Chapter 17
Gilbert walked in as I was crying on Matt's shoulder & I quickly wiped my face. "Gemma.....the er...the spare room is all ready...if you want it?" I smiled & nodded. Gilbert somehow always knew the right thing to do even before anyone had told him what was going on! "Thankyou Gilbert! I'd like that!" He squeezed my shoulder as he walked past me & out of the back door. "How does he do that!?" I giggled. Matt laughed, "Oh you mean 'Old Yoda' there?!" I joined in the laughter. "Old Yoda?! That's a good one!!" We were still laughing when Jeff came back inside holding his arm. "What's wrong? What's happened to your arm?!" I asked getting up & going to him. He smiled. "Nothing, just kinda fell off a wall!" "Let me see!" "It's fine!" "Well if it's fine then I'll have nothing to look at then will I? Now take your top off!" Jeff winced as I helped him out of his shirt. "God you are such a whimp!" I laughed, "You jump off ladders for a living & you don't even know how to fall off a wall!!" I lifted his shirt over his head. "OW!" Jeff jumped. "It's grazed pretty bad.....might end your carreer a graze like that!" I giggled, "What were you doing on a wall anyway?!" "Mike saw a bug & he wanted me to catch it to scare Amy! I just slipped!" "A bug?!" "Yeah what about it?!" "You were beaten by a bug?! Oh if only the fans could see you now!!" "Hey that's near enough to the truth! When I landed in the dirt Mike gave me the three count!!" We both laughed. "Matt did you hear tha...." I turned around but Matt had gone! "Where did he go?!" Jeff shrugged. "Didn't notice him leave, OUCH!" "Don't be a baby! I have to get all the dirt out or it will get infected!" I said, dabbing a wet cloth onto his grazed arm. "There! That shouldn't need surgery now!" "Thankyou nurse!" Jeff said sarcastically looking at his arm. "Jeff?" He looked up at me, "Yeah?" "Your Dad got the spare room ready for me!" "Oh man!! It's ok I'll talk to him!" "No listen I thought maybe I would sleep in there tonight...if that's ok with you?" "Is that what you want?" I nodded & he stepped closer to me. "Even when I do this?" He kissed my neck & my whole body tingled. "Yes Jeff....please don't!" "But I want to!" he put his arms around my waist & we looked into each other's eyes. He smiled. "If you want to sleep in the spare room then that's ok!" He kissed my lips. "I just don't want to rush into anything! I don't want to screw it up again!" "It's ok! I know! Whatever you want is fine!" He leaned in & passionately kissed me, his tongue deep in my mouth & I felt weak! I rubbed my hands up & down the smooth bare flesh of his back & I could feel his hardness pressing against me through his jeans. We broke the kiss & I gasped for air. "But you didn't say anything about right now!" he whispered, kissing my neck & pressing his body against mine. "Jeff we can't! Everyone's just outside! It's too awkward!" I playfully pushed his chest, "Come on get real we can't not here, not now!" "Don't you want to?" "Yes I do, just not right now!" He groaned & moved my shirt down so he could kiss my bare shoulder. I closed my eyes, almost dizzy & breathless & wished it was another time & place. I heard shouts & laughter comming from outside & it snapped me out of my fantasy world! "Jeff they're comming inside!" I pushed him backwards & quickly straightened my clothes. "I'm gonna...erm.....go to the bathroom!" Jeff said & as he rushed out of the room the others came in the back door. Nobody saw anything! ******* After we'd had dinner Gilbert took Michael up to bed to read him a story! He was really enjoying being a grandad & it suited him too! Matt had driven Amy home & Jeff & I decided to go for a walk. It was a beautiful night, mild & quiet with the sky full of stars! We sat down on the grass beside a little stream that was just a few yards away from Matt & Amy's new house & Jeff put his jacket around my shoulders. "What's this...Thriller?!" I Giggled. "Oh yeah I meant to tell you something....I'm not like other guys!" Jeff smirked, putting on a silly high-pitched voice that was meant to immitate Michael Jackson!! I laughed, "That was nothing like Michael Jackson you ass!!" Jeff responded by howling at the moon & we both burst out laughing again! "I have a surprise comming for Mike tomorrow!" He grinned. "Oh?" "Yeah maybe even you too if you're a very good girl!!" "What is it?!" "Ah now that would be telling!" "JEFF!" "Nope! My lips are sealed! You'll just have to wait & see, it'll be here first thing in the morning!" "Spoil sport!" I said & stuck outmy tongue! "It's nice here, peaceful!" "Mm..I come here quite alot when I'm home!" "Yeah? Well not for much longer I'll bet!" "Why's that?!" "I can see Matt & Amy's bedroom window from here!" I pointed & he looked up, "You really don't wanna hear those noises while you are contemplating the meaning of life!!" I smiled. "God no! That's too sick!" "What's sick about it!?" I laughed. "Girl do you ever want the image of any of your brothers humping in your head?!" "EW! That's sick!" We laughed. "My point exactly!!" "God those two are so in love!" I smiled, "I think they are the only couple I know who have stayed together for this amout of time!" Jeff nodded. "Yup! They're pretty amazing!" he went quiet for a few seconds. "It could've been us Gemma!" He looked away. I was a little surprised he'd said that so out of the blue & I didn't quite know what to say! "I....I guess..." I stammered. "I know!" he said quietly, "If you'd stayed, that would have been our house being built right there!" I didn't like the way this was heading! "I think we should go home! It's getting late!" I stood up but he stayed there, sitting on the grass with his legs outstretched infront of him. "Is it I wonder?!" "Is it what?!" "Late Gemma.....is it too late?!" "I'm going back!" I walked away & heard him following me. He grabbed my arm & hurled me around to face him. The pain shot up into my shoulder! "You didn't answer my question!" he said through clenched teeth! My heart pounded! I Was terrified & he was squeezing my arm so hard that my hand was going numb! I was totally dumbstruck, unable to form any words although my mouth was open! I'd never seen Jeff lose his cool like this before! "You're......y...you're hurting me." I said quietly. He released his grip quickly, as if he'd suddenly come to his senses! "I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" he ran his hand through his hair, "I didn't mean to get so angry I don't know what came over me!" "I want to go home!" I Was shaking from head to toe & on the verge of tears. I turned to walk away & he softly put his hand on my shoulder. "Not just yet!" I froze, still al ittle scared of what was going to happen out here in the middle of nowhere! He walked infront of me so we were face to face in the moonlight. My heart thudded in my chest! Without warning he kissed me. I felt so confused & I wanted to pull away but I just couldn't! He seemed to have some sort of hold on me & somehow whatever he did I'd always give in - I couldn't help it! As we passionately kissed I felt him slide the jacket from around my shoulders & heard it crumple to the ground. He had both of his hands on the back of my head, running his fingers through my hair & carressing my neck. I was like a puppet with no control over my body while in my head a voice screamed at me to stop! My hands slid up under his top & I felt his toned chest with my fingertips, I just couldn't stop myself! A few minutes earlier I'd been afraid of him, but he was all I'd ever wanted for most of my life & I couldn't let this go! He gentally laid me down on the grass & began to undo my jeans, kissing my stomach lightly & making me shiver all over until I felt like I was unable to breathe without him. Before I knew what was happening he was inside of me & I gasped as he kissed me deeply. I could feel the grass, damp underneath me as we made love for over an hour. This is what I'd wanted for so long, what I had dreamed about for five years & yet afterwards as we stood up & got dressed & held each other something was still eating away inside of me & I just couldn't figure out what the hell it was! Before we headed home Jeff held my face in his hands just inches form his own. "We're gonna be ok Gemma! I promise!" I nodded but as he held me & stoked my hair, my face burried in his shoulder I wasn't so sure at all!
Gilbert walked in as I was crying on Matt's shoulder & I quickly wiped my face. "Gemma.....the er...the spare room is all ready...if you want it?" I smiled & nodded. Gilbert somehow always knew the right thing to do even before anyone had told him what was going on! "Thankyou Gilbert! I'd like that!" He squeezed my shoulder as he walked past me & out of the back door. "How does he do that!?" I giggled. Matt laughed, "Oh you mean 'Old Yoda' there?!" I joined in the laughter. "Old Yoda?! That's a good one!!" We were still laughing when Jeff came back inside holding his arm. "What's wrong? What's happened to your arm?!" I asked getting up & going to him. He smiled. "Nothing, just kinda fell off a wall!" "Let me see!" "It's fine!" "Well if it's fine then I'll have nothing to look at then will I? Now take your top off!" Jeff winced as I helped him out of his shirt. "God you are such a whimp!" I laughed, "You jump off ladders for a living & you don't even know how to fall off a wall!!" I lifted his shirt over his head. "OW!" Jeff jumped. "It's grazed pretty bad.....might end your carreer a graze like that!" I giggled, "What were you doing on a wall anyway?!" "Mike saw a bug & he wanted me to catch it to scare Amy! I just slipped!" "A bug?!" "Yeah what about it?!" "You were beaten by a bug?! Oh if only the fans could see you now!!" "Hey that's near enough to the truth! When I landed in the dirt Mike gave me the three count!!" We both laughed. "Matt did you hear tha...." I turned around but Matt had gone! "Where did he go?!" Jeff shrugged. "Didn't notice him leave, OUCH!" "Don't be a baby! I have to get all the dirt out or it will get infected!" I said, dabbing a wet cloth onto his grazed arm. "There! That shouldn't need surgery now!" "Thankyou nurse!" Jeff said sarcastically looking at his arm. "Jeff?" He looked up at me, "Yeah?" "Your Dad got the spare room ready for me!" "Oh man!! It's ok I'll talk to him!" "No listen I thought maybe I would sleep in there tonight...if that's ok with you?" "Is that what you want?" I nodded & he stepped closer to me. "Even when I do this?" He kissed my neck & my whole body tingled. "Yes Jeff....please don't!" "But I want to!" he put his arms around my waist & we looked into each other's eyes. He smiled. "If you want to sleep in the spare room then that's ok!" He kissed my lips. "I just don't want to rush into anything! I don't want to screw it up again!" "It's ok! I know! Whatever you want is fine!" He leaned in & passionately kissed me, his tongue deep in my mouth & I felt weak! I rubbed my hands up & down the smooth bare flesh of his back & I could feel his hardness pressing against me through his jeans. We broke the kiss & I gasped for air. "But you didn't say anything about right now!" he whispered, kissing my neck & pressing his body against mine. "Jeff we can't! Everyone's just outside! It's too awkward!" I playfully pushed his chest, "Come on get real we can't not here, not now!" "Don't you want to?" "Yes I do, just not right now!" He groaned & moved my shirt down so he could kiss my bare shoulder. I closed my eyes, almost dizzy & breathless & wished it was another time & place. I heard shouts & laughter comming from outside & it snapped me out of my fantasy world! "Jeff they're comming inside!" I pushed him backwards & quickly straightened my clothes. "I'm gonna...erm.....go to the bathroom!" Jeff said & as he rushed out of the room the others came in the back door. Nobody saw anything! ******* After we'd had dinner Gilbert took Michael up to bed to read him a story! He was really enjoying being a grandad & it suited him too! Matt had driven Amy home & Jeff & I decided to go for a walk. It was a beautiful night, mild & quiet with the sky full of stars! We sat down on the grass beside a little stream that was just a few yards away from Matt & Amy's new house & Jeff put his jacket around my shoulders. "What's this...Thriller?!" I Giggled. "Oh yeah I meant to tell you something....I'm not like other guys!" Jeff smirked, putting on a silly high-pitched voice that was meant to immitate Michael Jackson!! I laughed, "That was nothing like Michael Jackson you ass!!" Jeff responded by howling at the moon & we both burst out laughing again! "I have a surprise comming for Mike tomorrow!" He grinned. "Oh?" "Yeah maybe even you too if you're a very good girl!!" "What is it?!" "Ah now that would be telling!" "JEFF!" "Nope! My lips are sealed! You'll just have to wait & see, it'll be here first thing in the morning!" "Spoil sport!" I said & stuck outmy tongue! "It's nice here, peaceful!" "Mm..I come here quite alot when I'm home!" "Yeah? Well not for much longer I'll bet!" "Why's that?!" "I can see Matt & Amy's bedroom window from here!" I pointed & he looked up, "You really don't wanna hear those noises while you are contemplating the meaning of life!!" I smiled. "God no! That's too sick!" "What's sick about it!?" I laughed. "Girl do you ever want the image of any of your brothers humping in your head?!" "EW! That's sick!" We laughed. "My point exactly!!" "God those two are so in love!" I smiled, "I think they are the only couple I know who have stayed together for this amout of time!" Jeff nodded. "Yup! They're pretty amazing!" he went quiet for a few seconds. "It could've been us Gemma!" He looked away. I was a little surprised he'd said that so out of the blue & I didn't quite know what to say! "I....I guess..." I stammered. "I know!" he said quietly, "If you'd stayed, that would have been our house being built right there!" I didn't like the way this was heading! "I think we should go home! It's getting late!" I stood up but he stayed there, sitting on the grass with his legs outstretched infront of him. "Is it I wonder?!" "Is it what?!" "Late Gemma.....is it too late?!" "I'm going back!" I walked away & heard him following me. He grabbed my arm & hurled me around to face him. The pain shot up into my shoulder! "You didn't answer my question!" he said through clenched teeth! My heart pounded! I Was terrified & he was squeezing my arm so hard that my hand was going numb! I was totally dumbstruck, unable to form any words although my mouth was open! I'd never seen Jeff lose his cool like this before! "You're......y...you're hurting me." I said quietly. He released his grip quickly, as if he'd suddenly come to his senses! "I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" he ran his hand through his hair, "I didn't mean to get so angry I don't know what came over me!" "I want to go home!" I Was shaking from head to toe & on the verge of tears. I turned to walk away & he softly put his hand on my shoulder. "Not just yet!" I froze, still al ittle scared of what was going to happen out here in the middle of nowhere! He walked infront of me so we were face to face in the moonlight. My heart thudded in my chest! Without warning he kissed me. I felt so confused & I wanted to pull away but I just couldn't! He seemed to have some sort of hold on me & somehow whatever he did I'd always give in - I couldn't help it! As we passionately kissed I felt him slide the jacket from around my shoulders & heard it crumple to the ground. He had both of his hands on the back of my head, running his fingers through my hair & carressing my neck. I was like a puppet with no control over my body while in my head a voice screamed at me to stop! My hands slid up under his top & I felt his toned chest with my fingertips, I just couldn't stop myself! A few minutes earlier I'd been afraid of him, but he was all I'd ever wanted for most of my life & I couldn't let this go! He gentally laid me down on the grass & began to undo my jeans, kissing my stomach lightly & making me shiver all over until I felt like I was unable to breathe without him. Before I knew what was happening he was inside of me & I gasped as he kissed me deeply. I could feel the grass, damp underneath me as we made love for over an hour. This is what I'd wanted for so long, what I had dreamed about for five years & yet afterwards as we stood up & got dressed & held each other something was still eating away inside of me & I just couldn't figure out what the hell it was! Before we headed home Jeff held my face in his hands just inches form his own. "We're gonna be ok Gemma! I promise!" I nodded but as he held me & stoked my hair, my face burried in his shoulder I wasn't so sure at all!