Note: What can i say, i am going stir crazy because Faith hasn't been on the show in forever, so i am passing the time writing reunion fics :) This is pretty much the last part of this little fic, i don't have a beta reader, so i hope my sentence structure hasn't been too horrendous, let me know what y'all think.
Faith POV
She looks at me ohhh so pretty, touching me with her smiling white teeth , she's showing me the place where everythings hurt and sad, she's showing me the place, which is underneath my bed.
There's change coming. I can smell it in the air. I'm holding her because she's scared, she doesn't even know it.
Deep down she knows that I might have changed, but she doesn't want to think about it, she wants to pretend like I'm the same as before. It's easier that way for her, because she doesn't have to think, she just reacts, reacts the same way as last time. 'Cept this time it doesn't work, this time is different. I have changed. Sometimes you gotta stop waiting for everyone to ask the questions, sometimes you gotta give them the answers, because they might not even know what to ask or how. You need to make it easy for them. By helping them, you help yourself. If you are lucky they will help you too.
She doesn't know why she's upset, she just is. But I feel it, something's coming. A deep-seated dread has made it into the pit of my stomach and it's getting stronger. No one's doing anything, they are all focused on other things, but this time I'm ready, when it comes I'll dive in sword held high and she'll be strong by my side. She's a warrior, just like me. Right now it feels like I'm spinning on a merry-go-round that keeps getting faster and faster, I feel a giddy dizziness, but I have a new found clarity. Whatever it is I can feel it building. This is the calm before the storm; whatever is coming will be like nothing we have ever faced before. There's a slight breeze in the room and the air is electric. It's the winds of change I'm feeling and it terrifies me. But, she was wrong, I have changed, this time, there's no running. There's no running I repeat in my head and I hold her, because no one else does and I think to myself maybe they should. See i worked out where I belong. By saving her you save yourself, or she saves you. Anyways all i know is when the battle comes you'll want to be her friend. I know because I've experienced battles before and the alternate... not being on her side, it's not something I ever want to experience again.
Buffy POV
What the hell is wrong with me, why am I crying so hard.
She's whispering to me. "You don't always have to be the strong one Buffy Summers."
"You don't have to pretend that we're ok, that you're ok. I don't mind if you're all messed up, you don't have to have all the answers. You think everyone's screwed up and they are, but not forever. Not forever B. Things have a habit of coming to the surface, eventually there won't be so many secrets, better to have things out at the start, that way the hurt comes all in one hit... but eventually everyone's secrets, everyone's fears they are all going to come out. When that happens, you don't have to be strong or hard or sickly accommodating or anything like that. All you have to be is yourself and you have to be honest. All you can do is your best, in the end it's not going to matter who's keeping score, because you'll still be you. All that matter's is that you are still alive and fighting the good fight."
She stops talking. She doesn't expect a reply. She doesn't care what I think of her, this isn't about her. I suddenly realise that this is possibly the longest conversation I have ever had with her, probably because I'm not talking, not interrupting. Was she always like this?
People think she's dumb. They think she's so dumb, because she never finished school, because of the things she says and the things she did, but I know otherwise. She may play dumb, but she's really smart. They just see what they want to see. I know this because that is what I used to think of her also. But she's quickly changing my mind; perhaps I have been the dumb in not giving her another chance all along.