disclaimers: I do not own Yugioh and if I did, you can damn well bet that
Yami Bakura would be mine. ^_^
This is Yaoi and is boyxboy love.
Please read and review minna!
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR REVIEWING! ^_^
I TOO HAVE A HEART
Ryou swallows hard, I'm completely entranced. "I..I was raped...." he chokes out in a hushed sob. I drop the spoon, metal clattering against wood causing me to wince. Ryou's huddled within himself, tears streaking his face. A wave of compassion overtakes me and I wrap my arms around my aibou. He tenses for a few seconds before giving into my embrace. I rock him gently, kissing his hair. I know all too well what its like to be raped, to have your innocence stripped from your body..
(flashback)
"Slut!" yelled a man, whip in hand. He advanced on a small boy who was trying his best not to let out the whimpers or not to cry in pain from the slashes of the weapon. The boy's terrifed eyes grew rounder. "There you are, my pet. Am I going to have to teach you a lesson?" The man utied the sash around his waist, grinning wickedly at the boy. Brown eyes went wider in confusion. "I'm going to enjoy this," he breathed huskily at the white haired child. The boy instinctively clutched at his clothes but it was a futile gesture. The man hauled the boy to his feet, quickly undressing him. The boy no longer knew the meaning of innocence again..
(end flashback)
I grit my teeth. That day still haunts my dreams, no my nightmares. I can't believe sick bastards like my father have survived to this day. Ryou seems on the verge of nervous breakdown. I squeeze him more tightly, allowing him to know that I'm here and that I'll listen. I always thought I had a bad life. Not anymore. Ryou's tops that. At least....at least I'm not going to die anytime soon. Tears bite at my eyes, a few of the traitorous drops splash against Ryou's hair. One of the days I'm glad he has thick hair. What am I going to do without him? Will I be sealed into the ring the second he leaves this plane of existence? I think I should die with him. It would spare me the pain of having to live without him.
"How can you stand to touch me?" he asks suddenly, breaking the oppressive silence that harborded the room unbiddeningly. Ryou breaks free of my grasp and refuses to meet my eyes. I sigh as I put my hands on his shoulders. As expected, he shys from my touch.
"What do you mean? Why wouldn't I want to touch you?"
"I'm dirty."
I laugh. Ryou's head snaps up and he stares at me quizzically. A smile graces my lips and he's even more puzzled. "I should be the one asking you that." I cease laughing and shake my head at the sheer absurdity of the situation.
"Huh?"
"Ryou, koi, I was raped once too. I was eight when it happened. It was by my father. See Ryou, we both feel dirty so, why don't we just cleanse each other of the filth. It weighs it evenly." I smile again and capture his lips in a soft kiss. "Ryou, don't ever think that way about yourself again, do you hear me?" He nods. "Here I thought I didn't deserve you and you think you don't deserve me."
He chuckles, hands coming to support himself against my chest. "We balance each other, don't we? We were meant to be..." I will the lump in my throat away. I have to keep strong for Ryou. I answer by kissing a strand of snow hair wound around my fingers. "But its all going to end soon." So much for my training. Tears flow, tears I've built up since I first learned of the news. Ryou's staring at me, shocked to see that a harsh bastard like myself could actually emit tears of pain. His fingers come to my eyes and wipe the drops aside. I can't allow him to feel pity for me. I withdraw from the embrace and begin to leave the kitchen. His voice rings clear and calm through the room. "I'm not scared so you shouldn't be either."
I pause but keep my back turned so I don't have to stare into those eyes. "Who says I'm scared? Maybe I'm just worried that I'll return to the Ring." That was a load of bullshit but I'm not frightened either. I'm in pain. Can't he see that? How can he be so calm when he's maybe days from dieing and leaving me forever? Several tremors rack my body and I can't hold myself up. I collapse to the floor and I sob. I sob like the child I never had a chance to be.
Ryou sighs. "Yami....I'm sorry. I haven't been thinking about what this has done to you. I always figured it didn't bother you. I mean, you never once showed this kind of pain about it. Not even when you first learned of it. I thought you didn't care."
"DIDN'T CARE?!!!!" I snap, snarling at him viciously. The corner of Ryou's lips twitch and he kneels beside me, unaffected by my current mood. "How can you say that Ryou?!" I demand but all he does is sit there with that half-smile. I feel the urge to punch him but I refrain. "Ryou.. do you think I'm that cold-hearted?" He doesn't answer. "Ryou," I grab his hand. "I..." I've never said these words before, never wanted to but I will say them for him. "I love you Ryou."
Ryou's eyes grow twice their normal size and his jaw drops but no words spill. Instead, Ryou knocks me to the floor and attacks me with frantic kisses. "I love you too Yami, so much!" His kisses become even more needy as he begins to undress me. I put a hand on his to halt his administrations.
"Are you sure about this?"
"Of course I am! I might not be strong enough later on to do this so please Yami, don't stop this. Please." His eyes are begging me and I release him. To have my aibou in the most intimate of ways. Its two souls and bodies becoming one.
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AN: Use your imagination for what they did. ^_~ I can't post a lemon...sigh
SONG FOR THIS CHAPTER:
Don't you SEE!!!
In spite that it would be nice if words flow out to me
Like when one writes a letter to a friend
I want some time to know each other a little more
That the only one who won't betray you is your family
Is too lonely a thing Love is asking to be loved
I know I'll be happy if I stop believing but
Don't you see! Even if I ask and pray for miracles and memories
I worry a little
Don't you see! Even if I have a habit of pretending to be cold
I'm afraid to be hurt
Though it's only been five minutes
Of silence since I waited in the taxi stand
I feel like it's been an eternity
Wasting my time and making me weary
An event that doesn't help a love that lost its color
Don't you see! We're not to be beaten
By such petty quarrels
Don't you see! Rather than ogle at girls
I want to look just at you
Don't you see!
I'll never worry, tonight
I'll lay me down, tonight
You know, I do it for you
Don't you see!
I'll never worry, tonight
I'll lay me down, tonight
You know, I do it for you
AN: this song came from Dragonball GT. I just thought it fit. ^_~
Don't you see! If we walk together on the streets Filled with scents of the town we were born Don't you see! No matter how much the people in this world hurry You can still catch me
This is Yaoi and is boyxboy love.
Please read and review minna!
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR REVIEWING! ^_^
I TOO HAVE A HEART
Ryou swallows hard, I'm completely entranced. "I..I was raped...." he chokes out in a hushed sob. I drop the spoon, metal clattering against wood causing me to wince. Ryou's huddled within himself, tears streaking his face. A wave of compassion overtakes me and I wrap my arms around my aibou. He tenses for a few seconds before giving into my embrace. I rock him gently, kissing his hair. I know all too well what its like to be raped, to have your innocence stripped from your body..
(flashback)
"Slut!" yelled a man, whip in hand. He advanced on a small boy who was trying his best not to let out the whimpers or not to cry in pain from the slashes of the weapon. The boy's terrifed eyes grew rounder. "There you are, my pet. Am I going to have to teach you a lesson?" The man utied the sash around his waist, grinning wickedly at the boy. Brown eyes went wider in confusion. "I'm going to enjoy this," he breathed huskily at the white haired child. The boy instinctively clutched at his clothes but it was a futile gesture. The man hauled the boy to his feet, quickly undressing him. The boy no longer knew the meaning of innocence again..
(end flashback)
I grit my teeth. That day still haunts my dreams, no my nightmares. I can't believe sick bastards like my father have survived to this day. Ryou seems on the verge of nervous breakdown. I squeeze him more tightly, allowing him to know that I'm here and that I'll listen. I always thought I had a bad life. Not anymore. Ryou's tops that. At least....at least I'm not going to die anytime soon. Tears bite at my eyes, a few of the traitorous drops splash against Ryou's hair. One of the days I'm glad he has thick hair. What am I going to do without him? Will I be sealed into the ring the second he leaves this plane of existence? I think I should die with him. It would spare me the pain of having to live without him.
"How can you stand to touch me?" he asks suddenly, breaking the oppressive silence that harborded the room unbiddeningly. Ryou breaks free of my grasp and refuses to meet my eyes. I sigh as I put my hands on his shoulders. As expected, he shys from my touch.
"What do you mean? Why wouldn't I want to touch you?"
"I'm dirty."
I laugh. Ryou's head snaps up and he stares at me quizzically. A smile graces my lips and he's even more puzzled. "I should be the one asking you that." I cease laughing and shake my head at the sheer absurdity of the situation.
"Huh?"
"Ryou, koi, I was raped once too. I was eight when it happened. It was by my father. See Ryou, we both feel dirty so, why don't we just cleanse each other of the filth. It weighs it evenly." I smile again and capture his lips in a soft kiss. "Ryou, don't ever think that way about yourself again, do you hear me?" He nods. "Here I thought I didn't deserve you and you think you don't deserve me."
He chuckles, hands coming to support himself against my chest. "We balance each other, don't we? We were meant to be..." I will the lump in my throat away. I have to keep strong for Ryou. I answer by kissing a strand of snow hair wound around my fingers. "But its all going to end soon." So much for my training. Tears flow, tears I've built up since I first learned of the news. Ryou's staring at me, shocked to see that a harsh bastard like myself could actually emit tears of pain. His fingers come to my eyes and wipe the drops aside. I can't allow him to feel pity for me. I withdraw from the embrace and begin to leave the kitchen. His voice rings clear and calm through the room. "I'm not scared so you shouldn't be either."
I pause but keep my back turned so I don't have to stare into those eyes. "Who says I'm scared? Maybe I'm just worried that I'll return to the Ring." That was a load of bullshit but I'm not frightened either. I'm in pain. Can't he see that? How can he be so calm when he's maybe days from dieing and leaving me forever? Several tremors rack my body and I can't hold myself up. I collapse to the floor and I sob. I sob like the child I never had a chance to be.
Ryou sighs. "Yami....I'm sorry. I haven't been thinking about what this has done to you. I always figured it didn't bother you. I mean, you never once showed this kind of pain about it. Not even when you first learned of it. I thought you didn't care."
"DIDN'T CARE?!!!!" I snap, snarling at him viciously. The corner of Ryou's lips twitch and he kneels beside me, unaffected by my current mood. "How can you say that Ryou?!" I demand but all he does is sit there with that half-smile. I feel the urge to punch him but I refrain. "Ryou.. do you think I'm that cold-hearted?" He doesn't answer. "Ryou," I grab his hand. "I..." I've never said these words before, never wanted to but I will say them for him. "I love you Ryou."
Ryou's eyes grow twice their normal size and his jaw drops but no words spill. Instead, Ryou knocks me to the floor and attacks me with frantic kisses. "I love you too Yami, so much!" His kisses become even more needy as he begins to undress me. I put a hand on his to halt his administrations.
"Are you sure about this?"
"Of course I am! I might not be strong enough later on to do this so please Yami, don't stop this. Please." His eyes are begging me and I release him. To have my aibou in the most intimate of ways. Its two souls and bodies becoming one.
* * *
AN: Use your imagination for what they did. ^_~ I can't post a lemon...sigh
SONG FOR THIS CHAPTER:
Don't you SEE!!!
In spite that it would be nice if words flow out to me
Like when one writes a letter to a friend
I want some time to know each other a little more
That the only one who won't betray you is your family
Is too lonely a thing Love is asking to be loved
I know I'll be happy if I stop believing but
Don't you see! Even if I ask and pray for miracles and memories
I worry a little
Don't you see! Even if I have a habit of pretending to be cold
I'm afraid to be hurt
Though it's only been five minutes
Of silence since I waited in the taxi stand
I feel like it's been an eternity
Wasting my time and making me weary
An event that doesn't help a love that lost its color
Don't you see! We're not to be beaten
By such petty quarrels
Don't you see! Rather than ogle at girls
I want to look just at you
Don't you see!
I'll never worry, tonight
I'll lay me down, tonight
You know, I do it for you
Don't you see!
I'll never worry, tonight
I'll lay me down, tonight
You know, I do it for you
AN: this song came from Dragonball GT. I just thought it fit. ^_~
Don't you see! If we walk together on the streets Filled with scents of the town we were born Don't you see! No matter how much the people in this world hurry You can still catch me