Carter sat at the table with his head down and a cup of coffee in front of him. Susan walked in and saw him all alone and sat down.

"Carter, you okay?"

No answer.

"Carter?!"

"What?" He moaned.

"Are you alright?"

He slowly lifted his head . He looked like he hadn't slept in days, or even eaten.

"No..she won't even look at me."

"Who?"

"Abby."

"Oh...why?"

"I was and idiot. I kissed her."

"What was the matter with that? Shs didn't like it?"

"I don't know. but she backed away and totally freaked out. I think I scared her more then anything. I don't know why. what the hell is wrong with me?"

" nothing, maybe she just doesn't feel the way you feel about her. Was it a spur of the moment thing?"

"What?"

"The kiss. did you only do it because you had the chance? Or you really have feelings for her."

"I need her. I do." He paused." Shes my everything, Susan. When she smiles, I'm happy, when she cries, I'm sad....she completes me.."

"Then tell her that. maybe it'll change her mind. I gotta get back to work. I'll see you later. Feel better."

* * * * ** * * * ** * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Susan was leaving the ER when she notcied Abby on a bench, sobbing.

"Abby?"

Abby quickly wiped away her tears." Oh , hey Susan."

"Are you okay?"

"I don't know." she cried.

" Want to talk about it?"

"It's about Carter..."

Susan thought about what Carter had said to her earlier and then put two and two together and realized what this was all about.

"What?"

"Saturday night...he took me back to his house to help him with decorations... and ..he kissed me. Just like that.on his roof."

"You didn't like it?"

"See, that's the thing." She paused." I did, It's just that... after that first kiss... you lose everything you've ever had with that person, and it's not the same anymore. I really like him...he's my everything. when he's happy. He makes me happy. It's like telepethy. It's weird. He makes me who I am, but I couldn't bear it if it didn't work out and I lost him as a friend, the only thing I've ever known him as.

"I see-" She began to say and Abby cut her off.

" I think I ruined everything. I got to fix it. Thank you Susan."

"Anytime."