TITLE: Tears
AUTHOR: caz
EMAIL: caz_gobby@hotmail.com
SPOILERS: Meridian is the main one but it relates to a lot other episodes as well.
SEASON/ SEQUEL: It's set kinda a few months after meridian so.
RATING: PG (to be on the safe side)
SUMMARY: Sam is suffering from an illness that threatens everything.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: .
"Major Carter?" Sam awakened by the sound of General Hammond's voice calling her name.
"The Tok'ra representative is here."
"Dad?" Sam asked without opening her eyes.
"I am sorry Major Carter, but your father is currently deep under cover in a distant galaxy out of reach of our communication." The voice was that of a female Tok'ra.
"Then send someone to go and fetch him. He's her father for cryin' out loud!" Sam smiled inwardly at the sound of the voice of her CO.
"We currently have no operatives available."
"Then make one available!" There was something dangerous in his voice.
"That'll do Colonel." said Hammond in a commanding tone. Hammond had learned when to stop Jack whose temper had caused more than enough trouble over the years. Jack sighed loudly to mark his disapproval of the Tok'ra.
"Where is the device?" asked the Tok'ra.
"Here." Teal'c carefully handed the device over as Carter tried to make her eyes adjust to the light as the pain in her head intensified. The Tok'ra reverently placed the device on her hand and held it over Sam's head.
"Are you ready Major?" asked the Tok'ra representative. Sam took a deep breath and nodded slowly. The Tok'ra closed her eyes and Sam did the same. Then it began. It seemed to be going well at first but then Sam's face became twisted and contorted in pain.
"Hey!" Jack shouted, drawing closer to the bed. "Hey! Stop it! You're hurting her!" He grabbed Sam's hand and the Tok'ra stopped as Teal'c drew threateningly close to her.
"I'm sorry. The cancer is too advanced."
"Thanks you for your kind efforts." Although Hammond was being torn apart on the inside he maintained his diplomacy.
"The treatment has had no adverse effects." Janet stated having completed a check over. The Tok'ra looked at the stern faces of Teal'c and Jack and felt and immense sadness.
"What happened?" Sam murmured as she opened her eyes.
"The treatment had no effect Major Carter." Teal'c stated as he looked sadly at her.
"I am sorry Major Carter. I will return immediately and try to reach your father myself. Jack looked up from Sam, surprised.
"Thanks." he said as the Tok'ra left accompanied by General Hammond. Janet left as well, telling Jack and Teal'c not be long so the Sam could rest. Teal'c moved closer to Sam and bowed.
"I shall return after my quel nareem."
"Thanks Teal'c." Sam smiled faintly, her and Teal'c had been a lot closer since Daniel.
Jack looked at Sam, he knew that she was mad at him for being so cold about Daniel. They hadn't been close since.
"I better go." Jack turned and started to walk towards the door, but Sam turned to him, her eyes welling up.
"I'm scared." He paused.
"In fact I'm terrified." she continued. Jack turned round and started to walk towards her. A tear rolled down her cheek.
"I've never been so terrified in all my life. I'm dying and all I can do is wait. I can't fight it. I can't find a scientific way out..." Another tear rolled down her cheek.
"Hey." Jack said softly. "Don't give up. You know how many times we beat death."
"Even if I don't die this cancer will have destroyed some of my brain. I won't be able to do simple sums, let alone complex astrophysical equations. I'll be useless."
"Carter, I've never understood all that science mumbo jumbo that you spout, I'm not useless... I don't think." This attempt at levity failed as Sam looked straight at him, tears rolling down her cheeks.
"This place is my life. It's all I have."
For once Jack didn't know what to say, he just looked into those big beautiful blue eyes as tears formed in his own.
"I'll loose who I am, I won't be me anymore." She collapsed into tears, putting her hands over her eyes. Jack couldn't hold back any longer. He pulled Sam close to him and kissed her hair.
"It'll be alright. I promise." I can't loose her, not like this. I can't do it again. He thought as he cradled her.
**********
Jack stayed with Sam for hours, sitting silently, stroking her hair. There was so much that they both wanted to say and yet somehow the silence said it all. Jack had left to go to the Mess to find some coffee. He had just about reached the mess when he heard the strained voice over the tannoy.
"Doctor Fraser to the infirmary, immediately!"
He knew at once what that meant and turned around starting to run in the direction of the infirmary. Sam. Sam. Sam.
**********
Jack appeared at the doorway of the infirmary to see Janet shining a light in Sam's eyes.
"It's no good. I was afraid this would happen, but not so soon." Janet choked on her tears.
"What?" Jack felt numb inside, he had only left for two minutes. Teal'c and General Hammond appeared behind Jack. Janet turned round and wiped a tear from her eye.
"She's gone into a coma sir." She paused to regain composure. "The cancer has spread further than I predicted."
"But she'll wake up, right?" Jack was still in shock. Janet looked into his eyes through the tears in her own.
"No sir. I don't think she will."
AUTHOR: caz
EMAIL: caz_gobby@hotmail.com
SPOILERS: Meridian is the main one but it relates to a lot other episodes as well.
SEASON/ SEQUEL: It's set kinda a few months after meridian so.
RATING: PG (to be on the safe side)
SUMMARY: Sam is suffering from an illness that threatens everything.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: .
"Major Carter?" Sam awakened by the sound of General Hammond's voice calling her name.
"The Tok'ra representative is here."
"Dad?" Sam asked without opening her eyes.
"I am sorry Major Carter, but your father is currently deep under cover in a distant galaxy out of reach of our communication." The voice was that of a female Tok'ra.
"Then send someone to go and fetch him. He's her father for cryin' out loud!" Sam smiled inwardly at the sound of the voice of her CO.
"We currently have no operatives available."
"Then make one available!" There was something dangerous in his voice.
"That'll do Colonel." said Hammond in a commanding tone. Hammond had learned when to stop Jack whose temper had caused more than enough trouble over the years. Jack sighed loudly to mark his disapproval of the Tok'ra.
"Where is the device?" asked the Tok'ra.
"Here." Teal'c carefully handed the device over as Carter tried to make her eyes adjust to the light as the pain in her head intensified. The Tok'ra reverently placed the device on her hand and held it over Sam's head.
"Are you ready Major?" asked the Tok'ra representative. Sam took a deep breath and nodded slowly. The Tok'ra closed her eyes and Sam did the same. Then it began. It seemed to be going well at first but then Sam's face became twisted and contorted in pain.
"Hey!" Jack shouted, drawing closer to the bed. "Hey! Stop it! You're hurting her!" He grabbed Sam's hand and the Tok'ra stopped as Teal'c drew threateningly close to her.
"I'm sorry. The cancer is too advanced."
"Thanks you for your kind efforts." Although Hammond was being torn apart on the inside he maintained his diplomacy.
"The treatment has had no adverse effects." Janet stated having completed a check over. The Tok'ra looked at the stern faces of Teal'c and Jack and felt and immense sadness.
"What happened?" Sam murmured as she opened her eyes.
"The treatment had no effect Major Carter." Teal'c stated as he looked sadly at her.
"I am sorry Major Carter. I will return immediately and try to reach your father myself. Jack looked up from Sam, surprised.
"Thanks." he said as the Tok'ra left accompanied by General Hammond. Janet left as well, telling Jack and Teal'c not be long so the Sam could rest. Teal'c moved closer to Sam and bowed.
"I shall return after my quel nareem."
"Thanks Teal'c." Sam smiled faintly, her and Teal'c had been a lot closer since Daniel.
Jack looked at Sam, he knew that she was mad at him for being so cold about Daniel. They hadn't been close since.
"I better go." Jack turned and started to walk towards the door, but Sam turned to him, her eyes welling up.
"I'm scared." He paused.
"In fact I'm terrified." she continued. Jack turned round and started to walk towards her. A tear rolled down her cheek.
"I've never been so terrified in all my life. I'm dying and all I can do is wait. I can't fight it. I can't find a scientific way out..." Another tear rolled down her cheek.
"Hey." Jack said softly. "Don't give up. You know how many times we beat death."
"Even if I don't die this cancer will have destroyed some of my brain. I won't be able to do simple sums, let alone complex astrophysical equations. I'll be useless."
"Carter, I've never understood all that science mumbo jumbo that you spout, I'm not useless... I don't think." This attempt at levity failed as Sam looked straight at him, tears rolling down her cheeks.
"This place is my life. It's all I have."
For once Jack didn't know what to say, he just looked into those big beautiful blue eyes as tears formed in his own.
"I'll loose who I am, I won't be me anymore." She collapsed into tears, putting her hands over her eyes. Jack couldn't hold back any longer. He pulled Sam close to him and kissed her hair.
"It'll be alright. I promise." I can't loose her, not like this. I can't do it again. He thought as he cradled her.
**********
Jack stayed with Sam for hours, sitting silently, stroking her hair. There was so much that they both wanted to say and yet somehow the silence said it all. Jack had left to go to the Mess to find some coffee. He had just about reached the mess when he heard the strained voice over the tannoy.
"Doctor Fraser to the infirmary, immediately!"
He knew at once what that meant and turned around starting to run in the direction of the infirmary. Sam. Sam. Sam.
**********
Jack appeared at the doorway of the infirmary to see Janet shining a light in Sam's eyes.
"It's no good. I was afraid this would happen, but not so soon." Janet choked on her tears.
"What?" Jack felt numb inside, he had only left for two minutes. Teal'c and General Hammond appeared behind Jack. Janet turned round and wiped a tear from her eye.
"She's gone into a coma sir." She paused to regain composure. "The cancer has spread further than I predicted."
"But she'll wake up, right?" Jack was still in shock. Janet looked into his eyes through the tears in her own.
"No sir. I don't think she will."