Ch. 2 This Is Jess
A/N: I just want to thank everyone for taking time out to read and review by humble lil' story. Thanks for the insight everyone.
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Jess smokes a cigarette like he inhales air.... like he lives life..... like every moment is the last. He sits and thinks to himself that maybe Stars Hollow isn't so bad and as happiness in nowhere starts to become more and more tangible...footsteps of russled leaves disrupt his thoughts...
Liz: Y'know this is where I used to go to escape the world... well maybe not the world ... because the world isn't so bad... it's just this town...
Jess turns and sees someone....he barely recognizes the olive skin, the unkempt black hair, the tainted eyes... but as those words came out of her mouth.. .he realizes who it is..
Jess looks at her, then turns his head, as to seem unaffected by her sudden reappearence....
It does'nt work
Liz sits down next to him, takes a pull off his cigarette then throws it in the lake...
Liz: God, I've missed this place.. this was the only place in town where-
Jess: I'm sorry, but am I suppose to care?!?!? Do you really think I give a damn about your John Mellencamp days?!!
The words came out like a bullet, cold and hollow, meant to do harm ..but the look in his eyes softened the blow and Liz dismissed it as nothing...
Liz: I never really liked John Mellencamp, all my friends did ,though, I was more of a Lennard Skynard kinda gal...
Jess: What the hell is this!?!? You come back to Stars Hollow to reminisce on your past ....well good for you.... just stay the hell away from me..
This time it stung, no longer was there emotion on his face...no longer was there uncertainty in his eyes.....therefore no longer could Liz pretend like nothing was wrong
Jess gets up and starts walking away..
Liz: Jess, wait.... I came back because-
Jess: You came back because why, huh!??! Because all of the sudden you felt like caring!?!? Because you met this guy and he changed you and now you're ready to be a mom again?!? I get it, maybe you had an epiphany, you were eating soup and all of the sudden the peas were telling you the meaning of life?!?! Which is it, huh?!? Which out of the million other reasons, why, you would always come back!??
This is Jess, when he's angry it consumes you, it's like downing 15 pills with a bottle of vodka, you don't realize your dead until you've actually hit the floor, and after that it's hell....
When Liz saw Jess on the bridge, she thought he was gone, it wasn't him on the bridge, this boy had emotion, he had confusion, he had angst, he had hope ... Jess never had hope.... Jess never had anything...
But Jess is back now.. and Liz is scared, she knows there will be no forgiveness..
Liz is desperate, she loves her son.... she's a horrible person... but she loves her son..
Liz: Jess please listen-
Jess turns and looks straight into her eyes
Jess: Get this straight... I couldn't care less about you right now...go back to New York...
Liz hopes for compassion, but knows better than that...so she looks for emotion .. any emotion .... She sees the emptiness in his eyes and it breaks her... She stands there as he walks away....
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A/N: Wow, I didn't
know it was gonna be this dramatic lol...Ii dunno.." His mother has always
been everything and nothing to him at the same time.. he's finally been able
to forget about his issues (or at least hide them really well) with her and
move on , and now she's back!?!?"-that's me trying justify this scene....
lol... I really wanted to put some more humor into this scene but eh! i dunno
I wasn't in a very happy mood today ...So I hope you guys liked the Chapter!?!!?
If u didn't, tell me!! So I know not to make another scene like this?!?
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