Sins
Chapter 5: Pride
A/N This is more NC-17 than R. Ooops.
As Jess slept soundly on her couch, Rory started to clear up the mess they had made. Food, empty plates and empty wine bottles were everywhere and she thought she ought to do the dishes, a task she wouldn't want to do in the morning. Picking up the last sticky plates from the table, her gaze traveled to Jess' peaceful figure. Every muscle of his body seemed to be at rest and a lazy smile lingered on his lips. Except for his chest rising up and down with each slow breath, his slender body hardly moved. She remembered the last time she had seen him in such restful state and a flow of memories came rushing back as she returned to the kitchen to fill the sink with soapy water.
*FLASHBACK*
It was his last night in Stars Hollow before he moved to New York to start his first college year. She knew it but she was too scared to visit him and didn't want to live through the long and painful goodbyes. Instead, she had given Luke an old edition of J.D. Salinger's "Raise High the Roof Beam, Carpenters and Seymour: An Introduction" so he would give it to his nephew before he got on the bus. That edition included the author's mysterious dedication and editorial note. Inside, she had inserted a friendly letter telling him that she would miss him and that if he didn't call, she would send New York City resident, Sandra Bernard, after him. When she had written the letter, she had chosen to dodge her feelings for him and to act -as she had done for a long time now- as if everything was all right. After all, she was still with Dean.
Dean had left the week before to start his first semester at a car mechanics school in New Haven. So, on that humid late-August Friday night, Rory was left alone in her house since her mom had gone alone to the Gilmore mansion, leaving her daughter to finish her packing. Having spent the whole day with Lane, Rory was now taking a break from packing, reading in her box-filled living room.
There was a knock on the front door.
As Rory got up, she realised she knew who would be on her porch that night. Glancing in the hallway mirror, she tucked her hair behind her ears and licked her warm lips. Inhaling, she opened the door.
"Hey." Jess stood there, his eyebrows raised expectantly and both his hands were in his pockets.
"Hi", Rory exhaled. "Come in", she continued, stepping backwards to let him inside. "Do you want something to drink?"
"No. Thanks" Rory was surprised by his awkward silence. He never was short of words. "Oh, thanks for the book, too." Jess said, louder, interrupting her thoughts.
"You got my book already? But I told Luke to give it to you right before you got on."
"Relax. I just found it in the apartment and I figured it wasn't his. After all, the book doesn't include spacecrafts and extra-terrestrials." Jess shrugged and he shoved his hands deeper in his pockets.
"Well, you're welcome. I thought you'd appreciate it."
"You thought well."
Jess stepped closer to Rory. They were now in the corridor leading to the kitchen. "So, hmmm." Rory whispered, not really wanting to break the comfortable silence.
Jess bit his bottom lip and leaned in to close the distance that separated them with a rough kiss. Surprised by his own boldness, he walked away into the kitchen. Rory quickly followed him and surrounded his waist with her arms and spun around his body to face him. Before he could react, she had stretched her neck and glued her mouth fiercely to his. Jess licked her lip and she opened her mouth. He slid his tongue between her lips and caressed her own with languorous movements. Feeling her inner thighs getting hotter, she pushed her pelvis onto his, pressing her body harder on his. Jess nearly lost his balance but he stabilized himself, leaning his back on the refrigerator. In an instant, Rory backed away and took off her fuchsia AstroBoy t-shirt. Jess closed his mouth and gazed down at her. His fingers brushed her naked shoulders.
"Rory." he started, guiltily.
She didn't want to talk or reason anything so she ignored his plea and unhooked her bra in one swift movement, letting it fall silently on the wooden floor. Rory looked directly at Jess and slowly, she grabbed him by the wrists and brought his shaky hands up to her white perky breasts. When the contact was made, Rory closed her eyes. Jess caressed softly her breasts with his palms at first, he then proceeded to rub her hard nipples between his thumb and index. Rory moaned. Again, she pressed her lower abdomen on his, now feeling his erection between her thighs. When she recalled that during a similar session with Dean, she had felt his erection on her belly button, she found it ridiculous and a short, light laugh escaped her mouth. Mistaking it for a pleasured groan, Jess lowered his mouth directly to one of her tits, which he kissed gingerly. Rory gasped at the sensation and grabbed Jess' hair tightly between her fingers. His tongue flicked her nipple in his hot mouth and he occasionally bit it, sending shivers down her spine. Rory, letting go of Jess' shiny brown locks started pulling up the hem of his dark shirt. He understood and, never breaking contact from her breasts, he unbuttoned his shirt, exposing his lean frame. Their bodies fitted so well together, Rory thought, it would've been nice to lose her virginity to him. But it wouldn't be the case. She wasn't a virgin anymore. After several failures her boyfriend Dean had finally been able to keep his erection long enough during penetration to break her hymen. It had been awkward, painful and unpleasant. Not like this. Rory kissed Jess passionately and she grabbed him by the wrists again. Walking backwards, she led him to her bedroom. When she hit the foot of her bed, she dropped Jess' hands and brought her hands to the waistband of her jeans. She undid the button.
"Rory. Are you sure you want to do this?" Jess asked, perplexed.
"I'm not a virgin, Jess" she stated.
'You're not?" he looked surprised.
"Well Dean and I have been together for two years. Does it really surprise you that we have sex?"
That simple sentence pinched Jess' heart, She spoke of her and Dean in the present tense. What did their games mean, today?
"Rory, why are you doing this?"
"Because. because I know I'll regret it if I don't try. It may be the only chance we have to explore with each other. It's the only explanation I have for you. I don't want us to read more into this. I'm still with Dean, Jess. But when we kissed last summer. There was something. And I want to know what it was."
"Fair enough." And Jess kissed her again. Their lips were wide open, their tongues exploring every inch of their mouth. Jess then chose not to resist any of his impulses and he reached down and pulled down the zipper of her jeans. Rory lied down on her bed, helping Jess to remove her pants and underwear. Jess stood there for a moment, taking in her intoxicating beauty. Her cheeks were flushed, her hair messy and she breather hard. Jess removed his own pants, keeping his boxers on, and laid himself on top of her, placing wet kisses on her neck and shoulders. Unable to stand the closeness of her naked body to his, he lowered his head on his stomach, kissing her belly button and then lowering his mouth further south again. Rory shuddered when he started to lick her wet folds. She had been wet for a while now, but they way he kissed her hot centre made her scream from pleasure. He expertly flicked her clit with his tongue, sliding it in and out of her. Arching her back, Rory climaxed, her hands firmly gripping her sheets. When she was able to breath normally, she pulled Jess up and pushed his back on her bed. She pulled down his boxers and shifted her body, straddling him. On top of him, she traced lazy circles on his tensed abdominal muscles. Jess bit his lower lip and Rory dove to kiss him one more. She couldn't get enough of his taste. Finally, she adjusted herself on his erection and rocked up and down, adjusting herself to his every move. The penetration was much better then it was when she was with Dean. They were in synch, breathing, panting, and moaning together. Also, their eyes were locked and he gave many attentions to every inch of her body, caressing her hair, face, arms and breasts. After experimenting their pace, slow, faster, harder and tenderly, they both came and Rory collapsed on top of Jess' humid body. He fast asleep and she stayed awake for a long hour, just staring at him, listening to his steady breath. When the clock announced 10 o'clock, she gently shook Jess awake and whispered in his ear he better leave before her mom came home. Putting their clothes on in silence, they stared at each other in the dark. Rory escorted Jess to the door.
"Bye Jess. Good luck."
"Yeah. Bye, Rory. Wait, wait. Hmmm, did you find out what it was?" Jess asked, not wanting to say good-bye.
"No Jess. I didn't." Rory closed her eyes and kissed him tenderly before closing the door. Inside, she leaned against it and started crying. She knew what it was. It was love. But she was too proud to admit it to him and most of all to herself.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
Rory closed the light in the kitchen and looked at Jess' form in the darkness. How was it possible that after 3 years apart, the feeling was till there. She let her shoulders fall and walked slowly to her bedroom where she undressed and crawled into bed, trying really hard to resist the urge to visit the man she loved, asleep in the next room.
A/N. Okay. This was really hard to write. Is it bad? My first try at smut. Please, please, please review. Don't worry the projection room sex will be coming if your reviews make me confident enough to write another sex scene. Next chapter: Envy, by Jess. Haha, just kidding, it seems like a perfume! It will be short too, probably.
Chapter 5: Pride
A/N This is more NC-17 than R. Ooops.
As Jess slept soundly on her couch, Rory started to clear up the mess they had made. Food, empty plates and empty wine bottles were everywhere and she thought she ought to do the dishes, a task she wouldn't want to do in the morning. Picking up the last sticky plates from the table, her gaze traveled to Jess' peaceful figure. Every muscle of his body seemed to be at rest and a lazy smile lingered on his lips. Except for his chest rising up and down with each slow breath, his slender body hardly moved. She remembered the last time she had seen him in such restful state and a flow of memories came rushing back as she returned to the kitchen to fill the sink with soapy water.
*FLASHBACK*
It was his last night in Stars Hollow before he moved to New York to start his first college year. She knew it but she was too scared to visit him and didn't want to live through the long and painful goodbyes. Instead, she had given Luke an old edition of J.D. Salinger's "Raise High the Roof Beam, Carpenters and Seymour: An Introduction" so he would give it to his nephew before he got on the bus. That edition included the author's mysterious dedication and editorial note. Inside, she had inserted a friendly letter telling him that she would miss him and that if he didn't call, she would send New York City resident, Sandra Bernard, after him. When she had written the letter, she had chosen to dodge her feelings for him and to act -as she had done for a long time now- as if everything was all right. After all, she was still with Dean.
Dean had left the week before to start his first semester at a car mechanics school in New Haven. So, on that humid late-August Friday night, Rory was left alone in her house since her mom had gone alone to the Gilmore mansion, leaving her daughter to finish her packing. Having spent the whole day with Lane, Rory was now taking a break from packing, reading in her box-filled living room.
There was a knock on the front door.
As Rory got up, she realised she knew who would be on her porch that night. Glancing in the hallway mirror, she tucked her hair behind her ears and licked her warm lips. Inhaling, she opened the door.
"Hey." Jess stood there, his eyebrows raised expectantly and both his hands were in his pockets.
"Hi", Rory exhaled. "Come in", she continued, stepping backwards to let him inside. "Do you want something to drink?"
"No. Thanks" Rory was surprised by his awkward silence. He never was short of words. "Oh, thanks for the book, too." Jess said, louder, interrupting her thoughts.
"You got my book already? But I told Luke to give it to you right before you got on."
"Relax. I just found it in the apartment and I figured it wasn't his. After all, the book doesn't include spacecrafts and extra-terrestrials." Jess shrugged and he shoved his hands deeper in his pockets.
"Well, you're welcome. I thought you'd appreciate it."
"You thought well."
Jess stepped closer to Rory. They were now in the corridor leading to the kitchen. "So, hmmm." Rory whispered, not really wanting to break the comfortable silence.
Jess bit his bottom lip and leaned in to close the distance that separated them with a rough kiss. Surprised by his own boldness, he walked away into the kitchen. Rory quickly followed him and surrounded his waist with her arms and spun around his body to face him. Before he could react, she had stretched her neck and glued her mouth fiercely to his. Jess licked her lip and she opened her mouth. He slid his tongue between her lips and caressed her own with languorous movements. Feeling her inner thighs getting hotter, she pushed her pelvis onto his, pressing her body harder on his. Jess nearly lost his balance but he stabilized himself, leaning his back on the refrigerator. In an instant, Rory backed away and took off her fuchsia AstroBoy t-shirt. Jess closed his mouth and gazed down at her. His fingers brushed her naked shoulders.
"Rory." he started, guiltily.
She didn't want to talk or reason anything so she ignored his plea and unhooked her bra in one swift movement, letting it fall silently on the wooden floor. Rory looked directly at Jess and slowly, she grabbed him by the wrists and brought his shaky hands up to her white perky breasts. When the contact was made, Rory closed her eyes. Jess caressed softly her breasts with his palms at first, he then proceeded to rub her hard nipples between his thumb and index. Rory moaned. Again, she pressed her lower abdomen on his, now feeling his erection between her thighs. When she recalled that during a similar session with Dean, she had felt his erection on her belly button, she found it ridiculous and a short, light laugh escaped her mouth. Mistaking it for a pleasured groan, Jess lowered his mouth directly to one of her tits, which he kissed gingerly. Rory gasped at the sensation and grabbed Jess' hair tightly between her fingers. His tongue flicked her nipple in his hot mouth and he occasionally bit it, sending shivers down her spine. Rory, letting go of Jess' shiny brown locks started pulling up the hem of his dark shirt. He understood and, never breaking contact from her breasts, he unbuttoned his shirt, exposing his lean frame. Their bodies fitted so well together, Rory thought, it would've been nice to lose her virginity to him. But it wouldn't be the case. She wasn't a virgin anymore. After several failures her boyfriend Dean had finally been able to keep his erection long enough during penetration to break her hymen. It had been awkward, painful and unpleasant. Not like this. Rory kissed Jess passionately and she grabbed him by the wrists again. Walking backwards, she led him to her bedroom. When she hit the foot of her bed, she dropped Jess' hands and brought her hands to the waistband of her jeans. She undid the button.
"Rory. Are you sure you want to do this?" Jess asked, perplexed.
"I'm not a virgin, Jess" she stated.
'You're not?" he looked surprised.
"Well Dean and I have been together for two years. Does it really surprise you that we have sex?"
That simple sentence pinched Jess' heart, She spoke of her and Dean in the present tense. What did their games mean, today?
"Rory, why are you doing this?"
"Because. because I know I'll regret it if I don't try. It may be the only chance we have to explore with each other. It's the only explanation I have for you. I don't want us to read more into this. I'm still with Dean, Jess. But when we kissed last summer. There was something. And I want to know what it was."
"Fair enough." And Jess kissed her again. Their lips were wide open, their tongues exploring every inch of their mouth. Jess then chose not to resist any of his impulses and he reached down and pulled down the zipper of her jeans. Rory lied down on her bed, helping Jess to remove her pants and underwear. Jess stood there for a moment, taking in her intoxicating beauty. Her cheeks were flushed, her hair messy and she breather hard. Jess removed his own pants, keeping his boxers on, and laid himself on top of her, placing wet kisses on her neck and shoulders. Unable to stand the closeness of her naked body to his, he lowered his head on his stomach, kissing her belly button and then lowering his mouth further south again. Rory shuddered when he started to lick her wet folds. She had been wet for a while now, but they way he kissed her hot centre made her scream from pleasure. He expertly flicked her clit with his tongue, sliding it in and out of her. Arching her back, Rory climaxed, her hands firmly gripping her sheets. When she was able to breath normally, she pulled Jess up and pushed his back on her bed. She pulled down his boxers and shifted her body, straddling him. On top of him, she traced lazy circles on his tensed abdominal muscles. Jess bit his lower lip and Rory dove to kiss him one more. She couldn't get enough of his taste. Finally, she adjusted herself on his erection and rocked up and down, adjusting herself to his every move. The penetration was much better then it was when she was with Dean. They were in synch, breathing, panting, and moaning together. Also, their eyes were locked and he gave many attentions to every inch of her body, caressing her hair, face, arms and breasts. After experimenting their pace, slow, faster, harder and tenderly, they both came and Rory collapsed on top of Jess' humid body. He fast asleep and she stayed awake for a long hour, just staring at him, listening to his steady breath. When the clock announced 10 o'clock, she gently shook Jess awake and whispered in his ear he better leave before her mom came home. Putting their clothes on in silence, they stared at each other in the dark. Rory escorted Jess to the door.
"Bye Jess. Good luck."
"Yeah. Bye, Rory. Wait, wait. Hmmm, did you find out what it was?" Jess asked, not wanting to say good-bye.
"No Jess. I didn't." Rory closed her eyes and kissed him tenderly before closing the door. Inside, she leaned against it and started crying. She knew what it was. It was love. But she was too proud to admit it to him and most of all to herself.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
Rory closed the light in the kitchen and looked at Jess' form in the darkness. How was it possible that after 3 years apart, the feeling was till there. She let her shoulders fall and walked slowly to her bedroom where she undressed and crawled into bed, trying really hard to resist the urge to visit the man she loved, asleep in the next room.
A/N. Okay. This was really hard to write. Is it bad? My first try at smut. Please, please, please review. Don't worry the projection room sex will be coming if your reviews make me confident enough to write another sex scene. Next chapter: Envy, by Jess. Haha, just kidding, it seems like a perfume! It will be short too, probably.