"Remember when we were in love?" said the voice over Dean's phone.

"Yes" said Dean, rubbing his forehead… tired.

"You were a great kisser, made me feel so… safe and happy"

"Rory, what's wrong?" said Dean, getting sick of it.

"I'm drunk okay! I'm freakin' drunk and I don't even know where I am!"

"Huh? Are you okay?" said Dean, suddenly very worried, "let me call your mom!"

"No! She doesn't know where I am… I don't know where I am! I was with Jess, but I don't know where he is either."

"That little"

"No, Dean, don't worry," she paused, hearing the door of the cheap motel room opening, "he's back! I have to go – he'll get mad. Bye."

She hung up the phone and laid down just as Jess came in. "Are you okay," he said, "I brought you some water."

"I feel so sick"

"I know Rory, but I promise I'll take care of you."

"Thanks for saving me Jess"

"I shouldn't have ever let you go back to my old school with me, who did you go with?"

"Two girls, they were nice."

"Do you remember their names?"

"Annette and Eileen… one was real tall and the other one had really really really red hair. There was 3 boys with them. One told me I was beautiful… his name was…"

Jess finished her sentence, "Brent Poled."

"Yeah – How did you know?"

"How much did you drink?"

"At least half a bott-" she leaned over the trashcan and threw up again."

"Rory that's way to much, I'm going to have to take you to the hospital."

"No! I have a perfect record. Harvard. I'm going to harvard!"

"I know. I know. Okay I won't take you to the hospital, but I am calling you mom."

"No!"

"There is no arguing about this one."

Jess picked up the phone and dialed the number.

The Phone rang at the Gilmore house at 12:30. Lorelei hadn't been able to sleep so she was watching I Love Lucky Reruns and painting her nails. She answered the phone giddily "Hello!"

"Lorelie – uh, this is Jess."

"Ah… you're the reason my daughter is out so late! I thought you were taking the 9:00 train back!"

"We were planning on it."

"But"

"We went to a party at one of my old friend's houses. I stopped to talk to somebody and she disappeared."

"But you found her? Right?"

"Yeah, but she's – she's really drunk, I think she may have alcohol poisoning."

"No way, my daughter doesn't drink. She's going to Harvard."

"I'm not joking Lorelei, and she won't let me take her to the hospital."

"Okay if she gets any worse take her anyway, I'll be there as soon as I can. Where are you?"

"Buck's Motel"

"We've stayed there before. I'm going as fast as I can."

2 months later

Rory stared out her window. She had a book in her hand but she didn't read it. She had had to go to the hospital that night. She had had her stomach pumped, and was physically fine, but everything she had spent her whole life building up was gone. She had been the perfect good girl, and now she got stares and she walked down the street. Jess was still there for her, but she wasn't all there. She was off in her own world. Because she had a secret, something that nobody knew but her. She remembered walking into the bedroom – it had been cold. She was already drunk and Brent had kissed her. She remembered nothing of that night except for that part. Every detail was still vivid in her mind. "Don't, please" she had said many times, but Brent had told her to be quiet, that she would have fun. Then he left her all alone in the bedroom. She got dressed and stumbled out into the hallway and passed out. She didn't remember very much after that. Jess however, did. He carried her to his car and drove her to the motel. He was worried. God, she was so innocent, and this was all his fault.

Rory heard a knock at her door. "Rory, it's mom, Jess is here, should I let him in or use my Karate moves on him?" Rory said "let him in," Jess came in and sat down on her bed, "Hey Rory," he said smiling. Rory didn't say anything. Jess frowned but then said, "want to go to Luke's and get some food? I bet I can get you some for free!" Rory said, "lets take a walk,"

Jess agreed, happy to be doing something and they started walking through the town. After a little bit she held tighter to him and said, "Jess, everybody's looking at me." Jess looked around and said, "No there not Rory. Don't worry about it." Rory sighed, "I'm so paranoid lately."

"Hey, just don't worry." He said. But then a face emerged from the crowd, and this one was staring. Rory got scared and suddenly pulled Jess even closer. "Oh my god." She said. Then Jess saw him to. "What are you doing here?" he said. "Dude calm it down," said Brent, "hey baby." Jess glared, "stay away from her. It was YOUR fault she ended up in the fucking hospital." "Yeah well we had fun, didn't we, baby?" Rory frowned ghost white, and he realized she had never told. He winked at her. "Lets talk alone." Jess said, "No." but Rory, reluctantly said, "One second Jess, I'll be right back." She walked away keeping a safe distance. Then Brent said smiling, "You never told anybody that we did it, did you?" She frowned, "Did it? Did it? I said NO Brent." "You enjoyed it that's all that matters." "I did not. That was Rape. Do I need to spell it for you?"

"So what? You liked it. Should have said no more." "I could tell the police." "This long after? Wouldn't do any good, and anyways, you won't because you don't want anybody to know." He had a point and they both knew it. He smiled, "you were a virgin, weren't you?" She lowered her eyes, "leave me alone, and never come back." She walked away, and back to Jess, who was very worried and curious.

"What was that all about?" said Jess.

"I wanted to tell him what a awful person he was, and it was not something your young ears should have heard."

Jess laughed with her, and it was the first time in a long time.

Rory smiled, and hid all the pain deep inside herself.