Chapter Fourteen: Helping Friend
After hearing Takeya's story, she didn't know what to do. What have she been so angry at him for then? It wasn't even Takeya's fault.it was that doctor's fault, right? All this time she had no contact with him and ran away from him because of what he did and because of the pain he had caused her. Even though they had not known long but they cared for each other deeply. She was too hurt and angered that she had run off without warning and not waiting to hear his explanation.
But now the truth is out, is there any more reason for her to be angry at him? No..but what if he's lying? Is he? She didn't know what to do. This was just too shocking for her to take it in her mind now but she had to. She can't avoid the problem forever.she had to face it.bravely.
She looked up at Takeya whose tears were misting his eyes, blurring his vision. "I'm so sorry..Takeya." She sniffled before she continued. "...I shouldn't have believed in what Doctor Shiyasu said. I'm so sorry..this was all my fault. I said that I would believe in you to keep it a secret but I didn't. I'm so sorry..so, so sorry.." She fell down on her knees and cried.
/I trusted him and told him the secret. I said that I believe he would keep it a secret but I didn't trust in him in the end. How could I..and I blamed him all this while when I was the one who was wrong..I can't even face him anymore.I don't even deserve him..do I?/
Takeya knelt beside her and hugged her, laying her head on his shoulder. "Yushi, it's alright. I don't mind. What matters now is that I have found you and we can start all over again, right? Ne?"
"Shirimasen.."
"Nandato? What do you mean by that, Yushi? I tried and tried to find where you are all these time just to be with you and now you are telling me you don't want to be with me. Please Yushi, I love you. All I ever want is to be with you and live happily together with you.I don't know how I can live without you again after knowing where you are."
"Takeya.all this time till now, I thought you were the one who was wrong. I didn't trust you and ran away without telling you and listen to your explanation but now I know it's not your fault but I had once believed it was. I didn't even trust you when I said I would. It was all my fault. I can't face all this and I can't believe that I would be able to be with you again, Takeya. And most importantly..I don't deserve you.You don't need someone like me and you won't even want to."
"No, Yushi, I love you and that's all matters. We can start all over again and forget the past. I can forget the past, Yushi, can you?" He took her hand and looked into her eyes. The latter looked back and then looked away, taking her hand away from his grasp.
"I.I need some time to think about it."
There was pain clearly shown in his eyes then he smiled. "Fine, I'll wait for you to reply." He looked at his watch and said. "It's late. Come on, I'll walk you home."
Both of them walked without saying anything then Yushi broke the awkward silence remembering a question that she had wanted to ask him. "Ne Takeya, how do you find me here?"
A look of discomfort came over his face. "Yushi, don't be mad when you hear this, ok?" He took a deep breath before continuing. "When you were gone, both Yamisu and I were so depressed, we didn't know what to do. Nobody picked up the phone when we called your house but I never gave up. I called your house everyday with hope that you would pick up the phone but that day never came. "
She felt touched that he had cared for her so much and kissed him on his forehead. The latter smiled and went on.
"Then one day, Yamisu seemed slightly much better and happier so I thought she had news of you but when I asked her, she would say no. I didn't believe her and asked her so many times but the answers were all the same. Knowing that she wouldn't tell me truth no matter how many times I ask her, I decided to.to pretend to forget about you, to pretend to like her to get information from her."
He looked at her face to see her reaction but when he saw none, he continued. "And I succeeded and got the information from her and came here to find you as soon as I got the information."
She looked up at him in horror. "You used Yamisu? You went out with Yamisu? How could you use her? She's my best friend."
He protested. "Yushi, I had no other ways to find you so I had to use her if not how else am I gonna find you? Japan is so big. It will take years and years or never to find you. Please understand Yushi. I couldn't live without you; I had to think of some way to make her tell me."
She took a while to response. "Yamisu knows that it wasn't your fault that Doctor Shiyasu knows my secret?"
"Hai."
They reached her house and she murmured. "I need time and space to take all these information in my mind. I'll contact you when I feel like talking to you again."
"Sure.." He wrote his contact number on a paper which he tore off from his pad in his pocket and handed it to her. "This is the number you can contact me. Feel free to contact me any time." He kissed her cheek before bidding goodbye. "Oyasumi."
She just nodded in response and went into her house where everyone was asleep except for one who saw the whole scene and quickly pretended to go to sleep when Yushi went in.
She heard Yushi's footsteps and the door opened. Yushi sighed, having a tired night and went into the bathroom to take a bubble bath.
/I'm sure Takeya told her already. Yushi must be mad at me./ Then tears started filling her eyes, knowing that Takeya had came back for Yushi and not her. /All his feelings for me were all fake, isn't it? I was such a fool to believe him in the first place./
She quickly wiped her tears and went to sleep before Yushi comes out.
Yushi came out of the bathroom and felt so much better after having a bubble bath. /It's been long since I have one and I'm sure glad I have one. It calms me down so much./
After changing into her pajamas, she went to bed. /What am I gonna do? All these things happening now are too shocking for me to take. I don't know what I'm gonna do. They all came so sudden./
/I don't want to think anymore./ Her eyelids started to droop and she fell asleep.
~*~ The next day, she had asked Mitsui to come out to meet her at a port. She stared at the seagulls flying and swooping down near the sea. She then closed her eyes and inhaled the fresh air. She opened her eyes when she felt a tap on her shoulder.
Mitsui stood beside her, smiling. "Hey. What's up?"
"Nothing, just feeling like having someone to accompany me. Hope you don't mind." She smiled back.
"Of course not. I'm your brother after all, ne?"
She grinned. "Sodesuyo, oniichan. So, how's your practice going on? Tomorrow's the day."
"Fine. That Sakuragi even challenged me when he knows nothing about kendo and declares that he's a tensai that he needs not knowledge about it to beat me." Mitsui laughed. "Well, of course I beat them all. In fact that Ryota wanted to challenge me too since that baka Sakuragi said that to test me to see my skills so in order not to embarrass the basketball team." He chuckled at the memory.
Yushi smiled lightly, glad that everything was going fine for her friend but she wished everything was fine for her too.
Noticing the troubled look on her face, he asked. "Daijobu? You seem troubled."
"Nan demo nai."
"Eh? Do you treat me as your brother or not? Don't hide any secrets from me, ne? Come on, tell me. I might be able to help you after all I'll try anything to get the gloomy look away from your face."
She smiled again. "Nothing. Just that my ex-boyfriend came to find me last night. We were apart for so long because I thought he was the one who was wrong but no, I found out last night that he wasn't wrong and I blame myself for not believing in him all this while."
She closed her eyes again and breathed in. She laid her hands on the railing. "I don't think I deserve him at all. I.I can't face him for what I did. I didn't even believe him when I said that I would believe in him and he said that he doesn't mind and that he could forget the past but I'm not sure I can."
She choked back her tears and continued. "He told me that he found out that I'm here because he pretended to like Yamisu to find out where I am. I don't know what to do because Yamisu likes him but he likes me. I..I really don't know what to do and Yamisu knew that he wasn't wrong but never bother to tell me."
He hugged her and murmured. "Yushi, don't you think you owe him? The least you can do to make up for the mistake you did is to be with him after all you still love him, don't you?"
".yes, I suppose so.but what about Yamisu?"
"Have you asked her about it?"
"Iie.."
"Then later when you go home, ask her about it then. She might has her own reasons and she might not mind that you are going to be together with him again, ne? Promise me to ask her about it, ok?"
She nodded and whispered. "Arigatoo."
"That's why I'm here for, right? And I'm your brother after all. To return my favour, promise me to come to the match tomorrow too, ok?"
She nodded again and continued to lay her head on his shoulder.
~fin~
Author's note: Sorry if this update came on late ^^;; Yeah, shi-ne, Shiyasu! You are not gonna get away with what you did *throws rotten cabbage and eggs at him* lolz. I really haven't decide who Yushi is gonna be with. What do you think then? I'm a very indecisive person *smiles sheepishly* so I always need to listen to people's opinions before making my final decision. I really thank you for reading this fic of mine ^^ *huggles sLL*
After hearing Takeya's story, she didn't know what to do. What have she been so angry at him for then? It wasn't even Takeya's fault.it was that doctor's fault, right? All this time she had no contact with him and ran away from him because of what he did and because of the pain he had caused her. Even though they had not known long but they cared for each other deeply. She was too hurt and angered that she had run off without warning and not waiting to hear his explanation.
But now the truth is out, is there any more reason for her to be angry at him? No..but what if he's lying? Is he? She didn't know what to do. This was just too shocking for her to take it in her mind now but she had to. She can't avoid the problem forever.she had to face it.bravely.
She looked up at Takeya whose tears were misting his eyes, blurring his vision. "I'm so sorry..Takeya." She sniffled before she continued. "...I shouldn't have believed in what Doctor Shiyasu said. I'm so sorry..this was all my fault. I said that I would believe in you to keep it a secret but I didn't. I'm so sorry..so, so sorry.." She fell down on her knees and cried.
/I trusted him and told him the secret. I said that I believe he would keep it a secret but I didn't trust in him in the end. How could I..and I blamed him all this while when I was the one who was wrong..I can't even face him anymore.I don't even deserve him..do I?/
Takeya knelt beside her and hugged her, laying her head on his shoulder. "Yushi, it's alright. I don't mind. What matters now is that I have found you and we can start all over again, right? Ne?"
"Shirimasen.."
"Nandato? What do you mean by that, Yushi? I tried and tried to find where you are all these time just to be with you and now you are telling me you don't want to be with me. Please Yushi, I love you. All I ever want is to be with you and live happily together with you.I don't know how I can live without you again after knowing where you are."
"Takeya.all this time till now, I thought you were the one who was wrong. I didn't trust you and ran away without telling you and listen to your explanation but now I know it's not your fault but I had once believed it was. I didn't even trust you when I said I would. It was all my fault. I can't face all this and I can't believe that I would be able to be with you again, Takeya. And most importantly..I don't deserve you.You don't need someone like me and you won't even want to."
"No, Yushi, I love you and that's all matters. We can start all over again and forget the past. I can forget the past, Yushi, can you?" He took her hand and looked into her eyes. The latter looked back and then looked away, taking her hand away from his grasp.
"I.I need some time to think about it."
There was pain clearly shown in his eyes then he smiled. "Fine, I'll wait for you to reply." He looked at his watch and said. "It's late. Come on, I'll walk you home."
Both of them walked without saying anything then Yushi broke the awkward silence remembering a question that she had wanted to ask him. "Ne Takeya, how do you find me here?"
A look of discomfort came over his face. "Yushi, don't be mad when you hear this, ok?" He took a deep breath before continuing. "When you were gone, both Yamisu and I were so depressed, we didn't know what to do. Nobody picked up the phone when we called your house but I never gave up. I called your house everyday with hope that you would pick up the phone but that day never came. "
She felt touched that he had cared for her so much and kissed him on his forehead. The latter smiled and went on.
"Then one day, Yamisu seemed slightly much better and happier so I thought she had news of you but when I asked her, she would say no. I didn't believe her and asked her so many times but the answers were all the same. Knowing that she wouldn't tell me truth no matter how many times I ask her, I decided to.to pretend to forget about you, to pretend to like her to get information from her."
He looked at her face to see her reaction but when he saw none, he continued. "And I succeeded and got the information from her and came here to find you as soon as I got the information."
She looked up at him in horror. "You used Yamisu? You went out with Yamisu? How could you use her? She's my best friend."
He protested. "Yushi, I had no other ways to find you so I had to use her if not how else am I gonna find you? Japan is so big. It will take years and years or never to find you. Please understand Yushi. I couldn't live without you; I had to think of some way to make her tell me."
She took a while to response. "Yamisu knows that it wasn't your fault that Doctor Shiyasu knows my secret?"
"Hai."
They reached her house and she murmured. "I need time and space to take all these information in my mind. I'll contact you when I feel like talking to you again."
"Sure.." He wrote his contact number on a paper which he tore off from his pad in his pocket and handed it to her. "This is the number you can contact me. Feel free to contact me any time." He kissed her cheek before bidding goodbye. "Oyasumi."
She just nodded in response and went into her house where everyone was asleep except for one who saw the whole scene and quickly pretended to go to sleep when Yushi went in.
She heard Yushi's footsteps and the door opened. Yushi sighed, having a tired night and went into the bathroom to take a bubble bath.
/I'm sure Takeya told her already. Yushi must be mad at me./ Then tears started filling her eyes, knowing that Takeya had came back for Yushi and not her. /All his feelings for me were all fake, isn't it? I was such a fool to believe him in the first place./
She quickly wiped her tears and went to sleep before Yushi comes out.
Yushi came out of the bathroom and felt so much better after having a bubble bath. /It's been long since I have one and I'm sure glad I have one. It calms me down so much./
After changing into her pajamas, she went to bed. /What am I gonna do? All these things happening now are too shocking for me to take. I don't know what I'm gonna do. They all came so sudden./
/I don't want to think anymore./ Her eyelids started to droop and she fell asleep.
~*~ The next day, she had asked Mitsui to come out to meet her at a port. She stared at the seagulls flying and swooping down near the sea. She then closed her eyes and inhaled the fresh air. She opened her eyes when she felt a tap on her shoulder.
Mitsui stood beside her, smiling. "Hey. What's up?"
"Nothing, just feeling like having someone to accompany me. Hope you don't mind." She smiled back.
"Of course not. I'm your brother after all, ne?"
She grinned. "Sodesuyo, oniichan. So, how's your practice going on? Tomorrow's the day."
"Fine. That Sakuragi even challenged me when he knows nothing about kendo and declares that he's a tensai that he needs not knowledge about it to beat me." Mitsui laughed. "Well, of course I beat them all. In fact that Ryota wanted to challenge me too since that baka Sakuragi said that to test me to see my skills so in order not to embarrass the basketball team." He chuckled at the memory.
Yushi smiled lightly, glad that everything was going fine for her friend but she wished everything was fine for her too.
Noticing the troubled look on her face, he asked. "Daijobu? You seem troubled."
"Nan demo nai."
"Eh? Do you treat me as your brother or not? Don't hide any secrets from me, ne? Come on, tell me. I might be able to help you after all I'll try anything to get the gloomy look away from your face."
She smiled again. "Nothing. Just that my ex-boyfriend came to find me last night. We were apart for so long because I thought he was the one who was wrong but no, I found out last night that he wasn't wrong and I blame myself for not believing in him all this while."
She closed her eyes again and breathed in. She laid her hands on the railing. "I don't think I deserve him at all. I.I can't face him for what I did. I didn't even believe him when I said that I would believe in him and he said that he doesn't mind and that he could forget the past but I'm not sure I can."
She choked back her tears and continued. "He told me that he found out that I'm here because he pretended to like Yamisu to find out where I am. I don't know what to do because Yamisu likes him but he likes me. I..I really don't know what to do and Yamisu knew that he wasn't wrong but never bother to tell me."
He hugged her and murmured. "Yushi, don't you think you owe him? The least you can do to make up for the mistake you did is to be with him after all you still love him, don't you?"
".yes, I suppose so.but what about Yamisu?"
"Have you asked her about it?"
"Iie.."
"Then later when you go home, ask her about it then. She might has her own reasons and she might not mind that you are going to be together with him again, ne? Promise me to ask her about it, ok?"
She nodded and whispered. "Arigatoo."
"That's why I'm here for, right? And I'm your brother after all. To return my favour, promise me to come to the match tomorrow too, ok?"
She nodded again and continued to lay her head on his shoulder.
~fin~
Author's note: Sorry if this update came on late ^^;; Yeah, shi-ne, Shiyasu! You are not gonna get away with what you did *throws rotten cabbage and eggs at him* lolz. I really haven't decide who Yushi is gonna be with. What do you think then? I'm a very indecisive person *smiles sheepishly* so I always need to listen to people's opinions before making my final decision. I really thank you for reading this fic of mine ^^ *huggles sLL*