Chapter 13: Declarations Of Love
Summary: Both James and Sebastian come to realizations about there feelings for Kathryn while Annette gets a shock.
"Where's Kathryn?" Annette asked as she charged into the dinning room.
James looked up at her from his coffee "she went to visit some friends with her mother, why?"
She held up a note "Sebastian left for the city. He didn't even tell me he just left me this note."
Getting up James took the note from her hand and read it. It simply said:
Annette,
I decided to head back to the city early. There's some things I have to sort out alone. I'm sorry
- Sebastian
He shook his head "well what does this have to do with Kathryn?"
Annette took the note back "I'm getting the feeling this has something to do with her. Sebastian was acting really strange last night at her party. First he sent me on this wild goose chase after some gift and then I couldn't find him for an hour. There's something going on that he's not telling me about."
As soon as Annette told James about Sebastian's disappearance at the party his heart sank. She was too upset for him to tell her that Kathryn too had been missing for a little while. James was pretty sure they were together and that something was indeed going on between them. However this was no time to divulge that information to Annette when she was already so panicked about Sebastian's whereabouts. James felt a small comfort in knowing that Kathryn did indeed go with her mother that morning because he had seen them leave together.
"Annette listen to me I think this is all in your head. I doubt what ever is going on with Sebastian has anything to do with Kathryn. I mean they barely spoke to each other the whole party."
She sighed "I guess your right."
In his head James added they were however staring at each other the whole time. "Yeah and you know if your really worried, why don't you just head back into the city or call him."
"I tried calling him and there's no answer. I would go back to the city but I promised my dad I would spend the day with him."
"Well do it afterwards" he suggested. James really did want Sebastian and Annette to get together so that Kathryn would be free to be with him although it was seeming more and more unlikely by the day. Also he wanted Annette gone before Kathryn arrived in order to avoid a confrontation.
Annette smiled "yeah maybe I will." She gave James a hug "thanks for making me feel better. I'll talk to you later."
As he watched Annette leave James sighed in relief that he was able to avoid that crisis but then he thought about Kathryn. This pussy footing around the truth crap had to stop. The two of them had to talk and soon before things got even more out of hand.
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When Kathryn finally arrived home later that afternoon she immediately headed up to her room. She wanted to take a nice relaxing bath to forget about the absolute dreadful day she had just had. Her annoying mother had insisted on dragging her along to her old friends Dinah's beach house. Kathryn was forced to listen to them gossip and bitch the whole time with the occasional criticism from her mother tossed in. She was elated when it was finally over.
The problem that was plaguing her was the confrontation she has with Sebastian the night before. Not the sex part that had been fantastic. No, it was what came afterwards that was troubling her. She knew she had been too harsh with him but she didn't know what else to do. Part of her very much wanted to be with him but it wasn't like they could just start dating. Her mother would never let her hear the end of it if she found out.
Kathryn walked into her bedroom and was surprised to find James sitting on her bed. "How was your day?" He asked as she put her things down.
"Shitty and yours?"
The smile on his face disappeared "Annette was looking for you."
"Lucky me" she grumbled "what did she want?"
"Sebastian went back to New York without giving her a reason. She thinks you might of had something to do with it."
Kathryn was caught off guard by the accusing tone in his voice. "Well of course I'm to blame. I'm to blame whenever something goes wrong in that relationship. So why is Barbie pinning it on me this time?"
"Annette suspects something is going on between you and Sebastian. So the question is, is there something going on?"
For a moment she honestly considered telling him the truth which was strange since her first instinct was usually to lie. Kathryn honestly liked James and maybe if Sebastian never was in the picture she could be faithful to him but that just wasn't the case. "Look James I don't know why she thinks that but there is nothing going on. Sebastian and I have never-"
"Will you stop lying to me for once?"
His interruption startled her to say the least. "James I'm not lying. God since when do you take her word over mine?"
James shook his head "Annette really wants to believe that her and Sebastian have this happy future together but I think you and I know the truth. I know something is going on between the two of you and I've know it for some time. I don't know if it's just sex or if it's something more and I'm not really sure if I want to know..."
Kathryn sighed "look James even if something was once going on it's over now so can we just forget about it and move on?"
"I can't do that" he told her quietly.
"Why not?"
He didn't say any thing for a moment before replying "because I'm in love with you."
Kathryn shut her eyes as she turned around. For some reason she knew this was coming and she had for some time. It was just easier to believe that James couldn't and wouldn't fall in love with her. "James your not in love with me."
He grabbed her and spun her around so she had to face him. "Look at me, yes I am. I've loved you since the first moment I saw you."
"That's not love it's lust."
James sighed "I know the difference Kathryn. I am in love with you and I need to know if you can love me to."
Kathryn pulled out of him grasp "this isn't fair James and you know it. This wasn't part of the deal. You were going to help me break up Annette and Sebastian. We weren't suppose to get involved."
"Well things don't always work out how you plan Kat. So what's it going to be?"
Kathryn's head was spinning from all of this. Finally she sighed "James I adore you, you know that-"
"But?"
"But I don't believe in love and I never had. You don't really love me you barely know me."
He glared at her "that's bullshit and you know it. I know you pretty damn well and not even you can deny that. The thing is I'm not Sebastian."
"This has nothing to do with him!"
"It has everything to do with him Kathryn!" He yelled back but then in a softer voice said "your wrong...you are in love with someone. You love him and you always have. I noticed it the first time I saw you two together. It's there like it always has been. He loves you as much as you love him but your to stubborn to see it. I think I've always known that I could never have you like he does but I didn't want to believe it. I just thought I could make you get over him but you never did. I realize that now and Annette will eventually when she's ready to. Whatever happens someone is going to end up hurt I just hope you figure things out soon so something good will come out of this. Good bye Kathryn."
Kathryn sat in silence while James exited the room. Deep down she knew he was right but she didn't think she could deal with that right now. She needed to scream and yell at someone for all of this. Grabbing her purse Kathryn went back out to the driver and told him "I need to get back to the city, quickly."
"Oh course madam" he said opening the door for her. The whole way there Kathryn sat in the back thinking about what she was going to say to Sebastian. She thought she would start with how this was all his fault. Why couldn't he just let things be? Everything was ruined all the plans she had were now destroyed and she was at a loss for the first time.
When the limo finally pulled up to the Valmont townhouse Kathryn jumped out not waiting for the chauffeur to open the door and stormed into the house towards Sebastian's room. As she suspected he was indeed home sitting at his desk writing in that damn journal. He looked up when she walked in obviously surprised "Kathryn what are you doing here?"
"What the fuck do you think I'm doing? Do you have any idea what you've done?"
He sighed and got up "no but you'll probably tell me."
"Your dip shit girlfriend put the idea in James head that something is going on between you and me."
"Well I hate to break it to you but there is something going on."
As she approached him she didn't know if she wanted to strangle him or jump him. "There is nothing going on!"
He smirked down at her "what the hell do you call what happened last night?"
"A mistake" she said coolly.
Sebastian winced in pain "funny you didn't seem to think so when you were begging me to make you cum."
Kathryn ignored the comment "I want you to tell him there is nothing going on and that you don't love me."
He seemed to study her a moment before saying calmly "I can't."
"Why not?"
"I am in love with you."
This was the second time Kathryn had heard that declaration that day. Even from a very young age Kathryn had thought love was bullshit. A feeling that really didn't exist, it was just another excuse for people to act like idiots and fuck. She always thought Sebastian shared the same theory but then all that crap with Annette happened to prove her wrong.
Never in a million years did she think Sebastian would say those words to her. Part of her always believed that Sebastian never could love her after all the shit she had done to him but here he was pouring his heart out to her and once again she was at a lose. "You love me?" Kathryn repeated back.
"Yes" Sebastian said in all sincerity.
As she studied his face she could feel her head start to spin. She didn't know what to say so she started to laugh. Not a cruel laugh but an uneasy, nervous laugh. Sebastian's face wrinkled in confusion as she walked over to the desk and leaned on it for support. "This is funny to you? I pour my heart out and you laugh?"
She turned around when she caught her breath "I don't think it's funny it's just...you love me?"
"Yes" he said in frustration as he approached her "I don't understand why your acting like it's such a shock. I tried to tell you before but you wouldn't listen."
"Where does your girlfriend factor into all of this huh? Remember her the girl who you supposedly love? The girl you changed yourself for?"
Sebastian sighed as he reached a hand out to her and gently caressed her hair. "I don't love Annette I'm not sure if I ever did."
"Right...well you know what I think? I think your bored and now you want to move on to your next challenge, me. Well I'm not-"
"Kathryn!" He interrupted "I love you, I always have. I made a mistake with Annette because I was angry with you. You fucked with me and it hurt. I'm not saying I never had feelings for Annette but it's not the same for what I feel for you. I honestly, genuinely love you the good and the bad. Kathryn I can't stand being around you any longer and not telling you this that's why I left. I'm going to break up with Annette. I don't know what's going to happen with us but I know I cannot be without you."
As she looked into his face she knew for once he was telling her the truth. It scared the hell out of her but it also excited her. He did love her no bullshit. She didn't know what to do so she did the only thing she could think of. Kathryn slowly approached him and pulled him into a tender kiss.
Sebastian smiled as he kissed her back pulling into his arms. He knew Kathryn couldn't say she loved him yet and he understood that. But at least he knew she accepted his love for her and wanted him almost as much as he wanted her. As there kiss grew more passionate Sebastian picked her up and placed her on the hard desk. Pulling an arm away from her he used it to clear the desk off in one swift movement. Everything fell to the hard wood floor in a loud crash but neither of them seemed to notice or care.
Kathryn leaned back and pulled Sebastian on top of her. As they made out there hands roamed freely over one anothers body. Sebastian pulled away from her and looked down at her face. She smiled at him and he whispered "I love you."
"Then show me" she whispered back.
He obliged by kissing down her body. Sebastian's mouth wandered down her neck and past her collar bone. He stopped momentarily at her breasts kissing softly along her low cut shirt before raising her shirt off and kissing down her stomach. Kathryn groaned as he got off the desk and down on to his knees. Almost achingly slow he pulled her skirt up and slid her black panties down. Kathryn opened her legs in anticipation as he began kissing her inner thighs. "Please" she begged softly.
Sebastian wasn't in a mood to deny her anything and slowly he began to lick her slick lips. She moaned and withered underneath him as he started to lick all around her insides but carefully avoided her clit. Her hand inched towards it but he quickly grabbed it away. Sebastian's tongue darted inside her cunt a few times tasting her juices before he began to ever so lightly tease her swollen clit with his tongue. "Yes" Kathryn hissed as she began to buck into him.
Sebastian looked up at her from what he was doing. "God I love you" he whispered.
Kathryn smiled "I know." He returned the smile and went back to what he was doing unaware that someone had overheard the last exchange.
Annette had arrived to the Valmont home to pay Sebastian a visit. As she approached his room she could here the unmistakable sound of a women moaning. The door was open a crack and it made no noise as she slowly opened it. Her mouth fell down in shock at the sight in front of her. Kathryn was laying across the desk, legs spread with Sebastian eating her out below. If this picture wasn't bad enough his last comment had almost killed her. He loved her, he said he loved her. He wasn't just fucking another girl he was in love with someone else. "My god" she whispered loud enough for them to hear.
Slowly Sebastian pulled away from Kathryn and turned to face her "Annette what are you doing here?"
Not Annette it isn't what it looks like or I'm sorry, no he wanted to know why she interrupted. "I got your note" she hissed. "You son of a bitch! I can't believe you!"
Kathryn sat up on the desk and closed her legs without saying a word. "Annette" he sighed "I didn't mean-"
"What? You didn't mean to fuck her? You didn't mean for me to walk in on you? Or you didn't mean to fall in love with her?"
He seemed to think it over "I guess all of it."
"Anyone else Sebastian, if it had been anyone else...but her? How could you fuck that slut and call it love?"
"Excuse me?" Kathryn said in her eyebrows raised.
Annette glared over at her "this is all your fault! Well I hope you two are happy now because it will never last. You two are too fucked up to make a relationship work!"
"That's nice Annette" Sebastian said rolling his eyes.
"You bastard you could at least treat me with a little respect! I gave up everything for you."
He looked right at her "and I gave up a hell of a lot more."
Annette winced in pain "I'm through with you! Both of you! I'm going to find James and warn him what a supreme tramp his girlfriend is but then again...he probably already knows."
Before either one could respond she ran out. They watched in stunned silence before Kathryn said "well I suppose your going to chase after her."
Sebastian turned back to her and wrapped an arm around her waist sliding her towards him "on the contrary I'm right were I want to be."
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