Chapter 14
When I got into the car Amy stared at me! "What?" She raised her eyebrows. "What was that all about?!" I shrugged my shoulders, "I don't know to tell you the truth! He's hardly come near me since I came back then all of a sudden he chases me up the road to hug me! Go figure!" I sighed, "Something doesn't add up Amy, I dunno what it is but something ain't right here!" "You're filthy!" "Huh?" "Your shirt! It's covered in God knows what!" I looked down & she was right! "Oh right! Yeah! Ah well.....it'll wash!" "Are you ok Gem?" She gave me a puzzled look. "Me? Yeah fine! Why?" She shook her head, "Weird!!" "No no no! What's weird is you and old 'Matty boy' there screwing in a half-built house!!" I playfully slapped her arm! "As if we'd do something like that!" She said, grinning & I raised my eyebrows! "Besides, don't tell me you wouldn't have done Jeff in there in a second!" She laughed. I turned my head & looked out of the window, she quickly stopped laughing, "Oh hey! I'm sorry! I didn't mean it like that!" We pulled up in the driveway & I got out. "It's ok," I said, leaning into the car, "...you're probably right!" I slammed the door & went inside. ******* The next day Matt, Jeff & Amy came over to say goodbye before they left for New York. Jeff hugged Michael & told him he was going to miss him. "Can't I come with you Jeff pleeeease!?" Michael begged. "Not this time little guy!" Jeff smiled & ruffled his hair. "But I just wanna meet The Rock!" Jeff laughed. "How come everyone wants to meet The Rock huh? Why not erm.....Rikishi?!" Michael pulled a face & we all laughed! I was starting to realise that this little boy suddenly knew more about wrestling than I did! I guess the 'one or two' times he'd seen it at Jake's were more like ten or twenty!! "Ok some other time little buddy!" he tweaked his nose, "Now go say bye to uncle Matt & Amy while I talk to mommy!" Michael went runing toward the house then stopped & turned around as if studying us! I gave Jeff a sideways glance as a warning to expect the unexpected! "Mummy?" "Yes honey?" "Are you & Jeff going to kiss now?!" My jaw dropped! "MIKE!!" He giggled & ran inside leaving me & Jeff laughing in the yard! "Where did that come from?!" Jeff laughed. "Oh I could tell something was gonna come out! He gets that look! You'll soon pick up on it!!" We leaned on the car side by side. "Man this trip couldn't have come at a worse time!" "We'll still be here when you get back!" "Promise?" he looked into my eyes & took hold of my hand. "Yeah," I said softly, "I promise!" He leaned over & kissed my lips, letting it linger just long enough to make me catch my breath! "I.....er...I have to go home sometime though Jeff! Not just yet but...in a couple of weeks maybe." He squeezed my hand tightly. "But I don't want you to go Gemma! This is home! This is where you belong!" I shook my head, "No Jeff I don't belong here, not anymore & neither does Mike! He has school, friends......we won't be gone forever!" Jeff looked hurt, he bit on his lip & looked up at the sky. "Stay Gemma! Don't take him away from me again please! I've already missed so much!" Michael bounded out of the door followed by Matt & Amy. "Time to go!" Matt said as he opened the car door. I tugged my hand free of Jeff's & went around the car to hug Matt & Amy. "Don't break any bones!" I said smiling & they got into the car. Jeff was hugging Michael as I went back towards him. It broke my heart to think I woould be seperating them again, but no way could I bring myself to up sticks & move back to Cameron. It was something Jeff would just have to get used to! He stood up & Michael ran to the porch steps, waving. "So, see you in two days then?" "Yeah Jeff, take care!" I turned to follow Michael but Jeff caught my arm. "Think about what I said Gemma please?" "Jeff look...I'm not sta..." "Just think it over, that's all I ask ok?" I sighed & nodded my head, defeated. He pulled me towards him & put his arms around my waist. "I can't bare the thought of.......of losing you again Gemma!" "Don't say that!" "It's true! I don't want you to go!" He leaned towards me & our lips touched, I closed my eyes. "JEFF! Come on man we have to get going!" Matt shouted from the car. We looked at each other for a few seconds longer & then I turned away & went to join Michael on the steps to wave goodbye. ******* The next two days flew by. It was the nights that seemed to last forever! Michael kept me busy during the days, we played, went to the park, speant time with Dad & Kellie & generally had a good time! It was after he was tucked into bed at night & I was left with my thoughts that I found it hard to deal with. Jeff had left me confused! I couldn't figure him out, not the way I used to & it frightened me. I wasn't sure what it was he wanted from me & I was trying not to get my hopes up that he really did want me to stay & not just Michael. Still, even if it was I wasn't sure I could uproot my life again & drag Michael to live in cameron, not even for Jeff! He seemed to be all over me all of a sudden & it made me feel uneasy. Had it been a gradual thing maybe I could've handled it, accepted it, but he had gone from one extreme to another in only one day & I wasn't sure where it was heading. One thing I was sure of was that I still loved him with all of my heart but I wouldn't be doing anything about it until I was sure of his feelings towards me.........or would I?!
When I got into the car Amy stared at me! "What?" She raised her eyebrows. "What was that all about?!" I shrugged my shoulders, "I don't know to tell you the truth! He's hardly come near me since I came back then all of a sudden he chases me up the road to hug me! Go figure!" I sighed, "Something doesn't add up Amy, I dunno what it is but something ain't right here!" "You're filthy!" "Huh?" "Your shirt! It's covered in God knows what!" I looked down & she was right! "Oh right! Yeah! Ah well.....it'll wash!" "Are you ok Gem?" She gave me a puzzled look. "Me? Yeah fine! Why?" She shook her head, "Weird!!" "No no no! What's weird is you and old 'Matty boy' there screwing in a half-built house!!" I playfully slapped her arm! "As if we'd do something like that!" She said, grinning & I raised my eyebrows! "Besides, don't tell me you wouldn't have done Jeff in there in a second!" She laughed. I turned my head & looked out of the window, she quickly stopped laughing, "Oh hey! I'm sorry! I didn't mean it like that!" We pulled up in the driveway & I got out. "It's ok," I said, leaning into the car, "...you're probably right!" I slammed the door & went inside. ******* The next day Matt, Jeff & Amy came over to say goodbye before they left for New York. Jeff hugged Michael & told him he was going to miss him. "Can't I come with you Jeff pleeeease!?" Michael begged. "Not this time little guy!" Jeff smiled & ruffled his hair. "But I just wanna meet The Rock!" Jeff laughed. "How come everyone wants to meet The Rock huh? Why not erm.....Rikishi?!" Michael pulled a face & we all laughed! I was starting to realise that this little boy suddenly knew more about wrestling than I did! I guess the 'one or two' times he'd seen it at Jake's were more like ten or twenty!! "Ok some other time little buddy!" he tweaked his nose, "Now go say bye to uncle Matt & Amy while I talk to mommy!" Michael went runing toward the house then stopped & turned around as if studying us! I gave Jeff a sideways glance as a warning to expect the unexpected! "Mummy?" "Yes honey?" "Are you & Jeff going to kiss now?!" My jaw dropped! "MIKE!!" He giggled & ran inside leaving me & Jeff laughing in the yard! "Where did that come from?!" Jeff laughed. "Oh I could tell something was gonna come out! He gets that look! You'll soon pick up on it!!" We leaned on the car side by side. "Man this trip couldn't have come at a worse time!" "We'll still be here when you get back!" "Promise?" he looked into my eyes & took hold of my hand. "Yeah," I said softly, "I promise!" He leaned over & kissed my lips, letting it linger just long enough to make me catch my breath! "I.....er...I have to go home sometime though Jeff! Not just yet but...in a couple of weeks maybe." He squeezed my hand tightly. "But I don't want you to go Gemma! This is home! This is where you belong!" I shook my head, "No Jeff I don't belong here, not anymore & neither does Mike! He has school, friends......we won't be gone forever!" Jeff looked hurt, he bit on his lip & looked up at the sky. "Stay Gemma! Don't take him away from me again please! I've already missed so much!" Michael bounded out of the door followed by Matt & Amy. "Time to go!" Matt said as he opened the car door. I tugged my hand free of Jeff's & went around the car to hug Matt & Amy. "Don't break any bones!" I said smiling & they got into the car. Jeff was hugging Michael as I went back towards him. It broke my heart to think I woould be seperating them again, but no way could I bring myself to up sticks & move back to Cameron. It was something Jeff would just have to get used to! He stood up & Michael ran to the porch steps, waving. "So, see you in two days then?" "Yeah Jeff, take care!" I turned to follow Michael but Jeff caught my arm. "Think about what I said Gemma please?" "Jeff look...I'm not sta..." "Just think it over, that's all I ask ok?" I sighed & nodded my head, defeated. He pulled me towards him & put his arms around my waist. "I can't bare the thought of.......of losing you again Gemma!" "Don't say that!" "It's true! I don't want you to go!" He leaned towards me & our lips touched, I closed my eyes. "JEFF! Come on man we have to get going!" Matt shouted from the car. We looked at each other for a few seconds longer & then I turned away & went to join Michael on the steps to wave goodbye. ******* The next two days flew by. It was the nights that seemed to last forever! Michael kept me busy during the days, we played, went to the park, speant time with Dad & Kellie & generally had a good time! It was after he was tucked into bed at night & I was left with my thoughts that I found it hard to deal with. Jeff had left me confused! I couldn't figure him out, not the way I used to & it frightened me. I wasn't sure what it was he wanted from me & I was trying not to get my hopes up that he really did want me to stay & not just Michael. Still, even if it was I wasn't sure I could uproot my life again & drag Michael to live in cameron, not even for Jeff! He seemed to be all over me all of a sudden & it made me feel uneasy. Had it been a gradual thing maybe I could've handled it, accepted it, but he had gone from one extreme to another in only one day & I wasn't sure where it was heading. One thing I was sure of was that I still loved him with all of my heart but I wouldn't be doing anything about it until I was sure of his feelings towards me.........or would I?!