TITLE: Tears
AUTHOR: caz
EMAIL: caz_gobby@hotmail.com
SPOILERS: Meridian is the main one but it relates to a lot other episodes as well.
SEASON/ SEQUEL: It's set kinda a few months after meridian so.
RATING: PG (to be on the safe side)
SUMMARY: Sam is suffering from an illness that threatens everything.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: .enjoy! (I hope!)
Sam opened her eyes with a sensation of de ja vu as the familiar infirmary surroundings began to swim into focus. This time, though, she heard voices.
"So what you're telling me is..." The first was Colonel O'Neill's, a serious and somewhat concerned and disbelieving voice.
"Yes sir. I'm afraid it really is that serious." The next was Janet's, as serious and matter-of-fact as ever although Sam could detect sadness and tension there.
"Mmmmmm... what's serious?" Sam groaned, only just conscious. Jack, Janet and General Hammond shot worried looks at each other before walking closer to Sam to speak to her.
"How are you feeling?" Janet's voice was definitely tense. Sam could hardly concentrate on anything yet she managed to notice this.
"Not too great... what's wrong? What's going on?" Sam put a hand to her head, she was regaining her concentration but the throbbing in her head was also returning. Her three friends looked at each other, Sam was feeling more and more nervous by the minute.
"I'm afraid we have some very bad news for you Major." Hammond could hardly bring himself to speak. He could deal with anything, anything but this.
"Sir?" Sam looked at the three of them in turn as she got a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach.
"Those nasty headaches you've been getting..." Jack couldn't bring himself to look at her so he stood staring at his feet as he spoke. "The tiredness and general yucky feelings... we know why." Sam was starting to feel very panicky.
"What's going on?"
"We took a cat scan... I'm sorry Sam, there's no easy way to say this. You've got cancer. A brain tumour...." Janet's words faded into the background. Sam just couldn't take it in. Brain tumour. Cancer. Her. Why? Cancer. Cancer. Cancer. The word stuck in her head like a broken record. She came out of her trance just in time to catch Janet saying,
"...too developed for any treatment to have a useful effect."
"How long do I have? I mean it can't be so developed. I've only had the headaches for a few weeks." Sam looked at Jack but he was staring at the floor still. She looked at Hammond who couldn't hold her gaze. She looked at Janet who stared at her before speaking.
"It's bad Sam." Janet brushed Sam's hair off her face, she was finding it hard to look into those blue eyes and tell her best friend that she was dying. Janet sighed and stared at Sam's hand, which she was now holding.
"The naquata left in your blood by Jolinar has caused the mutant cell growth to be nearly fifty times that of an average human." Carter was getting more and more worried by the second, her eyes were burning and there was a lump in her throat.
"So... what? I have weeks not months?" Janet could feel the tears welling up behind her eyes. This wasn't fair and so soon after Daniel. She couldn't bear to watch another friend die. Her voice was tight as she tried to remain composed. "I'm afraid its more like days."
"Days!" This couldn't be happening to her, she must be dreaming. No she knew she wasn't, the pain in her head was too excruciating to be any dream. "There must be some mistake... I... I mean... days!"
"I'm sorry Sam." General Hammond's voice had a fatherly tone to it as he said this. "There may be one slim chance for you..."
Just then Teal'c entered the infirmary.
"General Hammond, I have successfully reached the Tok'ra and they will send a representative immediately." Teal'c walked over to Sam's bed. Sam frowned, confused as to what was going on.
"Implantation?" she asked looking round at all the grave faces as she fought to be pragmatic.
"No Major Carter. That would not be possible. The protein marker left in your blood would not allow another symbiote to be implanted. The host is not meant to outlive the symbiote. I am sorry."
Teal'c was nearly reduced to tears as he said this. After the death of Daniel Jackson, he and Major Carter had become much closer.
"What then?" asked Sam taking Teal'c's hand to comfort him and herself.
"The Goa'uld healing thingy." Jack explained waving his hand around vaguely. He felt numb.
"No one on this base can operate it so we have sent for one of the Tok'ra and we have asked that they send Jacob as soon as possible." General Hammond explained.
"Thank you sir." Carter said, suddenly feeling very tired.
"You should try and get some rest." Janet chided gently as she saw Sam fighting to keep her eyes open.
"We'll leave you in peace." Hammond touched her shoulder and smiled before leaving the room. Janet looked at her watch.
"I'll be back in a few minutes." She said smiling as she left the room. Teal'c squeezed Sam's hand gently and she looked up at him. He gave her a look that said everything and then bowed before leaving. Jack started to follow him but paused when he reached the door and turned round.
"Carter?"
"Yes sir?" she murmured, looking at him.
"Take it easy, ok?"
"Yes sir." she smiled faintly as he walked out of the room. For once he was right, she should take it easy.
AUTHOR: caz
EMAIL: caz_gobby@hotmail.com
SPOILERS: Meridian is the main one but it relates to a lot other episodes as well.
SEASON/ SEQUEL: It's set kinda a few months after meridian so.
RATING: PG (to be on the safe side)
SUMMARY: Sam is suffering from an illness that threatens everything.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: .enjoy! (I hope!)
Sam opened her eyes with a sensation of de ja vu as the familiar infirmary surroundings began to swim into focus. This time, though, she heard voices.
"So what you're telling me is..." The first was Colonel O'Neill's, a serious and somewhat concerned and disbelieving voice.
"Yes sir. I'm afraid it really is that serious." The next was Janet's, as serious and matter-of-fact as ever although Sam could detect sadness and tension there.
"Mmmmmm... what's serious?" Sam groaned, only just conscious. Jack, Janet and General Hammond shot worried looks at each other before walking closer to Sam to speak to her.
"How are you feeling?" Janet's voice was definitely tense. Sam could hardly concentrate on anything yet she managed to notice this.
"Not too great... what's wrong? What's going on?" Sam put a hand to her head, she was regaining her concentration but the throbbing in her head was also returning. Her three friends looked at each other, Sam was feeling more and more nervous by the minute.
"I'm afraid we have some very bad news for you Major." Hammond could hardly bring himself to speak. He could deal with anything, anything but this.
"Sir?" Sam looked at the three of them in turn as she got a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach.
"Those nasty headaches you've been getting..." Jack couldn't bring himself to look at her so he stood staring at his feet as he spoke. "The tiredness and general yucky feelings... we know why." Sam was starting to feel very panicky.
"What's going on?"
"We took a cat scan... I'm sorry Sam, there's no easy way to say this. You've got cancer. A brain tumour...." Janet's words faded into the background. Sam just couldn't take it in. Brain tumour. Cancer. Her. Why? Cancer. Cancer. Cancer. The word stuck in her head like a broken record. She came out of her trance just in time to catch Janet saying,
"...too developed for any treatment to have a useful effect."
"How long do I have? I mean it can't be so developed. I've only had the headaches for a few weeks." Sam looked at Jack but he was staring at the floor still. She looked at Hammond who couldn't hold her gaze. She looked at Janet who stared at her before speaking.
"It's bad Sam." Janet brushed Sam's hair off her face, she was finding it hard to look into those blue eyes and tell her best friend that she was dying. Janet sighed and stared at Sam's hand, which she was now holding.
"The naquata left in your blood by Jolinar has caused the mutant cell growth to be nearly fifty times that of an average human." Carter was getting more and more worried by the second, her eyes were burning and there was a lump in her throat.
"So... what? I have weeks not months?" Janet could feel the tears welling up behind her eyes. This wasn't fair and so soon after Daniel. She couldn't bear to watch another friend die. Her voice was tight as she tried to remain composed. "I'm afraid its more like days."
"Days!" This couldn't be happening to her, she must be dreaming. No she knew she wasn't, the pain in her head was too excruciating to be any dream. "There must be some mistake... I... I mean... days!"
"I'm sorry Sam." General Hammond's voice had a fatherly tone to it as he said this. "There may be one slim chance for you..."
Just then Teal'c entered the infirmary.
"General Hammond, I have successfully reached the Tok'ra and they will send a representative immediately." Teal'c walked over to Sam's bed. Sam frowned, confused as to what was going on.
"Implantation?" she asked looking round at all the grave faces as she fought to be pragmatic.
"No Major Carter. That would not be possible. The protein marker left in your blood would not allow another symbiote to be implanted. The host is not meant to outlive the symbiote. I am sorry."
Teal'c was nearly reduced to tears as he said this. After the death of Daniel Jackson, he and Major Carter had become much closer.
"What then?" asked Sam taking Teal'c's hand to comfort him and herself.
"The Goa'uld healing thingy." Jack explained waving his hand around vaguely. He felt numb.
"No one on this base can operate it so we have sent for one of the Tok'ra and we have asked that they send Jacob as soon as possible." General Hammond explained.
"Thank you sir." Carter said, suddenly feeling very tired.
"You should try and get some rest." Janet chided gently as she saw Sam fighting to keep her eyes open.
"We'll leave you in peace." Hammond touched her shoulder and smiled before leaving the room. Janet looked at her watch.
"I'll be back in a few minutes." She said smiling as she left the room. Teal'c squeezed Sam's hand gently and she looked up at him. He gave her a look that said everything and then bowed before leaving. Jack started to follow him but paused when he reached the door and turned round.
"Carter?"
"Yes sir?" she murmured, looking at him.
"Take it easy, ok?"
"Yes sir." she smiled faintly as he walked out of the room. For once he was right, she should take it easy.