I wasn't entirely sure why I was shaking; whether it was fear from the fact
I was about to be pushed on stage in front of hundreds of people; That Jun
was waiting as soon as I stepped off the stage from those hundreds of
people; or the fact that Tai had a cunning plan which he so far had failed
to execute. They all terrified me. It was just pin-pointing the one that
was really scary. I was actually quite pleased I'd narrowed it down to
three.
"'Niichan?"
"Yeah, I'm almost ready." Keru left. I checked my hair again. Still in place. My eyeliner was perfect, curtsey of Miyako, and I had my guitar slung over my shoulder. I looked somewhat... girly, but the screaming fans didn't seem to care. I had no other excuse not to get out there. But I hesitated for a couple of seconds longer, saying a silent thank you to Gabumon.
A warm hand on my upper arm brought me out of my daze. "C'mon man, before they start breaking up the speakers." Taichi told me gently, brown eyes twinkling. "For a second there I actually thought you were thinking."
I snorted, knowing Tai's tactics on making me get out of a slump. "The fact that you thought something was the bit that tipped my world upside down." I drawled.
"'And now, on stage, the king of sarcasm himself, Mister Ishida Yamato.'" Taichi mimicked the stage announcer, while propelling me toward the wings. "You'll be great Yama. You always are."
"Flatterer." I told him, unable to keep the pleased tone out of my voice as well as not stopping the satisfied smile from appearing. "I'll see you after?"
"Of course, baka. I'm your bodyguard, remember? No vultures within a twenty metre radius." I grinned. The adrenaline was now in my blood stream and I was ready. I could feel my voice closing up, but there was sod all I could do about it. "And hey, you look really sexy so its gonna be a hard job."
"Thanks." I positively purred before stepping onto the stage. Then it hit me. Okaaaay, that was weird. And I just purred. Right. This is really weird. Add another thing to my list of scariness.
I blanked this from my mind. "Alriiiiiight!" I yelled to the crowd. "Are you guys okay?" They roared back at me happily. "Okay then, lets get going."
We were kicking off. The crowd screamed, the band rocked, I loved every second. Far too soon for me, we were almost finished. Rek, our drummer, called over to me.
"Wind it up man! Guys, we need to keep it at this pace. Change the last song." For such a little girl, Rek is terrifying when she wants to be. We'd planned on doing a cover of an old song as a finale, but it was admittedly rather slow. She pounded on the drums to keep my attention. "Do the new one Yama wrote. Get 'em all buying the cd!"
"But.." I choked. I really needed a little bit of time for this song. It was kinda... personal.
"Ishida! Sing." Kuso barked at me, looking up from his guitar. "Get on with it man."
"Oh, and introduce it won't cha?" Titus added, sickly sweet. I was ready to smack him over the head with his own bass.
"I'll get you all for this." I promised darkly, before returning to the mic. "Um, we'd like to finish with a new song. It's a lot faster than we planned for an end, but," I flashed a grin even though I felt sick to my stomach. "We reckon you can take it. This is written for someone who's-" I broke off. "Hell, I'll sing it. This is 'Loki Tagged'. Hope you like it." You'd bloody better. I added silently as I started.
"People call me paranoid People really don't have a clue Faith is easily misplaced
But I know what I know and I know that I know how I know I know it's true Because I know what I know and I know that I know how I know I know it's true"
The drums pound, my head is spinning like crazy. The crowd seems to like it, but I can't tell for sure because my eyes are clamped shut.
"Smiles back but backstabs All I've been is Loki tagged Just lies right at me through her teeth Smiles back but backstabs All she plays is Loki tag Just tells me I'm so wrong in my belief Smiles right back Smiles right back Twists that dagger in"
I risk peering into the crowd. Sora's sneering at me. She's got the message. I grin slightly. Teach her not to spread rumours behind my back.
"People call me cynical People don't have clue Mortality isn't how it seems"
Mortality!?!? I laugh at that line. That's why I left it in. The guys thought I'd learnt a way to manipulate my voice, but it's actually just a chuckle while I'm singing. The Digital world always springs to my mind when I'm writing and this was a nice enough reference to be ambigious.
"But I know what I know and I know that I know how I know I know it's true Because I know what I know and I know that I know how I know I know it's true
Smiles back but backstabs All I've been is Loki tagged Just lies right at me through her teeth Smiles back but backstabs All she plays is Loki tag Just tells me I'm so wrong in my belief Smiles right back Smiles right back Twists that dagger in"
Wicked guitar solo by Kuso here. Just at the end I joined him, playing the harmony line, spiralling upwards and kalidoscopic. We leant together, unconciously taking a shared stance reminisant of so many bands before our time. I was so completely lost in the music that I didn't have time to worry about the next verse, far too much information in my opinion. I hadn't wanted it to be in, and had removed it from the version I showed the others, but Rek found the draft and thought it was sweet and made me leave it in.
"People call me depressive I'm a fallen angel just for him He doesn't ever label me"
Sora's glaring more. Taichi mouths to me a comment. I blush, before catching the fact that he's asking if 'him' is Takeru. I shake my head, laughing. I suppose it is in a way. The angel bit is highly appropriate.
"But I know what I know and I know that I know how I know I know it's true Because I know what I know and I know that I know how I know I know it's true
Smiles back but backstabs All I've been is Loki tagged Just lies right at me through her teeth Smiles back but backstabs All she plays is Loki tag Just tells me I'm so wrong in my belief Smiles right back Smiles right back Twists that trust right out"
Tai gets the admission that I don't do trust. He grins and gives me a victory sign. If I wasn't so nervous about the end bit I would have rolled my eyes at his childish behaviour. As it was, the music faded to just Kuso playing, almost like an acoustic in the style. My voice didn't sound like my own. I realised it was trembling, and that the entire crowd had gone silent in approval.
"People call me many things People just don't have a clue Because I'm just a fallen angel I'm a fallen angel A fallen angel just for you"
"Thank you." I added breathlessly, rushing off the stage, leaving Kuso to enjoy his 'promoting' time. Shit. The last bit went so strange. It was like I was sitting alone in my room and singing it straight to the person I'd written it for. Not the screaming, wailing fans out there who were shrieking that they didn't judge me, they didn't think I was depressive, they had a clue; that I could be their angel.
I think they missed the point.
Jun rounded the corner. Damn. I searched for a way out, seeing Taichi emerging from the door behind me. I run like crazy toward him and away from Jun, who starts to sprint like a wild thing after me.
"Yama, that was brilli-" I didn't let him finish the sentence, plowing straight into him instead.
"Jun- stalking- help!" I told him, extremely coherantly.
"Kay. Just trust me on this one." He stood, making calming noises, and waited until she was almost on top of us. Then he leaned down and carefully brushed my lips with his own. "Look like you're enjoying it, dammit." He whispered furiously. I tried. Jun stared in complete shock, before turning tail and running. Taichi grinned and stepped back. "Mission accomplished: One Vulture off your back for good."
"'Niichan?"
"Yeah, I'm almost ready." Keru left. I checked my hair again. Still in place. My eyeliner was perfect, curtsey of Miyako, and I had my guitar slung over my shoulder. I looked somewhat... girly, but the screaming fans didn't seem to care. I had no other excuse not to get out there. But I hesitated for a couple of seconds longer, saying a silent thank you to Gabumon.
A warm hand on my upper arm brought me out of my daze. "C'mon man, before they start breaking up the speakers." Taichi told me gently, brown eyes twinkling. "For a second there I actually thought you were thinking."
I snorted, knowing Tai's tactics on making me get out of a slump. "The fact that you thought something was the bit that tipped my world upside down." I drawled.
"'And now, on stage, the king of sarcasm himself, Mister Ishida Yamato.'" Taichi mimicked the stage announcer, while propelling me toward the wings. "You'll be great Yama. You always are."
"Flatterer." I told him, unable to keep the pleased tone out of my voice as well as not stopping the satisfied smile from appearing. "I'll see you after?"
"Of course, baka. I'm your bodyguard, remember? No vultures within a twenty metre radius." I grinned. The adrenaline was now in my blood stream and I was ready. I could feel my voice closing up, but there was sod all I could do about it. "And hey, you look really sexy so its gonna be a hard job."
"Thanks." I positively purred before stepping onto the stage. Then it hit me. Okaaaay, that was weird. And I just purred. Right. This is really weird. Add another thing to my list of scariness.
I blanked this from my mind. "Alriiiiiight!" I yelled to the crowd. "Are you guys okay?" They roared back at me happily. "Okay then, lets get going."
We were kicking off. The crowd screamed, the band rocked, I loved every second. Far too soon for me, we were almost finished. Rek, our drummer, called over to me.
"Wind it up man! Guys, we need to keep it at this pace. Change the last song." For such a little girl, Rek is terrifying when she wants to be. We'd planned on doing a cover of an old song as a finale, but it was admittedly rather slow. She pounded on the drums to keep my attention. "Do the new one Yama wrote. Get 'em all buying the cd!"
"But.." I choked. I really needed a little bit of time for this song. It was kinda... personal.
"Ishida! Sing." Kuso barked at me, looking up from his guitar. "Get on with it man."
"Oh, and introduce it won't cha?" Titus added, sickly sweet. I was ready to smack him over the head with his own bass.
"I'll get you all for this." I promised darkly, before returning to the mic. "Um, we'd like to finish with a new song. It's a lot faster than we planned for an end, but," I flashed a grin even though I felt sick to my stomach. "We reckon you can take it. This is written for someone who's-" I broke off. "Hell, I'll sing it. This is 'Loki Tagged'. Hope you like it." You'd bloody better. I added silently as I started.
"People call me paranoid People really don't have a clue Faith is easily misplaced
But I know what I know and I know that I know how I know I know it's true Because I know what I know and I know that I know how I know I know it's true"
The drums pound, my head is spinning like crazy. The crowd seems to like it, but I can't tell for sure because my eyes are clamped shut.
"Smiles back but backstabs All I've been is Loki tagged Just lies right at me through her teeth Smiles back but backstabs All she plays is Loki tag Just tells me I'm so wrong in my belief Smiles right back Smiles right back Twists that dagger in"
I risk peering into the crowd. Sora's sneering at me. She's got the message. I grin slightly. Teach her not to spread rumours behind my back.
"People call me cynical People don't have clue Mortality isn't how it seems"
Mortality!?!? I laugh at that line. That's why I left it in. The guys thought I'd learnt a way to manipulate my voice, but it's actually just a chuckle while I'm singing. The Digital world always springs to my mind when I'm writing and this was a nice enough reference to be ambigious.
"But I know what I know and I know that I know how I know I know it's true Because I know what I know and I know that I know how I know I know it's true
Smiles back but backstabs All I've been is Loki tagged Just lies right at me through her teeth Smiles back but backstabs All she plays is Loki tag Just tells me I'm so wrong in my belief Smiles right back Smiles right back Twists that dagger in"
Wicked guitar solo by Kuso here. Just at the end I joined him, playing the harmony line, spiralling upwards and kalidoscopic. We leant together, unconciously taking a shared stance reminisant of so many bands before our time. I was so completely lost in the music that I didn't have time to worry about the next verse, far too much information in my opinion. I hadn't wanted it to be in, and had removed it from the version I showed the others, but Rek found the draft and thought it was sweet and made me leave it in.
"People call me depressive I'm a fallen angel just for him He doesn't ever label me"
Sora's glaring more. Taichi mouths to me a comment. I blush, before catching the fact that he's asking if 'him' is Takeru. I shake my head, laughing. I suppose it is in a way. The angel bit is highly appropriate.
"But I know what I know and I know that I know how I know I know it's true Because I know what I know and I know that I know how I know I know it's true
Smiles back but backstabs All I've been is Loki tagged Just lies right at me through her teeth Smiles back but backstabs All she plays is Loki tag Just tells me I'm so wrong in my belief Smiles right back Smiles right back Twists that trust right out"
Tai gets the admission that I don't do trust. He grins and gives me a victory sign. If I wasn't so nervous about the end bit I would have rolled my eyes at his childish behaviour. As it was, the music faded to just Kuso playing, almost like an acoustic in the style. My voice didn't sound like my own. I realised it was trembling, and that the entire crowd had gone silent in approval.
"People call me many things People just don't have a clue Because I'm just a fallen angel I'm a fallen angel A fallen angel just for you"
"Thank you." I added breathlessly, rushing off the stage, leaving Kuso to enjoy his 'promoting' time. Shit. The last bit went so strange. It was like I was sitting alone in my room and singing it straight to the person I'd written it for. Not the screaming, wailing fans out there who were shrieking that they didn't judge me, they didn't think I was depressive, they had a clue; that I could be their angel.
I think they missed the point.
Jun rounded the corner. Damn. I searched for a way out, seeing Taichi emerging from the door behind me. I run like crazy toward him and away from Jun, who starts to sprint like a wild thing after me.
"Yama, that was brilli-" I didn't let him finish the sentence, plowing straight into him instead.
"Jun- stalking- help!" I told him, extremely coherantly.
"Kay. Just trust me on this one." He stood, making calming noises, and waited until she was almost on top of us. Then he leaned down and carefully brushed my lips with his own. "Look like you're enjoying it, dammit." He whispered furiously. I tried. Jun stared in complete shock, before turning tail and running. Taichi grinned and stepped back. "Mission accomplished: One Vulture off your back for good."