff.
There was something irritating in my hand so I reached over to pull it out by grabbing on to the long cord. I slowly began to pull, until someone grabbed my hand, it was a lady in white. Her badge read: Nurse Sotoshi. She moved my hand away from the cord and stared at me with bright deep brown eyes. Then gracefully moved around the room, putting, placing, and moving things. When she had finished whatever she was doing she glided to the door, but stopped before she exited and flipped her dark red hair with a smile.
"Good morning Catrina. You have really been out haven't you? How do you feel? If it wasn't for that concerned young man at the diner, we might not of gotten you here. You are very lucky. Sweetheart, when was the last time you had eaten something? I will have someone send you something if you would like, some people say the foods not that tasty, but in your condition you need whatever you can get... that would explain your dizzy spell. You look tired and you may have a cold and we are going to keep you so it will not move into the stages of pneumonia, I would hate that for you...oh, yes, listen to me, just jabbering on. There was something I was going to... oh that's right, your parents are right outside, they will be in shortly." She said finally leaving out of the room. My parents? My parents...
In just three minutes time... the Sueki's came threw the narrow green door and Ryka was the first I laid eyes on.
"Catrina, I am so sorry. Are you okay? How do you feel? I am sorry, really, I am." She sat down on the end of the bed and I looked away, more interested in the birds outside my window.
"Leave...me...alone." I choked out. It was that sound again. It still sounded so different from the last time I heard it. I turned to look at Ryka. She looked surprised and stood up and moved off the bed and turned her back from me, almost like she was going to cry.
"Catrina, why did you leave? We were so worried about you, we had people looking for you all night and then Andrew called us and said that you were at the hospital because you fainted outside of Crown. Don't you see, the only reason why he knew to call us is because we told people all about you, because we were happy to have you, because we care about you.
We...I...Catrina don't you dare do that again!" Mrs. Sueki looked away from me and I looked away from her. I didn't want to see that look, that look of honest care, concern, and actual worry. It reminded me of the time long ago when my parents and I went to... Crystal something, and the Queen's daughter had gotten lost in the rose gardens and we had to search and I got lost trying to help. I never thought that I would get out, and then I found her. She was my height, but a year younger, her hair in pigtails; long blonde ones, like she walked on golden strains, deep blue eyes, and her name was...
"Catrina, what is it? Are you feeling okay?" I looked at Mr. Sueki, than away. I don't need anything from them, only my family...
There was a large gust of wind and a woman with hair as red as fire and green eyes, a mysterious black dress, and long nails, stood in front of us. Her voice hissed as she told us her story of betrayal and expulsion and how it was our fault, but she disappeared as my mother and father came around a pile of roses, followed by the king and queen. I ran to my mother and she wrapped her arms around me, than told me never to leave and how I knew better, she was angry and my father looked the same, than he put his hand on her shoulder and she began to cry and tell me how scared she was and how much she loved me and my father said the same...
"Honey we care about you, we love you so much. You have to understand that we are your home now, we are all that you have now, all that you have." Mr. Sueki said and all that you have now played loudly in my ears, all that I have now, my home, my family, all that I have.
"I...want to...go...home...back to my...home...my life...where I belong. Back to my family." I said as the words burned my throat and caused me to cough. Ryka stood up and walked over to me.
"Catrina you can't go back! There is no back! We are your family now and there is nothing you can do about it, you have no brothers or sisters, no one that can say that they will take you and Star Court has never been heard of, don't you understand yet! Your parents are gone... I'm sorry but they can't come back and this so called kingdom, no one has heard of it, you can't go back to a world that doesn't exist. You can't go." Tears streamed down her face and she walked over to the door and placed her head on it. I began to feel tears in my eyes, it was almost like I could see myself about to let the waves of salt water free from my eyes, and I'm not going to cry!
"Leave me...alone. All of...you, go now...please. Go!" I said turning fully away from them. I heard the sound of soft shoes, than clicking shoes, but the usual sound of Mr. Sueki's shoes didn't leave.
"We're staying here until you get better. Even though, you may not realize it now, we do care about you and love you, even Ryka that is just her way of telling you her feelings. She was the first one to lead the search party and the last on to stop, because she cares and so do we." He said with compassion in his voice, than I heard his shoes move away from me, than the sound of the closing door behind them. I looked out the window and began to feel angry all over again.
Angry at them for looking, angry at Ryka for being so honest, angry at everyone and everything, and angry at my parents for leaving me.... by myself.
I touched my eyes. I could feel the water building even higher, almost pouring over the walls that kept them inside. I'm not going to cry and they are not going to make me! BRI sat up straight in bed, stiff and sore. The irritation in my hand had to stop, so I grabbed the cord and pulled. There was a pulse that went threw my wrist and up my arm, sending a numbing sensation threw the rest of my body. I got control of the pain and climbed out of bed, balancing myself on each object in the room as my feet wobbled and occasional I fell, but I kept control, I had to. I fell and pulled myself from the floor to the wall and than up and then I saw my escape, the window. The birds on the outside were free, the air was fresh, and no one could hurt me. I stood in a chair and pulled at the window until in budged inches, than I began to pull and hit against it with my fist until some glass broke and I could smell the air. I began to hit it more until there was a wide enough space for me to step out and onto the ledge. There was a tree in front of me and without hesitation. I jumped onto the branch. The sirens from inside made me turn too quickly and a pinch-hit my wrist and the pain shot all over, causing me to wench and fall. The branches were all around me and the sky seemed to get smaller and farther away, than I realized what was next...the ground. To my surprise it wasn't as hard as expected and the outside of it was yellow?
"Amara look!" That voice. Where have I heard it?
"Where in the...where did she come from? Are these leaves?" I shook my head and tried to keep focus from the extreme dizziness.
"Now if this isn't something saying we should help, than I don't know what is...get in Michelle, let's go." The stronger voice said and there was a shutting sound. Where am I?
"I don't know about this... first we come to see how Amy is liking her new job and now... Did you feel that, was that from her? Amara I really don't know about this, but I trust you. Let's go." The soft-spoken voice said assured. Trees and clouds flew by me in a daze. I couldn't focus, so I closed my eyes and thought of nothing...