Disclaimer: uyay-igay-ohway isway otnay inemay! (Yu-Gi-Oh is not mine! In Pig Latin, old skool style)
Warning: Sorry! Sorry! A lemon real soon, I promise! How about the next chapter or the one after that?
A/N: Well, there's still a little more sad stuff to get through first, but by the end of 5 it will be more upbeat! (Before I said this chapter was it) I'm sorry I made all you reviewers sad before, and that it took me a couple of days to get this out! The (#) should be read at the end of the story, as they are just side notes! OK, Here I go!
Chapter Three: Courage or Idiocy?
By: Jinu chan
Yugi got off the train, and began walking towards his end. Shijuku Park. He had come here many times with Yami, and admired the view on the bridge. Now that same bridge would be the end of his little life.
The walk was a short one, but, it still gave him time to reflect on what he was going to do, and why it had come to this.
'No, I don't want to die,' he reasoned with himself, 'but they'd all be better off without me. I mean, they are my friends, I guess. I should be trying to make them as happy as possible. But then again, I don't want to be around when Yami announces he's still going out with Anzu. Am I being selfish? No, enough people want me gone, anyway. They'd all be better off. It's not like I'm doing this so "they'll be sorry once I'm gone," I want them to be happy. Yes, at first they may be upset, but, once that passes, they'll realize it's not so bad without that kid bothering them. Yeah, that's it. I mean they will be sad, but then, little by little they will understand why I did what I did, and they will be very happy. I mean, they'll still have Yami, and he is so similar to me.'
He continued trying to rationalize his odd behavior. He told himself that him that not being around would give his grandfather more freedoms. It wasn't even like he was his kid anyway. Honda and Juo would be fine, as well as Mai, Anzu and Ryou. Yami might need some time to get over it, but Anzu would be there for him with open arms. He decided it was all okay as he arrived at the park.
//Yugi, please just tell me where you are!//
/Still at it, Yami,/ he replied coldly, /I thought you would have given up by now. Look, you can stop acting so concerned. I know that you'd be better off with Anzu, anyway. I'm doing this for you and all of my friends. I can't understand why you feel the need to stop me. I do know what I am doing, although, you must not./
//Yugi, I care about you. I don't want to see you throw your life away over something... someone as useless as me!//
/Please, Yami. I'll laugh so hard I'll FALL off the bridge! I know you may think you care about me, but come on./ Yugi was so calm and collected in his conversation, but in all actuality, he couldn't keep it up. His main idea was that 'If Yami's pissed at me when I die, he'll get over it faster, and be able to move on and be happy... even if he's with Anzu.' /You know that's only because you were with me for so long, apart, we... you can get used to it./
Yugi paused a few minutes, leaning on a tree waiting. Oddly enough, Yami didn't reply to Yugi, and the little one sighed in relief. He was happy he didn't have to continue being so cruel to his other half. He hated acting like that, so arrogant and almost evil. It didn't suit him, and he knew it. However, he also knew that the only way to get anyone to back off is to act firm and stand strong, and he knew that Yami was the hardest person to get to back off.
Yugi began walking over a bridge. Under it was a rather large lake. Yugi reflected for a moment. 'Drowning, huh? I knew I was going to do this from the start, but it still doesn't seem right. Well, I can't buy a gun, and I'm too wimpy to slit my wrists. So it makes sense. Anyway, I wouldn't want grandpa to see me like that. Overdosing on pills can be scary if someone finds you while you are reacting, and that doesn't leave to many more options. I guess that this is the easiest way, although it isn't the quickest. It will have to do.'
He thought for a moment. He didn't know the first thing about swimming, and he could barely stay afloat to begin with. The only time he had ever swum well was when his blond friend jumped in the ocean to get the Exodia cards that had been thrown overboard a ship. Something had came over him, and he just went for it. He was lucky to even survive, rather than save the cards. He barely pulled his friend out of that mess. Later on in the year, when he had fallen in a pool, he had to be rescued by Juo. Still, he looked back to his swimming lessons as a kid. The instructor said he didn't have enough boyishness (1) or something like that, and that he would have a hard time floating. The best he could do was stay on the shallow end of the pool where he could stand, the instructor said the same thing.
He looked over the edge. It was a long fall. He'd have time to think about what he was doing, as well as time to regret it. That was just the way he thought, though. There was no way around it. He also knew that it would be just his luck to jump and be contacted by Yami at the same time. There would be no way to stop the words from coming, so he would just listen as he took his final breaths, and perhaps pretend like everything was alright as he splashed into the water below.
Yugi thought back to good times with all of his friends. He didn't want to leave them, but wasn't that a selfish way to act? Maybe, or maybe not, he was starting to get himself confused. He knew what everyone would tell him if he had told them he was planning on taking his own life. "No, we don't want you to go, we love you!" But that seemed like the standard answer... unless... could they really feel that way? Was it possible that his friends would rather be upset, and keep him alive, than happy without him? It didn't make any sense. Then again, he would not be happy if Yami went off and died, even if it was to make him happier.
All of his thinking just brought more confusion, as he looked once more over the edge. Yugi didn't consider himself a stupid boy, but was he really just misguided? No. This had to be the correct thing to do. If he were gone, they WOULD be better off... wouldn't they?
'I knew I would begin to regret my choice if I stopped. I just have to do it, and then, everything will be all right if I do. Yami will be happy, Anzu would be happy, and Koharu would definitely be happy! I just have to push myself to the edge, and then I will be alright, then I will do it, then-'
"You shouldn't stand so close to the railing, you could fall and get hurt. My mommy said it's dangerous over there," a young girl said, looking at Yugi. Her blond pigtails bouncing as she ran over to him. She smoothed out her pink jumper and looked up at him
"Um, I know, thanks," he replied softly. He didn't know how to react to the girl who suddenly came out of nowhere.
"Well, aren't you going to move?"
"No, I don't think I will."
"Why not?" the girl asked puzzled. He was a big kid, he should know not to play near railings or other dangerous things.
Yugi looked at the girl. She was so young, and didn't know of any of the pains of life. She didn't know of the heartache of being hated or anything of what it felt like to bring sadness to so many others. 'How lucky, to be like that...'
"Mister, why aren't you going to move?" she repeated.
"Because I won't have any accidents." The girl's eyes widened. They were similar in color to Seto's, but so kind and so big. She seemed to be amazed that a big kid would be sure that he wouldn't have an accident or fall.
"Are you sure?" she wondered, asking quietly.
"Yes," he replied, silently adding, 'If I fall, it will be of my own will.'
"Amai? Where are you?" an older female voice called. (2)
"Coming, mommy!" She turned to Yugi, "Good-bye, Mister, be careful!"
"I will," he called after her. Her pigtails once again flopping up and down as she ran.
'So, is she the last one to hear my voice?' he asked himself as he leaned over the railing again. It seemed almost repetitive, and he waited to see if there would be another interruption. None came.
He sighed, he almost wanted someone to come running down the street begging him not to do it. But no one knew. Yami did, but he had no idea where to even start looking, and would have a hard time making it there. Yugi knew that it was a nice half-hour run to the park, and that was why he took the train, it made a direct stop, first at the bank, and then at the park.
"This is it," he said aloud. "Goodbye." He stood up on the railing, and jumped.
The fall was as he expected it, long. However, he cleared his mind as he dropped down and down. He didn't know what to expect, and he saw fun parts of his life dance in front of his eyes. Solving the Millennium puzzle, getting the Dark Magician card, beating his grandfather at Duel Monsters for the first time, making friends with everyone. His vision blurred as tears began to form. He wasn't sure what he wanted anymore.
He saw something odd just before he entered the waters. He could barely make out the form of a body through his teary eyes.
/YAMI?!/ he cried, hitting the water below. The liquid felt like it was pulling him down, and even though it was summer, the water was at most 50 degrees F. He had taken a deep breath before splashing, but his little lungs were already begging for air.
Almost immediately after splashing down, he heard the water break again. He looked up, but couldn't see high enough to see what had followed him in. He was sinking fast, and panicking as well, which doesn't help one to float.
//Hold on Yugi!// a familiar voice called to him.
Finally, not being able to control himself, he let his mouth open, and with that, let all of the air escape. Now his lungs burned for air, and he realized that he was wrong. He couldn't control his thoughts anymore, and so what he meant to say to himself, he said to Yami. /I don't want to die, even if I am being selfish/. He struggled to keep his eyes open, but darkness encroached on them. He though he had heard something but he couldn't make it out. Little by little his world faded into nothingness, until all he was left with was black.
***~***
(1) Buoyancy was the correct word, Yugi just forgot. (I had to lighten up the scene)
(2) Amai is Japanese for sugary, like the taste.
Well, that's all for now. So sorry for the cliffhanger! Honest! I hate them, too! I am already in the process of writing the next chapter, so please don't kill me; it will be out soon! Maybe even today, if I have the time! Oh, and I expect it to be VERY short, because I was originally going to put it in this one.
Gomen!
~J
Warning: Sorry! Sorry! A lemon real soon, I promise! How about the next chapter or the one after that?
A/N: Well, there's still a little more sad stuff to get through first, but by the end of 5 it will be more upbeat! (Before I said this chapter was it) I'm sorry I made all you reviewers sad before, and that it took me a couple of days to get this out! The (#) should be read at the end of the story, as they are just side notes! OK, Here I go!
Chapter Three: Courage or Idiocy?
By: Jinu chan
Yugi got off the train, and began walking towards his end. Shijuku Park. He had come here many times with Yami, and admired the view on the bridge. Now that same bridge would be the end of his little life.
The walk was a short one, but, it still gave him time to reflect on what he was going to do, and why it had come to this.
'No, I don't want to die,' he reasoned with himself, 'but they'd all be better off without me. I mean, they are my friends, I guess. I should be trying to make them as happy as possible. But then again, I don't want to be around when Yami announces he's still going out with Anzu. Am I being selfish? No, enough people want me gone, anyway. They'd all be better off. It's not like I'm doing this so "they'll be sorry once I'm gone," I want them to be happy. Yes, at first they may be upset, but, once that passes, they'll realize it's not so bad without that kid bothering them. Yeah, that's it. I mean they will be sad, but then, little by little they will understand why I did what I did, and they will be very happy. I mean, they'll still have Yami, and he is so similar to me.'
He continued trying to rationalize his odd behavior. He told himself that him that not being around would give his grandfather more freedoms. It wasn't even like he was his kid anyway. Honda and Juo would be fine, as well as Mai, Anzu and Ryou. Yami might need some time to get over it, but Anzu would be there for him with open arms. He decided it was all okay as he arrived at the park.
//Yugi, please just tell me where you are!//
/Still at it, Yami,/ he replied coldly, /I thought you would have given up by now. Look, you can stop acting so concerned. I know that you'd be better off with Anzu, anyway. I'm doing this for you and all of my friends. I can't understand why you feel the need to stop me. I do know what I am doing, although, you must not./
//Yugi, I care about you. I don't want to see you throw your life away over something... someone as useless as me!//
/Please, Yami. I'll laugh so hard I'll FALL off the bridge! I know you may think you care about me, but come on./ Yugi was so calm and collected in his conversation, but in all actuality, he couldn't keep it up. His main idea was that 'If Yami's pissed at me when I die, he'll get over it faster, and be able to move on and be happy... even if he's with Anzu.' /You know that's only because you were with me for so long, apart, we... you can get used to it./
Yugi paused a few minutes, leaning on a tree waiting. Oddly enough, Yami didn't reply to Yugi, and the little one sighed in relief. He was happy he didn't have to continue being so cruel to his other half. He hated acting like that, so arrogant and almost evil. It didn't suit him, and he knew it. However, he also knew that the only way to get anyone to back off is to act firm and stand strong, and he knew that Yami was the hardest person to get to back off.
Yugi began walking over a bridge. Under it was a rather large lake. Yugi reflected for a moment. 'Drowning, huh? I knew I was going to do this from the start, but it still doesn't seem right. Well, I can't buy a gun, and I'm too wimpy to slit my wrists. So it makes sense. Anyway, I wouldn't want grandpa to see me like that. Overdosing on pills can be scary if someone finds you while you are reacting, and that doesn't leave to many more options. I guess that this is the easiest way, although it isn't the quickest. It will have to do.'
He thought for a moment. He didn't know the first thing about swimming, and he could barely stay afloat to begin with. The only time he had ever swum well was when his blond friend jumped in the ocean to get the Exodia cards that had been thrown overboard a ship. Something had came over him, and he just went for it. He was lucky to even survive, rather than save the cards. He barely pulled his friend out of that mess. Later on in the year, when he had fallen in a pool, he had to be rescued by Juo. Still, he looked back to his swimming lessons as a kid. The instructor said he didn't have enough boyishness (1) or something like that, and that he would have a hard time floating. The best he could do was stay on the shallow end of the pool where he could stand, the instructor said the same thing.
He looked over the edge. It was a long fall. He'd have time to think about what he was doing, as well as time to regret it. That was just the way he thought, though. There was no way around it. He also knew that it would be just his luck to jump and be contacted by Yami at the same time. There would be no way to stop the words from coming, so he would just listen as he took his final breaths, and perhaps pretend like everything was alright as he splashed into the water below.
Yugi thought back to good times with all of his friends. He didn't want to leave them, but wasn't that a selfish way to act? Maybe, or maybe not, he was starting to get himself confused. He knew what everyone would tell him if he had told them he was planning on taking his own life. "No, we don't want you to go, we love you!" But that seemed like the standard answer... unless... could they really feel that way? Was it possible that his friends would rather be upset, and keep him alive, than happy without him? It didn't make any sense. Then again, he would not be happy if Yami went off and died, even if it was to make him happier.
All of his thinking just brought more confusion, as he looked once more over the edge. Yugi didn't consider himself a stupid boy, but was he really just misguided? No. This had to be the correct thing to do. If he were gone, they WOULD be better off... wouldn't they?
'I knew I would begin to regret my choice if I stopped. I just have to do it, and then, everything will be all right if I do. Yami will be happy, Anzu would be happy, and Koharu would definitely be happy! I just have to push myself to the edge, and then I will be alright, then I will do it, then-'
"You shouldn't stand so close to the railing, you could fall and get hurt. My mommy said it's dangerous over there," a young girl said, looking at Yugi. Her blond pigtails bouncing as she ran over to him. She smoothed out her pink jumper and looked up at him
"Um, I know, thanks," he replied softly. He didn't know how to react to the girl who suddenly came out of nowhere.
"Well, aren't you going to move?"
"No, I don't think I will."
"Why not?" the girl asked puzzled. He was a big kid, he should know not to play near railings or other dangerous things.
Yugi looked at the girl. She was so young, and didn't know of any of the pains of life. She didn't know of the heartache of being hated or anything of what it felt like to bring sadness to so many others. 'How lucky, to be like that...'
"Mister, why aren't you going to move?" she repeated.
"Because I won't have any accidents." The girl's eyes widened. They were similar in color to Seto's, but so kind and so big. She seemed to be amazed that a big kid would be sure that he wouldn't have an accident or fall.
"Are you sure?" she wondered, asking quietly.
"Yes," he replied, silently adding, 'If I fall, it will be of my own will.'
"Amai? Where are you?" an older female voice called. (2)
"Coming, mommy!" She turned to Yugi, "Good-bye, Mister, be careful!"
"I will," he called after her. Her pigtails once again flopping up and down as she ran.
'So, is she the last one to hear my voice?' he asked himself as he leaned over the railing again. It seemed almost repetitive, and he waited to see if there would be another interruption. None came.
He sighed, he almost wanted someone to come running down the street begging him not to do it. But no one knew. Yami did, but he had no idea where to even start looking, and would have a hard time making it there. Yugi knew that it was a nice half-hour run to the park, and that was why he took the train, it made a direct stop, first at the bank, and then at the park.
"This is it," he said aloud. "Goodbye." He stood up on the railing, and jumped.
The fall was as he expected it, long. However, he cleared his mind as he dropped down and down. He didn't know what to expect, and he saw fun parts of his life dance in front of his eyes. Solving the Millennium puzzle, getting the Dark Magician card, beating his grandfather at Duel Monsters for the first time, making friends with everyone. His vision blurred as tears began to form. He wasn't sure what he wanted anymore.
He saw something odd just before he entered the waters. He could barely make out the form of a body through his teary eyes.
/YAMI?!/ he cried, hitting the water below. The liquid felt like it was pulling him down, and even though it was summer, the water was at most 50 degrees F. He had taken a deep breath before splashing, but his little lungs were already begging for air.
Almost immediately after splashing down, he heard the water break again. He looked up, but couldn't see high enough to see what had followed him in. He was sinking fast, and panicking as well, which doesn't help one to float.
//Hold on Yugi!// a familiar voice called to him.
Finally, not being able to control himself, he let his mouth open, and with that, let all of the air escape. Now his lungs burned for air, and he realized that he was wrong. He couldn't control his thoughts anymore, and so what he meant to say to himself, he said to Yami. /I don't want to die, even if I am being selfish/. He struggled to keep his eyes open, but darkness encroached on them. He though he had heard something but he couldn't make it out. Little by little his world faded into nothingness, until all he was left with was black.
***~***
(1) Buoyancy was the correct word, Yugi just forgot. (I had to lighten up the scene)
(2) Amai is Japanese for sugary, like the taste.
Well, that's all for now. So sorry for the cliffhanger! Honest! I hate them, too! I am already in the process of writing the next chapter, so please don't kill me; it will be out soon! Maybe even today, if I have the time! Oh, and I expect it to be VERY short, because I was originally going to put it in this one.
Gomen!
~J