AN: Here's chapter Ten, I wanted to thank everyone who has reviewed Grief and I hope you will keep the reviews coming cause they always make me want to update faster! Well in chapter Ten, Buffy, Willow and Dawn head back to Sunnydale after finding a prophecy that will come to pass in the near future and Buffy is still trying to cope with her feelings while she tries to go back to her slaying duties with a heavy heart.

Buffy looked at Angel, unable to say anything. He looked away from her slightly ashamed but he couldn't keep things from her, whenever he kept something from her it always ended up hurting her in someway and she was going through to much to find out on her own or from someone else, he looked back at Buffy to see her smiling sadly at him.

Buffy: (softly) Go tell her

Angel: What?

Buffy: Go tell Cordelia your feelings

Angel: Buffy I...

Buffy: Just go or you'll regret it later

Angel nodded understanding her words and how she knew what it was like. He walked over to Wesley's office, he took a deep breath, which seemed weird at first and went in to face his love.

Dawn came over to Buffy who had gone back to staring out the window. Dawn hated seeing Buffy like this, Dawn did love Spike too, like a brother and it hurt her to see her sister suffering over something she couldn't have stopped.

Dawn: Buffy?

Buffy looked at her sister, trying to smile to show that she was fine but she couldn't hide her deep sadness from Dawn.

Dawn: Are you ok?

Buffy: (nods) Yes I'm fine

Dawn: Your not acting like your fine

Buffy: What do you mean?

Dawn: Your blocking everyone out, even me

Buffy: Dawn I...

Dawn: Buffy I loved him too ok and right now you can't just isolate your self from everyone, we can help you, and you can help us, thank god for Conner or I would have been all alone, trying to it get through my head that I'm actually never going to see Spike Again...

Tears were spilling down Dawn's cheeks as she spoke and Buffy stood up, wrapping her arms around her sister as she sobbed. Buffy looked at Willow over Dawn's shoulder; she was talking to Wesley, Fred and Gunn. Buffy saw pain on Willow's face also and she knew Dawn was right and Buffy wasn't the only one hurt by Spike's actions.

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He looked at the smiling face in front of him, happy to have someone familiar to explain to him what's going on. She looked at him, grinning then she spoke again, it seemed like she was speaking right into his head because her lips weren't moving.

"I'm your Spirit Guide, I will explain to you what's going on, you do know you are very unique"

He looked at the brunette and stood up; his whole body seemed a little numb. He looked at her and Began to speak in the same matter she spoke to him.

"Please explain to me what's going on, I'm confused Tara, I do believe I'm supposed to be in a hell dimension suffering an eternity of torment"

Tara looked at him and laughed, he was very confused now, what was going on why was he here? Then the features around him began to change as he watched in amazement. They were in the alleyway were he was first changed, were his life changed forever.

"Everything will come together soon Spike, I promise But now we must watch the past and you must make a choice"

Spike looked at Tara and nodded understanding what he had to do.

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Buffy and Willow stayed behind when everyone else went out to breakfast so they could talk and catch up on some sleep.

Buffy: What time are we leaving for the station?

Willow: Around Noon, why?

Buffy: I just want to go home

Willow: Is it what you and Angel talked about earlier?

Buffy: (nods)

Willow: Ok Tell me, we haven't talked about our troubles in a while

Buffy looked at Willow, she could tell that her best friend was just trying to comfort her and it was working to a certain point.

Buffy: (smiles sadly) Angel loves Cordelia

Willow: (eyes-widen) Oh

Buffy nodded a frown forming on her face, she yawned.

Buffy: I'm going to try to get some sleep, ok?

Willow nodded and let Buffy fall into a sleep full of nightmares about Spike. Willow saw some books lying on the front desk so she decided to read because it looked like Angel had never owned a TV.

She started flipping through the pages, she knew Giles didn't have a volume like this, it had a bunch of prophecies about a vampire called Uther, he was said to have been the first Vampire and through the master's bones he would be born again.

Willow shuddered as she read more about the vampire, he was evil, worse then Angel back in his evil days. Thank goodness Buffy turned the master's bones to dust, she thought putting the book down, as she set the book down a piece of paper fell out of it. She picked it up and put it in her bag as Dawn, Conner, Angel and Cordelia walked in the door waking Buffy up.

Willow: Hey guys, where's everyone else?

Angel: Oh Wesley headed home and Gunn took Fred home too.

Willow: Oh (looks at her watch) We should be leaving in a few hours

Cordelia: I wish you guys wouldn't leave so soon, I mean it's been so long

Dawn: Yeah, can't we just leave tomorrow?

Buffy: (quickly) No

Angel looked at Buffy, knowing the reason she wanted to go home.

Buffy: We have stuff to do

Conner: Is there any Chance that Dawn could stay till tomorrow?

Buffy and Angel both looked at Conner surprised, they hadn't realized how close the two teens had gotten over the past day. Buffy looked at Dawn who had a "Please say yes" look on her face.

Buffy: If it's ok with Angel it's ok with Me

Angel: I don't mind

Dawn smiled and hugged her sister, she whispered a thank you in her ear as Conner took Dawn towards the courtyard where they sat down and talked.

Willow: That's a unlikely pair

Buffy: Why?

Willow: The key and the miracle child I never would have guessed it

Angel: What do you mean pair? They are just friends

Cordelia laughed at Angel's overprotective father behavior.

Angel: What?

Cordelia: He's what sixteen? I think he's old enough to date

Angel shook his head and looked at Buffy who was watching the spot where Dawn and Conner sat a look of sadness on her face. She would never have that again the feeling of love and affection, her one love was taking from her and she couldn't bear it.

Angel: Buffy?

Buffy snapped out of her trance and looked at Angel.

Buffy: I'm fine

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Spike watched as Drusilla sank her fangs in his human self's neck, he screamed in pain and fell dead, but it didn't last long, then the scene around them changed once more, this was of his first encounter with Buffy, his heart ached with his love for the slayer, the images kept coming but Tara stopped at the one where Spike had expressed his love for Buffy. She turned to him.

Tara: This was when you changed Spike, This is when you started earning your redemption

Spike: What does it mean?

Tara: You are the only Vampire that was able to love...without a soul

Spike looked at Tara and nodded understanding her words. More images came before them as Spike watched his heart aching to hold Buffy one last time.

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They were on the bus back to Sunnydale when Willow remembered the paper she had slipped into her bag, she took it out and unfolded it, it was handwritten and it was full of calculations, the last line on the paper startled Willow the most

"The First Vampire shall rise again through the dust and ashes of the master, he will live again!"

AN: OK I know this chapter is short but I will try to make The next chapter longer PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!