Confessions
Author: Bonita
E-mail: LaBonita409@aol.com
Rated: NC-17
Summary: Max and Logan tell each other how the truly feel.(takes place after freak of nation)
Authors Note: Please don't read if under 18...don't say I didn't warn you!!!
Please send feedback it's my first fic I need to know what you think. Feel free to e-mail my telling me what you think.
Disclaimer: I don't own Dark Angel...I 'm just borrowing the characters for my story.

Chapter 9

We made it home and Logan took all the baby stuff to the guest room. I sat down and Logan sat next to me and pulled me to him as he held me cradling me in his arms.

"So" he said "let's talk about baby names....what about Dylan."

"No...Mark."

"God no...how about Ben in memory of your brother."

I got emotional "I love it. Benjamin Scott Cale." I kissed him. "I love you so much."

"Me too Max...when you left again I felt as if I couldn't breathe, I never want to lose you like that Max promise me that whatever happens we can face it together...promise me that you won't run away like that again."

"I promise"

He took my face and kissed me. "So what about trying page 39." He carried me to the bed and slowly started to undress me as I started to undress him. He kissed me at seeing my naked body.
He started kissing my neck, my breast and lower to my belly, the baby kicked again.
He then laid me down side ways and joined me, he kissed my back and slowly started massaging my back and then kissed my spine it sent little shocks threw my body. He started kissing my neck and biting it slightly. I moaned his name and then I felt his erection grown and he slid himself in me I wrapped my legs around his and he started to thrust slowly he grabbed my pelvic and his controlled my movements he kept his pace for minutes I loved how gentle he could be. Then I heard him moan. He started speeding up the pace and the thrust were becoming powerful. I felt my self climax and started moaning louder I finally released and Logan kept going until he released himself moments later. We laid together cuddled up him body sheltering from the coldness of the outside world. Moments later we fell asleep.

I awoke to the sound of Logan talking I didn't make it known that I was awake because he was talking to the baby. He was touching my stomach gently. I lay there eyes closed pretending to be asleep but listening to everything he was saying.

"Hey Ben" he said softly "I wanted to get the chance to talk to you because if your mommy heard me she'd think I'm an idiot...but anyways you're inside your mom so whenever she had a panic attack and wants to leave tell her no...tell her I need both of you." He paused "I don't know how to be a father but I promise you that I love you with all my heart and will protect you with all my power...you and Max... I wonder what you look like." The baby kicked. "One thing I know is you have your mom's strength and fighting ability...but you have to stop kicking because you'll wake up Mommy." He paused. "I want you to know man to man that we're going to have to share Max, you can't keep her all to yourself but once you see how beautiful and sweet she is I know your gonna hog her up for your self." He chuckled.

I wanted to laugh and cry all at the same time, but I decided to act like I was waking up. "Hey baby, what are you doing?"

"Nothing do you want to eat now?"

"I actually want to stay here and lie in your arms a little longer."

"No complaints here."

We snuggled for about half an hour talking and just enjoying each other when I told him to get up and make me breakfast.

He got up from bed and put boxers on, I put on his shirt and got out of bed to take a shower. As I got to the bathroom and started feeling weak, I yelled for Logan, seconds later a seizure hit me strongly. I reached for the sink counter so that I wouldn't fall and hurt the baby. I slowly laid myself on the floor and a flashback hit me, it was of when I was holding Tinga in my arms. Logan came in and saw me lying on the floor convulsing, and he ran to my side and got a bottle of Tryptophan pills. He knelled by me and shove the pills in my mouth telling me to swallow them.Then grabbed me and held me in his arms.

"Tinga...wake up don't leave me...Tinga" I said softly

"Max...please swallow the pills...do it for me and Ben."

I swallowed the pills and continued to mumble. "Tinga please...open your eyes look at me...look at me...look at me please" the shaking eased and Logan picked me up and carried me to the bed. I opened my eyes and suddenly saw Logan's worried face, I smiled and fell asleep feeling tired from the strong seziure that just took over my body.

I awoke hours later from feeling the baby kick repeatedly and saw Logan still holding me.

"Oh thank you Ben." he stated softly.

"Logan is the baby alright did my seizure affect him."

"His fine...Sebastian came and checked everything out...your fine but he said you need to drink a lot of milk because the sezisures happens more often on a pregnant X5."

"Okay...where's my breakfast?"

"Breakfast?...Angel it's dinner time." I looked at the clock and saw that I slept the entire day. "Well do you have something to eat I'm starving."

"Yeah I'll go get it... stay in bed and relax." He comes back with a big trey full of food and I smile.
I sit up and he sits behind me and lean back on him while eating the food He strokes my back. //He's so gentle and understanding//. I love the feeling of having so close, he leans in and whispers in my ear. "I love you." I finish the plate of food and push it to the slide.

"Me too...I'm gonna go take a bath...wanna join me?" I fill up the tub and hop in he hops in behind me and I lean on his back he holds me in his arms and touches me belly.

"So what else happened when I was gone anyone else hook up besides Alec and Kendra."

"Accept Bling and Asha have been really close lately...and other than that we all miss you."

TBC...