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SUMMARY: RL/SB SLASH. A note from Remus to Sirius. It takes place just after he finds out that Sirius was innocent. In other words, right after the third book.

A/N: Recently (tonight, actually) I hopped aboard the Sirius/Remus boat, and just barely I got the worst craving (can you have a craving to read?) to read about them, but since it's midnight and I don't have a computer in my room, I suppose this word processor and my writing skills will have to do. Anyway, I'll stop my ramblings and get on with the story.

Sirius,

            It's so strange that I used to be so comfortable with you, sharing my darkest secrets, my deepest desires, yet now, I can sit here for five minutes, wondering how to address the letter that I probably won't even give to you. It's almost like I don't know who you are… but then again, maybe I don't. I think… I know all those years we've been separated has changed you and me forever… times, but each time I try, I can't get all the feelings in my head to come out onto the paper. I don't think there are words that can describe what I've been through these past twelve years, but I have to get them out of my head somehow, even if I don't give this to you. For our sake.

            You cannot imagine the sorrow, the heartbreak, the agony that I felt when I thought that you had killed Lily, James, and Peter. It was terrible that Lily, James, and Peter were dead, but it was the fact that I thought you had actually done it that ripped my heart from my chest. I don't even know how I got through that first year without you to help me through my sorrow. You were always good at that. I was like some zombie, and no one really knew what was wrong. No one but me, because we kept our relationship a secret. Not even James knew. I don't even know why we didn't tell anyone else. Neither of us was embarrassed or ashamed of it. If I could go back in time, that would be one of the many, many things I would change. I really did love you. Or do… I'm not sure, I haven't talked to you for so long. The truth is I miss you, I missed you when you were in Azkaban, but I knew you were out of reach. But now that you're possibly in reach, I miss you even more, for how could you still love me? I remember the first time you told me you loved me. My best memory. I won't tell you again, because hopefully you remember. Hopefully you remember me, and all we've been through.

Well, I've gotten away on my pointless ramblings. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I still love you, Sirius Black. I always have, and always will. Even if you don't return my feelings, I want you to know that.

Remus

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Well, how do you like it? Should I have a note from Sirius to Remus? REVIEW and tell me! And I know this is short, but it's just a letter! If I do continue, then I'll try and make it longer, k? But it all depends on how many reviews I get.