Nat: First of all Thankyou very much for the lovely reviews. Kai isn't dead!! The saga continues………
Kai: Shut up and get on with it.
Nat: Yes sir -_-' Here I place my disclaimer: Beyblade isn't mine yada yada yada. But this lil' story so totally is! So enjoy everybody!
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It's freezing here
In this room
And silent.
"I'm back Kai. I have been away but only for a little while. Rei, Kenny and Max wanted to find out what was happening. But I didn't say too much. This is kinda between us you know?"
It's real hard for me. Sitting here, seeing you like this. You were always so strong, emotionless. It is unbelievable what you did. I'm not flattered that you did something like that for me. All you had to do was say, and I would have been yours Kai.
For always.
Doctors have gone
They left me alone
With you.
I'm not sure about Russian hospitals. They aren't watching you right and there should be heating. I'm the one dying of cold in here! It's almost as cold inside as it is out. Russia is a pretty lame country. But what does that matter, the same thing would have happened wherever we were. At least you're alive.
I wonder if you
Can hear me?
Kai? Can you hear me?
I'm here for you
I'm yours like I have
Always been.
Always.
"We have plenty of time. All the time in the world. Even if it means the team has to pull out of the World Championships. I'd do that for you, even beyblading isn't as important as you. Not to me. And you know how important beyblading is to me."
I look down at you but you haven't flinched. Still static, almost lifeless. But I know you aren't dead, I came in time. I will always be there for you.
"Can you hear me? What I'm saying? I'm saying that I love you more than anything. You are the only thing that matters now. If you could hear me, you'd say wouldn't you? You can say right? I mean you are still with us."
I can't really tell. You show no sign of life. I'll stay here forever if I have to. But comas don't last forever. You either come out alive or dead. That's what Rei said. I don't care what he thinks. You will do this for me, pull through I mean.
You will.
How could you not
Have known
All along
How much I love you?
I thought I could show you at first. But all you did was shrug me off. I decided that you didn't care and gave up trying. The way you just looked away or made some sarcastic comment. I was so certain you didn't give a damn about anything.
"What kind of way was this to prove to me you care? Why couldn't you just I don't know send me a bunch of flowers or something. I know that was lame but it would have been better. Anything would have been better than this."
I still love you.
Even after what you did.
When I saw you
Like that
It broke my heart.
I had walked round the corner, headed back to my apartment. Kenny had already returned. He must have just missed you. Lucky I guess. That argument I had with you plagued my mind. It was a horrid feeling. Every word I said to you rang over and over again. It wouldn't go away. Is that how you felt?
But then I saw you lying there covered in blood. It was terrible. I panicked I didn't know what to do. It was like you had ripped my heart out. It was me lying there. I did the right thing and all. That first aid stuff. But that was just instinct, my mind was on what you must have been feeling. My mind was on the loss that I would have to cope with if you died. All I thought about was that, selfish or not. All I thought about was how much I love you and couldn't let you die from one stupid action. You would break my heart.
You were good at that.
Everything you said
Broke my heart.
I hadn't lied
I did hate you
But only because
I could never love you quite
The way I wanted to.
Hiding away my feelings,
Every moment torture.
That argument was one sided and I am sorry. I didn't mean to lose it like that. But you were always so infuriating. The rest of the team just put up with you but they had no reason not to. They aren't in love with you or anything. That's just me. 'Just Tyson, he was always a bit of a nutter.' But you can see it can't you. I never knew you felt the same way. How could I? That would just be impossible, the way you treated me. Nobody treats somebody they like, like that. But you did. I made no allowances, I am so sorry Kai.
Can you hear me?
Can you feel my fingers
Round yours?
Or my hand on your chest?
Or my eyes gazing
Where you lie so withdrawn?
I think that maybe if I touch you, it might bring you back from wherever you are. I give it a go. You are cold Kai. But not the way I meant back then. I am cold too. They really should get heating here. You look so perfect lying there, semi darkness does nothing to stop me seeing you. Although your face is so pale. Loss of blood I guess but then what do I know about this kind of stuff. You aren't with me, that's all I know. Your mind is miles away, but perhaps I'm in your thoughts/dreams whatever you get when your in a coma. I don't know.
I don't know.
Pale but not lifeless.
You're still with me
Just as I'll always
Be with you.
"Please come back Kai. I wouldn't go on without you. I'd give up everything. I'll become a shadow of what I am now. But I'll never do what you did. That hurts people, you can't see how much of a hole you've made in me. But if you could you'd understand why I'll never do anything like what you did. Never."
It isn't you that
Is cold.
Or I.
It is the world.
The way the world
Works today.
Leaving you so apart
In a deep coma.
Detached.
That is what is cold
Not you
Nor I
This is what is cold.
My thoughts are abnormal. I never feel like this, I've never had any reason to resent the world like I do now. I've never had any reason to hate the way things are. I'm not happy any more.
And I won't ever be. Unless you come back Kai.
"Come back Kai. I need you. I love you. Always."