Reactions
IV
Tamahome
By Ryuuen


Disclaimer: Ummm... yeah.. I don't own Fushigi Yuugi.. that's what you wanted to hear, right?

A/N: *rubs cheek* Yeesh, Tasuki-chan!! Anyway, this is Tama-chan's chapter. I know, I know, he shoulda come first, huh? Well, I happen to like Hotohori-sama better! *laughs* But I love my Tama-chan too... so, whatever. Here goes.



REACTIONS IV- TAMAHOME


It's hard to believe. That he's actually gone. I mean... Gods, Nuriko's always been with us, right from the beginning. Like an older sibling (I'm not saying male or female here, folks!), or a best friend, we would tease each other and joke around, and I would play mock-angry about the couch incident, and now I miss those carefree days.
Maybe I should have paid more attention to him. Maybe I should have hung around with him more often. I shouldn't have spent all my time with Miaka. He deserved more than his shadow-role gave him.
I mean, sure, I was the leader of the seishi, I made all the big decisions, but I was eternally influenced by others. Miaka's goodness, Chichiri's wisdom, Hotohori's ideas and authority, Chiriko's cleverness and intelligence, Mitsukake's aversion to killing and gentleness, Tasuki's bravery and hair-trigger temper, and Nuriko... Nuriko was the one behind the scenes, who directed everything and whom no one knew was directing everything. I was always influenced by his kindness, his generosity, his spirit, his willingness to do whatever it took, the way he would shake his head just slightly if he would an idea wouldn't work, or was too risky. He influenced me more than he will ever know. And now he's gone.
Too risky? Nuriko, you called some of my plans risky, and then you went and got yourself killed. How could you..? Why did you do it, Nuriko? You were so foolish, so ignorant.. you knew what was going to happen, didn't you?
And Gods, Nuriko. I miss you...


~*Owari*~


A/N: Yup, I added to this one too. Especially to the part where he describes how he was influenced by Nuriko. Also, in the original he never mentioned the "couch incident" (when Nuriko used Tama as a couch in ep. 3-4). Please review!! Next up... Chiriko!