Can't Say Away

BY: AngelDusterBuster

Disclaimer: Basically I own nothing except a character here and there such as little Nathan. Everything else belongs to a much higher power than little me.

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Last Time in Can't Stay Away….

Harry and Sirius go at it again. But this time it's worse than ever.

Harry gets two life altering letters.

The one person who used to be Harry's enemy helps him more than anyone.

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Chapter Fifteen: Ending One War at a Time

"Oh Hermione…please don't cry it'll be okay we'll get him back", Harry ran to Hermione's side as she began to break down shaking.

"Let go of me!", Hermione screamed shoving Harry harshly.

Staring at Hermione in awe Harry looked over at Ron, "I have a plan"

"You what?", Draco looked over at Harry curiously.

"I'll do it…the switch I mean. I'll hand myself over and then you'll have him back", Harry choked out his shoulders tensing up.

"Would you just shut up about that lame plan already?", Draco glared at Harry pulling him to the side, "Yes their upset…and what parents wouldn't be but…god Harry for once put yourself first"

"We would never ask you to do that Harry", Ron broke the whispers that had teleported between Draco and Harry.

Stepping away from Draco Harry looked over at Ron, "You've both done so much for me, risked your lives so many times. It's my turn to help you"

The room remained very quiet for a moment until they heard a door slam open. Each person in the room jumped up as the door slammed shut then back open again.

"Calm down Sirius how was he to know?", Remus Lupin's voice was heard, "This is obviously just a distraction you know. I don't know how but…oh hello everyone didn't expect you to all be here yet…"

"What's going on?", Harry looked from Remus to Sirius hope in his eyes.

"Talk about a false alarm", Sirius rubbed his eyes, "Harry are you sure it was Hogwarts?"

"I only know of one big castle", Harry shrugged his shoulders, "What happened oh wait…spare me I can't handle the news"

"Well we evacuated Hogwarts an all for no reason", Sirius looked around the room, "Hours later and nothings happened"

"Did they let everyone back in?", Draco asked Sirius quietly.

"No Dumbledore's going to wait until tomorrow just as a safety precaution", Sirius sat down taking a deep breath, "What a day…"

"I'm sorry okay? Is that what everyone wants to hear?", Harry suddenly burst out loud, "Now won't you just let me make things right?"

"Harry don't", Draco elbowed Harry making him groan, "not now"

"What's going on with you two?", Sirius suddenly drew his attention to Harry and Draco.

"Nothing", Harry said oddly, "Why would something be going on?"

"Perhaps because whenever your hiding something you have that look on your face", Sirius said half angrily, "So like I said does everyone here know something I don't?"

"If your not going to come out with it I am", Ron jumped up from the corner of the room, "because believe it or not your ideas suck Harry. There is absolutely no way that we are going to let you just give up. After all people have done to keep you safe all these years. There is no way"

Still unaware of what was going on Sirius once again found himself asking, "What is going on! Honestly…Draco…Ron someone what is going on?"

Hermione who had been sobbing off in the corner turned her attention to Sirius, "I'll tell you what's going on. My baby is in the hands of the devil because of him!"

Sirius looked over at who she was pointing at and found Harry, "What are you talking about? Nathan did something happen to Nathan?"

Draco decided to help out, "Nathan went missing not that long ago. Then Harry got a letter"

"A letter you say?", Remus spoke before Sirius could.

"Harry show them the letter", Draco looked over at Harry who'd been appearing to grow more and more uncomfortable by the minute.

"I'll handle this on my own", Harry glared at Draco, "I don't need his help"

"This isn't time to be stupid Harry!", Draco shook him lightly, "Put behind you whatever crap you and Sirius have going on aside for just five minutes. Now give me the letter"

"Give it to him Harry", Ron said stepping forward toward the two.

"Look Harry I know your angry with me right now…and I can handle that but this is important", Sirius looked over at his godson, "Do the right thing"

Finally Harry appeared to have given up. He handed the letter off of to Draco. Then he proceeded to walk outside. And of course he'd been closely followed.

"I'm not going anywhere", Harry grumbled, "Can't I just have a few minutes alone?"

"Certainly. I just found myself needing to get out of there as well. Mind that much if I join you?", Remus said with no intentions of leaving.

"Guess I don't have much of a choice now a days do I?", Harry shrugged.

"Sirius…he's not normally like this you know", Remus took a seat on the steps next to Harry, "He's just frustrated. He wants to help you but you keep pushing him away. You keep pushing everyone away Harry"

"Everyone just follows me around like I'm a walking time bomb. I'm not going anywhere. I've told you all that but…none of you will believe me. I can't even go sit outside without someone coming to make sure I'm still here", Harry put his hands in his head, "Why can't you just trust me?"

Putting his arm around Harry's shoulders for comfort Remus spoke again, "Give it time. You just have to gain their trust back. You have to understand what you did to us. It's hard to just go on and act as if nothings happened"

"I know it is but…", Harry suddenly laughed, "you know I thought things would be fixed if I eliminated myself from this world. I really did…I sure was stupid"

"Harry you were seventeen. You were scared. We were pushing you to fast and you didn't know what to do about it. I just wish…wish that you would've come and talked to someone before you made such a life altering decision"

"Well I was scared then and I'm even more freaked out now", Harry sighed, "At least then I had magic to make things a little better. Now I've gone and lost it all. I was just so determined that I was never coming back. You know? I just wanted to strip myself of it all"

"And you did a very good job of that!", Remus joked smiling at Harry, "Oh come on…your going to come out of this slump your in. You are"

"Ever heard of a five year slump?", Harry joked finding himself laughing.

Grinning Remus held a hand out, "Ready to go back in?"

"Nope", Harry sighed, "you can though"

Staring at Harry for a moment Remus said, "Okay okay…so I thought that was what was bothering you. There's obviously more. Spill"

"You'd tell Sirius", Harry muttered softly.

"I don't tell him everything Harry. Just like you don't tell Ron everything", Remus added.

Harry shrugged his shoulders, "Just forget it"

"Okay…well if you change your mind I'll be around until tomorrow", Remus stood up still looking down upon Harry.

"Where are you going?", Harry suddenly found himself asking.

"Back to Hogwarts…I figured you'd guessed that", Remus started to open the door.

"Have you ever done something you know you shouldn't have and then regretted it?", Harry asked hearing Remus freeze behind him.

"Well yeah…I think everyone makes a stupid decision every now and then. Were entitled to it don't you think?", Remus asked.

Harry remained silent for a moment, "I found out where they lived. I wrote them"

"What? Who…oh…", Remus gasped, "and I suppose you go at response recently then?"

Harry nodded and Remus took a deep breath, "Harry…whatever they said I'm sorry for it. And it wasn't true"

"Did you know them then?", Harry looked over at Remus.

Remus nodded, "I'd been over at Lily's house a few times. James always dragged us along. Lily's parents really didn't think much of him…in fact oddly they always told her she should be going out with Pettigrew. They're worse then the Dursleys, and as hard as it is to believe…well you were better off living the way you did those seventeen years Harry"

"I just don't see how after all these years…how can they hate me so much?", Harry started up almost tearfully.

"Hey you know what I think? You're going to hate me for suggesting it but…I think you should talk to Sirius about this. Don't look at me like that Harry…it would help you get over this. Really it would", Remus looked up over his shoulder and saw they weren't the only ones there any longer.

Remus watched as Harry turned white seeing Sirius standing behind the two, "Sirius…how long have you been there for?"

Sirius looked as if for once he had absolutely no clue how to react. Whether he should comfort Harry or be angry confused him greatly.

"Harry I'm…I'm sorry they hurt you again", Sirius found his voice.

"You were…you were there the whole time then?", Harry turned as red as a ripe tomato, "I think I'm going to go now"

"This thing between us…it's gone far enough . I don't want us to be two people who can't stand each other. Were family Harry", Sirius took a small step toward his godson.

"I'll let you two alone", Remus said uncomfortably as he walked back inside the house.

"Thanks", Harry heard Sirius mutter even after the door was shut, "Really I know I said some things I shouldn't have to you. I realize that and I'm sorry. I'm not that best godfather in the world I realize that too. I should've realized that we were pushing you to hard. And I'm sorry if back there I seemed like I was angry because of the whole Hogwarts thing…but it's just…"

"I know you don't trust me yet ", Harry finally started to talk, "What I did isn't exactly something that makes you trust someone."

"I trust you", Sirius suddenly spoke up, "I do with most things. As long as your not by yourself I don't worry. But when your mind wanders…it scares everyone"

Taking a deep breath Harry said, "I'm sorry I've been so disrespectful. And I know you didn't want me to find out anything about my grandparents. But I just had to know…I felt I couldn't move on until I heard from them myself"

Sighing Sirius responded, "I completely understand your curiosity. I shouldn't have brushed the whole topic off quite as fast as I did"

"So were okay then?", Harry looked up at his godfather hope filling his eyes.

"Of course we are", Sirius smiled down at Harry, "and I talked to Draco. I'm not letting you do that. Not when I just got you back. You owe me at least five years kid"

'I'll give you what I can", Harry shrugged palely.

"You have an eternity ahead of you. You're still young", Sirius reminded Harry.

"Yeah…", Harry half smiled with only one thing on his mind. If I make it through this night.

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Author's Note:

Hey Everyone!

As we speak I'm sadly spending my last hours in sunny Florida. Expect more frequent updates as I have full intentions of completing this story before I go back to school in September. But we'll see what happens!

Although I had full intentions of also getting further ahead during my weeks vacationing in Flordia…this is all I managed to get typed up. I'm truly sorry that I was so lazy!

Oh and please please please always remember to review. Because every review I get is at least enough ammo to get me through half a page of writing.

Have a great day!

AngelDusterBuster

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