Hi everybody ! Again thank you so much for the reviews ! I love you all !
Thank you ! So... on with the story, right ? This lyric is from TATU (you
know, the lesbian girls), but I like them very much. This is a Russian
song, as they are Russian, but I put the translated version here. Check
them out, you really should ! They're cool. Uhh... what else... Oh yeah...
DISCLAIMER (I think I forgot in the 4th chapter...) : I do NOT own Digimon.
ENJOY !!! -x-x-x- Mari-sama~
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Drowning - - - - - - - - - - by Mari-sama~
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30 minutes - t.A.T.u.
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cry and run away
or lock the door
keep silence and lie
studying the ceiling...
dream not like everybody
kiss the heaven
ceiling is a carousel
half an hour, half an hour...
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
half an our and trains crash
half an hour is not your lane
half an hour not a question
not an answer half an hour
half an hour without you half an hour
half an hour he and I half an hour
each of us each of us half an hour
goes to his own address half an hour
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felt down and like everyone
like in a dream
I'm not me
it's not my carousel
and not my dream...
smoke or unhappiness
or rain on my eyes
I'll come back, I'll come back
half an hour half an hour ...
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half an our and trains crash
half an hour is not your lane
half an hour not a question
not an answer half an hour
half an hour without you half an hour
half an hour he and i half an hour
each of us each of us half an hour
goes to his own address
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half an hour ...
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Tai sighed and paused a few seconds.
"It is about him..."
The rest didn't speak. They all stared. To Tai, to the ground...
Sora sighed too and asked :
"What's wrong ?"
She still thought Matt was on drugs. And that she couldn't believe.
"I don't know if we should help him but I think we better do. I don't know either if I should tell you this but it sounded very importinant to me and if you'd go thr-"
"Tai. Just tell us."
"Alright..." he paused, not knowing how to tell his friends.
"He... I saw... something."
The others frowned.
"Something I wasn't supposed to see, I guess."
"What did you see, Tai ?" Joe asked, wondering.
"You're not gonna believe me but-"
"Tai ? Is he on drugs ?" Sora suddenly asked, not able to wait any longer.
"No, Sora. No drugs."
Sora sighed in relief. Mimi did too, after all, Sora had told her about this and she was worried too.
Now nobody thought of something as bad as drugs anymore, so what the hell could it be ? Not SUCH a big problem.
They were all wrong. It was a major problem.
"Matt cuts himself." Tai suddenly spat out.
Sora thought she stopped breathing for a moment. The rest froze.
"W-wha ?" Mimi brought out, still not able to believe it.
"That would mean Matt is a... cutter ?" Izzy asked, a little unsure.
"Yes. Exactely. That means he is a cutter. That he cuts himself and also that he is a total idiot. And stupid. Stupid !"
"Tai ! Calm down..." Joe said, trying to get the conversation under controle.
"Are you sure ?" he asked when Tai had stopped yelling.
"Yes, practically sure."
"How'd you know ?"
"I saw him in the bathroom."
"What ?! THAT's what he did in there ?!" Mimi exclaimed.
"Oh God ! I should've known ! I-"
"Mimi, it's not your fault ! It's nobody's fault but his !" Tai shouted, then continued :
"I saw him cut himself in the bathroom. I can prove it. Here. Look at this." Tai said, taking something out of his backpack.
He pulled out a bloody handkerchief.
"Oh my God..."
"This isn't Matt's blood is it ?"
"Sora, it is." Tai said.
"How can we help him ?"
"I don't know, Izzy... I don't know anymore..."
"Hey..." Izzy put a hand on Tai's shoulder.
"He'll get better. He'll be fine."
"This isn't right. This just isn't right. All my life, I've seen Matt as the cool guy, everything under controle. Cold as ice. No problems, nothing to worry about. Well, he DID have problems, but always hid them from everyone around him. He was totally controlled and never showed his emotions. In fact, some days I even thought he didn't have any. And now I see I'm all wrong..."
Tai sighed when he was finished.
"I know, I know... Someone's gotta tell him."
"I think you should, Tai. He trusts you more than us."
"Me ?"
"Yeah, you really have to tell him." Sora said.
"How else can we help him if he doesn't even know that we know ?" She continued.
"Ok. I'll tell him."
"Go over to his place this evening."
"Ok, why not ? You're all right. But who will tell TK ?"
"I...-I don't know but... maybe we better not tell him."
"And what about Kari ?" Mimi suddenly remarked.
"Why isn't she here ?"
"She- That's personal. Sorry, I can't tell you guys now." Tai stuttered.
"But-"
"Look, Sora. I uhh... I gotta go. I'm sorry..."
Tai walked away, and the rest wondered about Kari not being there.
- - - Oh God... Why did I tell them in the first place ? - - - Tai thought.
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Matt sat on his bed. He looked at his window. All grey outside. The horizon formed a black line. He didn't even wanna think about anything. Why did this happen ?
- - - Why ? - - -
That was the only thing that went through his mind. All day long, he'd been thinking of something else, but now it was gone.
- - - I wanna disappear. - - -
He still didn't wanna think. He touched the glass with his fingers. It felt cold.
It was 3 weeks now. 3 weeks ago he had cut himself for the first time.
He doubt he'd ever stop doing it, something that he wanted so bad.
The blood. To see the blood and to touch it made him feel a bit better, even though he still hurt.
Matt was in such a deep pain. Nobody could help him, nobody knew, and nobody could.
- - - I should die. I should die. - - -
Matt ruffled in his backpack and took out a knife. His pocket-knife. Something that had been the most hated and most loved item in these 3 weeks now.
- - - Don't worry. It'll be over soon. It'll be over soon. - - -
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Tai was walking over to Matt's apartment. While he did so, he kept on thinking about what he'd seen. In the bathroom in school. It was horrible.
* * * FLASHBACK * * *
Tai heard Matt coming in and quickly hid himself behind the door. He saw Matt taking out several things out of his backpack but couldn't see what it exactely was. But when he saw that Matt started to cry and that he pushed the blade of a knife in his own skin, Tai nearly freaked out. Right on time, he had been able to stop himself before starting to yell. When Matt left the bathroom, Tai didn't move. He wandered to the lavabo, where the last bits of Matt's red blood were flushed away...
* * * END OF FLASHBACK * * *
Tai walked further and with every step he took, he felt more and more guilty for not stopping Matt when he had the chance to. Guilty for not seeing it before. When Matt had taken off his blazer and pulled the sleeves of his shirt, Tai had seen all the marks, and according to him, it wasn't just one little scar...
- - - Gee Matt... - - -
- - - This isn't good. - - -
Tai turned around a corner.
- - - I need to get there real fast. What if he... ? - - -
- - - NO ! - - -
Tai started running. Why didn't he think of this before ? He quickly ran through the bad weather of Odaiba. Not because he didn't want to get wet. But because there was a chance that there was something really bad happening to his best friend at this moment.
He arrived at the apartment block. The brunette quickly went to the elevator and pushed the '7th FLOOR' button.
It couldn't go fast enough for him.
- - - Faster ! - - -
He was there. Finally.
- - - Shit. Don't want to be here. - - -
- - - Don't want to be here. - - -
Yet he was, and it was for the best. For Matt's sake.
Tai slowly walked to Matt's apartment door. It was closed.
- - - A closed door ? Good or bad sign ? - - -
He knocked.
- - - Open the door, Matt. Please. - - -
- - - Please be here, Matt. - - -
- - - Be here. - - -
- - - Please hear me. - - -
"Matt ! It's me ! Tai !"
No response.
Tai called Matt again. Only much louder this time.
"MATT ! OPEN THE DOOR ! MATT !!!"
"Hey you there. Maybe he's not at home." An unfamiliair voice suddenly spoke from behind Tai.
"Hi there." It said again when Tai turned around.
Tai saw an old lady standing in the corridor, waiting for Tai to say something.
"H-hello. Do you know where he is at the moment ?"
"No, boy. I have no idea. Why ?"
"I need to talk to him."
"Maybe you should wait here for him."
"I need to see him now. Look, this is very urgent."
"Maybe he is at home after all..."
"What do you mean ?"
"He's been acting very strange lately, so maybe he just won't open the door."
"How do you know Matt ?"
"Let's say... for me, he's just a strange boy next-door, you know ?"
"Yeah... Why'd he be strange ?"
"I don't know, but I hear them always fighting."
"Matt and his dad ?"
"Yes."
"They fight a lot ?"
"Yes, all the time !"
"Do you go to his apartment from time to time ?"
"Yeah, sometimes. It's really messy in there so sometimes I offer to help, you know ?"
"Yeah, I see. Did you notice anything weird ?"
"No, not really. Perhaps..."
"What ?"
"Matt doesn't look so good. He's still very pretty, but he looks so pale and sick, and he is skinnier than ever."
"Yeah I know..."
"I know the Ishidas since Matt was born so I can tell you : he's changed."
"They live here for so long ?"
"Yeah, when Matt was born, they bought this place. His parents were still together then. God, am I happy that they got a divorce !"
"Why'd that be good ?"
"The noise was unbearable !"
"Oh, I see... So... Do you have a spare key or anything to open the door ?"
"Yes, I always had one."
"Could you pl-"
The lady smiled.
"I'll be right back."
Tai was nervous. For some reason, he felt like something was wrong.
"Here you go." The old lady said as she handed over a key to Tai.
He quickly unlocked the door and went in...
The apartment was dark. There was no light.
"Hello ! Matt ! It's me !" Tai shouted. His voice echoed back. It was a big apartment.
He went to the kitchen, afraid to find... something.
Nobody there.
"Hello ? Matt ?" he said, very quiet, more to himself than to Matt.
- - - I don't think he's at home. - - -
"I don't think he's here." Tai said to the lady. She was still following him.
"Maybe he's upstairs ?"
"I'll go see, could you please put some light on ? I don't wanna fall from the stairs."
Tai waited for the sound of the lightswitch. CLICK.
He went to the stairs where he carefully took one step after another, observing the apartment.
"Matt ?" he asked again.
- - - ... - - -
- - - It's too quiet. - - -
He continued. Tai's heart was racing and it wouldn't stop before he surely knew his friend was or wasn't here.
- - - Please don't be here, Matt. Be with TK, safe in your mother's house. Or outside, in the mall ? Anywhere but here. - - -
The wood cracked under Tai's feet. That, he never even noticed until today.
"It's me... Tai..." Tai whispered, afraid to disturb the creepy silence.
He walked over to the bathroom where he first put the lightswitch on and then looked around.
- - - No one's here. - - - he thought to himself.
- - - Why is it so damn quiet ?! - - -
- - - Oh no ! His bedroom !!! - - -
Tai thought he wasn't breathing for a moment.
Even though there was no time to lose now, Tai was moveless.
Then he began to move again, towards Matt's bedroom door. Tai got very nervous because of the silence.
- - - Come on... - - - Tai thought.
He didn't wanna know what was gonna happen now. He wished that he could stop the time at this moment and skip all this.
- - - Come on... - - - He repeated to himself.
He wandered to the door, and knocked.
"Matt ? It's me..." Tai whispered, on the verge of tears.
"Open the door, please..."
Tai didn't wanna believe it.
He bit his lip as he took the doorknob and turned it till he heard it click open. Then he slowly pushed the door open with his foot. This seemed like ages to him, even if it only took about a second to go inside the room. For all his life, he'd gone to Matt's house so much and now it seemed like he didn't recognize anything anymore.
He looked up. His eyes observed the area. From the floor to the wall they went. Tai looked around him and saw Matt on his bed, turned with his back to Tai.
"No. This is not true." Tai whispered to himself.
He walked over to the bed and ran his hand through Matt's blonde hair. Tai felt Matt's face with his hand. It was warm. He could perfectely imagine how he looked. Tai turned Matt around. His eyes were very wide and stared at nothing.
"This is not true, right ? Tell me I'm dreaming. You're..."
Tai stopped as Matt's arm fell off the bed.
Blood. The red liquid flew over Matt's skinny hand, to the floor.
Tai stood up, saying :
"Wait here, Matt. I'll be right back," and ran downstairs.
The lady was still in the living room.
"And ?"
"Would you please do me a favour and call 911 ?" Tai said, no emotion in his voice, but tears streaming down his cheeks.
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TK sat on Kari's bed. They were talking about stuff. Even though they were supposed to do their homework together.
"So you tried to flush Tai's goggles down the toilet ?"
"Yeah ! I mean, come on ! He was annoying me ! And besides, I was only 6 years old."
TK laughed, so did Kari.
"But he pulled them out, of course. Right on time, like always."
"Yeah, that's how we know him, eh ?"
Kari giggled in response.
TK sighed.
"You want anything more to eat ?" Kari asked him, standing up from the floor, where all their stuff was spread out.
"Yeah sure."
"Ok, wait here. I'll be right back !" Kari shouted, running down the stairs.
Suddenly, when TK was about to stand up too, his cell phone rang.
It still rang.
- - - Who'd this be ? - - -
He took his cell phone out off his pocket and read 'HOME' on the screen.
"Hello ?"
"TK, it's me."
TK sensed fear in his mother's voice.
"Mom ? What's wrong ?"
"You have to come home, immediately !"
"What ?"
His mother's voice was... empty.
"What's wrong, mom ?"
"I'll come over there to pick you up, ok ?"
"What happened ?!"
"I'll tell you when I get there !"
CLICK. TK's mom had hooked up the phone.
"Mom !" TK shouted down his phone, not that it made any difference...
"What's wrong ?" he suddenly heard Kari saying.
"My mom just called and..."
"Did something happened ?" Kari asked TK, noticing the emptyness in his voice too.
"I don't know... I think so. She was so..."
"Is she gonna pick you up ?"
"Yeah."
With that, TK stood up, and Kari put down the bowl she had in her hands.
They both went downstairs.
"Do you have to go home already, TK ?" Mrs. Kamiya asked, not knowing TK's mom had just called.
"Yeah, my mom's gonna pick me up."
"But you came by bike !"
"I know. She just called me. Something happened but she didn't wanna say what through the phone."
"Ohh..." Kari and Tai's mom said, not knowing what to answer.
After a minute or 2, someone rang the doorbell. TK's heart froze for a moment and then started racing.
"Hi, Nancy." He heard Mrs. Kamiya saying from the hall.
Then some things followed, but TK couldn't understand what they were saying.
"He's here." He heard from Mrs. Kamiya then.
TK quickly stood up and looked up to his mother. Her face was... different. She looked as if she could break down in tears every second.
"TK, something happened to Matt."
TK swallowed.
He felt Kari's hand on his shoulder as his mother was gonna continue.
"What happened to him ?" TK said, with a hoarse voice, filled with fear.
He was shaking all over.
"Matt... He uhh... He's in the hospital, sweetie."
TK's eyes grew wide and filled with tears. He tried not to cry, but so much thoughts ran through his head.
- - - He's not dead, is he ? - - -
"Did he...make it ?"
Nancy swallowed.
"He did, TK. He did. But it was close-" Nancy started to cry, her voice was shaking.
She walked over to TK and TK to her. They hugged each other. Tears came down from TK and Nancy's eyes. Nancy sobbed. Kari had loosen TK now, and went to her own mom, who stood still. Her mom put her arm around Kari. The brunette girl looked up to her mother, as if she asked 'is he gonna be fine ?' and her mom nodded, but not very sure.
"What happened, mom ?"
"Matt tried to...
- - - kill himself... - - -
"kill himself..."
"But why, mom ? Why ?! WHY ?" TK yelled, crying.
"I don't know, TK, I don't know..."
"I'll drive you to the hospital. You can leave your car here, Nancy." They suddenly heard from Tai and Kari's mother.
"Thank you." Nancy sobbed.
"Tai found him. You don't know how- gratefull I- am..."
Now Kari's mother put her hand before her mouth and gasped a little.
"Oh God..."
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Nancy and Mrs. Kamiya came at the hospital, together with Kari and TK.
The further they went, the more Kari started to realize what happened. Tears flew from her cheeks, too.
"It's room number 288." Nancy said after she came back from the reception.
She hadn't gone in yet either, so she was as afraid as TK and Kari.
They took the elevator and not to everybody's surprise, the 2nd floor was the ICU. Kari felt she was gonna burst out in tears. Her body was shaking. And her eyes stung a little.
- - - Not this... This can't be happening... Not now... - - - She told herself.
It stopped, and they walked out. TK looked around and all he could see through the windows, were people about to die.
Yet, he didn't cry. He felt nothing. He didn't even think. The only thing he did was breathing.
Then they came at Matt's room.
| 288 |
They read on the plate on the white door.
They opened the door.
"TK, you wait here with Kari and her mother, ok ?"
TK didn't wanna wait at all, but did so.
Nancy disappeared behind the door. She didn't even look back.
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So... what did you think ? It's a kind of a cliffhanger ending again (totally not...), but that's the only way to make sure you'll keep reading ! Update coming soon, BUT I'm going somewhere with our class, so I won't be here for 4 days, so umm... You guys are gonna have to wait. SORRY !!! Anyway... I hope you enjoyed ! Please review and tell me what you think about this chapter. It's a 'turn' in the story, eh ? So uhh... Review ? ... Thanks !!! Much Love And *kiss*es -x-x-x- Mari-sama~
DISCLAIMER (I think I forgot in the 4th chapter...) : I do NOT own Digimon.
ENJOY !!! -x-x-x- Mari-sama~
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Drowning - - - - - - - - - - by Mari-sama~
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30 minutes - t.A.T.u.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
cry and run away
or lock the door
keep silence and lie
studying the ceiling...
dream not like everybody
kiss the heaven
ceiling is a carousel
half an hour, half an hour...
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
half an our and trains crash
half an hour is not your lane
half an hour not a question
not an answer half an hour
half an hour without you half an hour
half an hour he and I half an hour
each of us each of us half an hour
goes to his own address half an hour
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
felt down and like everyone
like in a dream
I'm not me
it's not my carousel
and not my dream...
smoke or unhappiness
or rain on my eyes
I'll come back, I'll come back
half an hour half an hour ...
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
half an our and trains crash
half an hour is not your lane
half an hour not a question
not an answer half an hour
half an hour without you half an hour
half an hour he and i half an hour
each of us each of us half an hour
goes to his own address
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half an hour ...
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Tai sighed and paused a few seconds.
"It is about him..."
The rest didn't speak. They all stared. To Tai, to the ground...
Sora sighed too and asked :
"What's wrong ?"
She still thought Matt was on drugs. And that she couldn't believe.
"I don't know if we should help him but I think we better do. I don't know either if I should tell you this but it sounded very importinant to me and if you'd go thr-"
"Tai. Just tell us."
"Alright..." he paused, not knowing how to tell his friends.
"He... I saw... something."
The others frowned.
"Something I wasn't supposed to see, I guess."
"What did you see, Tai ?" Joe asked, wondering.
"You're not gonna believe me but-"
"Tai ? Is he on drugs ?" Sora suddenly asked, not able to wait any longer.
"No, Sora. No drugs."
Sora sighed in relief. Mimi did too, after all, Sora had told her about this and she was worried too.
Now nobody thought of something as bad as drugs anymore, so what the hell could it be ? Not SUCH a big problem.
They were all wrong. It was a major problem.
"Matt cuts himself." Tai suddenly spat out.
Sora thought she stopped breathing for a moment. The rest froze.
"W-wha ?" Mimi brought out, still not able to believe it.
"That would mean Matt is a... cutter ?" Izzy asked, a little unsure.
"Yes. Exactely. That means he is a cutter. That he cuts himself and also that he is a total idiot. And stupid. Stupid !"
"Tai ! Calm down..." Joe said, trying to get the conversation under controle.
"Are you sure ?" he asked when Tai had stopped yelling.
"Yes, practically sure."
"How'd you know ?"
"I saw him in the bathroom."
"What ?! THAT's what he did in there ?!" Mimi exclaimed.
"Oh God ! I should've known ! I-"
"Mimi, it's not your fault ! It's nobody's fault but his !" Tai shouted, then continued :
"I saw him cut himself in the bathroom. I can prove it. Here. Look at this." Tai said, taking something out of his backpack.
He pulled out a bloody handkerchief.
"Oh my God..."
"This isn't Matt's blood is it ?"
"Sora, it is." Tai said.
"How can we help him ?"
"I don't know, Izzy... I don't know anymore..."
"Hey..." Izzy put a hand on Tai's shoulder.
"He'll get better. He'll be fine."
"This isn't right. This just isn't right. All my life, I've seen Matt as the cool guy, everything under controle. Cold as ice. No problems, nothing to worry about. Well, he DID have problems, but always hid them from everyone around him. He was totally controlled and never showed his emotions. In fact, some days I even thought he didn't have any. And now I see I'm all wrong..."
Tai sighed when he was finished.
"I know, I know... Someone's gotta tell him."
"I think you should, Tai. He trusts you more than us."
"Me ?"
"Yeah, you really have to tell him." Sora said.
"How else can we help him if he doesn't even know that we know ?" She continued.
"Ok. I'll tell him."
"Go over to his place this evening."
"Ok, why not ? You're all right. But who will tell TK ?"
"I...-I don't know but... maybe we better not tell him."
"And what about Kari ?" Mimi suddenly remarked.
"Why isn't she here ?"
"She- That's personal. Sorry, I can't tell you guys now." Tai stuttered.
"But-"
"Look, Sora. I uhh... I gotta go. I'm sorry..."
Tai walked away, and the rest wondered about Kari not being there.
- - - Oh God... Why did I tell them in the first place ? - - - Tai thought.
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Matt sat on his bed. He looked at his window. All grey outside. The horizon formed a black line. He didn't even wanna think about anything. Why did this happen ?
- - - Why ? - - -
That was the only thing that went through his mind. All day long, he'd been thinking of something else, but now it was gone.
- - - I wanna disappear. - - -
He still didn't wanna think. He touched the glass with his fingers. It felt cold.
It was 3 weeks now. 3 weeks ago he had cut himself for the first time.
He doubt he'd ever stop doing it, something that he wanted so bad.
The blood. To see the blood and to touch it made him feel a bit better, even though he still hurt.
Matt was in such a deep pain. Nobody could help him, nobody knew, and nobody could.
- - - I should die. I should die. - - -
Matt ruffled in his backpack and took out a knife. His pocket-knife. Something that had been the most hated and most loved item in these 3 weeks now.
- - - Don't worry. It'll be over soon. It'll be over soon. - - -
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Tai was walking over to Matt's apartment. While he did so, he kept on thinking about what he'd seen. In the bathroom in school. It was horrible.
* * * FLASHBACK * * *
Tai heard Matt coming in and quickly hid himself behind the door. He saw Matt taking out several things out of his backpack but couldn't see what it exactely was. But when he saw that Matt started to cry and that he pushed the blade of a knife in his own skin, Tai nearly freaked out. Right on time, he had been able to stop himself before starting to yell. When Matt left the bathroom, Tai didn't move. He wandered to the lavabo, where the last bits of Matt's red blood were flushed away...
* * * END OF FLASHBACK * * *
Tai walked further and with every step he took, he felt more and more guilty for not stopping Matt when he had the chance to. Guilty for not seeing it before. When Matt had taken off his blazer and pulled the sleeves of his shirt, Tai had seen all the marks, and according to him, it wasn't just one little scar...
- - - Gee Matt... - - -
- - - This isn't good. - - -
Tai turned around a corner.
- - - I need to get there real fast. What if he... ? - - -
- - - NO ! - - -
Tai started running. Why didn't he think of this before ? He quickly ran through the bad weather of Odaiba. Not because he didn't want to get wet. But because there was a chance that there was something really bad happening to his best friend at this moment.
He arrived at the apartment block. The brunette quickly went to the elevator and pushed the '7th FLOOR' button.
It couldn't go fast enough for him.
- - - Faster ! - - -
He was there. Finally.
- - - Shit. Don't want to be here. - - -
- - - Don't want to be here. - - -
Yet he was, and it was for the best. For Matt's sake.
Tai slowly walked to Matt's apartment door. It was closed.
- - - A closed door ? Good or bad sign ? - - -
He knocked.
- - - Open the door, Matt. Please. - - -
- - - Please be here, Matt. - - -
- - - Be here. - - -
- - - Please hear me. - - -
"Matt ! It's me ! Tai !"
No response.
Tai called Matt again. Only much louder this time.
"MATT ! OPEN THE DOOR ! MATT !!!"
"Hey you there. Maybe he's not at home." An unfamiliair voice suddenly spoke from behind Tai.
"Hi there." It said again when Tai turned around.
Tai saw an old lady standing in the corridor, waiting for Tai to say something.
"H-hello. Do you know where he is at the moment ?"
"No, boy. I have no idea. Why ?"
"I need to talk to him."
"Maybe you should wait here for him."
"I need to see him now. Look, this is very urgent."
"Maybe he is at home after all..."
"What do you mean ?"
"He's been acting very strange lately, so maybe he just won't open the door."
"How do you know Matt ?"
"Let's say... for me, he's just a strange boy next-door, you know ?"
"Yeah... Why'd he be strange ?"
"I don't know, but I hear them always fighting."
"Matt and his dad ?"
"Yes."
"They fight a lot ?"
"Yes, all the time !"
"Do you go to his apartment from time to time ?"
"Yeah, sometimes. It's really messy in there so sometimes I offer to help, you know ?"
"Yeah, I see. Did you notice anything weird ?"
"No, not really. Perhaps..."
"What ?"
"Matt doesn't look so good. He's still very pretty, but he looks so pale and sick, and he is skinnier than ever."
"Yeah I know..."
"I know the Ishidas since Matt was born so I can tell you : he's changed."
"They live here for so long ?"
"Yeah, when Matt was born, they bought this place. His parents were still together then. God, am I happy that they got a divorce !"
"Why'd that be good ?"
"The noise was unbearable !"
"Oh, I see... So... Do you have a spare key or anything to open the door ?"
"Yes, I always had one."
"Could you pl-"
The lady smiled.
"I'll be right back."
Tai was nervous. For some reason, he felt like something was wrong.
"Here you go." The old lady said as she handed over a key to Tai.
He quickly unlocked the door and went in...
The apartment was dark. There was no light.
"Hello ! Matt ! It's me !" Tai shouted. His voice echoed back. It was a big apartment.
He went to the kitchen, afraid to find... something.
Nobody there.
"Hello ? Matt ?" he said, very quiet, more to himself than to Matt.
- - - I don't think he's at home. - - -
"I don't think he's here." Tai said to the lady. She was still following him.
"Maybe he's upstairs ?"
"I'll go see, could you please put some light on ? I don't wanna fall from the stairs."
Tai waited for the sound of the lightswitch. CLICK.
He went to the stairs where he carefully took one step after another, observing the apartment.
"Matt ?" he asked again.
- - - ... - - -
- - - It's too quiet. - - -
He continued. Tai's heart was racing and it wouldn't stop before he surely knew his friend was or wasn't here.
- - - Please don't be here, Matt. Be with TK, safe in your mother's house. Or outside, in the mall ? Anywhere but here. - - -
The wood cracked under Tai's feet. That, he never even noticed until today.
"It's me... Tai..." Tai whispered, afraid to disturb the creepy silence.
He walked over to the bathroom where he first put the lightswitch on and then looked around.
- - - No one's here. - - - he thought to himself.
- - - Why is it so damn quiet ?! - - -
- - - Oh no ! His bedroom !!! - - -
Tai thought he wasn't breathing for a moment.
Even though there was no time to lose now, Tai was moveless.
Then he began to move again, towards Matt's bedroom door. Tai got very nervous because of the silence.
- - - Come on... - - - Tai thought.
He didn't wanna know what was gonna happen now. He wished that he could stop the time at this moment and skip all this.
- - - Come on... - - - He repeated to himself.
He wandered to the door, and knocked.
"Matt ? It's me..." Tai whispered, on the verge of tears.
"Open the door, please..."
Tai didn't wanna believe it.
He bit his lip as he took the doorknob and turned it till he heard it click open. Then he slowly pushed the door open with his foot. This seemed like ages to him, even if it only took about a second to go inside the room. For all his life, he'd gone to Matt's house so much and now it seemed like he didn't recognize anything anymore.
He looked up. His eyes observed the area. From the floor to the wall they went. Tai looked around him and saw Matt on his bed, turned with his back to Tai.
"No. This is not true." Tai whispered to himself.
He walked over to the bed and ran his hand through Matt's blonde hair. Tai felt Matt's face with his hand. It was warm. He could perfectely imagine how he looked. Tai turned Matt around. His eyes were very wide and stared at nothing.
"This is not true, right ? Tell me I'm dreaming. You're..."
Tai stopped as Matt's arm fell off the bed.
Blood. The red liquid flew over Matt's skinny hand, to the floor.
Tai stood up, saying :
"Wait here, Matt. I'll be right back," and ran downstairs.
The lady was still in the living room.
"And ?"
"Would you please do me a favour and call 911 ?" Tai said, no emotion in his voice, but tears streaming down his cheeks.
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TK sat on Kari's bed. They were talking about stuff. Even though they were supposed to do their homework together.
"So you tried to flush Tai's goggles down the toilet ?"
"Yeah ! I mean, come on ! He was annoying me ! And besides, I was only 6 years old."
TK laughed, so did Kari.
"But he pulled them out, of course. Right on time, like always."
"Yeah, that's how we know him, eh ?"
Kari giggled in response.
TK sighed.
"You want anything more to eat ?" Kari asked him, standing up from the floor, where all their stuff was spread out.
"Yeah sure."
"Ok, wait here. I'll be right back !" Kari shouted, running down the stairs.
Suddenly, when TK was about to stand up too, his cell phone rang.
It still rang.
- - - Who'd this be ? - - -
He took his cell phone out off his pocket and read 'HOME' on the screen.
"Hello ?"
"TK, it's me."
TK sensed fear in his mother's voice.
"Mom ? What's wrong ?"
"You have to come home, immediately !"
"What ?"
His mother's voice was... empty.
"What's wrong, mom ?"
"I'll come over there to pick you up, ok ?"
"What happened ?!"
"I'll tell you when I get there !"
CLICK. TK's mom had hooked up the phone.
"Mom !" TK shouted down his phone, not that it made any difference...
"What's wrong ?" he suddenly heard Kari saying.
"My mom just called and..."
"Did something happened ?" Kari asked TK, noticing the emptyness in his voice too.
"I don't know... I think so. She was so..."
"Is she gonna pick you up ?"
"Yeah."
With that, TK stood up, and Kari put down the bowl she had in her hands.
They both went downstairs.
"Do you have to go home already, TK ?" Mrs. Kamiya asked, not knowing TK's mom had just called.
"Yeah, my mom's gonna pick me up."
"But you came by bike !"
"I know. She just called me. Something happened but she didn't wanna say what through the phone."
"Ohh..." Kari and Tai's mom said, not knowing what to answer.
After a minute or 2, someone rang the doorbell. TK's heart froze for a moment and then started racing.
"Hi, Nancy." He heard Mrs. Kamiya saying from the hall.
Then some things followed, but TK couldn't understand what they were saying.
"He's here." He heard from Mrs. Kamiya then.
TK quickly stood up and looked up to his mother. Her face was... different. She looked as if she could break down in tears every second.
"TK, something happened to Matt."
TK swallowed.
He felt Kari's hand on his shoulder as his mother was gonna continue.
"What happened to him ?" TK said, with a hoarse voice, filled with fear.
He was shaking all over.
"Matt... He uhh... He's in the hospital, sweetie."
TK's eyes grew wide and filled with tears. He tried not to cry, but so much thoughts ran through his head.
- - - He's not dead, is he ? - - -
"Did he...make it ?"
Nancy swallowed.
"He did, TK. He did. But it was close-" Nancy started to cry, her voice was shaking.
She walked over to TK and TK to her. They hugged each other. Tears came down from TK and Nancy's eyes. Nancy sobbed. Kari had loosen TK now, and went to her own mom, who stood still. Her mom put her arm around Kari. The brunette girl looked up to her mother, as if she asked 'is he gonna be fine ?' and her mom nodded, but not very sure.
"What happened, mom ?"
"Matt tried to...
- - - kill himself... - - -
"kill himself..."
"But why, mom ? Why ?! WHY ?" TK yelled, crying.
"I don't know, TK, I don't know..."
"I'll drive you to the hospital. You can leave your car here, Nancy." They suddenly heard from Tai and Kari's mother.
"Thank you." Nancy sobbed.
"Tai found him. You don't know how- gratefull I- am..."
Now Kari's mother put her hand before her mouth and gasped a little.
"Oh God..."
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Nancy and Mrs. Kamiya came at the hospital, together with Kari and TK.
The further they went, the more Kari started to realize what happened. Tears flew from her cheeks, too.
"It's room number 288." Nancy said after she came back from the reception.
She hadn't gone in yet either, so she was as afraid as TK and Kari.
They took the elevator and not to everybody's surprise, the 2nd floor was the ICU. Kari felt she was gonna burst out in tears. Her body was shaking. And her eyes stung a little.
- - - Not this... This can't be happening... Not now... - - - She told herself.
It stopped, and they walked out. TK looked around and all he could see through the windows, were people about to die.
Yet, he didn't cry. He felt nothing. He didn't even think. The only thing he did was breathing.
Then they came at Matt's room.
| 288 |
They read on the plate on the white door.
They opened the door.
"TK, you wait here with Kari and her mother, ok ?"
TK didn't wanna wait at all, but did so.
Nancy disappeared behind the door. She didn't even look back.
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So... what did you think ? It's a kind of a cliffhanger ending again (totally not...), but that's the only way to make sure you'll keep reading ! Update coming soon, BUT I'm going somewhere with our class, so I won't be here for 4 days, so umm... You guys are gonna have to wait. SORRY !!! Anyway... I hope you enjoyed ! Please review and tell me what you think about this chapter. It's a 'turn' in the story, eh ? So uhh... Review ? ... Thanks !!! Much Love And *kiss*es -x-x-x- Mari-sama~