Hey all.sorry it took so damn long to get more out.major writer's block, ya
know? 'sides, had a Bat Mitzvah and everything so.. Hope u like..
-Rei
1. means italics - ** thoughts **
Chapter 5: Truth
You've got to hold out your hand
even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
"I.I've gotta tell you something."
She looked at him curiously. "What?"
"You can't go back to your time!" he blurted out, saying what he usually did out of habit.
Kagome's look went from shocked to angry in a second. "Oh? Is that IT? Inuyasha, I don't have time for this! I'm so -sick- of this! I'm going home for a week! Don't bother chasing after me! I've got too much to do and -don't- have time to baby sit you!" She huffed and turned to jump into the well.
"Kagome!" Inuyasha yelled desperately "No! That wasn't what I meant to say..it was just a habit! Onegai! Hear me out!"
Only you can wipe away from my eyes
the bland stare of the breathing dead.
She turned her head around enough so she could see him. "Oh? You've got a minute, the I'm gone. And remember: -Don't follow me!-"
Inuyasha inhaled and spoke, "Kagome..all of those times I called you 'bitch' and 'wench' and 'baka'..I NEVER meant ANY of it! I..I've been hurt emotionally so much as a pup I didn't know who to trust. I built up so many walls to keep out the hur. All of those names..those fucking people threw rocks at me! They called me an abomination..a mistake. Humans shunned me and demons treated me like dir and used me as a punching bag! The day I met Kikyo.I thought I was in love after a while. She understood me. But then she betrayed me! After we professed our love, I was shot through the heart with -her- arrow. What little bit of me started to trust again was thrown to the wind! Damn it..then -you- came along..so cheerful, naïve, and looking like Kikyo. It reopened wounds and woke me from a sleep I had no desire to wake from! EVER! I didn't wanna face the world again! Not after the Kikyo Incident!"
Only you can call me into aliveness.
Each time you're kind and gentle and encouraging,
He took in a deep, broken breath and continued, "But.you acted like you actually -cared- about what happened to me and I thought it was a nasty trick..luring me into false security and then betraying me or something. But as the days and battles passed, I realized that you weren't faking it. You actually cared about me. I started to love you after the fight with the spider heads when I was human. You came back to me after I told you to stay.you shed tears for me! No one EVER did that! Only Mother did when she was still here. I loved you so much since then but, hey, who could love a lowly hanyou?" He said that with suck bitterness and sadness that Kagome gasped. Had he really been treated so badly?
She looked at Inuyasha with pity. "Oh, Inuyasha."
"NO!" he shouted "DON'T PITY ME! Just.just listen!"
Kagome nodded her head mutely, letting him continue.
"I didn't wanna be hurt again so I became even harsher towards you. Never calling you by your name, insulting you, never letting you go to your time without a fight.I was pushing you away. I was so sick of being hurt..all those I loved died or betrayed me. I figured you were no acceptation to the unwritten rule. Besides, a hanyou and a miko? It'd -never- work. So I built an impenetrable wall..I hid behind masks that showed a hard, nasty exterior."
Each time you try to understand because you really care,
My heart begins to grow wings, very small wings,
Very feeble wings,
But wings!
"But every time I was cold and cruel, every time I hurt you and every time you saw me with Kikyo, you forgave me! Me! Another thing no one EVER did! And yet, you did it -every day-! But I still pushed you away, for you own good and mine. But I couldn't help but be jealous with that wimpy wolf and damn human after you. You're MINE! At least.I want you to be. The way you treated me kindly and how you cared about me lead me to believe you might love me too, so I decided to go to your time to tell you how I feel.and I followed you scent to a park..where I found you kissing that human boy..the Hobo kid. I finally found out what it was like when you saw me and Kikyo together, but there was a difference. I had a debt to Kikyo where as you and that boy could court and mate.and it hurt. It hurt knowing that this lowly one wasn't worth your love, and I knew the fact long before I saw you in that humans arms. I knew you were better than me."
Kagome stared at him in shock, eyes shining with unshed tears. **Oh, Inuyasha.my poor, sweet Inuyasha..you actually love me? And you felt that you didn't deserve me? That you were too pathetic? Inuyasha.**
With your power to touch me into feeling
Inuyasha spoke again, "I.I just needed to tell you that. I needed to tell you how I felt.before you left for your home and went to that boy of yours." Inuyasha looked down at his feet, not wanting Kagome to see his tears. "I..just wanted you to know."
There was a silence. Inuyasha, with his head bent, was waiting for Kagome to say something. Anything.
When she still hadn't spoken after a minute or twos, he asked in a dejected tone, "Does my confession disgust you so much? So much you won't say anything? Am I so appalling to you?"
Kagome was taken aback by those words. Why would he think that?! Kagome slowly walked forward, closing the yard between them. When she was a few inches from his, she lifted his face up looking him in the eyes. Inuyasha jerked his head away from her and bowed his head again, but Kagome saw the tears first.
**He's crying?! Inuyasha..strong, gruff Inuyasha, crying?! He really is hurt..**
"Inuyasha," she said softly while lifting his head up, " Iie. I'm not disgusted but you. I don't love Hojo, either..never Hojo. He's sweet but oblivious. He's weak, soft, and simple. He' too nice. The total opposite of what I want in a guy."
"What is it that you want in man?" Inuyasha asked it a wavering voice.
"I want him to protect me..I want to fight with him, knowing it'll never be serious. I want him to be sweet yet gruff, king yet crude, loving yet mean. I want him to love me forever and I want him to know about my ventures in the Sengoku Jidai and not think I'm insane or something. I don't car what he is. Human, angel, yokai..or hanyou."
"Really?"
"Hai, really. Inuyasha, I could never be disgusted by you! I couldn't because then..then how would it be possible I love you so much?"
Inuaysha looked questioningly at her. "Kagome.?"
She went on her tiptoes and kissed him lightly on the lips.
"Aishiteru, Inuaysha," she kissed him again but this time more heatedly, "Aishiteru"
You can breathe life into me.
I want you to know that.
*~OWARI~*
So.after a month or two, I end the fic..how was it? Was the ending to mushy? Review please!
1. means italics - ** thoughts **
Chapter 5: Truth
You've got to hold out your hand
even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
"I.I've gotta tell you something."
She looked at him curiously. "What?"
"You can't go back to your time!" he blurted out, saying what he usually did out of habit.
Kagome's look went from shocked to angry in a second. "Oh? Is that IT? Inuyasha, I don't have time for this! I'm so -sick- of this! I'm going home for a week! Don't bother chasing after me! I've got too much to do and -don't- have time to baby sit you!" She huffed and turned to jump into the well.
"Kagome!" Inuyasha yelled desperately "No! That wasn't what I meant to say..it was just a habit! Onegai! Hear me out!"
Only you can wipe away from my eyes
the bland stare of the breathing dead.
She turned her head around enough so she could see him. "Oh? You've got a minute, the I'm gone. And remember: -Don't follow me!-"
Inuyasha inhaled and spoke, "Kagome..all of those times I called you 'bitch' and 'wench' and 'baka'..I NEVER meant ANY of it! I..I've been hurt emotionally so much as a pup I didn't know who to trust. I built up so many walls to keep out the hur. All of those names..those fucking people threw rocks at me! They called me an abomination..a mistake. Humans shunned me and demons treated me like dir and used me as a punching bag! The day I met Kikyo.I thought I was in love after a while. She understood me. But then she betrayed me! After we professed our love, I was shot through the heart with -her- arrow. What little bit of me started to trust again was thrown to the wind! Damn it..then -you- came along..so cheerful, naïve, and looking like Kikyo. It reopened wounds and woke me from a sleep I had no desire to wake from! EVER! I didn't wanna face the world again! Not after the Kikyo Incident!"
Only you can call me into aliveness.
Each time you're kind and gentle and encouraging,
He took in a deep, broken breath and continued, "But.you acted like you actually -cared- about what happened to me and I thought it was a nasty trick..luring me into false security and then betraying me or something. But as the days and battles passed, I realized that you weren't faking it. You actually cared about me. I started to love you after the fight with the spider heads when I was human. You came back to me after I told you to stay.you shed tears for me! No one EVER did that! Only Mother did when she was still here. I loved you so much since then but, hey, who could love a lowly hanyou?" He said that with suck bitterness and sadness that Kagome gasped. Had he really been treated so badly?
She looked at Inuyasha with pity. "Oh, Inuyasha."
"NO!" he shouted "DON'T PITY ME! Just.just listen!"
Kagome nodded her head mutely, letting him continue.
"I didn't wanna be hurt again so I became even harsher towards you. Never calling you by your name, insulting you, never letting you go to your time without a fight.I was pushing you away. I was so sick of being hurt..all those I loved died or betrayed me. I figured you were no acceptation to the unwritten rule. Besides, a hanyou and a miko? It'd -never- work. So I built an impenetrable wall..I hid behind masks that showed a hard, nasty exterior."
Each time you try to understand because you really care,
My heart begins to grow wings, very small wings,
Very feeble wings,
But wings!
"But every time I was cold and cruel, every time I hurt you and every time you saw me with Kikyo, you forgave me! Me! Another thing no one EVER did! And yet, you did it -every day-! But I still pushed you away, for you own good and mine. But I couldn't help but be jealous with that wimpy wolf and damn human after you. You're MINE! At least.I want you to be. The way you treated me kindly and how you cared about me lead me to believe you might love me too, so I decided to go to your time to tell you how I feel.and I followed you scent to a park..where I found you kissing that human boy..the Hobo kid. I finally found out what it was like when you saw me and Kikyo together, but there was a difference. I had a debt to Kikyo where as you and that boy could court and mate.and it hurt. It hurt knowing that this lowly one wasn't worth your love, and I knew the fact long before I saw you in that humans arms. I knew you were better than me."
Kagome stared at him in shock, eyes shining with unshed tears. **Oh, Inuyasha.my poor, sweet Inuyasha..you actually love me? And you felt that you didn't deserve me? That you were too pathetic? Inuyasha.**
With your power to touch me into feeling
Inuyasha spoke again, "I.I just needed to tell you that. I needed to tell you how I felt.before you left for your home and went to that boy of yours." Inuyasha looked down at his feet, not wanting Kagome to see his tears. "I..just wanted you to know."
There was a silence. Inuyasha, with his head bent, was waiting for Kagome to say something. Anything.
When she still hadn't spoken after a minute or twos, he asked in a dejected tone, "Does my confession disgust you so much? So much you won't say anything? Am I so appalling to you?"
Kagome was taken aback by those words. Why would he think that?! Kagome slowly walked forward, closing the yard between them. When she was a few inches from his, she lifted his face up looking him in the eyes. Inuyasha jerked his head away from her and bowed his head again, but Kagome saw the tears first.
**He's crying?! Inuyasha..strong, gruff Inuyasha, crying?! He really is hurt..**
"Inuyasha," she said softly while lifting his head up, " Iie. I'm not disgusted but you. I don't love Hojo, either..never Hojo. He's sweet but oblivious. He's weak, soft, and simple. He' too nice. The total opposite of what I want in a guy."
"What is it that you want in man?" Inuyasha asked it a wavering voice.
"I want him to protect me..I want to fight with him, knowing it'll never be serious. I want him to be sweet yet gruff, king yet crude, loving yet mean. I want him to love me forever and I want him to know about my ventures in the Sengoku Jidai and not think I'm insane or something. I don't car what he is. Human, angel, yokai..or hanyou."
"Really?"
"Hai, really. Inuyasha, I could never be disgusted by you! I couldn't because then..then how would it be possible I love you so much?"
Inuaysha looked questioningly at her. "Kagome.?"
She went on her tiptoes and kissed him lightly on the lips.
"Aishiteru, Inuaysha," she kissed him again but this time more heatedly, "Aishiteru"
You can breathe life into me.
I want you to know that.
*~OWARI~*
So.after a month or two, I end the fic..how was it? Was the ending to mushy? Review please!