Disclaimer: Apparently I don't have enough money to aquire an American state, damn. I also don't have enough money for a Merc or a Rolls, I asked my dad and he said we'd need to sell both our cars and take out a loan. XXx, Stepmom, Richy Rich and Willy Wonka aren't and never will be in my pocession cuz I didn't think the ideas up. Which brings me to Gilmore Girls, hell I wanna be that smart. Oh, well can't have every thing in this world, except if you're Bill Gates, then you rule the world and every has to do as you say. I own nothing.

Rating: Pg 13, I think I might have broken the Pg 11 barrier, in this chapter, depends who you are; some people are sheltered.

Pairing: I would like to take this opportunity to thank Milo's parent. They couldn't have given us a better gift. Literati, duh!

A/N: The terrible but envediable has occurred. Madonna has released a new movie, Surviver(what no. it now), is screening on TV and I am ……… back at school. Ugh, they gave me a tone of Home Work on the 1st day. Mean people! This means there is no way I can get these chapters up as quick. This chapter was kinda slow cuz I was on holidays, but where I was at I wrote like 2 and half chapters, and then I ran out of paper. Heh Heh. Any way I'm really sorry cuz I love wirting these and I just don't have the time. I swear though I'll keep writing as everyone keeps reviewing. You can't understand what its like to open up my inbox and realise there is 5 e-mails that isn't spam. I feel so proud. I love everyone, hell may as well share it round!! LOL!!

To Kate, ramblings cool, that's what most of my essay's are. If you do decide to write a fic, tell me cuz I'd luv to read it. Good luck in year 12, I'm in year 8, still the babies.

To Elwood Gurl 21 nice to know you care so much LOL!! Hope you like this chapter.

To Sarah I'm an Aussie, you like Jess as much as I do, and yeah the most gorgeousguy in the world suits pretty good. To reply to your spoiler I read that Milo signed a deal for another 2 years so hopefully the last part doesn't happen, the first bit sure but if the 2nd bit does I start a petition or we could just kiddnap him for our own uses.LOL!!!

Forbidden or Fate?

"He who cannot forgive

a trespass of malice to his

enemy, has never yet tasted

the most sublime

enjoyment of love"

-Johann Kasper Lavater

Two days after the bridge incident, all four people were sitting in the car; the hours long journey, was tense from the start and only got worse as the heat increase and tempers frayed.

Jess and Rory hadn't spoken a word to each other. Jess went back to being the sullen teenager, that he was when he first came to Stars Hollow. Luke noticed the change and tried to ask him about it, but all he got was a sarcastic stare. It was hard for Jess to really trust anyone like he did for Rory, if anything his mother just inforced his natural instinct to close up against the world. He couldn't understand fully why her mind had changed so quickly, he knew that Lorelai was involved somehow, but she wasn't the whole reason. Jess hurt to remember that living in this world you are going to be pained and to be the one to inflict it; and that didn't change for a single person. What killed him the most though, was that he still wanted and needed her, a power that no one had ever had over him.

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They were in Philadelphia now, driving around, looking for the hotel. Luke was driving and complaining about big cities and Lorelai wasn't helping by trying to direct. "Luke, nuh uh, that way!" she took the steering wheel and turned it.

Luke finally had enough and didn't want to die so he pulled up onto the curb. "Okay Lorelai you ever do that again, and I'll drive straight home and never give you coffee as long as I live."

Lorelai just pouted and stuck her tongue out at him.

Jess sighed, "Luke, gimme the me the map." Luke passed it to him. After about 5 minutes of deliberation he looked up and got out of the car and went round to Luke's door. "Well?"

"What?" Luke looked confused.

"I'm the only one who knows how to get there, so I get to drive. Don't argue cuz, I really don't feel like it," he added tiredly. Luke and Jess swapped seats and they went off again. Jess stopped at a huge hotel; the inner circle was lined with Roll's and Mercs. It towered stories and was all sophistically decorated.

"Jess, this can't be the place," Luke said.

"'De Burke Elegance' yup that's what it says on the ticket. Huh, I've never stayed in anything like this, come to think of it these cars look more comfortable than my flat," Jess answered. A nicely dressed man in a suit took their bags and led them to reception. When Luke showed them their tickets they rang a bell and Daniel came out of his office.

"Lorelai! You made it! You must be Luke; Jess and I met you last time Rory. I would love to stay and chat but I have to organise for tonight. Here are your keys and events timetables. I'll see you at the ball." He was taken away by a frantic manager.

They took the elevator to their rooms, which were all in a row. "Lorelai before you even start, 2 rooms have king size beds which we get each and Jess and Rory can have the rooms with 2 singles. The dinner thing starts at 7 so we got 4 hours to kill. We'll meet out here at 6 then go down together," Luke instructed them.

"Bully," Lorelai pouted.

"Just organising or we'll never get anywhere," he replied.

They all got settled into their rooms, Jess read, Luke went to look at the basketball courts and Lorelai and Rory squealed at the hotel pamphlet. "Look at the swimming pool, it's indoors and warm, with a sauna. Ooo! Hey it closes and 10pm. That's early. Oh well. What's the ball thing where going tonight for?" Rory asked.

"Ahh, umm I think it's for the opening of the place. Who cares really, this hotel is cool," Lorelai said excitedly.

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A few hours later, Lorelai and Rory were running around looking for clothes. Jess and Luke just wore tuxes. Luke watched on bemused at them, where as Jess ignored them and kept reading. Finally at quarter to 7, they made their way down to the bottom floor. Their rooms were on the 24th floor so it took awhile to get down, even in the lift.

"I wanna go! I wanna go!" Lorelai jumped, making the elevator move.

"Ok, ok, we're there now let me out!" Rory pushed through the door in fear of it falling.

They walked into the ballroom which was decorated in gold and silver strips of material, hanging down the walls and then round tables of various sizes circled the room with matching tablecloths. A penguin waiter led them over to a table on the side of the stage, which was to the far end of the room. The crystal chandeliers reflected strobes of light onto the floor like diamonds and pearls. Each took a seat, the place settings all matched their surroundings.

"Why are there 3 sets of every thing, I do not need 3 plates plus 2 bowls and another 3 glasses. Jeez who does the washing up?" Luke ranted.

"Be quiet, you're so picky. Relax have fun, breathe the air, embrace the embuillent presence of people that have much more money than we will ever had combined," Lorelai said in a posh British accent taking a sip of white wine.

"What's this?" Luke drank a clear liquid that was in a bowl and had a lemon slice in it.

"Luke, I swear, you need a life. And fast. You wash your hands in that," Jess said.

"Ahh, the sullen one speaks. What' wrong with you? I've heard silence be louder than you, Lorelai stared hard at him.

"Don't feel like talking," Jess shrugged. A tense lull fell apon the group; it was becoming extremely common. Luckily for them the food came and eating the many meals provided a needed distraction. When the room was finished, the crockery was taken away and people got up for speeches.

"I'm bored," Lorelai whined.

"The speeches haven't even started yet," Luke said witheringly.

"Yeah, but I'm being prepared. Look what happened when I wasn't," she answered waving her hand at Rory.

Luke rolled his eyes and looked towards the stage. Daniel moved towards the centre, there was a mischievous twinkle in his eyes. "Now I know that some people are getting bored slash ansty, so I say thankyou to everyone here and I pronounced my hotel, the 'De Burke Elegance' OPEN!" pulling a leaver, shiny confetti fell from the roof and loud music blared from the speakers.

"Lets go!" Lorelai dragged Luke form his chair; "I never got a chance last time. Oh yeah, no punch for you!" she laughed, leaving Rory and Jess alone at the table staring at imagined objects. A very good looking guy came up to them. "Now, I've been watching you all night pack away more food than I do in a week, so I figured that you'd have enough energy to dance with me," he offered Rory his hand," and it does seem a shame to only let you dance with your brother." Looking at Jess, who stared sullenly back, turning to Rory; Jess said, "Well, go, it's not like I'd be good enough for you any way."

Rory opened her mouth slightly, her eyes had a film of tears over them, she blinked them away, her gaze turned cold. She stood up and took the guy's hand, "Well with a pick up line like that who could refuse?" In Jess' plain view, she started dancing with him. "Umm, what's your name?" she stuttered. "Brent, and you are?" "Rory," she answered. Feeling the anger and sadness that had consumed her thoughts for days, she gathered the nerve to lay her head on his shoulder. In her mind, she told herself she was enjoying Brent, but really she wanted to hurt Jess for what he thought. How could he accuse her of that? Rory knew exactly the reason, but she didn't want to admit it.

Jess sat the table; he felt the guilt of hurting her. This was a fairly new emotion for him and he hated it. There was nothing in his life that he had ever needed to feel guilty about, except for the scars his mom and dad had left, buried deep in his sub-conscious from when he was little. Jess didn't like what he had said to Rory, but he thought she deserved it. Now she was dancing with that guy, jealousy arose in his chest. When he saw her put her head on his shoulder, something snapped. It was more than he could take. That should have been him, like it was on the bridge that night. Maybe he didn't mean anything to her; she seemed to be getting on fairly quickly. Maybe Jess was just the rebound guy, without the whole relationship part. He got up form his seat, leaving the music and laughter behind and walked towards the lift where he could forget about everything. "The little alcohol bottles weren't in there for nothing' he thought. He reached the lift and pressed the button for it to shut.

Rory saw Jess leave and she knew she couldn't leave things like this, there was something about Jess; when she touched him, when she talked to him, when they sat in silence, everything he did fascinated her, he was enchanting, dangerous but loving, something that she should stay away from but couldn't. Wouldn't. The door on the lift was inches from closing, Rory stuck her foot in and jammed it from shutting. She squeezed in and pressed the close button, then turned around to face Jess.

'Oh crap, don't do this Rory. I don't wanna talk. Just go away' Jess pleaded in his mind. Inside, he was hurt and angry, torn up about what he felt. Outside though he was calm, unfazed by anything and uncaring about the girl who was in his every thought and every desire.

"Why aren't you with that guy, he seemed to be more your type?" Jess said to her.

"Jess I'm so sorry," Rory couldn't look at him.

"For what, leading me on or just plain shattering our friendship?" he said bitterly.

"I didn't mean to……. I don't think that… Please, I don't want us not to be friends," she spluttered.

Jess turned away, looking at her pained him more than she could understand. All she wanted was to be friends and he didn't think he could deal with that. She reached up and tried to get him to look at her. He pushed her hand away, more roughly than he intended the warmth of sent shoots of electricity through his body.

"Jess please, talk to me," her voice quivered.

"Rory, just don't," he said harshly backing away. Suddenly the light went off and the lift was plunged into darkness. Seconds later an emergency light dully glowed above him.

"Jess what's happening?' he could hear the fear in her voice, he wanted to hold her, to comfort her but he knew that he couldn't.

"The powers out, the life isn't moving," he answered shortly. Pressing the phone button he called the reception. "Excuse me what's wrong, I'm stuck in the lift," he asked as politely as he could.

"I'm sorry, the powers out. The emergency power is running but we're having problems returning all of it to the lifts."

"So you me I have to stay here?" Jess was slightly panicked; he didn't want to be here with Rory, the proximity was to close.

"I'm extremely sorry sir, you will be re-embursed by the hotel, for now I suggest you just sit tight."

"Okay thanks," Jess sighed. 'Please don't let me do something I might regret' he begged to anyone that was listening.

"This is weird," Rory half laughed. Seeing his cold stare, she crumbled, " Jess I can't take this any more. I hate not being able to talk and touch you. You said that I think that your not good enough for me, I don't think that, I….I just got scared. Your different, I don't understand what you make me feel. I'm so sorry," she stared at him, begging him to forgive her and something that he recognised in himself but never thought would see in her.

Need and want began to take over him; slowly he backed her against the wall. Jess needed every part of his being not to rush into this. He rested his hand on her hip and the other moved up her side. The fingertips softly traced her lips and then went to cradle the back of her neck. Their breathing was becoming erratic; Rory looked at him in awe. He lent forward and kissed both her eyelids, then her ear and then placing them to the corner of her mouth. This contact was killing him, but he wanted her to beg for him, to know what it was like to need someone that bad.

"Jess please," Rory whimpered and that was all he could bear. He pressed his mouth against her's; further he indruded. Gently he tilted her head up and licked her bottom lip. He guided her jaw to part, allowing him in, his tongue traced her teeth then stroked her tongue. They broke apart for air, but connected again seconds later. Feeling that his knees weren't going to hold him much longer, Jess sunk onto the floor, lightly tugging Rory to move with him. He pulled her on top of him and kept kissing her; Luke was gunna kill him, but he didn't care, he had been patient enough. Thinking was becoming a problem now so he gave in to most of his inhibitions. He wouldn't let it go that far just yet, it wasn't right or where he wanted it to be, it would only humiliate her now any way, so Jess was eager just to kiss until something stopped them

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After what seemed like and eternity, they both sat up gasping for air. Their jaws ached and their lips were tender and malleable. Rory sat in his lap and turned towards, "I don't think anything like that, I swear I don't," she buried her head in his neck. He cuddled her, "Shh Ror, I know, it's okay." They sat together for awhile until Jess asked the question that plagued him. "Does this mean we're a couple now?" bracing himself for the answer. Rory pondered for a minute, "Yes," relief surged through him, "but," 'damn' "We can't tell Luke or my mom just yet. I don't want to upset her."

Jess smiled, as long as he was with Rory that was all that he cared about. "A clasdine relationship, never had one of those before, sounds fun." He kissed her fore head. The lights came back on and the sound of the lift started moving again. They stood up, still holding onto each other.

"That was very strange and cliché," Rory muttered.

"Uh huh," was all Jess could come up with.

The doors opened and they went to their rooms. Unsure of what do next, they stood there for a second.

"Umm, I know this is kinda fast so I understand if you say no, but do you wanna come in my room for a bit, we could watch the movies you and your mother insanely brought?" Jess said in a rush fidgeting with his cuffs. Rory looked at him, the vulnerability of a child, temperarily surfaced in his eyes then faded again. "Okay, I gotta get changed 1st." A smile lit up his face; she had never seen him this happy. 'This can't be good. Ugh, stop it Gilmore, Jess wouldn't try anything here; but even if he did, would you stop him?" A voice in the back of her head whispered. She shook the thought off and got changed into her PJ's. Rory got the videos and then went straight into Jess' room. Jess was wearing grey sweats and a loose T-shirt.

He smiled, "wadda ya got?"

"Er, Willy Wonka, the classic, Stepmom, a tear jerker, xXx, cuz mom thinks Vin Diesal is hot and Richy Rich cuz I want the house."

Jess sat on the bed, leaning up against the headboard, "Muculy Culkin's really scewed up, imagine getting married and his age." Rory shook her head; "At least he didn't have a kid. So you wanna watch…"

Jess tilted his head, "I can safety say under normal circumstances I would never subject myself to Stepmom, xXx or Richy Rich, so I guess I'm gunna have to watch Willy Wonka for the millionth time.

Rory grinned, knowing that he had chosen that because she wanted to watch it. She put the video in and looked around the room to find a place to sit. The chair was covered in Jess' stuff and the other bed was to far away from the T.V.

"Sit here," Jess pattered the space between him legs. Rory looked unsure, but after a moments hesitation she accepted the offer, climbing to sit with him. This closeness was intimidating, especially since they were on the same bed and no parents near by. Jess felt the tension in her, so he turned her head, "We don't have to be here if you don't want, but I promise I won't do anything you don't wanna do."

Rory turned back round and settled into him, taking his hands she wrapped them around herself. "No, I like it here and I do trust you." Happily Jess propped his chin on her head and they watched the movie. It was 11pm when it finished and they were in the same position that they were at the beginning. Luke and Lorelai hadn't been heard yet so both figured it'd be ok to stay here for now.

"So are you going to go now?" Jess asked tentivly, he didn't want her to but he knew she should.

"You really want me to go?" Rory asked lazily, her eyes were half closed, enjoying his warmth.

"No but what about your mother. I don't even want to contemplate what she might do if she found us like this."

"Ugh, lets not think about that at the moment," Rory screwed up her face up. Jess' hand slipped from her arm and moved to the bottom of her pyjama top. Slowly it slid underneath and traced her belly button. He could feel the muscles tighten. "Can I?" he whispered in a half-completed request.

Rory didn't answer; she just closed her eyes and pushed her head slightly into his chest. Jess brought his hand up further reaching her solar plexus. He didn't want to venture any more, it was still early. He tiptoed back down again and Rory took the back of his head and brought his mouth to hers. She layed back in the pillows, him partially covering her. The kiss grew more intense until Jess broke away. "This is way too fast," with the other girls her probably would have slept with her already, but he didn't want it be like that with Rory. She nodded, her lips were slightly swollen and glowing red.

"I should really go, they've gotta be back soon," she smiled at him and stroked his cheek. "Tomorrow presents a challenge of self control."

"I think I might just stay in a cold shower for the whole day, you could join me," he added wickedly. Rory blushed and lightly kissed his forehead and went back to her room to dream about what mother had feared ever since she laid eyes on him.

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