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If only I..could wake up

Kenshin cooked breakfest making the air in the dojo smell of the food and hoped that it

would wake Kaoru up.

"Oi Kenshin!"

"Smells good when can I eat it?"

Sano now sitting on the ground looked like a puppy begging for food.

"In a minute, let me wake Kaoru-dono up."

Kenshin walked over to Kaoru's door, knocked on it three times. No answer.

'She usually is up by this time of moring..maybe something went wrong?'

"Kaoru-dono?"

No answer.

Kenshin slid the door open to find no one was in the room.

Everything neat and nothing to show someone who wasn't or shouldn't be there had been.

'If only..'

Kaoru saw Sano eating all of what Kenshin had made.

"Roster-head!"

Sano almost chocked on his food he was inhaling

"Che, Jou-chan you almost killed me."

"Kaoru-dono!"

Kenshin came back with a smile on his face happy knowing that she was alright.

"Kenshin we need to talk about something.."

Kaoru walked into the dojo not even sure herself what she had planned to say.

Kenshin looked worried at Sano

"Stay clam Kenshin she doesn't know."

He could only nood

"Hey trust me, have I ever let you down?"

This time Kenshin had a really bad feeling in his gut.

"What is it that you wanted to talk about Kaoru-dono?"

Kaoru sat on the other side of Kenshin so she could face him.

'I can't go threw with this..'

'Mou! I can..'

"Kenshin, please hear to what I have to say. Then ask your questions."

"Kenshin there is a bond that holds everything together and without it everything breaks down

everything falls apart. But when that bond is falsely in place other things are the outcome.

Maybe not as bad as if it was broken completly but worse to the one who was at the other side of

the truth."

Kenshin's eyes went wide

'She did know..'

"I'm only telling you this so that you remember.it"

Kaoru walked out of the dojo her eyes were cold and hard

'Why am I not crying?' She looked at her hands.

She opened the gate and walked out.

"Sano! She knows!"

"So whats the big deal? It's not like you said you loved her or anything. And this is the only week

that you'll be able to get away with this since Yahiko isn't here. Five days Kenshin..Now be happy

with what you can get."

Sano left leaving the dojo to a lonely red headed baka.

Kaoru found a place she liked, nearly walking for two hours it was perfect no one around and nothing

to bother her.

She took out her dagger and cut more smiling to the pain she felt.

'If this is the only way I can put up with this life then so be it'

She raised her arm

Sadly her cuts were still there and it'll take a long time for them to heal and leave.

'I wonder if he's going to see her again today?'

She cut even more deeper

As if it'll push it in the back of her mind so that way she'll forget..

'If only I could wake up..' Kaoru told herself.

"Hey Kenshin so did you go again?"

"Hai, but Kaoru-dono isn't back yet."

"Maybe she found someone else?"

Kenshin's eyes went amber

"Sorry there Kenshin..didn't mean to..I was just kidding!"

Kenshin kept his eyes on Sano

"Che, I'm leaving" walking the fast as he could

'It's funny he can do it but she can't?' Sano thought as he walked home.

Kaoru finally made it back to the dojo, she had been gone for seven hours

'If I'm lucky he won't try to know to much..'

"Would you like some dinner Kaoru-dono?"

"No thanks."

Kaoru hurried the best as she could to her room.

'I have to forget..'

She pulled her dagger out again

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