Chapter 18: The Truth About That Night:
The sky was clouded and I seemed to be standing over myself in my own bed but I wasn't like myself now I was a child. I was about five or so and I suddenly remembered that night. I was just getting over the thought and the fact that my mother and father went on another meeting that lead them away from me.
Cari had just left my room and I was alone thinking about what they could be doing. Then suddenly the sky went dark and clouds seemed to circle everywhere and there was this large white and blue bird that seemed to fly in the sky over the clouds and suddenly it burst into flames and came crashing to the ground in a large ball of fire.
When I thought about it I was realizing and seeing the way my parents were taken out of m life that night and when I opened my eyes to the sound of Horuka's crying there was a feeling that I couldn't shake. For some reason in my mind I thought that in some kind of way it was my fault. It was my fault because they wanted me to have everything I wanted in my life and that is why they went away so much, for me and I caused this…
I got dressed in silence and even met the girls with the same silence, even after Serena asked me did I want to come over to her house and play Sailor V that her brother had brought from the arcade I still didn't answer. There was just something strange about today but I wasn't all that sure of what I was feeling. It was the weekend and nothing to do. We had gone to the arcade and even went over to Rei's shrine for some mediation training her grandfather was trying to show us but something was missing.
We went back to the arcade and I told them to go on ahead and I will meet them there. I went to the Sueki house. It felt so different because I had been gone so long. I walked up to the apartment door. Room 536 and knocked on the door. I only knocked once and was about to turn around when the door slowly opened.
"Catrina!" Mrs. Sueki yelled and embraced me tightly as tears filled her eyes. She asked me where have I been, where was I staying, who am I staying with, why hadn't I called, so many questions that I couldn't even remember the first one that came out of her mouth.
"I just wanted to see you. Good bye." I turned around but she grabbed my wrist and wouldn't let me go. She told me to stay, she told me she loved me, she told that she never wanted me to leave again, and she told me that she needed me.
"We've missed you so much. I've missed you. Where have you been? Are you okay? Are you in trouble? Please come home." She said with tears streaming down her face. This is what I missed. This is what I felt was missing. They had taken me into there home like no one else would and they loved me with all they had.
"I'm ok. I'm in school and I'm staying with some friends. I had to go and meet them but I'll…come and see you sometime. You and Mr. Sueki okay?" Her eyes widened when she realized how much I opened my mouth and how much I actually said.
"Yes, you should…I mean, now that you're…going to be an aunt." Mrs. Sueki lowered her head as she said the word 'Aunt.' I looked at her and then again when it really clicked on me of what she meant.
"Ryka is…" She shook her head and said that it was true. She said that Ryka told her last night and she couldn't believe it. She said that it was just something that happened one night but she forgave her for it. She just didn't know what to think or do now and neither does Ryka. She said she was only a few weeks but she isn't sure yet and she wanted to let me know just in case I ever came home.
"Thank you…I'll be back…later." I opened the door and walked out. As I walked all I kept thinking about was what she had just said and how I felt. I was realized that they missed me but then again now I felt obligated to be with them and understand and help Ryka but she never helped me, she didn't even like me but this was different…or was it?
When I walked into the arcade Serena was sitting at the table. She said that the others had gone to see if they could get tickets for another Three Lights concert.
"Serena…I have something to tell you but keep it to yourself okay?" She smiled and said she would. As I sat there at the table with Serena I told her about my real life. I told her about who I really was and how I got here. Where I am from and who I lived with and even about Ryka's new pregnancy and about what and who I met last night.
"Catrina…I can't believe all this." She said with innocence in her voice.
"Now there's something I have to tell you." I relaxed when I realized she wasn't judging me or thinking there was something going on with me in the head for telling her all this but I knew she would understand me…
I listened as she told me the stories of how she and Darien met, what he meant to her, and how they wanted to start their life, and she even answered my questions about what I saw last night. She said they were heroes around Tokyo and Juuban and they protect the earth and the world and universe from evil and not to fear them.
When ended the conversation when the girls came back with the tickets and Serena acted like I had said nothing at all…
That was our secret…hopefully she would keep it to herself…hopefully…
The sky was clouded and I seemed to be standing over myself in my own bed but I wasn't like myself now I was a child. I was about five or so and I suddenly remembered that night. I was just getting over the thought and the fact that my mother and father went on another meeting that lead them away from me.
Cari had just left my room and I was alone thinking about what they could be doing. Then suddenly the sky went dark and clouds seemed to circle everywhere and there was this large white and blue bird that seemed to fly in the sky over the clouds and suddenly it burst into flames and came crashing to the ground in a large ball of fire.
When I thought about it I was realizing and seeing the way my parents were taken out of m life that night and when I opened my eyes to the sound of Horuka's crying there was a feeling that I couldn't shake. For some reason in my mind I thought that in some kind of way it was my fault. It was my fault because they wanted me to have everything I wanted in my life and that is why they went away so much, for me and I caused this…
I got dressed in silence and even met the girls with the same silence, even after Serena asked me did I want to come over to her house and play Sailor V that her brother had brought from the arcade I still didn't answer. There was just something strange about today but I wasn't all that sure of what I was feeling. It was the weekend and nothing to do. We had gone to the arcade and even went over to Rei's shrine for some mediation training her grandfather was trying to show us but something was missing.
We went back to the arcade and I told them to go on ahead and I will meet them there. I went to the Sueki house. It felt so different because I had been gone so long. I walked up to the apartment door. Room 536 and knocked on the door. I only knocked once and was about to turn around when the door slowly opened.
"Catrina!" Mrs. Sueki yelled and embraced me tightly as tears filled her eyes. She asked me where have I been, where was I staying, who am I staying with, why hadn't I called, so many questions that I couldn't even remember the first one that came out of her mouth.
"I just wanted to see you. Good bye." I turned around but she grabbed my wrist and wouldn't let me go. She told me to stay, she told me she loved me, she told that she never wanted me to leave again, and she told me that she needed me.
"We've missed you so much. I've missed you. Where have you been? Are you okay? Are you in trouble? Please come home." She said with tears streaming down her face. This is what I missed. This is what I felt was missing. They had taken me into there home like no one else would and they loved me with all they had.
"I'm ok. I'm in school and I'm staying with some friends. I had to go and meet them but I'll…come and see you sometime. You and Mr. Sueki okay?" Her eyes widened when she realized how much I opened my mouth and how much I actually said.
"Yes, you should…I mean, now that you're…going to be an aunt." Mrs. Sueki lowered her head as she said the word 'Aunt.' I looked at her and then again when it really clicked on me of what she meant.
"Ryka is…" She shook her head and said that it was true. She said that Ryka told her last night and she couldn't believe it. She said that it was just something that happened one night but she forgave her for it. She just didn't know what to think or do now and neither does Ryka. She said she was only a few weeks but she isn't sure yet and she wanted to let me know just in case I ever came home.
"Thank you…I'll be back…later." I opened the door and walked out. As I walked all I kept thinking about was what she had just said and how I felt. I was realized that they missed me but then again now I felt obligated to be with them and understand and help Ryka but she never helped me, she didn't even like me but this was different…or was it?
When I walked into the arcade Serena was sitting at the table. She said that the others had gone to see if they could get tickets for another Three Lights concert.
"Serena…I have something to tell you but keep it to yourself okay?" She smiled and said she would. As I sat there at the table with Serena I told her about my real life. I told her about who I really was and how I got here. Where I am from and who I lived with and even about Ryka's new pregnancy and about what and who I met last night.
"Catrina…I can't believe all this." She said with innocence in her voice.
"Now there's something I have to tell you." I relaxed when I realized she wasn't judging me or thinking there was something going on with me in the head for telling her all this but I knew she would understand me…
I listened as she told me the stories of how she and Darien met, what he meant to her, and how they wanted to start their life, and she even answered my questions about what I saw last night. She said they were heroes around Tokyo and Juuban and they protect the earth and the world and universe from evil and not to fear them.
When ended the conversation when the girls came back with the tickets and Serena acted like I had said nothing at all…
That was our secret…hopefully she would keep it to herself…hopefully…