Hi everybody! This is the Usagi/Trowa fic that I wanted to write.
I've got the first chapter all ready written and waiting to be typed up,
but please feel free to review and send suggestions. An author can only get
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Symphony of Light. ~*~Prologue~*~ Speak my Mind.
"I'm sorry." Nine people blinked simultaneously. Eight girls and one guy stared in shock at the petite golden haired girl before them.
"Usako... What...?" The man tried to ask, struggling to comprehend what the group had just been told.
"I'm sorry. But I can't go on pretending to be something I'm not." Usagi Tsukino, 17 year old student at Jubaan High school, and former champion of Love and Justice; Eternal Sailor Moon, repeated. "I know you girls, and you too, Mamoru, all mean well and have the best intentions in mind. But you all expect too much of me! I might have been a princess in a former life, but the truth is now I'm just an ordinary girl. I don't want to rule the world! I don't want to be stuck in a palace and be treated like a piece of spun glass!"
But. but Usa-Chan!" Makoto cried out. "What about Crystal Tokyo! And. and Chibi-Usa! What about Mamoru?!"
The golden haired girl looked down. All in all, she was beautiful. Her golden hair ran all the way down to her knees and was currently pulled up into twin buns on either side of her head with streamers falling from each. Her eyes were crystal clear, their hue a grey-blue - the colour of storm tossed seas - which seemed to stare right to your soul. She was small, barely 5 ft tall, and lithe as a gymnast. Her skin was the colour of soft peach, standing out against her cut off denim shorts, blue and white sneakers, and white female dress shirt which had a red piece of cloth tied around her upper left arm. She was like an angel, or a siren. But no matter how beautiful she was, you couldn't disguise the sadness that had taken residence in her eyes.
It hurt her to do this. These people were her friends and had always been there to help her when she needed it. But this was her life. If she wasn't happy with the way she was leading it then how could she ever expect to find contentment? The missing piece inside of her that she just couldn't seem to find, no matter how hard she searched.
"Crystal Tokyo was only a possibility." Setsuna spoke up hesitantly, as if she was torn by this issue. "It was only one of many futures that could occur."
"Then how did Chibi-Usa travel back in time?" Ami asked, confused as to how it was possible for things to happen the way they appeared to be heading.
"It's hard to explain. Think of Time - If it were a material thing - like the branches of a tree; from the trunk, the main branch, spreads lots of main branches, and from these main branches spread smaller branches, and so on. Small Lady came from one of those Second Generation branches. From the main 'branch' of Time spread the branch that was the creation of Crystal Tokyo, along with numerous others. And from this branch the invasion of the Black Moon Family spread. There are also many futures where Crystal Tokyo was established, but the Black Moon Family didn't attack. Each of them involves Crystal Tokyo but all are different." There was an unlimited number of possible futures, but surprisingly there were very few in which Usagi ended up with Mamoru. The amount of possible futures involving Crystal Tokyo where Usagi ended up leaving King Endymion for Prince Demando, of establishing rule with someone else was amazingly high.
"Look," Usagi spoke up. "Haven't you guys ever wished that you weren't saddled with the responsibility of being Sailor Senshi?! Haven't you wanted to just wake up and not have to worry about the fate of the World resting on your shoulders? To just live normal lives? Aren't you tired of having to sacrifice so much and get nothing in return?!"
"I don't want my entire life ruled by other people and what they want me to do! My life isn't a group decision!" The sadness in her eyes was pushed aside and determination shone through her grey-blue eyes. It radiated in waves so strong the others in the room could practically feel it. "I'm sorry if you guys feel like I'm doing the wrong thing, but this decision is right by me! Ever since I took that stupid broach from Luna my whole life has been taken over, turned around, and SCREWED UP so bad that I can't take it any more!
"Fighting the Four Generals, sure, the things those creeps were willing to do left us no choice. Beryl, I won't even go there! Anne and Ail, those wacko's' were attacking babies! Eighteen month olds, for crying out loud! The Dark Moon Family and the Doom Phantom, it was the whole world at stake! But then it just got ridicules! Nehelania and the Dead Moon Circus attacked Earth because of us! Chaos came to Earth because of my power! Just by living this unwanted life I have put everyone at risk! I'm a bigger threat to this planet than any enemy!
"And I'm sick of it! I can't do it any more! If I get called on to fight, I will. Gladly! But I can't stay here." Again Usagi looked at her feet to avoid looking her friends in the eyes. "I've talked to my parents, and through the student exchange program I've been accepted into the Peacecraft Academy. I'll have time to study more, and improve my grades. And maybe even sort out my thoughts on this whole mess."
A single tear fell to the floor and Usagi quickly moved to hug all the girls; some of whom nearly squeezed the life out of her hugging her back. "Girls, I want you all to be happy. Don't let destiny rule your lives. You have to do what you want to do with your lives or you'll end up regretting it forever. Michiru; play your violin, paint your picture. You're a beautiful person and you need to show the world. Haruka; keep chasing the wind. Let nothing stand in the way of your beautiful dreams. Hotaru, my friend; don't let the superficial judgment of others get you down. Your gift of healing is a gift, not a curse as it can be perceived as. Let your heart and your soul shine brightly to guide others. Setsuna; you think yourself alone as you stand your post at the Gates of Time yet you will never be alone. We are your friends, and we will never allow the solitude of your duties to get in the way of our friendship. That we could do more.
"Ami; keep on reaching for your dream of being a doctor. Your pure and heart will always be your guide in life, so always listen to it, and never let others make you think your s fool for doing so. Makoto, my dear friend, almost my sister; you don't need to fear what others might see you as, just because you will fight for those you love. You will always be an Amazon Princess to me; brave, loving, strong and forgiving. Promise me to never change. Minako; the world's you oyster. Follow your dreams of fame with a faithful heart and an open mind and nothing is beyond your reach. Perhaps, one day, when your face is on the covers of all the magazines, you will find what it is you seek so faithfully. And Rei, my soul sister; you are a truly amazing person. Strong, popular and ambitious. It seems that you are the embodiment of everything I am not. The fire of your soul, heart and mind burn brightly and intensely; never let it be extinguished."
And now came the hard part.
"And Mamoru. My Mamo-chan. I will always love you, till time ceases to exist. But I can't help wondering if you will do the same. There have been times recently when I've started to wonder; do you love me only because Endymion loved Serenity, or because I was the first person in this life that loved you to such an extent? Or is your affection so deep that your soul instinctively reaches for mine?" Mamoru understood her intentions, deep down. Had they been together for so long that the very thing that had originally attracted him to her been replaced the moment he remembered his past as a Prince of Earth? Where they taking their emotions for each other for granted, and only staying together because they were meant to be together and their was no fighting it?
Usagi's soft rose bud lips met Mamoru's in an almost desperate, passion filled kiss. Most probably their last. The other girls were all crying as the golden haired girl walked out of the Shinto Shrine on Cherry Hill. The only eyes she met on her way out was Setsuna's ancient garnet orbs, filled with wisdom and knowledge, and most importantly of all - understanding. The green haired lady understood why her hime was doing this. Usagi needed to find the meaning of her life, something other than the endless battles and heartache. Something to fill the gapping hole in her soul that destiny had torn open.
So. What do you think? This is a Trowa/Usagi fic, and I hope it will be a decent one. Not many people put the couplings in the summary so that makes it harder to find the pair if you want a specific one. Please review and tell me what you think. An Author can only get better with feedback *wink, wink, nudge, nudge*. To all those who like it and want me to continue, don't worry. I already have the next chapter at least halfway written. It's just a matter of typing it.
Lady Katherine.
Symphony of Light. ~*~Prologue~*~ Speak my Mind.
"I'm sorry." Nine people blinked simultaneously. Eight girls and one guy stared in shock at the petite golden haired girl before them.
"Usako... What...?" The man tried to ask, struggling to comprehend what the group had just been told.
"I'm sorry. But I can't go on pretending to be something I'm not." Usagi Tsukino, 17 year old student at Jubaan High school, and former champion of Love and Justice; Eternal Sailor Moon, repeated. "I know you girls, and you too, Mamoru, all mean well and have the best intentions in mind. But you all expect too much of me! I might have been a princess in a former life, but the truth is now I'm just an ordinary girl. I don't want to rule the world! I don't want to be stuck in a palace and be treated like a piece of spun glass!"
But. but Usa-Chan!" Makoto cried out. "What about Crystal Tokyo! And. and Chibi-Usa! What about Mamoru?!"
The golden haired girl looked down. All in all, she was beautiful. Her golden hair ran all the way down to her knees and was currently pulled up into twin buns on either side of her head with streamers falling from each. Her eyes were crystal clear, their hue a grey-blue - the colour of storm tossed seas - which seemed to stare right to your soul. She was small, barely 5 ft tall, and lithe as a gymnast. Her skin was the colour of soft peach, standing out against her cut off denim shorts, blue and white sneakers, and white female dress shirt which had a red piece of cloth tied around her upper left arm. She was like an angel, or a siren. But no matter how beautiful she was, you couldn't disguise the sadness that had taken residence in her eyes.
It hurt her to do this. These people were her friends and had always been there to help her when she needed it. But this was her life. If she wasn't happy with the way she was leading it then how could she ever expect to find contentment? The missing piece inside of her that she just couldn't seem to find, no matter how hard she searched.
"Crystal Tokyo was only a possibility." Setsuna spoke up hesitantly, as if she was torn by this issue. "It was only one of many futures that could occur."
"Then how did Chibi-Usa travel back in time?" Ami asked, confused as to how it was possible for things to happen the way they appeared to be heading.
"It's hard to explain. Think of Time - If it were a material thing - like the branches of a tree; from the trunk, the main branch, spreads lots of main branches, and from these main branches spread smaller branches, and so on. Small Lady came from one of those Second Generation branches. From the main 'branch' of Time spread the branch that was the creation of Crystal Tokyo, along with numerous others. And from this branch the invasion of the Black Moon Family spread. There are also many futures where Crystal Tokyo was established, but the Black Moon Family didn't attack. Each of them involves Crystal Tokyo but all are different." There was an unlimited number of possible futures, but surprisingly there were very few in which Usagi ended up with Mamoru. The amount of possible futures involving Crystal Tokyo where Usagi ended up leaving King Endymion for Prince Demando, of establishing rule with someone else was amazingly high.
"Look," Usagi spoke up. "Haven't you guys ever wished that you weren't saddled with the responsibility of being Sailor Senshi?! Haven't you wanted to just wake up and not have to worry about the fate of the World resting on your shoulders? To just live normal lives? Aren't you tired of having to sacrifice so much and get nothing in return?!"
"I don't want my entire life ruled by other people and what they want me to do! My life isn't a group decision!" The sadness in her eyes was pushed aside and determination shone through her grey-blue eyes. It radiated in waves so strong the others in the room could practically feel it. "I'm sorry if you guys feel like I'm doing the wrong thing, but this decision is right by me! Ever since I took that stupid broach from Luna my whole life has been taken over, turned around, and SCREWED UP so bad that I can't take it any more!
"Fighting the Four Generals, sure, the things those creeps were willing to do left us no choice. Beryl, I won't even go there! Anne and Ail, those wacko's' were attacking babies! Eighteen month olds, for crying out loud! The Dark Moon Family and the Doom Phantom, it was the whole world at stake! But then it just got ridicules! Nehelania and the Dead Moon Circus attacked Earth because of us! Chaos came to Earth because of my power! Just by living this unwanted life I have put everyone at risk! I'm a bigger threat to this planet than any enemy!
"And I'm sick of it! I can't do it any more! If I get called on to fight, I will. Gladly! But I can't stay here." Again Usagi looked at her feet to avoid looking her friends in the eyes. "I've talked to my parents, and through the student exchange program I've been accepted into the Peacecraft Academy. I'll have time to study more, and improve my grades. And maybe even sort out my thoughts on this whole mess."
A single tear fell to the floor and Usagi quickly moved to hug all the girls; some of whom nearly squeezed the life out of her hugging her back. "Girls, I want you all to be happy. Don't let destiny rule your lives. You have to do what you want to do with your lives or you'll end up regretting it forever. Michiru; play your violin, paint your picture. You're a beautiful person and you need to show the world. Haruka; keep chasing the wind. Let nothing stand in the way of your beautiful dreams. Hotaru, my friend; don't let the superficial judgment of others get you down. Your gift of healing is a gift, not a curse as it can be perceived as. Let your heart and your soul shine brightly to guide others. Setsuna; you think yourself alone as you stand your post at the Gates of Time yet you will never be alone. We are your friends, and we will never allow the solitude of your duties to get in the way of our friendship. That we could do more.
"Ami; keep on reaching for your dream of being a doctor. Your pure and heart will always be your guide in life, so always listen to it, and never let others make you think your s fool for doing so. Makoto, my dear friend, almost my sister; you don't need to fear what others might see you as, just because you will fight for those you love. You will always be an Amazon Princess to me; brave, loving, strong and forgiving. Promise me to never change. Minako; the world's you oyster. Follow your dreams of fame with a faithful heart and an open mind and nothing is beyond your reach. Perhaps, one day, when your face is on the covers of all the magazines, you will find what it is you seek so faithfully. And Rei, my soul sister; you are a truly amazing person. Strong, popular and ambitious. It seems that you are the embodiment of everything I am not. The fire of your soul, heart and mind burn brightly and intensely; never let it be extinguished."
And now came the hard part.
"And Mamoru. My Mamo-chan. I will always love you, till time ceases to exist. But I can't help wondering if you will do the same. There have been times recently when I've started to wonder; do you love me only because Endymion loved Serenity, or because I was the first person in this life that loved you to such an extent? Or is your affection so deep that your soul instinctively reaches for mine?" Mamoru understood her intentions, deep down. Had they been together for so long that the very thing that had originally attracted him to her been replaced the moment he remembered his past as a Prince of Earth? Where they taking their emotions for each other for granted, and only staying together because they were meant to be together and their was no fighting it?
Usagi's soft rose bud lips met Mamoru's in an almost desperate, passion filled kiss. Most probably their last. The other girls were all crying as the golden haired girl walked out of the Shinto Shrine on Cherry Hill. The only eyes she met on her way out was Setsuna's ancient garnet orbs, filled with wisdom and knowledge, and most importantly of all - understanding. The green haired lady understood why her hime was doing this. Usagi needed to find the meaning of her life, something other than the endless battles and heartache. Something to fill the gapping hole in her soul that destiny had torn open.
So. What do you think? This is a Trowa/Usagi fic, and I hope it will be a decent one. Not many people put the couplings in the summary so that makes it harder to find the pair if you want a specific one. Please review and tell me what you think. An Author can only get better with feedback *wink, wink, nudge, nudge*. To all those who like it and want me to continue, don't worry. I already have the next chapter at least halfway written. It's just a matter of typing it.
Lady Katherine.