disclaimers: I do not own Yugioh and if I did, you can damn well bet that
Yami Bakura would be mine. ^_^
This is Yaoi and is boyxboy love.
Please read and review minna!
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR REVIEWING! ^_^
I TOO HAVE A HEART
I open my eyes to the dazzling sunlight streaming through Ryou's bedroom window. Ryou's curled against my chest, fingers kneading my bare chest. I only hope that our love making last night didn't make him weaker than he already is. I'm sure it took alot of energy out of him; energy he needs but I think that by submitting himself to me, he believes he's giving me something to remember him by. Its hard...to wake up every morning and think, this could be the day Ryou dies. He doesn't have much longer. I was thinking I should do something for him, get him out of the house. There's a carnival going on near the school. I know I would never do even consider that but Ryou deserves the very best. Who knows how much longer he'll be alive?
Ryou's eyes shudder open. He smiles up at me, cuddling closer. "Yami....thank you."
"Hn. You need to take a bath aibou." I run my hands across his back, drawing him on top of my chest, attacking his sides. He giggles, tears streaming down his cheeks. He's so beautiful when he's like this, so happy and carefree as if he's forgotten he's got cancer. "Go take a bath now Ryou. We're going on a date later."
He stops laughing, huge brown eyes peering up at me astonished. "You..you mean that Yami? Are we really?! Where?! When?!"
"Hype down, aibou. Yes, we're really going. I thought..well..the carnival and we'll leave as soon as you get out of the bath."
"Don't you need to take one too Yami? Couldn't you join me?" Ryou flutters his eyelashes coyly, an adorable pout accompanying the look. I sigh, giving indication that I agree. Ryou grabs my hand to pull me to the bathroom when he winces. I forgot that it would hurt.
"Ryou...I'm sorry. I should've been uke."
"Its okay Yami. I wanted it that way." Ryou smiles. I slip my arm around his waist. "It doesnt hurt much. Just a little bit. You were extra gentle with me so I wouldnt be. Right?" He wrinkles his nose, kissing my cheek.
"Hai." Once the water is hot, I pour a bottle of the Mr.Bubble solution that Ryou loves so much inside. The tubs huge and could probably fit four people. I smile. Ryou likes being pampered, something I learned a little to late. My smile turns grim. Why does it take a great tradegy to bring people together? Why did it take my losing Ryou for me to admit my love for him? What will happen to me once he does die? I shake that overwhelming shadow from my mind and focus on one objective: Ryou. "Get in. Dont think I'm going to carry you."
Ryou chuckles, hopping in the water, splashing it on me. I scowl half- heartedly before joining him. The view from Ryou's bathroom is breathtaking; the gardens below are a welcoming sight. I glance at my little aibou, his eyes are closed. "Ryou? Are you awake?"
"I'm awake Yami." I open my arms, beckoning him to come to me. He obliges and wraps his arms around my waist. "You've been so good to me Yami. I only wish..that I could be with you longer."
"Ryou...."
"..I'm sorry for not telling you about it. It was wrong of me. If I knew that..that you cared so much then I would have. I'm so-"
"No. You dont have to be sorry for anything because you didnt do it. I was the bastard who thought beating you would actually help. Damnit Ryou, this is not your fault. I never made any moves that I ~did~ care about you so you had every right to keep it to yourself."
"...Yami.......did you mean it when you told me you loved me?"
"Yes I did. I love you Ryou."
* * *
Ryou hangs onto my arm, walking slowly in the direction of the school. I tried to get him to eat breakfast before we left but he says that he'll get something at the carnival. We haven't spoke since this morning. Its like..we feel all we need when we're just close to each other. Ryou leans his head against my shoulder. /Yami....we'll see the others there./
/I know Aibou. I dont mind. Will it make you happy to see them?/
/It will. I havent seen them for awhile./
/Then, we'll make sure to find them, ne?/
/Right!/
Its amazing that the littlest things can keep him content. I'm not sure I want to face Yugi and his bothersome friends. I have a feeling their going to treat Ryou as if he's a piece of ceramic; handle with care. He's not that weak, yet at any rate. I dont want Ryou to feel helpless. If they so much as look at Ryou with pity, I swear I'll kill them.
We enter the brightly decorated carnival, the ferris wheel looming in the distance. Rides are spread out, game shops are set up on every corner, food places. I glance at Ryou. His eyes are shining. "What do you want to do first, little one?"
Ryou's stomach growled, answering for him. He blushed sheepishly. "I guess I'm hungry."
"Should you be eating before going on the rides?"
"...I'll be fine. Dont worry about me Yami." Ryou leads us to a noodle shop.
The man behind the counter seems to recognize Ryou, the look in his eyes are full of pity. I restrain the growl that is threatning to explode. The man looks at me, my anger must be somewhat clear for he clears his throat and adverts his attention from Ryou. Luckily, Ryou doesn't notice. "Your the fiftieth customer today, your noodles are free."
"Ooh! Cool! We get free food Yami!" Ryou smiles vivaciously, accepting the boxes of noodles, handing me one. I give the man a glare before joining Ryou. We eat our noodles and peer around for Ryou's friends. "Hey! Look! Its Yugi!" Just as Ryou goes to meet with his friend, he holds his stomach. He intakes a breath of air sharply, trying to mask the pain.
"Ryou?" I ask, holding him in my arms. Shit, I should've known he couldn't handle this much strenous of activity. "Love? Are you alright?"
"I'm fine!" he snaps angrily. "I dont need your pity as well Yami. Dont you think I get it enough?" Ryou gnaws his lip, tears spilling. "I'm sorry..."
"Ssh, its okay Ryou. I understand."
"....I dont want to die Yami," he whispers.
"....I know love, I know. Do you want to go home?" I sigh, rubbing small circles on his lower back to try and help him contain the hiccups that had been produced from his crying. Damnit..I dont want him to die either but theres not a damn thing I can do but just wait. Wait for the day when my little light's life is extinguished.
"No..I'll be okay now. Sorry I snapped like that."
"S'okay."
Yugi spots us and hurries over withYami and Joey. "Hi Ryou! Hi Bakura!" He smiles warmly, latching onto Yami's hand. "I'm glad you guys are here! We knew how much Ryou loves carnivals so we were going to go and get him later on! Now, looks like we dont have too!"
Yami rolls his eyes. "Yugi, settle down. See, this is why young humans these days are so hyper. Its a substance called sugar." Yami holds up a bag of cotton candy. I nod. Ryou's been like that before..well before he learned of his cancer. "Imagine if this had been in Egypt."
Ryou peers up at me. "Yami...can I have some?"
"Sure Ryou, anything for you."
"Hey I know! Why dont me, Ryou and and Joey go off and get some!?"
"Good idea Aibou." Yami watches them leave and ..I think he has something to say to me. I was right. "Bakura. Can you feel it too?"
"Feel what?"
"His life force dropping."
"...Yes. I can. I would appreciate if you didnt talk about it."
"Its hard..to let go?"
"Very. You dont know how much."
"You truly love him?"
"......Yes." And I meant it. Yami nods as if he suspected it all along. The pharoah seems to have that gift. We remain silent and..I'm grateful he doesnt ask anymore questions however..I must know. "Pharaoh..is there a way to save him?"
Yami sighs. "There may be."
* * *
@_@ Ryou might live?!
Thanks for reviewing and sorry it took so long to update....
Katya (I'm evil. Ryou having cancer is sad business! grrrrR) Crystalline (lmao...i didnt update that quickly...) AsianAngel (its up,but not soon!) rainbowscale (yeah, cliffies are evilllllll! ^__^ thanks for reading my other stories!) Cayenne (well, heres more)
*_~
This is Yaoi and is boyxboy love.
Please read and review minna!
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR REVIEWING! ^_^
I TOO HAVE A HEART
I open my eyes to the dazzling sunlight streaming through Ryou's bedroom window. Ryou's curled against my chest, fingers kneading my bare chest. I only hope that our love making last night didn't make him weaker than he already is. I'm sure it took alot of energy out of him; energy he needs but I think that by submitting himself to me, he believes he's giving me something to remember him by. Its hard...to wake up every morning and think, this could be the day Ryou dies. He doesn't have much longer. I was thinking I should do something for him, get him out of the house. There's a carnival going on near the school. I know I would never do even consider that but Ryou deserves the very best. Who knows how much longer he'll be alive?
Ryou's eyes shudder open. He smiles up at me, cuddling closer. "Yami....thank you."
"Hn. You need to take a bath aibou." I run my hands across his back, drawing him on top of my chest, attacking his sides. He giggles, tears streaming down his cheeks. He's so beautiful when he's like this, so happy and carefree as if he's forgotten he's got cancer. "Go take a bath now Ryou. We're going on a date later."
He stops laughing, huge brown eyes peering up at me astonished. "You..you mean that Yami? Are we really?! Where?! When?!"
"Hype down, aibou. Yes, we're really going. I thought..well..the carnival and we'll leave as soon as you get out of the bath."
"Don't you need to take one too Yami? Couldn't you join me?" Ryou flutters his eyelashes coyly, an adorable pout accompanying the look. I sigh, giving indication that I agree. Ryou grabs my hand to pull me to the bathroom when he winces. I forgot that it would hurt.
"Ryou...I'm sorry. I should've been uke."
"Its okay Yami. I wanted it that way." Ryou smiles. I slip my arm around his waist. "It doesnt hurt much. Just a little bit. You were extra gentle with me so I wouldnt be. Right?" He wrinkles his nose, kissing my cheek.
"Hai." Once the water is hot, I pour a bottle of the Mr.Bubble solution that Ryou loves so much inside. The tubs huge and could probably fit four people. I smile. Ryou likes being pampered, something I learned a little to late. My smile turns grim. Why does it take a great tradegy to bring people together? Why did it take my losing Ryou for me to admit my love for him? What will happen to me once he does die? I shake that overwhelming shadow from my mind and focus on one objective: Ryou. "Get in. Dont think I'm going to carry you."
Ryou chuckles, hopping in the water, splashing it on me. I scowl half- heartedly before joining him. The view from Ryou's bathroom is breathtaking; the gardens below are a welcoming sight. I glance at my little aibou, his eyes are closed. "Ryou? Are you awake?"
"I'm awake Yami." I open my arms, beckoning him to come to me. He obliges and wraps his arms around my waist. "You've been so good to me Yami. I only wish..that I could be with you longer."
"Ryou...."
"..I'm sorry for not telling you about it. It was wrong of me. If I knew that..that you cared so much then I would have. I'm so-"
"No. You dont have to be sorry for anything because you didnt do it. I was the bastard who thought beating you would actually help. Damnit Ryou, this is not your fault. I never made any moves that I ~did~ care about you so you had every right to keep it to yourself."
"...Yami.......did you mean it when you told me you loved me?"
"Yes I did. I love you Ryou."
* * *
Ryou hangs onto my arm, walking slowly in the direction of the school. I tried to get him to eat breakfast before we left but he says that he'll get something at the carnival. We haven't spoke since this morning. Its like..we feel all we need when we're just close to each other. Ryou leans his head against my shoulder. /Yami....we'll see the others there./
/I know Aibou. I dont mind. Will it make you happy to see them?/
/It will. I havent seen them for awhile./
/Then, we'll make sure to find them, ne?/
/Right!/
Its amazing that the littlest things can keep him content. I'm not sure I want to face Yugi and his bothersome friends. I have a feeling their going to treat Ryou as if he's a piece of ceramic; handle with care. He's not that weak, yet at any rate. I dont want Ryou to feel helpless. If they so much as look at Ryou with pity, I swear I'll kill them.
We enter the brightly decorated carnival, the ferris wheel looming in the distance. Rides are spread out, game shops are set up on every corner, food places. I glance at Ryou. His eyes are shining. "What do you want to do first, little one?"
Ryou's stomach growled, answering for him. He blushed sheepishly. "I guess I'm hungry."
"Should you be eating before going on the rides?"
"...I'll be fine. Dont worry about me Yami." Ryou leads us to a noodle shop.
The man behind the counter seems to recognize Ryou, the look in his eyes are full of pity. I restrain the growl that is threatning to explode. The man looks at me, my anger must be somewhat clear for he clears his throat and adverts his attention from Ryou. Luckily, Ryou doesn't notice. "Your the fiftieth customer today, your noodles are free."
"Ooh! Cool! We get free food Yami!" Ryou smiles vivaciously, accepting the boxes of noodles, handing me one. I give the man a glare before joining Ryou. We eat our noodles and peer around for Ryou's friends. "Hey! Look! Its Yugi!" Just as Ryou goes to meet with his friend, he holds his stomach. He intakes a breath of air sharply, trying to mask the pain.
"Ryou?" I ask, holding him in my arms. Shit, I should've known he couldn't handle this much strenous of activity. "Love? Are you alright?"
"I'm fine!" he snaps angrily. "I dont need your pity as well Yami. Dont you think I get it enough?" Ryou gnaws his lip, tears spilling. "I'm sorry..."
"Ssh, its okay Ryou. I understand."
"....I dont want to die Yami," he whispers.
"....I know love, I know. Do you want to go home?" I sigh, rubbing small circles on his lower back to try and help him contain the hiccups that had been produced from his crying. Damnit..I dont want him to die either but theres not a damn thing I can do but just wait. Wait for the day when my little light's life is extinguished.
"No..I'll be okay now. Sorry I snapped like that."
"S'okay."
Yugi spots us and hurries over withYami and Joey. "Hi Ryou! Hi Bakura!" He smiles warmly, latching onto Yami's hand. "I'm glad you guys are here! We knew how much Ryou loves carnivals so we were going to go and get him later on! Now, looks like we dont have too!"
Yami rolls his eyes. "Yugi, settle down. See, this is why young humans these days are so hyper. Its a substance called sugar." Yami holds up a bag of cotton candy. I nod. Ryou's been like that before..well before he learned of his cancer. "Imagine if this had been in Egypt."
Ryou peers up at me. "Yami...can I have some?"
"Sure Ryou, anything for you."
"Hey I know! Why dont me, Ryou and and Joey go off and get some!?"
"Good idea Aibou." Yami watches them leave and ..I think he has something to say to me. I was right. "Bakura. Can you feel it too?"
"Feel what?"
"His life force dropping."
"...Yes. I can. I would appreciate if you didnt talk about it."
"Its hard..to let go?"
"Very. You dont know how much."
"You truly love him?"
"......Yes." And I meant it. Yami nods as if he suspected it all along. The pharoah seems to have that gift. We remain silent and..I'm grateful he doesnt ask anymore questions however..I must know. "Pharaoh..is there a way to save him?"
Yami sighs. "There may be."
* * *
@_@ Ryou might live?!
Thanks for reviewing and sorry it took so long to update....
Katya (I'm evil. Ryou having cancer is sad business! grrrrR) Crystalline (lmao...i didnt update that quickly...) AsianAngel (its up,but not soon!) rainbowscale (yeah, cliffies are evilllllll! ^__^ thanks for reading my other stories!) Cayenne (well, heres more)
*_~