Chapter 32
Jeff & I speant the day together & it was great! I showed him the sights & we had lunch in a little cafe by the harbour! He got recognised a couple of times & each time he signed autographs & had his picture taken patiently while some little girl or boy almost peed their pants because they were meeting Jeff Hardy!! Eventually it was time to collect Mike from school & it seemed to me like a lot more parents than usual turned up at the school gates that night! I guess news travels fast! Michael was so tired he fell asleep not long after dinner so Jeff & I were left alone again. He flopped on the couch beside me. "Man I'm beat!" he said closing his eyes, "Thankyou for today.....I had the best time!"
"Me too! It's good to see you again!"
He put his hand on top of mine, "Yeah you too!" He smiled. "I'll make coffee!" I said & went to stand up but Jeff pulled me back.
"Gemma I..." he paused & sighed, "........I came here for a reason you were right."
I gulped as he squeezed my hand. "Oh?"
"Well of course I wanted to see Michael more than anything, but..." he looked into my eyes, "....I wanted to see you too!" I just looked at him, not knowing what to say! "I missed you!"
"I missed you too Jeff......"
"Listen I have to tell you, that night in Ohio...I didn't sleep with that girl!"
"Oh Jeff it doesn't matter, not now...."
"No but I need to tell you,I never had sex with her.........I just said that to...." he sighed, ".......to hurt you and.."
"It doesn't matter!" I interrupted!
"But it matters to me Gemma! I should never have done what I did to you! I don't know what got into me & I'm sorry! I needed to tell you I'm sorry!"
"You had every right to be mad at me, you don't need to appologise!"
"I need to know now.........do you forgive me? I mean truely forgive me for the way I treated you?!"
I smiled, "I forgave you a long time ago!"
He smiled & nodded, "Thankyou!" he kissed my cheek & I made to go into the kitchen but again he held me back. "I need to ask you one more question!"
"Go on..."
"I...well......what you said before you left.....in your Dad's yard....." he took a deep breath, "...I need to know...." he looked down at his hand that was still holding tightly to mine & without looking up again he said, "....do you still feel that way about me?"
I didn't need to be asked twice! "Yes Jeff, I still feel that way about you!"
He looked up into my eyes, "Then....I've come to get you Gemma!" It sounded strange but I knew what he meant! In the yard I'd told him to come & get me when he felt that way about me..........and now here he was! I was shaking!!
"Do you mean it Jeff? I mean do you truely mean it? I need you to tell me because if this is some sort of..."
"Yes I mean it Gemma! I love you!" He leaned over & kissed my lips & I felt weak. He kissed me the way he had done when we broke the fence that day! It took my breath away & made my whole body tremble & I knew then that this was real even though it felt like a dream!
We broke the kiss & he smiled at me & stroked my cheek. "I do love you Gem, so much!"
I blinked away my tears, "I love you too!" I whispered. He pulled me close & held me against his chest, stroking my hair & I could hear his heart beating. "What's say we forget the coffee & I go out & get us a bottle of wine?"
"There's a bottle in the kitchen!" I stood up & went to get it & he followed me in & put his arms around my waist from behind. I sighed at the feel of his lips brushing my neck.
"Let me open the wine!" I giggled!
"Ok ok !" He laughed. "Where do I find the glasses?!" We had a nice cosey night curled up on the couch together watching a movie, even though my mind was racing & I truely wasn't paying attention to anything going on on the screen! When it finished he kissed me passionately. "Jeff....." I said, gasping for breath.
"I know! It's ok! We'll take it slow!"
We kissed again for a long time, then eventually dragged ourselves into our seperate bedrooms where I lay awake for a long time thinking about what just happened! I guess I was in shock......it felt like I wasn't really there & none of it was real! A couple of hours later as I was just dosing off to sleep my bedroom door opened. "You awake?"
"Yeah what's wrong? Is it Mike?!" I said sitting up. "No no nothing like that that....well apart from I can't sleep...." he walked over to the side of my bed, "...and I lied...I can't take it slowly Gemma! We've wasted too much time already!" He climbed into the bed beside me & I made no attempts to stop him! We made love & it felt so right, more right than it had ever done before!
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Next morning when I first opened my eyes I wasn't sure if it h ad been real or some sort of cruel dream. I turned over in bed & there was Jeff beside me & I smiled! It had been real! I was in my perfect world........and then my stomach turned over. How could this be happening to me? Things like this always turned to crap whenever I was involved & doubts started to creep into my mind about Jeff's true feelings for me! What if he was just doing this to get Michael back to Cameron? What if this was his ultimate revenge.....suck me into this fantasy & then blow it all to hell when I least expected it? I looked at his face as he slept & wished I could look into his mind aswell! I knew I either had to go with it & pray it was for real, or stop it now incase my doubts were right! I didn't know what I was going to do!
Jeff rolled over in his sleep & put his arm around me. After all this time & everything we'd been through, he still gave me goosebumps when he touched me! I'd never in my life felt so strongly about anyone....surely that must mean something? It must be a good thing?
The phone beside my bed rang & I jumped! Jeff opened his eyes & I grabbed the reciever. "Hello?"
"GEM! It's Matt!"
"Oh Hi Ma......"
"Is Jeff with you?"
"What?"
"I know it sounds like a dumb question but humour me here will ya?"
"Yes he's here! What's the problem?"
"Oh Jesus!" Matt sounded relived! "Sorry to scare you Gemma but he's gone A.W.O.L. from work and I..."
"EXCUSE ME?!" I looked at Jeff & he must have realised what we were talking about & he put his hand to his forehead!
"Yeah Vince is going ape shit here! He has to come back like NOW!"
"Here, speak to him about it!"
Jeff shook his head but I paid no attention & handed him the telephone. He then had a short but somewhat heated conversation with Matt before leaning over me & putting the phone down. "Well?" I asked. He lay back in bed & rubbed his face. "Yeah....so I er....didn't exactly have the week off after all!"
"Oh Jeff!"
"Gem you don't understand! I needed to be here...I needed to be with you!" I just sighed. "I was going crazy without you & Mike...."
"You put your carreer on the line to come & see me & Mike?" He nodded. "But Jeff you could see us anytime you know that!"
"Look Gemma, screw Vince! Screw the WWE it's not important! What's important to me now is you & Michael! You're my family & if I have to come out here to live & leave everything else behind to make you happy then I will! Just say the word! Nothing elses matters Gem!" He sat up & held my hands, "I love you!"
All I could think at that moment was 'Jesus he really means it'!!!
Jeff & I speant the day together & it was great! I showed him the sights & we had lunch in a little cafe by the harbour! He got recognised a couple of times & each time he signed autographs & had his picture taken patiently while some little girl or boy almost peed their pants because they were meeting Jeff Hardy!! Eventually it was time to collect Mike from school & it seemed to me like a lot more parents than usual turned up at the school gates that night! I guess news travels fast! Michael was so tired he fell asleep not long after dinner so Jeff & I were left alone again. He flopped on the couch beside me. "Man I'm beat!" he said closing his eyes, "Thankyou for today.....I had the best time!"
"Me too! It's good to see you again!"
He put his hand on top of mine, "Yeah you too!" He smiled. "I'll make coffee!" I said & went to stand up but Jeff pulled me back.
"Gemma I..." he paused & sighed, "........I came here for a reason you were right."
I gulped as he squeezed my hand. "Oh?"
"Well of course I wanted to see Michael more than anything, but..." he looked into my eyes, "....I wanted to see you too!" I just looked at him, not knowing what to say! "I missed you!"
"I missed you too Jeff......"
"Listen I have to tell you, that night in Ohio...I didn't sleep with that girl!"
"Oh Jeff it doesn't matter, not now...."
"No but I need to tell you,I never had sex with her.........I just said that to...." he sighed, ".......to hurt you and.."
"It doesn't matter!" I interrupted!
"But it matters to me Gemma! I should never have done what I did to you! I don't know what got into me & I'm sorry! I needed to tell you I'm sorry!"
"You had every right to be mad at me, you don't need to appologise!"
"I need to know now.........do you forgive me? I mean truely forgive me for the way I treated you?!"
I smiled, "I forgave you a long time ago!"
He smiled & nodded, "Thankyou!" he kissed my cheek & I made to go into the kitchen but again he held me back. "I need to ask you one more question!"
"Go on..."
"I...well......what you said before you left.....in your Dad's yard....." he took a deep breath, "...I need to know...." he looked down at his hand that was still holding tightly to mine & without looking up again he said, "....do you still feel that way about me?"
I didn't need to be asked twice! "Yes Jeff, I still feel that way about you!"
He looked up into my eyes, "Then....I've come to get you Gemma!" It sounded strange but I knew what he meant! In the yard I'd told him to come & get me when he felt that way about me..........and now here he was! I was shaking!!
"Do you mean it Jeff? I mean do you truely mean it? I need you to tell me because if this is some sort of..."
"Yes I mean it Gemma! I love you!" He leaned over & kissed my lips & I felt weak. He kissed me the way he had done when we broke the fence that day! It took my breath away & made my whole body tremble & I knew then that this was real even though it felt like a dream!
We broke the kiss & he smiled at me & stroked my cheek. "I do love you Gem, so much!"
I blinked away my tears, "I love you too!" I whispered. He pulled me close & held me against his chest, stroking my hair & I could hear his heart beating. "What's say we forget the coffee & I go out & get us a bottle of wine?"
"There's a bottle in the kitchen!" I stood up & went to get it & he followed me in & put his arms around my waist from behind. I sighed at the feel of his lips brushing my neck.
"Let me open the wine!" I giggled!
"Ok ok !" He laughed. "Where do I find the glasses?!" We had a nice cosey night curled up on the couch together watching a movie, even though my mind was racing & I truely wasn't paying attention to anything going on on the screen! When it finished he kissed me passionately. "Jeff....." I said, gasping for breath.
"I know! It's ok! We'll take it slow!"
We kissed again for a long time, then eventually dragged ourselves into our seperate bedrooms where I lay awake for a long time thinking about what just happened! I guess I was in shock......it felt like I wasn't really there & none of it was real! A couple of hours later as I was just dosing off to sleep my bedroom door opened. "You awake?"
"Yeah what's wrong? Is it Mike?!" I said sitting up. "No no nothing like that that....well apart from I can't sleep...." he walked over to the side of my bed, "...and I lied...I can't take it slowly Gemma! We've wasted too much time already!" He climbed into the bed beside me & I made no attempts to stop him! We made love & it felt so right, more right than it had ever done before!
*******
Next morning when I first opened my eyes I wasn't sure if it h ad been real or some sort of cruel dream. I turned over in bed & there was Jeff beside me & I smiled! It had been real! I was in my perfect world........and then my stomach turned over. How could this be happening to me? Things like this always turned to crap whenever I was involved & doubts started to creep into my mind about Jeff's true feelings for me! What if he was just doing this to get Michael back to Cameron? What if this was his ultimate revenge.....suck me into this fantasy & then blow it all to hell when I least expected it? I looked at his face as he slept & wished I could look into his mind aswell! I knew I either had to go with it & pray it was for real, or stop it now incase my doubts were right! I didn't know what I was going to do!
Jeff rolled over in his sleep & put his arm around me. After all this time & everything we'd been through, he still gave me goosebumps when he touched me! I'd never in my life felt so strongly about anyone....surely that must mean something? It must be a good thing?
The phone beside my bed rang & I jumped! Jeff opened his eyes & I grabbed the reciever. "Hello?"
"GEM! It's Matt!"
"Oh Hi Ma......"
"Is Jeff with you?"
"What?"
"I know it sounds like a dumb question but humour me here will ya?"
"Yes he's here! What's the problem?"
"Oh Jesus!" Matt sounded relived! "Sorry to scare you Gemma but he's gone A.W.O.L. from work and I..."
"EXCUSE ME?!" I looked at Jeff & he must have realised what we were talking about & he put his hand to his forehead!
"Yeah Vince is going ape shit here! He has to come back like NOW!"
"Here, speak to him about it!"
Jeff shook his head but I paid no attention & handed him the telephone. He then had a short but somewhat heated conversation with Matt before leaning over me & putting the phone down. "Well?" I asked. He lay back in bed & rubbed his face. "Yeah....so I er....didn't exactly have the week off after all!"
"Oh Jeff!"
"Gem you don't understand! I needed to be here...I needed to be with you!" I just sighed. "I was going crazy without you & Mike...."
"You put your carreer on the line to come & see me & Mike?" He nodded. "But Jeff you could see us anytime you know that!"
"Look Gemma, screw Vince! Screw the WWE it's not important! What's important to me now is you & Michael! You're my family & if I have to come out here to live & leave everything else behind to make you happy then I will! Just say the word! Nothing elses matters Gem!" He sat up & held my hands, "I love you!"
All I could think at that moment was 'Jesus he really means it'!!!