Hearts Desire
By
Natalie Elizabeth
Chapter 4.
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Buffy woke up in the late afternoon, because she was starting to feel cold, she then realised why. During the night she had snuggled up even closer to Spike. Majority of her body was lying on his and her arm and leg had been flung around him. She began to move when she realised that his arms were tightly holding her.
"Spike" she whispered trying to shake him. "Spike, come on wake up"
"Leave me alone slayer" he mumbled
"Umm I would Spike but you are holding me"
Spike suddenly sat up causing Buffy to fall off the bed. Spike looked around the room then at Buffy on the floor.
He stretched out his arm "Oh shit sorry here"
Buffy waved of his arm and got up "Well guess that's one way to get out of bed"
Spike looked at Buffy embarrassed "I'm sorry I guess I thought I was still in my crypt"
"Its ok, I'm just going to grab a shower" she said grabbing her clothes "I'll let you sleep, wake you up later ok"
Buffy walked out of her room and a few minutes later Spike heard the shower running. He layed back down on Buffys bed and closed his eyes, moments later he opened them. He couldn't sleep; he had slept most of yesterday and was only awake for an hour or so. Spike got out of bed and put his jeans on; he stuck his head out the door to see if it was free of sun. Seeing that it was he made his downstairs into the kitchen, more importantly the fridge. Pigging out on popcorn the night before was fun but it wasn't what his body needed, he needed blood. A large bottle of blood was sitting in the fridge next to the orange juice and milk. Spike smiled and pulled it out then turned to look for his mug. Dawn had bought it for him when he first started looking after her, kiss me I'm evil. He thought it was sweet. Dawn explained that she didn't want to drink out of a cup that had blood in it. Not so sweet after all. Spike pored himself a glass then placed the rest in the fridge and sat down on a stool. Buffy walked into the kitchen and saw Spike sitting there.
"Hey" she said happily then stared at him for a moment then walked over and gave him a kiss on the cheek. She then went to the fridge and pulled out the orange juice "Couldn't you sleep"
"Umm I think I still am," he said touching his face where she kissed.
Buffy looked at him and rolled her eyes she then pointed to his cup. He looked down at his mug when he realised why she did it.
"So what do you want to do" Buffy asked trying to change the subject.
Spike just shrugged
"Well what do you usually do all day inside that doesn't involve sleeping"
"I dunno watch T.V, read, write..."
"You write" she cut in. "What do you write"
Spike looked up at her rather embarrassed. "Promise you won't laugh"
Buffy nodded
"Poetry"
Buffy smiled "Really I wouldn't have never guessed"
"I am not very good," he said saddened.
"So what, do you love to do it" Spike nodded "Then why care what people think, I love to dance around and sing yet I am terrible"
"I have seen you dance your not terrible"
"Yeah but that's like bronze dancing, not wild dancing, so can I hear some"
"Hear what"
"You, your poetry"
"Sod off"
"Oh come on why not"
"Cause its really bad, Buffy if I tell you something will you promise not to tell anyone and I mean anyone. I am really going to be opening up my heart here"
Buffy looked at Spike concerned "Spike what is it"
"Nothing bad just embarrassing, you know how I am called William the bloody, well I got that name before I became a vampire"
"What" Buffy asked shocked
"Yeah it was umm kind of a joke I guess, I was called William the bloody as my poetry was bloody awful"
Buffys mouth hanged open "You lie"
"I wish"
"Well umm I don't care I want to hear some please"
"Well I don't have any here so I guess you will have to wait"
"I thought you said you wrote during the day, so write," she said walking over to a drawer and pulling out a pen and paper.
"Umm what do you want me to write a poem about"
Buffy shrugged "Anything just write what's in your heart, ill be watching T.V come in when you're done"
Spike just sat there for a second then grabbed the paper and pen and began furiously writing. He knew exactly what to write about, her. He just hoped he wouldn't be humiliated like he was the last time someone heard his poetry. After half an hour of writing Spike walked into the lounge room and found Buffy flicking through the channels.
"So is it done yet"
Spike nodded holding the poem tightly in his hand.
"So can I read it"
Spike nodded again still holding on to it tightly. Buffy leaned forward and tried to pull it out of his hand.
"Spike its ok I swear I wont laugh" Buffy placed her hand over his and he slowly let go of it. Buffy sat back down on the couch while Spike began to pace. Buffy opened the folded piece of paper and began to read.
Light vs Dark It pains me to see her happy in light, Yet sad in darkness. For I can only walk with her by night, Yet wish I could be by her side by day.
She fights so hard to beat darkness, If she just once stop and let darkness in, She would see that darkness isn't bad, Because darkness is in me.
If she would open her heart once more, And take a peek at me. See that darkness isn't in my heart, It's just a small part of me.
Light is in my heart, Yet darkness still lives in me, If she could only step into my darkness, And share this light with me.
After reading the poem Buffy stared blankly at the paper, wow she thought. Buffy was totally stunned, she loved the poem. It was filled with love and pain.
"So" Spike asked, "What do you think"
"Umm, its, umm wow"
"That bad huh"
"No it was really good, is, I mean was that like about me" she asked rather embarrassed.
Spike just nodded
Buffys heart lifted "No ones ever written me a poem before, it was beautiful"
Spike looked up at Buffy bewildered "Are you serious"
"A huh"
"So are you going to show me your singing and dancing"
"What no way that wasn't our deal"
"Come on" he said turning on the radio "Show me your stuff, I wrote you a poem"
"Yeah but no, I mean you have to be in the right mood you know, you cant just do it you have to be like full of energy" Buffy thought for a second, "ill dance with you"
"Alright then" Spike turned up the music and walked over to Buffy. He couldn't really dance he just bounced along to the music. An old sappy romantic song came on and Spike went to sit down
"Hey" Buffy said grabbing Spike by the back of his jeans and pulling him back to her. "I think you need to open your heart" Buffy placed her arms around Spikes neck and began to sway with the music. Spike smiled and placed his arms around her waist. Buffy rested her head against Spikes bare chest and continued to sway. Oh my god she thought what am I doing this is Spike its bad enough that you let him sleep in your bed, now your falling for him. When the song ended Buffy looked up at Spike.
"Songs finished"
"A huh" he said mesmerised by her. Spike then leaned down and began to kiss Buffy. Buffy was shocked at first then began to kiss Spike back, when she ran out of breath she pulled away.
Spike looked into Buffys eyes trying to read her, Buffy just smiled back at him.
"I had to breathe"
"Oh" he said then leaned down and began kissing her again. Buffy couldn't believe how sweet and tender his kisses it was almost a shame to breathe.
Buffy broke away and went and sat on the couch; Spike followed and sat next to her.
"So umm I kissed you and I am still here" he said surprised
"Yep" she said happily. "We should do it again sometime soon" what was she saying do it again, she couldn't do it again. Although she did love it and the thought of his lips on hers drove her mad.
"Ok I am confused what's going on"
"What, if you don't like it"
'No, no, no its just what's going on, you said we were friends, god I hope you and the witch don't do that"
Buffy started laughing there was no way she could be friends now. In less then 24 hours she had become the fun Buffy she missed. She liked how he changed her in a few hours and she didn't want to lose this feeling of being alive. "Nooo, look Spike if you just wanna be friends, then I guess I'll have to deal with it" she said dripping with sarcasm
"No no look I don't wanna be friends"
"Oh and what do you want" she asked seductively running her finger down his body. She was taking this way to far, but what the hell she thought how many times do you live.
Spike closed his eyes trying to restrain himself "I want to umm be your umm partner, oh god how pathetic did that sound".
"Really pathetic but sounds good to me" did I just say what I think I said Buffy screamed at her self.
"What?" Spike chocked out "Are you serious?"
Buffy took a deep breath "Yeah I mean we can try and if it doesn't work then it doesn't work. I said to Dawn I was going to work things out between us, we understand each other, were the odd ones out you know. Maybe that means we are supposed to be together. Spike I don't wanna regret anything I have been given another chance I don't wanna waste it, I guess I wanna be with you so I feel this great all the time, I want to live again"
"And your gonna live it with me luv, hey why am I giving you excuses not to be with me, I love you" he said grabbing her and giving her a hug.
Buffy began to laugh hysterically "Oh god I feel better already, ok Spike get up get changed, if you are going to be my boyfriend you have to have more than one outfit, wow that was weird boyfriend and spike in the same sentence, and I cant believe is aid boyfriend that's so childish"
"Don't you like my clothes" he said grinning "And what am I going to get changed into if you don't like them, boyfriend sounds stupid I am over a hundred years old, and no way am I your life partner or whatever that's so gay"
"Spike you need new clothes, go change into the clothes in the bottom drawer and meet me out side I am going to check the mail ok, how about other half, we will work on better half "
Spike nodded before running up stairs and into her room. He grabbed the clothes out of the drawer and looked at them, not bad. He quickly undressed, boxers tended to crowd him, and put on the new clothes; he rolled up the sleeves on the shirt and grabbed his duster before running downstairs. Buffy was standing at the foot of the stairs with a letter in her hand; her eyes were glued to it
"So how do I look" he asked smiling. "Not my usual style but hey I think it works what do you reckon luv".
Buffy looked up at him blankly "Spike this bill is for my house but it doesn't have my name on it, it's for William Blooded".
Spike looked down meekly "Umm yeah that would be me"
"And why would your name be on my house bills" Buffy asked gruffly
"Umm see when you were gone the only way to save your house was to buy it so I did, don't worry its all yours, I didn't want Dawn to lose her home"
Tears sprung to Buffys eyes "You did all that for her"
Spike nodded." When you came back Willow just grabbed all the bills before you could see them and gave them to me"
Buffy ran up the stairs and wrapped her arms around his waist in a tight hug.
"Thank you, hold on where did you get the money"
Spike began laughing "Just because I made you guys pay me for helping, it doesn't mean I don't have money, I just don't like to use it to often, I like to let it gather interest in case I need it.
"And how did you get all this money"
"Trust me you don't wanna know" he said a little saddened.
"Oh ok, so umm why do you still live in the crypt, I mean you obviously can afford something better."
Spike shrugged "How poncy would I look if I lived in an apartment"
Buffy laughed "Yeah you would totally be higher up on the to kill list, I suppose if you moved in here you would make the top of the list huh"
"Yeah" Spike said before realising what she had said "What"
"I mean living with the slayer and being known as her other half cant do much for your rep"
Spike was shocked "Buffy are you asking me to move in with you, you going a bit fast aren't' you"
"Well yeah I know" she said calmly "I mean it's your house after all, and mums room is free, or the basement if you want something darker, or my room if you cant sleep alone, look I know its so fast its just I cant stand the thought of us living it up when your living in the cemetery. Look if this is to awkward then don't worry about it, we could have separate rooms and set aside times to hang out as a couple, you could just live here like will used to you know" she said with a cheeky smile.
Spike took a big gulp "Umm yeah, I guess, I mean its totally sudden, I mean I have been your other better half for what a whole ten minutes"
Buffy began to laugh "You know your starting to talk to like me, totally sudden"
"Sod off" he said walking down the stairs "Come on lets walk to my house to get my stuff and we will go shopping with my car alright"
"Oh my god your going to stay I cant believe, dawn was right things are great when your around" Buffy grabbed her purse and headed outside.
~TBC~
Authors Note: Wow I got reviews like straight away which is why I am putting up another chapter. I probably wont be putting up another one for at least a week as I am working on another story This Isn't Me, you should go check it out. Any suggestions on how to make this story are greatly appreciated don't hesitate to e-mail me Sunsetali@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: I only own the story and nothing else.
Chapter 4.
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Buffy woke up in the late afternoon, because she was starting to feel cold, she then realised why. During the night she had snuggled up even closer to Spike. Majority of her body was lying on his and her arm and leg had been flung around him. She began to move when she realised that his arms were tightly holding her.
"Spike" she whispered trying to shake him. "Spike, come on wake up"
"Leave me alone slayer" he mumbled
"Umm I would Spike but you are holding me"
Spike suddenly sat up causing Buffy to fall off the bed. Spike looked around the room then at Buffy on the floor.
He stretched out his arm "Oh shit sorry here"
Buffy waved of his arm and got up "Well guess that's one way to get out of bed"
Spike looked at Buffy embarrassed "I'm sorry I guess I thought I was still in my crypt"
"Its ok, I'm just going to grab a shower" she said grabbing her clothes "I'll let you sleep, wake you up later ok"
Buffy walked out of her room and a few minutes later Spike heard the shower running. He layed back down on Buffys bed and closed his eyes, moments later he opened them. He couldn't sleep; he had slept most of yesterday and was only awake for an hour or so. Spike got out of bed and put his jeans on; he stuck his head out the door to see if it was free of sun. Seeing that it was he made his downstairs into the kitchen, more importantly the fridge. Pigging out on popcorn the night before was fun but it wasn't what his body needed, he needed blood. A large bottle of blood was sitting in the fridge next to the orange juice and milk. Spike smiled and pulled it out then turned to look for his mug. Dawn had bought it for him when he first started looking after her, kiss me I'm evil. He thought it was sweet. Dawn explained that she didn't want to drink out of a cup that had blood in it. Not so sweet after all. Spike pored himself a glass then placed the rest in the fridge and sat down on a stool. Buffy walked into the kitchen and saw Spike sitting there.
"Hey" she said happily then stared at him for a moment then walked over and gave him a kiss on the cheek. She then went to the fridge and pulled out the orange juice "Couldn't you sleep"
"Umm I think I still am," he said touching his face where she kissed.
Buffy looked at him and rolled her eyes she then pointed to his cup. He looked down at his mug when he realised why she did it.
"So what do you want to do" Buffy asked trying to change the subject.
Spike just shrugged
"Well what do you usually do all day inside that doesn't involve sleeping"
"I dunno watch T.V, read, write..."
"You write" she cut in. "What do you write"
Spike looked up at her rather embarrassed. "Promise you won't laugh"
Buffy nodded
"Poetry"
Buffy smiled "Really I wouldn't have never guessed"
"I am not very good," he said saddened.
"So what, do you love to do it" Spike nodded "Then why care what people think, I love to dance around and sing yet I am terrible"
"I have seen you dance your not terrible"
"Yeah but that's like bronze dancing, not wild dancing, so can I hear some"
"Hear what"
"You, your poetry"
"Sod off"
"Oh come on why not"
"Cause its really bad, Buffy if I tell you something will you promise not to tell anyone and I mean anyone. I am really going to be opening up my heart here"
Buffy looked at Spike concerned "Spike what is it"
"Nothing bad just embarrassing, you know how I am called William the bloody, well I got that name before I became a vampire"
"What" Buffy asked shocked
"Yeah it was umm kind of a joke I guess, I was called William the bloody as my poetry was bloody awful"
Buffys mouth hanged open "You lie"
"I wish"
"Well umm I don't care I want to hear some please"
"Well I don't have any here so I guess you will have to wait"
"I thought you said you wrote during the day, so write," she said walking over to a drawer and pulling out a pen and paper.
"Umm what do you want me to write a poem about"
Buffy shrugged "Anything just write what's in your heart, ill be watching T.V come in when you're done"
Spike just sat there for a second then grabbed the paper and pen and began furiously writing. He knew exactly what to write about, her. He just hoped he wouldn't be humiliated like he was the last time someone heard his poetry. After half an hour of writing Spike walked into the lounge room and found Buffy flicking through the channels.
"So is it done yet"
Spike nodded holding the poem tightly in his hand.
"So can I read it"
Spike nodded again still holding on to it tightly. Buffy leaned forward and tried to pull it out of his hand.
"Spike its ok I swear I wont laugh" Buffy placed her hand over his and he slowly let go of it. Buffy sat back down on the couch while Spike began to pace. Buffy opened the folded piece of paper and began to read.
Light vs Dark It pains me to see her happy in light, Yet sad in darkness. For I can only walk with her by night, Yet wish I could be by her side by day.
She fights so hard to beat darkness, If she just once stop and let darkness in, She would see that darkness isn't bad, Because darkness is in me.
If she would open her heart once more, And take a peek at me. See that darkness isn't in my heart, It's just a small part of me.
Light is in my heart, Yet darkness still lives in me, If she could only step into my darkness, And share this light with me.
After reading the poem Buffy stared blankly at the paper, wow she thought. Buffy was totally stunned, she loved the poem. It was filled with love and pain.
"So" Spike asked, "What do you think"
"Umm, its, umm wow"
"That bad huh"
"No it was really good, is, I mean was that like about me" she asked rather embarrassed.
Spike just nodded
Buffys heart lifted "No ones ever written me a poem before, it was beautiful"
Spike looked up at Buffy bewildered "Are you serious"
"A huh"
"So are you going to show me your singing and dancing"
"What no way that wasn't our deal"
"Come on" he said turning on the radio "Show me your stuff, I wrote you a poem"
"Yeah but no, I mean you have to be in the right mood you know, you cant just do it you have to be like full of energy" Buffy thought for a second, "ill dance with you"
"Alright then" Spike turned up the music and walked over to Buffy. He couldn't really dance he just bounced along to the music. An old sappy romantic song came on and Spike went to sit down
"Hey" Buffy said grabbing Spike by the back of his jeans and pulling him back to her. "I think you need to open your heart" Buffy placed her arms around Spikes neck and began to sway with the music. Spike smiled and placed his arms around her waist. Buffy rested her head against Spikes bare chest and continued to sway. Oh my god she thought what am I doing this is Spike its bad enough that you let him sleep in your bed, now your falling for him. When the song ended Buffy looked up at Spike.
"Songs finished"
"A huh" he said mesmerised by her. Spike then leaned down and began to kiss Buffy. Buffy was shocked at first then began to kiss Spike back, when she ran out of breath she pulled away.
Spike looked into Buffys eyes trying to read her, Buffy just smiled back at him.
"I had to breathe"
"Oh" he said then leaned down and began kissing her again. Buffy couldn't believe how sweet and tender his kisses it was almost a shame to breathe.
Buffy broke away and went and sat on the couch; Spike followed and sat next to her.
"So umm I kissed you and I am still here" he said surprised
"Yep" she said happily. "We should do it again sometime soon" what was she saying do it again, she couldn't do it again. Although she did love it and the thought of his lips on hers drove her mad.
"Ok I am confused what's going on"
"What, if you don't like it"
'No, no, no its just what's going on, you said we were friends, god I hope you and the witch don't do that"
Buffy started laughing there was no way she could be friends now. In less then 24 hours she had become the fun Buffy she missed. She liked how he changed her in a few hours and she didn't want to lose this feeling of being alive. "Nooo, look Spike if you just wanna be friends, then I guess I'll have to deal with it" she said dripping with sarcasm
"No no look I don't wanna be friends"
"Oh and what do you want" she asked seductively running her finger down his body. She was taking this way to far, but what the hell she thought how many times do you live.
Spike closed his eyes trying to restrain himself "I want to umm be your umm partner, oh god how pathetic did that sound".
"Really pathetic but sounds good to me" did I just say what I think I said Buffy screamed at her self.
"What?" Spike chocked out "Are you serious?"
Buffy took a deep breath "Yeah I mean we can try and if it doesn't work then it doesn't work. I said to Dawn I was going to work things out between us, we understand each other, were the odd ones out you know. Maybe that means we are supposed to be together. Spike I don't wanna regret anything I have been given another chance I don't wanna waste it, I guess I wanna be with you so I feel this great all the time, I want to live again"
"And your gonna live it with me luv, hey why am I giving you excuses not to be with me, I love you" he said grabbing her and giving her a hug.
Buffy began to laugh hysterically "Oh god I feel better already, ok Spike get up get changed, if you are going to be my boyfriend you have to have more than one outfit, wow that was weird boyfriend and spike in the same sentence, and I cant believe is aid boyfriend that's so childish"
"Don't you like my clothes" he said grinning "And what am I going to get changed into if you don't like them, boyfriend sounds stupid I am over a hundred years old, and no way am I your life partner or whatever that's so gay"
"Spike you need new clothes, go change into the clothes in the bottom drawer and meet me out side I am going to check the mail ok, how about other half, we will work on better half "
Spike nodded before running up stairs and into her room. He grabbed the clothes out of the drawer and looked at them, not bad. He quickly undressed, boxers tended to crowd him, and put on the new clothes; he rolled up the sleeves on the shirt and grabbed his duster before running downstairs. Buffy was standing at the foot of the stairs with a letter in her hand; her eyes were glued to it
"So how do I look" he asked smiling. "Not my usual style but hey I think it works what do you reckon luv".
Buffy looked up at him blankly "Spike this bill is for my house but it doesn't have my name on it, it's for William Blooded".
Spike looked down meekly "Umm yeah that would be me"
"And why would your name be on my house bills" Buffy asked gruffly
"Umm see when you were gone the only way to save your house was to buy it so I did, don't worry its all yours, I didn't want Dawn to lose her home"
Tears sprung to Buffys eyes "You did all that for her"
Spike nodded." When you came back Willow just grabbed all the bills before you could see them and gave them to me"
Buffy ran up the stairs and wrapped her arms around his waist in a tight hug.
"Thank you, hold on where did you get the money"
Spike began laughing "Just because I made you guys pay me for helping, it doesn't mean I don't have money, I just don't like to use it to often, I like to let it gather interest in case I need it.
"And how did you get all this money"
"Trust me you don't wanna know" he said a little saddened.
"Oh ok, so umm why do you still live in the crypt, I mean you obviously can afford something better."
Spike shrugged "How poncy would I look if I lived in an apartment"
Buffy laughed "Yeah you would totally be higher up on the to kill list, I suppose if you moved in here you would make the top of the list huh"
"Yeah" Spike said before realising what she had said "What"
"I mean living with the slayer and being known as her other half cant do much for your rep"
Spike was shocked "Buffy are you asking me to move in with you, you going a bit fast aren't' you"
"Well yeah I know" she said calmly "I mean it's your house after all, and mums room is free, or the basement if you want something darker, or my room if you cant sleep alone, look I know its so fast its just I cant stand the thought of us living it up when your living in the cemetery. Look if this is to awkward then don't worry about it, we could have separate rooms and set aside times to hang out as a couple, you could just live here like will used to you know" she said with a cheeky smile.
Spike took a big gulp "Umm yeah, I guess, I mean its totally sudden, I mean I have been your other better half for what a whole ten minutes"
Buffy began to laugh "You know your starting to talk to like me, totally sudden"
"Sod off" he said walking down the stairs "Come on lets walk to my house to get my stuff and we will go shopping with my car alright"
"Oh my god your going to stay I cant believe, dawn was right things are great when your around" Buffy grabbed her purse and headed outside.
~TBC~
Authors Note: Wow I got reviews like straight away which is why I am putting up another chapter. I probably wont be putting up another one for at least a week as I am working on another story This Isn't Me, you should go check it out. Any suggestions on how to make this story are greatly appreciated don't hesitate to e-mail me Sunsetali@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: I only own the story and nothing else.