Title: Future - Reconstructed to the Past
Chapter 3: New Beginnings and Past Conclusions
Author: Elf Toshiba
E-mail: angelchild03@aol.com
Disclaimerz: Well, Hurricane Lili can't seem to make up it's mind. Looks like it might end up coming closer to us than we thought. But hey, I get some time off of school! Yay! Some confusing things from past chapters: Arisa's mother and stepfather were killed in a car accident. She lives with her grandmother from her mother's side. She and Harry are related through their parents. Which ones? You'll find out! As for the nicknames, think of two one-year-olds trying to pronounce 'Harry' and 'Arisa'. So, they just started calling each other by their last names: Potter = Pocky, Evans = Evie. Understand? Yay! Any other questions, e-mail me! One more thing: When Voldemort brought her back to 1996, he not only did time travel, he flat out brought her back in months and years. At Hogwarts, it's mid-October. Back in 2001, it was just after her Christmas break - mid- January. So she went back by five years and three months.
Future - Reconstructed to the Past Chapter 3: New Beginnings and Past Conclusions
Arisa woke with a start. At first, she had no clue as to where she was or why she had a small black cat curled up on her pillow. Then she smiled as she remembered where she was: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. She giggled for the first time since. her grin slowly faded as the memories from the past few months came back. She shook her head and sighed softly as she glanced at the window that was diagonal from her bed. The sky was lightening slowly, almost as though night seemed reluctant to release its hold on the world.
Sighing again, she rose and picked up her shower items and some Muggle clothing that she had retrieved from her car. Tiptoeing lightly, as though not to disturb the other girls, she made her way down to the common room and stopped suddenly. A tuft of red hair was slightly visible on the arm of one of the couches. She chuckled softly as she quietly slipped towards the lounge. With a first glance around the front, her suspicions were confirmed that it was one of the twins. Upon closer inspection, she established that it was Fred. She kneeled down and, smiling lightly placed a callous hand softly on his cheek. The gentle caress went unnoticed as she leaned down and placed a small kiss on his cheek.
"Thank you." She whispered, getting nearly silently to her feet and leaving the room for the showers, humming a random song softly under her breath.
She was skipping slightly when she heard someone calling her name. She paused in her capers to turn and see the youngest of the Weasley siblings hurrying her way. She smiled buoyantly and waved the red-haired girl up.
"Hey, Ginny. What are you doing up so early?" she queried, glancing at the younger teen.
"Oh, heh. you know me! I just wanted to get to the showers early so I can get some hot water." Ginny giggled and placed an arm behind her head in a gesture of innocence. "What was that song that you were humming? It was pretty."
Arisa sighed. "It's a Broadway song that I fell in love with after my ex- boyfriend Damian broke up with me, y'know? It's from the musical Les Misérables. It's called 'On My Own'."
"Oh. I'm really sorry about your break-up, Arisa." Ginny looked at the auburn haired girl. "Um. if I can ask, how does it go?" Arisa smiled gently.
"Sure." She took a deep breath, licked her lips and began to sing softly.
"And now I'm all alone again./ Nowhere to turn/ no one to go to./ Without a home/ without a friend/ Without a face to say hello to/ And now the night is near./ And I can make believe he's here.
"Sometimes I walk alone at night./ When everybody else is sleeping/ I think of him and then I'm happy./ With the company I'm keeping./ The city goes to bed./ And I can live inside my head.
"On my own/ Pretending he's beside me./ All alone I walk with him 'til morning./ Without him/ I feel his arms around me./ And when I lose my way/ I close my eyes/ and he has found me.
"In the rain/ the pavement shines like silver./ All the lights are misty in the river./ The darkness/ the trees are full of starlight./ And all I see/ is him and me forever and forever.
"And I know/ it's only in my mind./ That I'm talking to myself and not to him./ And although I know that he is blind/ Still I say there's a way for us.
"I love him/ but when the night is over/ he is gone/ the river's just a river./ Without him/ the world around me changes./ The trees are bare and ev'rywhere the streets are full of strangers.
"I love him/ but ev'ry day I'm learning/ all my life/ I've only been pretending./ Without me/ his world will go on turning./ The world is full of happiness that I have never known./ I love him/ I love him/ I love him/ but only on my own."
Ginny looked at the older girl in astonished. Not even on WWN had she heard a voice as beautiful and passionate as Arisa Evans'. She sang as though her pain was still real and she needed someone to listen to her.
"That was wonderful!" she exclaimed, grabbing the other teen in a hug. Arisa blushed, returned the hug and muttered something about 'not that great'. "No! I mean really, that was kicking!"
"Thank you, Gin. I'm so used to people telling me to shut up whenever I sing, that I don't take compliments all that easily. But, thanks, girl. It means a lot that someone thinks that I'm actually a decent singer. Now, onto the showers?" Arisa asked jovially, linking arms with the Fifth year girl and proceeding to walk to the washrooms with a renewed spring in her step.
Ginny shot Arisa a strange look. "You still care about him?" she inquired.
Arisa let out a sigh. "Yea. I still care about him and that whole group. Even after what they did to me."
"What'd they do to you?"
"It's a long story. I still don't even know parts of it. Like, why he lied to me and why one of my oldest friends was - is - spreading rumors about me."
"Wow. I'm really sorry. No one deserves to be treated like that. Can you atleast tell me a part of it?" Ginny implored, looking at Arisa with big brown eyes.
"Okay. Which part do you want to hear? Before, during, or the aftermath?"
"Aftermath? That's always the most interesting."
Arisa laughed softly. "Too true, too true. Okay. Well, here's what happened. Damian and I had been dating for about one month, I think it was a little over. And I truly loved him; I thought he was the one, y'know? I felt so damn strongly for him, like I had never felt like that for anyone before. I, like a fool, believed him when he said he felt the same. Well, anyway. I go off on a vacation with my grandmother to Florida. When I come back, he calls and tells me that he had a 'moment' with our mutual friend, Jamie, and he thinks that he might be gay." At this, Arisa laughed harshly before continuing. "I went crazy. Literally. I hadn't been that angry in well over four years. I started cursing him out in every language that I knew. Japanese, Spanish, French, Italian; pretty much, you name it, I used it. After that, I left and drove around for about two hours.
"During those two hours, I called up my closest guy friend, Alex, and poured out my soul to him. I felt so used, I thought I'd never stop crying. I kept asking him if he knew anything about it. He said no, he didn't. Turns out, he was in on it. When Damian proposed the idea to them, Alex was one of the first to say 'go for it!'. After I found out that damn near the entire group was in on it, I went from sad beyond belief to angrier than anything. I wanted to kill them. A part of me still wants to at times."
Ginny looked like she would have killed them as well. "Who told you the truth?" she asked, pushing open the door to the girls' shower room.
"My other gay friend, Dawson. He called me the very next day and told me everything. He told me that Jamie had called him up and told him what was going on and wanted Dawson to play along. Well, Dawson showed his true colors that day. He asked me to go pick him up at Memorial Hospital - his step-mom was having minor surgery - and he would explain everything. I did. He was about as mad as I was.
"On the way to the mall, he informed me of everything. How Jamie had told him not to say anything to me; to pretend he didn't know anything about it. I was so angry, I could hardly drive. Well, we get to the mall and go into Hot Topic. Not even five minutes later, Jamie, Damian, and pretty much the rest of the whole group come running in. Jamie comes straight up to me and starts going, 'Get out of the mall. You need to leave now!' I looked him dead in the eye and went 'Piss off.' I turned around and proceeded to continue looking for clubbing clothes.
"Well, Jamie grabs my arm and wheels me around. He says, 'No, you don't understand! Richard's looking for you.' At this point, Damian decides to cut it. And he starts to says, 'Look, I don't want - ' I turned and spat out angrily, 'Shut the fuck up' as slowly and as quietly as I could manage without hauling off and beating the tar out of him. He shuts up. I turn back to Jamie. 'What the hell did I do to anger that asshole now?' I asked, as sarcastically as I could.
"Jamie starts sputtering, 'Well, you didn't do anything, but we told him you did it to protect the girls who actually did it. Now he's looking for you and I don't want to see you or your car get hurt, so will you please leave?' by this time, I was ready to kill. I looked at him and Damian. 'If anything, ANYTHING, happens to my car, it's coming out of your asses, got it?' I said. After that, I grabbed Dawson's wrist and pulled him out of there.
"After that, everything just sorta blends together. I went from depressed, to angry as all hell, to sadder than anything, then back to depressed. I tried to kill myself because I couldn't see where my life was going. About three days after I attempted suicide, I got back in touch with my old friends from Ursuline, my high school.
"During that time, I had started to cut myself because I didn't know what to do. My emotions were too raw. They were too much at the front of my mind. I couldn't stop thinking about him. I went from alternately myself into an alcohol-induced sleep or, I'd cut my wrists until the pain went away. More often than not I turned to the alcohol.
"Thankfully, Tyna and her boyfriend noticed the cuts. Tyna confronted me about them, and I told her most of what I told you. When Jon challenged me about them, I started crying and it showed me that there are people out there that actually give a damn if I live or die. Because of those two and my other friends, I haven't attempt suicide again." Arisa finished her story just as the water was starting to heat up.
"Those bastards! Please tell me that you actually hit one of them." Ginny asked, a mischievous light in her eye. Arisa laughed.
"Sadly, no. I never got the chance. Then there was Rummel's Ring Dance. My old friend, Stephen asked me to go with him. I said yes. It was one of the bigger mistakes I've made in a while. I put myself in a situation that I wasn't ready to be put in.
"Jamie, we had made up prior to the dance when he called me on my birthday and wished me a happy birthday, came up and hugged me. He was the only guy that actually came and talked to me from that entire group. All of the girls, except Allie, came up and greeted me as well. And, this is a good part, since I had gone to Rummel for summer school, I knew a lot of the seniors at the ring dance. So I had some of the guys watching my back.
"When I saw Damian, every feeling I had ever had for him came rushing back to me. I gave him a small smile and he gave me this look. it was a cross between I was something worthless and that he still cared about me. I damn near started crying on the spot. As it was I was shaking slightly - had been ever since I walked into the dance." Arisa took a deep breath and exhaled. "I guess that's part of the reason that I decided to start over and come to Hogwarts instead of staying in America. I needed a new start, y'know?" Ginny nodded in the affirmative. "And so, here I am. New school, new friends, a new beginning. I just can't wait to go back to America to see what people have to say." She laughed slightly. "By the way, what's today's date?"
"October 20, 1996." Ginny answered, calmly stepping into the shower.
"Wait. What? Come again?" Arisa sputtered, as she herself had just stepped under the hot spray and got water in her mouth as it was opening and closing like a gaping fish.
"What do you mean?"
"Oh dear Jesus H. Christ." Ginny heard a thump and quickly peered around the shower stalls.
"Are you okay?" she asked, seeing the older girl sitting in a shocked position on the tile floor.
"Are you joking? Please say yes."
"No, why would I be joking?"
"Oh man! He made me time travel too!?" Arisa exclaimed, standing to her full 5'3" height. Ginny looked completely confused. "Okay, let me explain. Yesterday, before all this happened, it was January 19, 2001. How could I go back in time as well?"
"Wicked! You're from the future!" Ginny burst out, ducking back into her own shower cubicle. "You have to tell me what it's like where you come from!"
"Yea, no problem. I can deal with this. Just as long as I can go back. well, forward really." She heard Ginny giggle from the other enclosure and grinned slightly to herself. 'A new start. Perfect.'
~T.B.C~
Ack! Sorry this took so long. I've been trying to write, but with soccer practice four times a week and teachers being the evil gits they are. well, it hasn't been easy. I've started on the fourth chapter and will try to get that out soon, but I have a game tomorrow. Well, I'd best get to bed. Later, y'all!
~Elffie
E-mail: angelchild03@aol.com
Disclaimerz: Well, Hurricane Lili can't seem to make up it's mind. Looks like it might end up coming closer to us than we thought. But hey, I get some time off of school! Yay! Some confusing things from past chapters: Arisa's mother and stepfather were killed in a car accident. She lives with her grandmother from her mother's side. She and Harry are related through their parents. Which ones? You'll find out! As for the nicknames, think of two one-year-olds trying to pronounce 'Harry' and 'Arisa'. So, they just started calling each other by their last names: Potter = Pocky, Evans = Evie. Understand? Yay! Any other questions, e-mail me! One more thing: When Voldemort brought her back to 1996, he not only did time travel, he flat out brought her back in months and years. At Hogwarts, it's mid-October. Back in 2001, it was just after her Christmas break - mid- January. So she went back by five years and three months.
Future - Reconstructed to the Past Chapter 3: New Beginnings and Past Conclusions
Arisa woke with a start. At first, she had no clue as to where she was or why she had a small black cat curled up on her pillow. Then she smiled as she remembered where she was: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. She giggled for the first time since. her grin slowly faded as the memories from the past few months came back. She shook her head and sighed softly as she glanced at the window that was diagonal from her bed. The sky was lightening slowly, almost as though night seemed reluctant to release its hold on the world.
Sighing again, she rose and picked up her shower items and some Muggle clothing that she had retrieved from her car. Tiptoeing lightly, as though not to disturb the other girls, she made her way down to the common room and stopped suddenly. A tuft of red hair was slightly visible on the arm of one of the couches. She chuckled softly as she quietly slipped towards the lounge. With a first glance around the front, her suspicions were confirmed that it was one of the twins. Upon closer inspection, she established that it was Fred. She kneeled down and, smiling lightly placed a callous hand softly on his cheek. The gentle caress went unnoticed as she leaned down and placed a small kiss on his cheek.
"Thank you." She whispered, getting nearly silently to her feet and leaving the room for the showers, humming a random song softly under her breath.
She was skipping slightly when she heard someone calling her name. She paused in her capers to turn and see the youngest of the Weasley siblings hurrying her way. She smiled buoyantly and waved the red-haired girl up.
"Hey, Ginny. What are you doing up so early?" she queried, glancing at the younger teen.
"Oh, heh. you know me! I just wanted to get to the showers early so I can get some hot water." Ginny giggled and placed an arm behind her head in a gesture of innocence. "What was that song that you were humming? It was pretty."
Arisa sighed. "It's a Broadway song that I fell in love with after my ex- boyfriend Damian broke up with me, y'know? It's from the musical Les Misérables. It's called 'On My Own'."
"Oh. I'm really sorry about your break-up, Arisa." Ginny looked at the auburn haired girl. "Um. if I can ask, how does it go?" Arisa smiled gently.
"Sure." She took a deep breath, licked her lips and began to sing softly.
"And now I'm all alone again./ Nowhere to turn/ no one to go to./ Without a home/ without a friend/ Without a face to say hello to/ And now the night is near./ And I can make believe he's here.
"Sometimes I walk alone at night./ When everybody else is sleeping/ I think of him and then I'm happy./ With the company I'm keeping./ The city goes to bed./ And I can live inside my head.
"On my own/ Pretending he's beside me./ All alone I walk with him 'til morning./ Without him/ I feel his arms around me./ And when I lose my way/ I close my eyes/ and he has found me.
"In the rain/ the pavement shines like silver./ All the lights are misty in the river./ The darkness/ the trees are full of starlight./ And all I see/ is him and me forever and forever.
"And I know/ it's only in my mind./ That I'm talking to myself and not to him./ And although I know that he is blind/ Still I say there's a way for us.
"I love him/ but when the night is over/ he is gone/ the river's just a river./ Without him/ the world around me changes./ The trees are bare and ev'rywhere the streets are full of strangers.
"I love him/ but ev'ry day I'm learning/ all my life/ I've only been pretending./ Without me/ his world will go on turning./ The world is full of happiness that I have never known./ I love him/ I love him/ I love him/ but only on my own."
Ginny looked at the older girl in astonished. Not even on WWN had she heard a voice as beautiful and passionate as Arisa Evans'. She sang as though her pain was still real and she needed someone to listen to her.
"That was wonderful!" she exclaimed, grabbing the other teen in a hug. Arisa blushed, returned the hug and muttered something about 'not that great'. "No! I mean really, that was kicking!"
"Thank you, Gin. I'm so used to people telling me to shut up whenever I sing, that I don't take compliments all that easily. But, thanks, girl. It means a lot that someone thinks that I'm actually a decent singer. Now, onto the showers?" Arisa asked jovially, linking arms with the Fifth year girl and proceeding to walk to the washrooms with a renewed spring in her step.
Ginny shot Arisa a strange look. "You still care about him?" she inquired.
Arisa let out a sigh. "Yea. I still care about him and that whole group. Even after what they did to me."
"What'd they do to you?"
"It's a long story. I still don't even know parts of it. Like, why he lied to me and why one of my oldest friends was - is - spreading rumors about me."
"Wow. I'm really sorry. No one deserves to be treated like that. Can you atleast tell me a part of it?" Ginny implored, looking at Arisa with big brown eyes.
"Okay. Which part do you want to hear? Before, during, or the aftermath?"
"Aftermath? That's always the most interesting."
Arisa laughed softly. "Too true, too true. Okay. Well, here's what happened. Damian and I had been dating for about one month, I think it was a little over. And I truly loved him; I thought he was the one, y'know? I felt so damn strongly for him, like I had never felt like that for anyone before. I, like a fool, believed him when he said he felt the same. Well, anyway. I go off on a vacation with my grandmother to Florida. When I come back, he calls and tells me that he had a 'moment' with our mutual friend, Jamie, and he thinks that he might be gay." At this, Arisa laughed harshly before continuing. "I went crazy. Literally. I hadn't been that angry in well over four years. I started cursing him out in every language that I knew. Japanese, Spanish, French, Italian; pretty much, you name it, I used it. After that, I left and drove around for about two hours.
"During those two hours, I called up my closest guy friend, Alex, and poured out my soul to him. I felt so used, I thought I'd never stop crying. I kept asking him if he knew anything about it. He said no, he didn't. Turns out, he was in on it. When Damian proposed the idea to them, Alex was one of the first to say 'go for it!'. After I found out that damn near the entire group was in on it, I went from sad beyond belief to angrier than anything. I wanted to kill them. A part of me still wants to at times."
Ginny looked like she would have killed them as well. "Who told you the truth?" she asked, pushing open the door to the girls' shower room.
"My other gay friend, Dawson. He called me the very next day and told me everything. He told me that Jamie had called him up and told him what was going on and wanted Dawson to play along. Well, Dawson showed his true colors that day. He asked me to go pick him up at Memorial Hospital - his step-mom was having minor surgery - and he would explain everything. I did. He was about as mad as I was.
"On the way to the mall, he informed me of everything. How Jamie had told him not to say anything to me; to pretend he didn't know anything about it. I was so angry, I could hardly drive. Well, we get to the mall and go into Hot Topic. Not even five minutes later, Jamie, Damian, and pretty much the rest of the whole group come running in. Jamie comes straight up to me and starts going, 'Get out of the mall. You need to leave now!' I looked him dead in the eye and went 'Piss off.' I turned around and proceeded to continue looking for clubbing clothes.
"Well, Jamie grabs my arm and wheels me around. He says, 'No, you don't understand! Richard's looking for you.' At this point, Damian decides to cut it. And he starts to says, 'Look, I don't want - ' I turned and spat out angrily, 'Shut the fuck up' as slowly and as quietly as I could manage without hauling off and beating the tar out of him. He shuts up. I turn back to Jamie. 'What the hell did I do to anger that asshole now?' I asked, as sarcastically as I could.
"Jamie starts sputtering, 'Well, you didn't do anything, but we told him you did it to protect the girls who actually did it. Now he's looking for you and I don't want to see you or your car get hurt, so will you please leave?' by this time, I was ready to kill. I looked at him and Damian. 'If anything, ANYTHING, happens to my car, it's coming out of your asses, got it?' I said. After that, I grabbed Dawson's wrist and pulled him out of there.
"After that, everything just sorta blends together. I went from depressed, to angry as all hell, to sadder than anything, then back to depressed. I tried to kill myself because I couldn't see where my life was going. About three days after I attempted suicide, I got back in touch with my old friends from Ursuline, my high school.
"During that time, I had started to cut myself because I didn't know what to do. My emotions were too raw. They were too much at the front of my mind. I couldn't stop thinking about him. I went from alternately myself into an alcohol-induced sleep or, I'd cut my wrists until the pain went away. More often than not I turned to the alcohol.
"Thankfully, Tyna and her boyfriend noticed the cuts. Tyna confronted me about them, and I told her most of what I told you. When Jon challenged me about them, I started crying and it showed me that there are people out there that actually give a damn if I live or die. Because of those two and my other friends, I haven't attempt suicide again." Arisa finished her story just as the water was starting to heat up.
"Those bastards! Please tell me that you actually hit one of them." Ginny asked, a mischievous light in her eye. Arisa laughed.
"Sadly, no. I never got the chance. Then there was Rummel's Ring Dance. My old friend, Stephen asked me to go with him. I said yes. It was one of the bigger mistakes I've made in a while. I put myself in a situation that I wasn't ready to be put in.
"Jamie, we had made up prior to the dance when he called me on my birthday and wished me a happy birthday, came up and hugged me. He was the only guy that actually came and talked to me from that entire group. All of the girls, except Allie, came up and greeted me as well. And, this is a good part, since I had gone to Rummel for summer school, I knew a lot of the seniors at the ring dance. So I had some of the guys watching my back.
"When I saw Damian, every feeling I had ever had for him came rushing back to me. I gave him a small smile and he gave me this look. it was a cross between I was something worthless and that he still cared about me. I damn near started crying on the spot. As it was I was shaking slightly - had been ever since I walked into the dance." Arisa took a deep breath and exhaled. "I guess that's part of the reason that I decided to start over and come to Hogwarts instead of staying in America. I needed a new start, y'know?" Ginny nodded in the affirmative. "And so, here I am. New school, new friends, a new beginning. I just can't wait to go back to America to see what people have to say." She laughed slightly. "By the way, what's today's date?"
"October 20, 1996." Ginny answered, calmly stepping into the shower.
"Wait. What? Come again?" Arisa sputtered, as she herself had just stepped under the hot spray and got water in her mouth as it was opening and closing like a gaping fish.
"What do you mean?"
"Oh dear Jesus H. Christ." Ginny heard a thump and quickly peered around the shower stalls.
"Are you okay?" she asked, seeing the older girl sitting in a shocked position on the tile floor.
"Are you joking? Please say yes."
"No, why would I be joking?"
"Oh man! He made me time travel too!?" Arisa exclaimed, standing to her full 5'3" height. Ginny looked completely confused. "Okay, let me explain. Yesterday, before all this happened, it was January 19, 2001. How could I go back in time as well?"
"Wicked! You're from the future!" Ginny burst out, ducking back into her own shower cubicle. "You have to tell me what it's like where you come from!"
"Yea, no problem. I can deal with this. Just as long as I can go back. well, forward really." She heard Ginny giggle from the other enclosure and grinned slightly to herself. 'A new start. Perfect.'
~T.B.C~
Ack! Sorry this took so long. I've been trying to write, but with soccer practice four times a week and teachers being the evil gits they are. well, it hasn't been easy. I've started on the fourth chapter and will try to get that out soon, but I have a game tomorrow. Well, I'd best get to bed. Later, y'all!
~Elffie