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Chapter Eleven: Advice from Sirius
Since that afternoon the afternoons in the tree by the lake seemed so much lonelier to Lily. She couldn't concentrate anymore on her usual books. And by thursday she had given up trying to read and would just stare into space, lost with nothing to really think about.
Sirius had seen her become more distracted by the day and she grew quieter, quieter than she usually was. He had barely heard her mumble a hello to anyone. He just wanted to know what had happened. Oh, he had found out about Darleen and James, and he had been disgusted. He walked right into them snogging or holding hands or saying sweet nothings to each other. Sirius was sick of it. And so, to get away from James and Darleen he decided to go down to the tree by the lake and talk with Lily.
Sirius sat beside Lily. Lily just stared into space. Completely oblivious that Sirius was sitting beside her. Sirius shook her. Lily came back to Earth. "What? Si, what are you doing here?" she said a bit dazed. "Wondering why suddenly you became so quiet." he said casually. Lily looked into the horizon, tears watered from her eyes silently. She faced Sirius. "Why do you want to know?" she said in a barely audible voice. "Because, I'm worried." Lily went quiet. Sirius didn't press her. He knew Lily had enough problems to last her entire life. Suddenly and unexpectedly Lily burst into tears. Sirius hugged her.
Lily cried hard, wiping her tears on Sirius's robes. Sirius didn't mind as long as he could comfort his friend. She cried for 10 minutes straight before she looked up. The first thing she noticed was Sirius's tearstained robes. "Oh, I'm sorry Si. I didn't mean to..." she started but was interrupted by Sirius. "It's okay. Cry all you want." Lily looked at him with her jade eyes, now red from crying and smiled. "Thanks." she said. Sirius smiled. "Anytime. Now are you going to answer my question or not?" Lily looked less cheery but she felt she owed it to him. " Si. I'm so stupid. Me and Darleen always want the same thing. But this time I didn't realize that and delivered it straight into her hands. I just realized what I've done. I know Darleen always wins, but this time I helped her win." she said in a creaky voice. " You love James?" asked Sirius. Lily nodded. "Oh. Lily, it's not your fault and Darleen doesn't always win." he comforted. "But Lily stop running from your past. It will only haunt you in the future if you run. Face it and get over it and move on. Forget Darleen, Ledger and Ralphs. They're history. You gotta move on girl or you'll just be that nobody you've been for the past 3 years. Do you want to be someone who nobody notices Lils?"
Lily went silent again. It was hard for her to think about the past. And she kept running from it when she did. She was tired of that, she didn't want to be whom she was because that was not her. The real her was commanding, cheery and fun not shy, hidden and afraid. She looked up at Sirius. She gulped. " You're right. I'm going to be different from now on, I'll be me." she said enthusiastically. "Now you're talkin'!" said Sirius. Lily smiled. " And what's more, I'll start now."
Chapter Eleven: Advice from Sirius
Since that afternoon the afternoons in the tree by the lake seemed so much lonelier to Lily. She couldn't concentrate anymore on her usual books. And by thursday she had given up trying to read and would just stare into space, lost with nothing to really think about.
Sirius had seen her become more distracted by the day and she grew quieter, quieter than she usually was. He had barely heard her mumble a hello to anyone. He just wanted to know what had happened. Oh, he had found out about Darleen and James, and he had been disgusted. He walked right into them snogging or holding hands or saying sweet nothings to each other. Sirius was sick of it. And so, to get away from James and Darleen he decided to go down to the tree by the lake and talk with Lily.
Sirius sat beside Lily. Lily just stared into space. Completely oblivious that Sirius was sitting beside her. Sirius shook her. Lily came back to Earth. "What? Si, what are you doing here?" she said a bit dazed. "Wondering why suddenly you became so quiet." he said casually. Lily looked into the horizon, tears watered from her eyes silently. She faced Sirius. "Why do you want to know?" she said in a barely audible voice. "Because, I'm worried." Lily went quiet. Sirius didn't press her. He knew Lily had enough problems to last her entire life. Suddenly and unexpectedly Lily burst into tears. Sirius hugged her.
Lily cried hard, wiping her tears on Sirius's robes. Sirius didn't mind as long as he could comfort his friend. She cried for 10 minutes straight before she looked up. The first thing she noticed was Sirius's tearstained robes. "Oh, I'm sorry Si. I didn't mean to..." she started but was interrupted by Sirius. "It's okay. Cry all you want." Lily looked at him with her jade eyes, now red from crying and smiled. "Thanks." she said. Sirius smiled. "Anytime. Now are you going to answer my question or not?" Lily looked less cheery but she felt she owed it to him. " Si. I'm so stupid. Me and Darleen always want the same thing. But this time I didn't realize that and delivered it straight into her hands. I just realized what I've done. I know Darleen always wins, but this time I helped her win." she said in a creaky voice. " You love James?" asked Sirius. Lily nodded. "Oh. Lily, it's not your fault and Darleen doesn't always win." he comforted. "But Lily stop running from your past. It will only haunt you in the future if you run. Face it and get over it and move on. Forget Darleen, Ledger and Ralphs. They're history. You gotta move on girl or you'll just be that nobody you've been for the past 3 years. Do you want to be someone who nobody notices Lils?"
Lily went silent again. It was hard for her to think about the past. And she kept running from it when she did. She was tired of that, she didn't want to be whom she was because that was not her. The real her was commanding, cheery and fun not shy, hidden and afraid. She looked up at Sirius. She gulped. " You're right. I'm going to be different from now on, I'll be me." she said enthusiastically. "Now you're talkin'!" said Sirius. Lily smiled. " And what's more, I'll start now."