Hearts Desire
By
Natalie Elizabeth
Chapter 3.
Buffy sat in the lounge room watching Dawn run up and down the stairs, the gang was supposed to pick Dawn up at 1pm and it was already 5 past and Dawn wasn't ready yet.
"So what are you going to do for the next 2 weeks Buffy just laze around"
"Yeah I figured I would see if Spike wants to hang, you know after what we talked about yesterday or maybe go see Cordy in L.A you know, just call me on my cell if I am not here, I might come up in the second week so I'll call to make arrangements, still not sure"
The doorbell rang and Dawn ran down the stairs while Buffy pretended to be asleep on the couch. Dawn opened the door to see Anya dressed in camouflage gear. She couldn't help but burst out laughing; she wondered who told Anya about camping. Anya didn't get what she was laughing at and grabbed Dawns gear.
"The sooner we leave the sooner we get there and me and Xander can have sex, we have never had camping sex"
Dawn raised her eyebrows at Anya and then walked over to Buffy and whispered in her ear "I hope everything works out with Spike"
Dawn hurried out the door and got in the car, Buffy looked out the window as the car sped away, finally freedom, now what. Buffy ran to the stereo and turned it up loud she didn't care what the music was she just wanted to dance around and release her built up anxiety. After about half an hour Buffy was exhausted and went up to her room and layed down. She saw the clothes she had bought for Spike and got up and placed them in her bottom drawer she would wrap them up later for him. Buffy grabbed a piece of paper wrote a quick note then shoved it in her pocket she ran down the stairs and out the door. She was headed for Spikes crypt she knew he would be asleep but she hoped she could leave the note for him to find when he woke up. Buffy reached his crypt and knocked on the door silently when no sound came from within she silently opened it and slipped in. Spike was laying on his so-called bed and was fast asleep, more like sleeping like the dead she thought. She placed the note next to his bed and hurried out the door.
Spike woke up many hours later realising it was already late into the night, almost 10 o'clock. He sat up quickly when smelt a familiar sent in the room
"Buffy"
He then saw the note lying next to his bed he picked it up and read it.
If you are not busy tonight
Come past my house We need to talk *Buffy*
"What the" he said grabbing his duster and heading out of his crypt.
* * * * * * * * *
Buffy had been wondering around the house for hours now waiting for Spike. Obviously he had been busy or too scared to face her, maybe she should have written I promise I won't kill you on the letter. By 10 o'clock Buffy was tired of waiting for Spike and decided to go to bed she didn't feel like patrolling but promised herself that she would stay out longer the following night, but who was she kidding no one was around to bug her she could stay in. Buffy walked up to her room changed into a shirt and boxer shorts and jumped into bed. She had just snuggled into bed and shut her eyes when she heard a tap at her window. She opened her eyes and saw Spike; she got out of her bed and opened her window.
"I didn't think you were coming its been dark for ages"
"Yeah sorry I just got up must have been really worn out from last night"
"Was it really hairy, I was pretending to be sick so I couldn't go out" Buffy crawled back into her bed and snuggled up against her pillows.
"Yeah the little bit told me she came by yesterday afternoon and told me that she was going away camping instead of L.A, so what did you want to talk to me about its not serious is it,"
"No no not really, but Spike I am kinda tired"
"Right I'll go then"
"No" she quickly said, "Stay"
"You sure" he asked wearily
"Yeah I am kinda tired from being bored and lonely, I wanted some time away from friends but I guess the first day is always the hardest right" Buffy blushed she knew what she was going to say next was highly out of character but hey new life. "umm you wouldn't mind staying the night would you," She spat out. She saw Spikes look and shoved a pillow over her head with embarrassment, it wasn't supposed to come out like that, tree wasn't really any other way to say it was it was still embarrassing.
"What" Spike said unable to control his surprise "Your asking me to stay"
"Well yeah" she pulled the pillow of her head and looked at Spike meekly "Friends can have friends stay over right"
"Umm I guess" he said raising his eyebrows at her "But since when have I been your friend has Willow been playing with her magic again"
Buffy began to laugh "No Spike she hasn't, look since I got back I have had a new way of thinking, I call it my new life resolution do everything and regret nothing"
"Yeah what's that got to do with me"
"Well one thing I regretted was basically being a bitch to you. When I got back I did a lot of thinking about the whole glory thing and no matter what I would think about you were always in the picture, helping me fight, talking to Dawn, helping me run and hide. You were my strength yet, I never once said thank you, and never once paid you back for all the times you saved my ass. Willow told me how you looked after Dawn and I have wanted to say thank you for so long but you never seem to be around or when you are your very spacey towards me"
'Buffy I am sorry its just."
"No Spike, its ok I totally needed space not just from you but from everyone that's why I didn't go camping I couldn't handle Willow and Xander asking me if I am ok 24/7".
Spike started laughing "Yeah I noticed they were getting a bit much for you"
"Since Giles left they have taken on his role. Giles I could handle there was only one of them but there like Super Giles. I just need people to relax around me realise that I am not the same Buffy anymore but that we can still have fun, that's why I needed to talk to you, so I can get some fun in my life. Dawns always happy when your around I want to know what makes you so special. I really think we understand each other"
Spike looked at Buffy with raised eyebrows "Umm you think all that about me, ok it's not a spell because I am dreaming"
Buffy reached across and pinched his arm.
"Ouch"
"See not dreaming, so are you gonna stay or not, this place seems so empty I am used to someone being here"
"Yeah that's what friends do right have slumber parties," he said putting on his worst American accent.
Buffy jumped out of her bed and headed for the door "Cool slumber party" she said like a little kid "So what do you wanna pig out on blood or popcorn"
Spike thought for a second then answered "Well as tempting as they both sound I think I am going to have to go for the popcorn"
"What" Buffy said almost chocking "Spike I do have blood you know"
"Yeah what's your point"
"Umm ok popcorn it is then, pick out a movie and take those ridiculous clothes off there is no way you are sleeping in them"
"Firstly since when do you have an entertainment system in your room and secondly I am not wearing anything under these jeans" he said with a cocky grin.
Buffy smiled at him shaking her head "Well Spike, if you came around more often you would know that money isn't as tight now thanks to willow. We can't get in touch with dad but he still keeps sending money for dawn. she feels guilty taking it so she splits it with me. I seem to have this never empty bank account of mums, something to do with the gallery, I wasn't paying attention, but as long as there is money in there I am going to use it. Plus it's on a payment plan couple of bucks a week. Secondly don't even think about strutting around naked, in the bottom drawer there's a pair of boxers for you". Buffy exited her room and made her way downstairs while Spike stood there stunned for a second then went to check out the drawer.
Sure enough there was a pair of boxers in there along with a mans shirt and pants. He pulled the boxers and looked at them, Born to be bad, oh yeah I am defiantly keeping these no matter what the slayer says. Spike took of his boots, pants, jacket, and shirt and slid the boxers shorts on. He chucked his clothes in a corner then went back to the drawer. He picked up the shirt and pants, too small to be Riley's or Xander's, Spike thankfully thought he didn't want to be wearing the wankers or the welps clothes. Maybe the slayer has a new man he sadly thought. Spike sat down in front of the T.V and began looking through the movies. Oh god I hope she doesn't have all romance he thought. Action, action, or action Mmm I think ill go for the action. Spike finally grabbed Swordfish and put it in the video player and waited for Buffy. Buffy finally came in carrying a bowl of popcorn and a can of coke. She almost dropped the bowl when she saw Spike standing there in nothing but the boxer shorts.
"Umm so they fit I guess," she asked rather embarrassed. She saw the movie beginning and sat down on her bed "Cool I love swordfish this explosion is so cool, I mean its bad cause people die but its like the best bomb".
Spike looked at Buffy and started laughing "I cant believe that you like action movies seeing how that's your whole life"
"Yeah they're cool, but this one is really good it's got that cute Australian actor in it, Hugh Jackman from Xmen. Its so funny watching the people in these kinda movies fight, cause you totally know that with one move you could take the other guy out"
"Oh so you watch action movies for the cute muscly guys making asses of them self" Spike said pretending to be hurt.
Buffy rolled her eyes then patted the bed motioning for Spike to join her. Spike walked around the bed and jumped on stretching out and grabbing a handful off popcorn. Buffy began giggling at the site of a very white Spike lying there; she then caught a glance at his feet more importantly his black painted toenails.
"You paint your toe nails too," she said through giggles.
"Well don't you" he said grabbing her foot causing her to almost fall off the bed and dropping the popcorn.
"Yeah but I am a girl" she said screaming trying to stay on the bed
"Yeah well it goes with my bad ass rep"
"Whatever Spike, but I am going to redo them for you they look terrible"
"You sodden well better not"
"Come on its shocking, I have got a nice blood red I can do them"
"No"
"Please"
"Fine I get to paint yours black"
"Umm ok" she said hesitantly
Buffy reached over to her side drawer and pulled out a few bottles of polish and a bottle of remover. While Spike went to his jacket and pulled out a bottle of black polish.
"You carry it with you" she asked laughing.
"Yep it's my favourite, have it with me in case I need to make a quick getaway.
"So what you planning a getaway from Sunnydale" she asked sadly
"No, why would you miss me " he said smiling
"Well yeah, I mean who else can I beat up for no reason"
Spike just shock his head and grabbed her foot. Buffy began removing the disgusting black polish of his toes as he applied it to hers. His toes were actually quite nice and clean. She actually expected them to be covered in fungus and his nails to be long and yellow. Buffy then took her red polish and began applying it to his toes. When Spike had finished he held her feet and began to tickle them. Buffy tried to ignore him at first but when he didn't stop she tired to kick him away
"Come on Spike I am ticklish and its making me get polish all over your toes"
Spike stoped tickling and waited for Buffy to finish doing his toes. After they looked dry, Spike gave Buffy a mischievous grin.
"They dry yet"
"Yeah why" Buffy asked screwing up the bottle not seeing Spike grin.
He quickly began tickling her toes. Buffy began screaming and laughing trying to get Spike to stop tickling her toes. Buffy quickly tucked her feet under herself and pounced on Spike pinning him to the bed.
"Spike I am not in the mood for fighting so calm down, settle down for the night so we can watch the movie"
Buffy got under the covers and Spike sat down at the head of the bed. After a few minutes Buffy began to fidget.
"What's up Slayer" he said taking his eyes of the screen.
"Nothing it's just your sitting on the covers so it's making them really tight and squishing me"
Spike laughed "I finally get to kill the slayer and it's by squishing her"
Buffy managed to get one arm out and hit him. "Get off"
"Alright Buffy" he said standing up "Can I at least have a blanket for the floor please"
"You're not sleeping on the floor Spike what kind of host do you think I am"
"Well its more comfortable than that dam couch I can tell you that, I woke up that many nights with a stiff neck"
Buffy scooted over in the bed then pulled the covers down on the other side "Get in" she said calmly
Spike almost collapsed "You want me to sleep in the same bed as you"
"Spike don't be a baby we are both adults I trust you not to try anything so get in, Willow sleeps in here when she stays over, there is just as much chance as her trying something as there is you" she said giggling "that's what friends do"
"Umm ok if your sure" Spike climbed into her bed and covered him self with the rest of the quilt "But I better not wake up with a stake in my heart"
"Spike as if, I mean you wouldn't wake up"
Spike shook his head and snuggled into the pillow "Go to sleep or watch the bloody movie Slayer"
"Ok William the Bloody" she said grinning.
Spike layed on his back, propping him self up a little with a pillow so he could watch the movie while he fell asleep. He noticed that Buffy was fidgeting next to him, she was trying to sleep on her stomach but whenever something loud on the T.V happened Buffy turned around to watch it. Finally she turned around and layed on her side she then moved closer to Spike and rested her head on Spikes shoulder.
"You don't mind do you"
Spike just shook his head in shock over how affectionate she was being, he then froze when Buffy snuggled up closer and placed her arm around his waist. After seeing that Buffy wasn't moving from her position Spike loosely placed his arms around her mid section, seeing she wasn't about to stake him Spike let his arms relax a little and rested his chin on her head. God he hoped she didn't do this with Willow although it could be interesting. Spike soon noticed that Buffys heartbeat had slowed and realised she was a sleep. He closed his eyes and fell into a deep happy sleep.
~TBC~
Disclaimer: I only own the story and nothing else.
Authors Note: Ok, so what do you think.
Chapter 3.
Buffy sat in the lounge room watching Dawn run up and down the stairs, the gang was supposed to pick Dawn up at 1pm and it was already 5 past and Dawn wasn't ready yet.
"So what are you going to do for the next 2 weeks Buffy just laze around"
"Yeah I figured I would see if Spike wants to hang, you know after what we talked about yesterday or maybe go see Cordy in L.A you know, just call me on my cell if I am not here, I might come up in the second week so I'll call to make arrangements, still not sure"
The doorbell rang and Dawn ran down the stairs while Buffy pretended to be asleep on the couch. Dawn opened the door to see Anya dressed in camouflage gear. She couldn't help but burst out laughing; she wondered who told Anya about camping. Anya didn't get what she was laughing at and grabbed Dawns gear.
"The sooner we leave the sooner we get there and me and Xander can have sex, we have never had camping sex"
Dawn raised her eyebrows at Anya and then walked over to Buffy and whispered in her ear "I hope everything works out with Spike"
Dawn hurried out the door and got in the car, Buffy looked out the window as the car sped away, finally freedom, now what. Buffy ran to the stereo and turned it up loud she didn't care what the music was she just wanted to dance around and release her built up anxiety. After about half an hour Buffy was exhausted and went up to her room and layed down. She saw the clothes she had bought for Spike and got up and placed them in her bottom drawer she would wrap them up later for him. Buffy grabbed a piece of paper wrote a quick note then shoved it in her pocket she ran down the stairs and out the door. She was headed for Spikes crypt she knew he would be asleep but she hoped she could leave the note for him to find when he woke up. Buffy reached his crypt and knocked on the door silently when no sound came from within she silently opened it and slipped in. Spike was laying on his so-called bed and was fast asleep, more like sleeping like the dead she thought. She placed the note next to his bed and hurried out the door.
Spike woke up many hours later realising it was already late into the night, almost 10 o'clock. He sat up quickly when smelt a familiar sent in the room
"Buffy"
He then saw the note lying next to his bed he picked it up and read it.
If you are not busy tonight
Come past my house We need to talk *Buffy*
"What the" he said grabbing his duster and heading out of his crypt.
* * * * * * * * *
Buffy had been wondering around the house for hours now waiting for Spike. Obviously he had been busy or too scared to face her, maybe she should have written I promise I won't kill you on the letter. By 10 o'clock Buffy was tired of waiting for Spike and decided to go to bed she didn't feel like patrolling but promised herself that she would stay out longer the following night, but who was she kidding no one was around to bug her she could stay in. Buffy walked up to her room changed into a shirt and boxer shorts and jumped into bed. She had just snuggled into bed and shut her eyes when she heard a tap at her window. She opened her eyes and saw Spike; she got out of her bed and opened her window.
"I didn't think you were coming its been dark for ages"
"Yeah sorry I just got up must have been really worn out from last night"
"Was it really hairy, I was pretending to be sick so I couldn't go out" Buffy crawled back into her bed and snuggled up against her pillows.
"Yeah the little bit told me she came by yesterday afternoon and told me that she was going away camping instead of L.A, so what did you want to talk to me about its not serious is it,"
"No no not really, but Spike I am kinda tired"
"Right I'll go then"
"No" she quickly said, "Stay"
"You sure" he asked wearily
"Yeah I am kinda tired from being bored and lonely, I wanted some time away from friends but I guess the first day is always the hardest right" Buffy blushed she knew what she was going to say next was highly out of character but hey new life. "umm you wouldn't mind staying the night would you," She spat out. She saw Spikes look and shoved a pillow over her head with embarrassment, it wasn't supposed to come out like that, tree wasn't really any other way to say it was it was still embarrassing.
"What" Spike said unable to control his surprise "Your asking me to stay"
"Well yeah" she pulled the pillow of her head and looked at Spike meekly "Friends can have friends stay over right"
"Umm I guess" he said raising his eyebrows at her "But since when have I been your friend has Willow been playing with her magic again"
Buffy began to laugh "No Spike she hasn't, look since I got back I have had a new way of thinking, I call it my new life resolution do everything and regret nothing"
"Yeah what's that got to do with me"
"Well one thing I regretted was basically being a bitch to you. When I got back I did a lot of thinking about the whole glory thing and no matter what I would think about you were always in the picture, helping me fight, talking to Dawn, helping me run and hide. You were my strength yet, I never once said thank you, and never once paid you back for all the times you saved my ass. Willow told me how you looked after Dawn and I have wanted to say thank you for so long but you never seem to be around or when you are your very spacey towards me"
'Buffy I am sorry its just."
"No Spike, its ok I totally needed space not just from you but from everyone that's why I didn't go camping I couldn't handle Willow and Xander asking me if I am ok 24/7".
Spike started laughing "Yeah I noticed they were getting a bit much for you"
"Since Giles left they have taken on his role. Giles I could handle there was only one of them but there like Super Giles. I just need people to relax around me realise that I am not the same Buffy anymore but that we can still have fun, that's why I needed to talk to you, so I can get some fun in my life. Dawns always happy when your around I want to know what makes you so special. I really think we understand each other"
Spike looked at Buffy with raised eyebrows "Umm you think all that about me, ok it's not a spell because I am dreaming"
Buffy reached across and pinched his arm.
"Ouch"
"See not dreaming, so are you gonna stay or not, this place seems so empty I am used to someone being here"
"Yeah that's what friends do right have slumber parties," he said putting on his worst American accent.
Buffy jumped out of her bed and headed for the door "Cool slumber party" she said like a little kid "So what do you wanna pig out on blood or popcorn"
Spike thought for a second then answered "Well as tempting as they both sound I think I am going to have to go for the popcorn"
"What" Buffy said almost chocking "Spike I do have blood you know"
"Yeah what's your point"
"Umm ok popcorn it is then, pick out a movie and take those ridiculous clothes off there is no way you are sleeping in them"
"Firstly since when do you have an entertainment system in your room and secondly I am not wearing anything under these jeans" he said with a cocky grin.
Buffy smiled at him shaking her head "Well Spike, if you came around more often you would know that money isn't as tight now thanks to willow. We can't get in touch with dad but he still keeps sending money for dawn. she feels guilty taking it so she splits it with me. I seem to have this never empty bank account of mums, something to do with the gallery, I wasn't paying attention, but as long as there is money in there I am going to use it. Plus it's on a payment plan couple of bucks a week. Secondly don't even think about strutting around naked, in the bottom drawer there's a pair of boxers for you". Buffy exited her room and made her way downstairs while Spike stood there stunned for a second then went to check out the drawer.
Sure enough there was a pair of boxers in there along with a mans shirt and pants. He pulled the boxers and looked at them, Born to be bad, oh yeah I am defiantly keeping these no matter what the slayer says. Spike took of his boots, pants, jacket, and shirt and slid the boxers shorts on. He chucked his clothes in a corner then went back to the drawer. He picked up the shirt and pants, too small to be Riley's or Xander's, Spike thankfully thought he didn't want to be wearing the wankers or the welps clothes. Maybe the slayer has a new man he sadly thought. Spike sat down in front of the T.V and began looking through the movies. Oh god I hope she doesn't have all romance he thought. Action, action, or action Mmm I think ill go for the action. Spike finally grabbed Swordfish and put it in the video player and waited for Buffy. Buffy finally came in carrying a bowl of popcorn and a can of coke. She almost dropped the bowl when she saw Spike standing there in nothing but the boxer shorts.
"Umm so they fit I guess," she asked rather embarrassed. She saw the movie beginning and sat down on her bed "Cool I love swordfish this explosion is so cool, I mean its bad cause people die but its like the best bomb".
Spike looked at Buffy and started laughing "I cant believe that you like action movies seeing how that's your whole life"
"Yeah they're cool, but this one is really good it's got that cute Australian actor in it, Hugh Jackman from Xmen. Its so funny watching the people in these kinda movies fight, cause you totally know that with one move you could take the other guy out"
"Oh so you watch action movies for the cute muscly guys making asses of them self" Spike said pretending to be hurt.
Buffy rolled her eyes then patted the bed motioning for Spike to join her. Spike walked around the bed and jumped on stretching out and grabbing a handful off popcorn. Buffy began giggling at the site of a very white Spike lying there; she then caught a glance at his feet more importantly his black painted toenails.
"You paint your toe nails too," she said through giggles.
"Well don't you" he said grabbing her foot causing her to almost fall off the bed and dropping the popcorn.
"Yeah but I am a girl" she said screaming trying to stay on the bed
"Yeah well it goes with my bad ass rep"
"Whatever Spike, but I am going to redo them for you they look terrible"
"You sodden well better not"
"Come on its shocking, I have got a nice blood red I can do them"
"No"
"Please"
"Fine I get to paint yours black"
"Umm ok" she said hesitantly
Buffy reached over to her side drawer and pulled out a few bottles of polish and a bottle of remover. While Spike went to his jacket and pulled out a bottle of black polish.
"You carry it with you" she asked laughing.
"Yep it's my favourite, have it with me in case I need to make a quick getaway.
"So what you planning a getaway from Sunnydale" she asked sadly
"No, why would you miss me " he said smiling
"Well yeah, I mean who else can I beat up for no reason"
Spike just shock his head and grabbed her foot. Buffy began removing the disgusting black polish of his toes as he applied it to hers. His toes were actually quite nice and clean. She actually expected them to be covered in fungus and his nails to be long and yellow. Buffy then took her red polish and began applying it to his toes. When Spike had finished he held her feet and began to tickle them. Buffy tried to ignore him at first but when he didn't stop she tired to kick him away
"Come on Spike I am ticklish and its making me get polish all over your toes"
Spike stoped tickling and waited for Buffy to finish doing his toes. After they looked dry, Spike gave Buffy a mischievous grin.
"They dry yet"
"Yeah why" Buffy asked screwing up the bottle not seeing Spike grin.
He quickly began tickling her toes. Buffy began screaming and laughing trying to get Spike to stop tickling her toes. Buffy quickly tucked her feet under herself and pounced on Spike pinning him to the bed.
"Spike I am not in the mood for fighting so calm down, settle down for the night so we can watch the movie"
Buffy got under the covers and Spike sat down at the head of the bed. After a few minutes Buffy began to fidget.
"What's up Slayer" he said taking his eyes of the screen.
"Nothing it's just your sitting on the covers so it's making them really tight and squishing me"
Spike laughed "I finally get to kill the slayer and it's by squishing her"
Buffy managed to get one arm out and hit him. "Get off"
"Alright Buffy" he said standing up "Can I at least have a blanket for the floor please"
"You're not sleeping on the floor Spike what kind of host do you think I am"
"Well its more comfortable than that dam couch I can tell you that, I woke up that many nights with a stiff neck"
Buffy scooted over in the bed then pulled the covers down on the other side "Get in" she said calmly
Spike almost collapsed "You want me to sleep in the same bed as you"
"Spike don't be a baby we are both adults I trust you not to try anything so get in, Willow sleeps in here when she stays over, there is just as much chance as her trying something as there is you" she said giggling "that's what friends do"
"Umm ok if your sure" Spike climbed into her bed and covered him self with the rest of the quilt "But I better not wake up with a stake in my heart"
"Spike as if, I mean you wouldn't wake up"
Spike shook his head and snuggled into the pillow "Go to sleep or watch the bloody movie Slayer"
"Ok William the Bloody" she said grinning.
Spike layed on his back, propping him self up a little with a pillow so he could watch the movie while he fell asleep. He noticed that Buffy was fidgeting next to him, she was trying to sleep on her stomach but whenever something loud on the T.V happened Buffy turned around to watch it. Finally she turned around and layed on her side she then moved closer to Spike and rested her head on Spikes shoulder.
"You don't mind do you"
Spike just shook his head in shock over how affectionate she was being, he then froze when Buffy snuggled up closer and placed her arm around his waist. After seeing that Buffy wasn't moving from her position Spike loosely placed his arms around her mid section, seeing she wasn't about to stake him Spike let his arms relax a little and rested his chin on her head. God he hoped she didn't do this with Willow although it could be interesting. Spike soon noticed that Buffys heartbeat had slowed and realised she was a sleep. He closed his eyes and fell into a deep happy sleep.
~TBC~
Disclaimer: I only own the story and nothing else.
Authors Note: Ok, so what do you think.